(798)▪︎[ Will The Real Dad, Please Stand Up? … 9•21•2021 ]

[ Growing Up In Foster Care ]
[ Felt Like Going To The Dinner Table ]
[ & You Didn’t Have A Designated Chair ]

[ You Always Felt Wrong ]
[ Because You Felt Like You Were A Tag Along ]

[ You Grew Up Feeling So Alone ]
[ You Couldn’t Call Anybody ]
[ Because You Never Could Get A Dial Tone ]

[ You Found Out Late In Life That You Were Not Planned ]
[ By The Only Man ]

[ That Mattered In Your Life Growing Up ]
[ As You Grew, You Were Only Handed A Paper Cup ]

[ You Could Never Get A Glass ]
[ Even When You Asked ]

[ You Grew Up Yearning For Any Of His Attention ]
[ He Also Gave You The Same Amount Of Affection ]

[ You Did Not Grow Up Feeling He Was Your Hero ]
[ Because The Affection, Attention & Direction Was Zero ]

[ You Never Had Dreams When You Slept ]
[ He Gave You Zero Comforting When You Wept ]

[ You Were The (AND ONE) In The Adoption Deal ]
[ He Probably Dreaded The Thought That You Were Just
Another Meal ]

[ Another Mouth To Be Fed ]
[ Clear Out A Room & See The Need To Buy Another Bed ]

[ You Were Treated As An Outcast ]
[ He Saw That You Had So Much Emotional Baggage From
Your Past ]

[ He Knew That Your Biological Father Was Dead ]
[ He Never Helped With The Nightmares ]
[ Of Seeing Your Father Shoot Himself In The Head ]

[ He Never Helped Console ]
[ He Never Wanted A Son ]
[ So He Refused To Take On That Father Figure Role ]

[ When Do Foster Kids Ever Get To Have Good Dreams? ]
[ Why Didn’t He Ever Help With The Screams? ]

[ Do They Go Away When They Legally Adopt & Let You Know? ]
[ You Would Think So … ]
[ But The Answer Is (NO) ]

[ Why Did Barbara Give You That Hurtful Piece Of Information? ]
[ Your Wife Put All Of The Pieces Together ]
[ Because That Was For Confirmation ]

[ All Of Those (18) Years When You Yearned For Approval ]
[ All He Wanted Was The Removal ]

[ Of The Boy He Never Wanted ]

[ You Stung Him Later In Life ]
[ When You Dropped His Last Name From Your Family ]
[ & Replaced It With The Maiden Name Of Your Wife ]

[ Now My Father-In Law, Is A Real Father ]
[ He Accepts You As A Son ]
[ He Has Taken On The Role That To You Thought Was Such
A Bother ]

[ It Is Really Sad ]
[ & You Hoped It Made Him Really Mad ]
[ That You Truly, Respectfully, Now Call Gary DeVoe, Dad! ]

[ Now That Has A Good Sound To It ]
[ The Last Name You Grew Up With ]
[ Now Sounds Like S–t ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(005)▪︎[ What’s Possible … 1•2•2020 ]

[ @ Times You See What’s Possible ]
[ Instead Of What’s Already Here ]
[ When Things Look Attainable ]
[ You Look For Ways To Make The Vision Clear ]

[ Some People Make Things Happen ]
[ Others Look To Dampen ]

[ The Bright Days Of Their Peers ]
[ & They’ve Been Doing That For Years ]

[ They Just Want To Rain On People’s Parades ]
[ They Do This Under The Disguise That They Are Playing
An Innocent Game Of Charades ]

[ Just Never Turn Your Back ]
[ & Watch Out For A Stab ]

[ For It Will Inevitably Come ]
[ Some People Around You Have No Heart ]
[ & Their Emotions Are Cold & Numb ]

[ Sometimes In Life You Have To Play The Game ]
[ It Might Be Different In Name ]
[ But Their Objective Is The Same ]

[ Disrupt The Calm ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(022)▪︎[ Somewhere … 1•6•2020 ]

[ Someone Once Said (THAT TRUE FOCUS LIES SOMEWHERE BETWEEN
RAGE & SERENITY) ]
[ Does That Mean That Most Of Our Lives Are Spent Fighting Off Insanity? ]
[ & Vanity? ]

[ Are More People Living Their Life Bordering On Being Vain? ]
[ Or From Going Insane? ]

[ Why Fight It? ]
[ Why Not See Delight In It While You’re Down In The Pits? ]

[ & When It All Hits The Fan ]
[ Collect All Of Your Wits & Do What You Can ]

[ What One Person Considers Serenity Others May Not ]
[ It Just May ]
[ Put Them In That Spot ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(040)▪︎[ A Square Peg … 1•10•2020 ]

[ You Are A Square Peg, Surrounded By Round Holes ]
[ When You & Your Friends Look Around ]
[ You Start Questioning Your Roles ]

[ In The Bigger Scheme Of Things ]
[ What Will The Future Bring? ]

[ More Round Holes Where You Don’t Fit? ]
[ You Can’t Even Get In There A Little Bit ]

[ Can You Put In @ Least A Leg ]
[ Are There Legs On A Peg? ]

[ What Happened To All Of The Holes That Were Square ]
[ This Whole Thing Caught You Unaware ]
[ Should You Ask? ]
[ Do You Dare? ]
[ What If You Do That Task? ]
[ & Nobody Cared? ]

[ Would The Feeling Last ]
[ Would It Help You Get Passed Your Past? ]
[ Okay, If It Does ]
[ How Fast? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(042)▪︎[ The Crown … 1•11•2020 ]

[ Sometimes Life Gets Hard ]
[ & Things Happen That Didn’t Originally Seem Like They
     Were In The Cards ]

[ The Ice Doesn’t Melt ]
[ When You Have To Deal With The Cards That You’ve Been Dealt ]

[ So Always Keep In Mind ]
[ That You Will Be Able To Keep Things In Line ]

[ Uneasy Is The Head That Wears The Crown ]
[ But Just Don’t Take It Off ]
[ & Put It Down ]

[ For Be Fearful That The Power Will No Longer Be ]
[ There For You To Call Upon ]
[ Because If You Don’t See ]
[ Or Watch Out ]
[ The Magical Feelings Will Be Gone ]

[ Where Would They Go? ]
[ Maybe You Should Find Somebody Who Would
     Know ]

[ That Would Be Nice ]
[ I Hope They Have Ice ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(048)▪︎[ The Ocean Just Takes … 1•13•2020 ]

[ The Ocean Rarely Relinquishes What It Takes ]
[ Sometimes Widows Are What It Makes ]

[ When You Turn Your Back On The King Tide ]
[ It Will Take Your Feet Out From Under You ]
[ & Then Take You For A Ride ]
[ Whoever Told You That The Ocean Is Harmless ]
[ Looked You Straight In The Eyes & Lied ]

[ Another Victim, Another Day ]
[ Be Naive About The Power Of The Ocean ]
[ & It Could Sweep You Away ]

[ @ Times The Water Is So Calm & Low ]
[ You Say ]
[ Hiding With The Next Wave Is An Undertow ]
[ That Might Be Today ]

[ You Don’t See The Undertow, Until It Grabs You By The Feet ]
[ Before You Know It, You’re Knocked Down On To Your Seat ]
[ Swim Hard Against It ]
[ Before You Give In To Defeat ]

[ Today Two Children Lost Their Lives After Being Taken From
Their Father’s Arms ]
[ Oh The Water Is So Calm & Shallow ]
[ Playing In The Waves Will Bring No Harm ]

[ A Sneaker Wave Came Out Of The Blue ]
[ It Almost Had Three Lives ]
[ But Then Settled On Two ]

[ The Father Was Saved But The Son & Daughter Wasn’t ]
[ In Regular Water The Body’s Would Be Given Back ]
[ But The Ocean Doesn’t ]

[ The Ocean Waves Could Be Called A Thief ]
[ By Stealing Two Children’s Lives ]
[ & Creating A Lifetime Of Grief ]

[ That Some ]
[ Families ]
[ Never Recover From ]
[ The Father Will Probably Forever Be Numb ]

[ Oh, The Water Is Calm ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(171)▪︎[ Whatever Happens … Happens … 2•25•2021 ]

[ You Guessed That People Really Do Come & Go ]
[ In Your Life ]
[ & They May Go Slow ]
[ In The Night ]

[ Or They May Go Fast ]
[ During The Day ]
[ You Guessed Not Everything Lasts ]
[ As You Watch Another Person Drift Away ]

[ All Because Of Something That You Text ]
[ That Sounded Too Complex? ]

[ You Guessed We Both Had Too Thin Of Skin On That
Text Exchange ]
[ Does That Mean Things Need To Change? ]

[ You Really Don’t Know About That One Act ]
[ All You Are Going On, Is How You See Her React ]

[ & That Was Not Good ]
[ Or Were Your Words ]
[ Completely Misunderstood? ]

[ You Think That They Were ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(097)▪︎[ Just An Ordinary Day … 1•29•2021 ]

[ You Are Just Sitting There In The Dark ]
[ With Nothing, But Your Thoughts ]
[ Wondering If Your Life Is In Neutral Or In Park ]

[ You Seem To Be Running Uphill On A Treadmill, Not Getting
Anywhere ]
[ The Main Problem With This, Is That You Have Lost The Desire
To Care ]

[ As You Sit There, You Do Not Hear A Thing ]
[ So You Watch The Phone ]
[ & Hope, That It Would Ring ]

[ Minutes Drag By, Then They Turn Into Hours ]
[ Everytime You Think Things Are Going Well ]
[ It Turns Upside Down & Sours ]

[ Those That You Thought Were Friends Seem To Jump Ship When
The Waters Get Rough ]
[ You Would Always Listen To Their Problems When Their Lives
Got Tough ]

[ But You Never Thought That They Would Turn Their Back ]
[ It Feels Like Whenever You Spoke Up ]
[ Your Face Got Smacked ]

[ You Always Turned The Other Cheek ]
[ But You Never Corrected The Facts, Whenever They Would Speak ]

[ You Never Put Them On The Spot ]
[ Because They Were Wrong Alot ]

[ One Thing That You Have Come To Realize ]
[ In Your 58 Years ]
[ Is That People Come & Go Throughout All Of Our Lives ]

[ Like Two Ships Passing Each Other On A Very Dark Night ]
[ You Are In Their Thoughts ]
[ Until You Are No Longer In Their Sight ]

[ But This All Goes Full Circle As You Sit Here Alone ]
[ The Silence Gives Off Its Own Peculiar Tone ]
[ & It Has Been Shown ]
[ That It Always Sends A Chill Down To Your Bones ]

[ Do You Have To Turn Around & See What You Don’t See ]
[ & Come To Realize This Is How Your Life, Is Going To Be ]
[ You Could Bet After You Slowly Count, From 1 To 3 ]
[ You Could Look Around & It Would Still Be … ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(1433)▪︎[ It’s Not As It Seems … 12•26•2019 ]

[ He Says He’s Smiling Inside ]
[ But Don’t Let That Fool You ]
[ His Insides Had Died ]
[ In Year Number Two ]

[ How Could He Just Sit & Smile When He’s In So Much Pain? ]
[ There He Is, Going Through The Motions Everyday ]
[ With Nothing To Gain ]

[ Smiling Again & Again ]
[ Is That Committing A Sin? ]
[ Who Loses? ]
[ Who Wins? ]

[ As Good As It Is To Lie ]
[ It Must Have Been Done ]
[ By The Other Guy ]

[ But Why Do They Make A Joke ]
[ About Going Up To That Old Man ]
[ & Giving Him A Poke? ]

[ Poking Another ]
[ Should Not Be A Laughing Matter ]
[ To Someone Else’s Brother ]
[ Your Comments Does Not Bring Any Laughter ]

[ It Is A Bit Unrealistic ]
[ To Say People Are Helping ]
[ When They Are So Antagonistic ]

[ But Where In Life Is The Finish Line? ]
[ Is It Anywhere Close ]
[ To When You Go Dakine? ]

[ So Many People Leave Life As An Unfinished Project ]
[ When They Started Out As Such A Good Prospect ]

[ Some May Have A Mid-Life Crisis & Never Bounce Back ]
[ Is That Because They Are In Hiding ]
[ From A Blind Sided Attack? ]

[ When You Finally Have The Answers In Life ]
[ Someone Changes The Questions ]
[ Given To Them By Their Wife ]

[ The Moral Of This Story ]
[ If You Go Through Life Looking For Glory ]

[ Glory Is What You Make ]
[ When You’re In A Giving Mood ]
[ Instead Of Being In The Mood To Take ]
[ Or Being Rude ]
[ & Nobody Needs A Fake ]
[ Attitude ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(023)▪︎[ The Moon … 1•6•2020 ]

[ Why Does The Moon Seem So Lonely? ]
[ Because Mother Nature Raises The Sun As Hers, Only ]

[ When The Moon Reaches It’s Highest Point ]
[ Everybody Has Vacated Every Joint ]

[ Most People Are Tucked Away In Their Bed ]
[ Some Are Comatose After Taking Their Sleeping Med ]

[ When The Moon Comes Out Most People & Creatures
Are Down For The Night ]
[ It Is Usually So Dark ]
[ The Moon Has To Makes It’s Own Light ]

[ Nobody Stays Up To Watch The Moon Set ]
[ The Moon Never Forgets ]

[ That Everyone Loves The Sun ]
[ When It’s Up ]
[ People Come Out To Have Fun ]

[ During The Times When The Moon Is Full ]
[ & The Nights Activities Are Dull ]

[ The Windless Air ]
[ Has Nothing To Compare ]

[ No Where To Go ]
[ Just Drifting Really Slow ]

[ Across The Sky ]
[ Not To Really Be Seen ]
[ By The Naked Eye ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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