2025 ]

[ One Time When You Were Fooled, It Was Because You Let Your Guard Down ]
[ & Said That Your In-Laws Were Special, Like Family ]
[ Now You Have Ended Up Looking Like The Clown ]
[ Because That Is Not How They Wanted Things To Be ]

[ You Should Have Had The Strength ]
[ To Keep Them @ Arms Length ]

[ On The Bench ]
[ Or In A Toolbox ]
[ Like An Unused Wrench ]
[ Secured With (2) Locks ]

[ Because You Showed Weakness ]
[ Things Turned Into One Big Hot Mess ]
[ Now, All It Causes Is Stress ]

[ In The Beinning, You Thought You Were Blessed ]
[ & A Little Bit Impressed ]
[ But Now That The Bad Feelings Have Progressed ]
[ You Feel Kind Of Depressed ]

[ You Feel, A Little Bit Lost ]
[ You Can Only Guess ]
[ That Is The Cost ]

[ Of Putting Your Trust ]
[ In The Wrong People ]
[ Who Easily Pushed You To The Side So You Can Watch Everything Bust ]

[ If They Didn’t Love You As Family, Why Did They Do As Such ]
[ Now (30+) Years ]
[ Do Not Mean That Much ]

[ If They Never Wanted A Son ]
[ Why Did They Call You & Treat You As One ]
[ Well, They Can Still Be Happy ]
[ Because They Still Have None ]

[ The Egg Is Squarely On Your Face ]
[ You Guess When It Came To The Family Table ]
[ You Never Really Had A Place ]

[ Maybe That Was The Time That You Should Have Left en Haste ]
[ (30+) Years Of Effort ]
[ Sure Turned Into Toxic Waste ]

[ Why, Why, Why? ]
[ Do People Come Up To You, & Look You In The Eye’s ]
[ & Do Nothing But Lie, Lie, Lie? ]
[ (30+) Years Worth Of Lie’s ]

[ Disgusting, Hateful & Full Of Spite ]
[ Now, Nothing Feels Right ]
[ How Can You Fight ]
[ Something That Isn’t In Direct Sight? ]

[ You Wish That You NEVER Had Taken Their Name ]
[ Carrying It As Yours ]
[ Now Doesn’t Feel The Same ]
[ & That Is Describing The Feelings Kind Of Tame ]
[ It Is Like Putting Your Raft In The River & Not Be Given A Set Of Oars ]
[ Maybe This Was One Long Drawn Out Game ]

[ How Come Something That Used To Feel So Strong ]
[ Turned Out To Be So So Wrong? ]

[ You Need To Take The High Road ]
[ Because Now You Know ]
[ If You Continue To Be Suckered Into Their Happy Abode ]
[ It Just Sets You Up To Be In The Middle Of Another One Of Their Shit Show’s ]

[ Now YOU Should Pull Up Your Big Boy Pants ]
[ To Take A Stand ]
[ Trying To Avoid The Insects & Ants ]
[ & Draw Your Own Line In The Sand ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
Aloha

Na
Lopaka DeVoe

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(047)▪︎[ It Is Just Words … 2024 ]

[ Words Of Affirmation ]
[ Not Criticism ]
[ Can Be Taken As A Confirmation ]
[ Not Cynicism ]

[ Of A Job That Has Been Well Done ]
[ Or Even Looked @ ]
[ As Something That Turned Out To Be Fun ]

[ When Communication Is Not Going Well ]
[ It Might Cause ]
[ One Or The Other To Go Into A Defensive Shell ]

[ You Want To Lead The Way To Positive One To One Talks ]
[ Instead Of Having Conversations ]
[ Where One Or Both Of You Balks ]

[ Where There Are Points That Have A Clear Meaning ]
[ Not Using Words Or Names ]
[ That Sounds Demeaning ]
[ Or Points & Blames ]

[ Nobody Likes The Finger Of Blame To Be Pointing In Their Direction ]
[ Being Told Or Instructed ]
[ To Make Some Kind Or Correction ]
[ So There Could Be A Much Better Connection ]

[ Connecting Through The Heart & Through The Mind ]
[ Not Having To Do Physical Exercises Of Any Kind ]

Mahalo
~LopakaDeVoe~

(746)▪︎[ The Kind Of Words … 2023 ]

[ When I Look In Your Eyes ]
[ I Can See All Of The Lies ]
[ About You ]
[ & All Of Those Other Guys ]

[ Why Would You Tell Me That They Were Long Ago In Your Past ]
[ When In Fact ]
[ They Were During The Night Before Last ]

[ You Can No Longer Hide Behind Those Big Baby Blues ]
[ You No Longer Can Point Your Finger ]
[ @ Me & Accuse ]

[ I Should Be The Accuser ]
[ That I Am Sure ]
[ But Will I Succumb To The Vast Amount Of Peer Pressure? ]

[ You Have Nothing To Point @ On This End ]
[ Now The Wounds That You Caused ]
[ Will Never Mend ]

[ When Your Voice Said Those Words ]
[ They Were The Most Vile ]
[ That I Had Ever Heard ]

[ All Of Those Times That You Tried To Defend ]
[ Your Words Did Nothing But Offend ]

[ One After The Next ]
[ You Proved Your Guilt ]
[ Through Text After Text ]

[ Your Job Was Never Complete ]
[ Whenever You Tried To Delete ]

[ The Evidence @ Hand ]
[ Whenever Someone Got Close ]
[ You Packed Up & Ran ]
[ You Were Always The One That Chose ]
[ When & Where You Would Land ]

[ It Should Have Been The Choice Of The Ones That You Accused ]
[ Not The Ones That You Refused ]
[ Or Abused ]

[ So You Might Ask ]
[ What Will Be The Next Task? ]

[ Will The Request Be Forever Remembered? ]
[ Or Will It Feel Like You Had Just Been Dismembered? ]

[ A Part Of The Sum ]
[ Or A Part That Is Now Numb? ]
[ Should I Stay Mum? ]
[ If I Feel Like This Whole Situation Is Extremely Dumb? ]

[ Should I Instead Speak My Mind? ]
[ If I Find ]
[ The Kind ]
[ Of Words, Where I Can Unwind? ]

[ That Sounds Like Someone That Was Going Dakine ]

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~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [酪]

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(1016)▪︎[ Words Can’t Say … 12•4•2021 ]

[ You Made Memories When You Went To The Beach ]
[ Now Those Memories Are Out Of Reach ]

[ To Ever Be Equaled Or Matched ]
[ It Was Amazing That The Idea Was Hatched ]

[ For Some Reason The Beach Always Felt Like A Place
     That Was Far To Travel To ]
[ But That Never Felt That Way When She Went With You ]

[ You Both Traveled The Ocean’s Highways Totally Carefree ]
[ There Was Never A Time Schedule Where You Would Be ]

[ You Two Never Had A Plan ]
[ There Were Never Any Demands ]

[ She Taught You How To Love The Ocean Sunsets ]
[ She Knows That You Will Cherish The Time That You Will Get ]

[ With Her, In The Days Ahead ]
[ Maybe You Will Be Able To Come & See Her Instead ]

[ You Will Try Your Hardest To Arrange Rides ]
[ So She Shouldn’t Dare Think That She Could Run & Hide ]

[ As Your Caregiver, She Was So Hard To Try To Replace ]
[ When It Comes To Your Memories & Heart ]
[ She Will Always Have A Place ]

[ She Is Such The Unique Woman To Know ]
[ When She Was Your Caregiver ]
[ She Never Knew The Word (SLOW) ]

[ You Always Enjoyed Whenever You Were Able To Have A Heart
     To Heart Talk ]
[ You Thoroughly Enjoyed Your Long Beach Walks ]

[ You Wish You Could Go For (1) More Beach Walk ]
[ But You Will Settle With A Few More Long Talks ]

[ You Have Learned So Much From Her In Such A Limited Amount
     Of Time ]
[ So Many Times She Had Been The Subject Of A Story
     That Rhymes ]

[ You Have To Come To Terms Of What The Future Will Hold ]
[ & You Do Know There Will Be Days When You Feel Cold ]

[ Not From The Outside ]
[ & You Won’t Want To Remember All Of The Days That You Cried ]

[ You Know For Sure ]
[ There Will Be Many ]
[ Because She Will Not Be Part Of Your Future ]

[ You Have NEVER Had A Stronger & Deeper Love For A Friend
     As You Do For Her ]
[ You Hope These Memories Never Blur ]

[ You Will Always Remember Your Deep Conversations ]
[ When She Talked With You, With No Reservations ]

[ You Began To See A Side Of Her That She Did Not Normally
     Show ]
[ But She Made A Decision ]
[ That It Was A Side Of Her That She Wanted You To Know ]

[ You Love That She Trusted You Enough To See That Side ]
[ You Love That She Would Let You Confide ]

[ It Is Funny That You Can ]
[ Learn More From Her, About Being A Man ]

[ Than Any Man That You Had Ever Come Across ]
[ She WasThe One Woman That Taught You How To Be The Boss ]

[ But To Always & Also Be Fair ]
[ As You Stand There ]

[ As The Man Of The House ]
[ & Demand To Be Treated As An Equal Spouse ]

[ To Say That You Will Miss Her Would Be The Biggest
     Understatement Ever Made ]
[ Oh How You Wish That Your Memories Will Never Fade ]
[ But There Is Not (1) Minute That You Spent With Her That You
     Would Ever Trade! ]

[ Your Love For Her Is Beyond Words ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(768)▪︎[ Sometimes The Words Flow … 9•10•2021 ]

[ Sometimes, Words Just Flows, Down The Chute ]
[ Do You Want To Write, Or Say Them? ]
[ Or Just Sit There, With Your Dial, Set On Mute? ]

[ If You Choose To Not Write, What Good Are Your
Thoughts? ]
[ It Is Like You Are Looking @ A Pure White Canvas ]
[ & You Want To Change It To Polka-Dots ]

[ You Don’t Write, To Make Waves ]
[ But Sometimes, You Have To Tell Your Stylus To Behave ]

[ You Don’t Always Write, What’s On Your Mind ]
[ You Have Learned From Past Mistakes ]
[ That You Can Apologize All Day For Something, But You
Can Never, Hit The Button That Will Rewind ]

[ Of Something, That Was Written Or Said ]
[ Once The Words Are Out There ]
[ They Will Stick, In Someone’s Head ]

[ Life Just Doesn’t Give Out Do-Overs Every Once In Awhile ]
[ Mother Nature Can Do Some Strange Things ]
[ But Giving Do-Overs Are Not Her Style ]

[ Would The Responsibility Fall On Mother Nature Or
Father Time? ]
[ Would One Do Something ]
[ While The Other Would Act Like A Mime ]

[ So You Try To Watch What You Write ]
[ Because You Would Never Want To Start A Fight ]

[ You Are Just Never The Controversial Type So You Would
Do Everything To Avoid One ]
[ If There Ever Was A Situation, When Push Comes To Shove ]
[ You Would Back Away & Say (I’m DONE) ]

[ So You Avoid All Fights @ All Costs ]
[ You Would Be Man Enough, To Admit That You Lost ]

[ So You Watch What You Write & Say ]
[ Making A Stranger Angry ]
[ Is Not How You Want To End The Day ]

[ Words & Gestures Are How People Communicate ]
[ Sometimes You Really Want Something To Say Or Write ]
[ You Have The Patience To Wait ]

[ Sometimes The Thoughts Just Drop ]
[ Then That Is When You Stop ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(465)▪︎[ Words Can Hurt … 6•2•2021 ]

[ Anger Seems To Be A Constant Part In My Life ]
[ Be It @ Me ]
[ Or From Me ]
[ Affecting My Son Or My Wife ]

[ Names Can Be Called Or Felt ]
[ It Can Feel Like ]
[ The Tightening Of A Belt ]

[ & If You Check ]
[ It Would Be Around My Neck ]

[ Either Way, It Hurts ]
[ Easy To Feel & Give ]
[ As If It Is Pulling @ My Shirt ]

[ Anger Can Tear Couples & Families Apart ]
[ Some Angry Comments ]
[ Are Meant To Pierce My Heart ]

[ Or Are They Meant? ]
[ To Stay In The Head ]
[ Instead? ]

[ Either Reason Or Way ]
[ Piercing Words ]
[ Find A Way To Stay ]
[ & Be Heard ]

[ Ping Ponging Back & Forth ]
[ Heading South ]
[ Then Heading North ]

[ Which Direction Does It Hurt The Most ]
[ Hardening The Heart, Like A Piece Of Burnt Toast ]

[ Not Just Crunchy Around The Edges ]
[ But It Won’t Leave Me Teetering On Any Ledges ]

[ When Can I Look Around? ]
[ To Find Solid Ground? ]

[ Instead Of Living On My Seat ]
[ I Want To Finish Life Standing On My Own Two Feet ]

[ Is That Dream On ]
[ The Nearest Horizon ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(189)▪︎[ It Will Be The Main Reason … 3•3•2021 ]

[ Sometimes Words Flow Back & Forth ]
[ In My Mind ]
[ Some Go South & Others Go North ]

[ Are The Ones That Go South ]
[ The Ones That Should Not Come Out Of My Mouth? ]

[ The Words That Are Not Said ]
[ Should Lay Dead ]
[ In My Head ]

[ Why Can’t I Say What Is On My Mind? ]
[ When I Am In A Situation That Is So Unkind? ]

[ It Seems That Others Do ]
[ Why Can’t I, Too? ]

[ Give Me A Reason Or An Explanation ]
[ The More Time That Goes By ]
[ Causes Me Alot Of Frustration ]

[ How Can I Remain Real? ]
[ When I Cannot Say What I Feel? ]

[ That Would Be The Time When I Would Look All Around ]
[ & Then Shut Down ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]