[ In The Last (5yrs) Life Has Seemed To Lost All Of Its Fun ]
[ Whenever You Go Outside You No Longer Seek Out The Warmth & Comfort Of The Sun ]
[ Or You Feel Like Bowing Your Head & Taking Off On A Dead Run ]

[ One Thing That You Still Love To Do Is Give ]
[ One Thing That You Are Losing ]
[ Is Your Will To Live ]
[ That Seems To Be Of Your Own Choosing ]
[ Since Everything Has Been Thrown In A Sieve ]

[ Whenever The Front Door Closes, You Feel Mentally Spent ]
[ You Have No Idea Where Thqe Zest For Life Went ]
[ You Try To Have A Good Day, But That Doesn’t Seem To Make A Dent ]

[ Lately You Wish That You Could Control Your Happiness By Simply Turning A Dial ]
[ Now You Can’t Even Seem To Hold A Smile ]
[ For Much Longer Than Awhile ]

[ You Feel Like You Are Aging Right Before Your Very Own Bloodshot Eyes ]
[ You Are Being Accused Of Telling Lies ]
[ But You Are Not ]
[ You Are Not Like Most Guys ]
[ Go Ahead & Polygraph You Right On The Spot ]

[ You Have No Money To Offer Another Woman ]
[ You Don’t Have The Good Looks Like The Average Man ]

[ You Feel Like Your Kind Is Headed For Extinction ]
[ Because Nothing About You Shines Of Distinction ]

[ In Your Mind, Chivalry Isn’t Dead ]
[ You Thought That Your Life Got A New Start ]
[ The Day You Were Wed ]
[ But Sometimes It Is Your Heart ]
[ That You Leave Tucked Under Your Pillows On The Bed ]

[ You Have Escaped Death Now More Than (9) Times ]
[ You Have Committed Zero Crimes ]
[ You Have Written Thousands Of Poetic Stories That Rhyme ]

[ You Felt That Over (23yrs) Ago You Found True Joy ]
[ When Your Wife Gave Birth To Your Only Child ]
[ A Boy ]
[ Raising Him Was Like Maneuvering A Canoe Down The River Nile ]

[ That Joy Did Not Last All That Long ]
[ You Cannot Pinpoint When Everything Started Going Wrong ]
[ Was The Father-Son Bond Ever That Strong? ]

[ There Is Something That You Do Know ]
[ Your Relationship Now ]
[ Sure Is One Big Shit Show ]

[ Things Have Happened Way In The Past That Still Affect You Now ]
[ You  Want To Forgive & Forget ]
[ P.T.S.D. Really Affects Your Ability To Figure Out How ]
[ When You Try To Move In That Direction Your Feet Feel Like They Are In Concrete That’s Wet ]

[ Is This Something Like Your Big Cry For Help? ]
[ Well, If Life Was A Business That You Visited ]
[ It Would Get A Horrible Rating On Yelp ]

[ You Feel Like You Are (0-4) As Far As Parents Go ]
[ You Kind Of Feel The Names “Mom & Dad” Are Just Words, With Zero ]
[ Lasting Glow ]

[ Oh Hell ]
[ With Models Like Them ]
[ No Wonder Parenting Did Not Go So Well ]

[ You Know That People Are Going To Throw Their Really Wise (2cents) In ]
[ The Ring ]
[ Well Those People Can Take Their Bony Pointer Fingers & Sit & Spin ]
[ Tell Them It Won’t Sting ]
[ If They Don’t Even Begin ]

[ To Say Whatever Advice Or Words That They Want To Say ]
[ On Anyday ]
[ In Any Way ]

[ You Have A Very Small Circle Of Family That You’ve Made ]
[ There Is Not A Single Person In Your Circle That You Would Trade ]
[ Or Tell To Stand In The Shade ]

[ Each Person Brings So Many Things To Your Life ]
[ No One Has Ever Grabbed Your Throat & Threatened You With A Knife ]
[ The Sunshine Used To Shine On You Through The Smile Of Your Wife ]

[ Not So Much Anymore ]
[ Instead Of The Smile Being A Window To Her Soul ]
[ She Has Shut Down As Easy As It Is To Close A Door ]
[ & Your Marriage Has Tumbled Down A Rabbit Hole ]

[ You No Longer Feel Free ]
[ You Can No Longer See ]
[ How Good Things Could Be ]

[ You No Longer See The Bright Side Of The Street ]
[ Your Emotions Feel Beat ]

[ Down ]
[ You Now Have A Perpetual Frown ]
[ You Look Like You Have Shed The Tears Of A Sad Clown ]
 
[ Where Can You Hide ]
[ How Many Times Have You Felt That You Were Just Along For The Ride? ]
[ How Many Times Has Your Heart Died ]
[ & Unfortunately Been Revived? ]

[ Because You Don’t Want To Hurt Anyone ]
[ The Reasons That You Are Saying This To Each & Every Single One ]
[ Is Because You Love Them A Ton ]

[ To All Of Your Friends That You Are Sending This To ]
[ You Are Writing Them This Story Because You Did Not Know What Else You Could Do ]
[ If Any Of Them Have Thought That You Have Recently Seemed Distant ]
[ This Story Just Might Be A Small Clue ]

[ You Are Struggling ]
[ & It Is Depression & Fear That You Have Been Juggling ]
[ It Is Your Fear Of The Unknown Future That You Find Troubling ]

[ It Is Uncanny ]
[ How Many ]

[ Times The Years Have Passed You By ]
[ & How Many Issues Have You Failed To See Eye-to-Eye! ]
[ Whenever You See Your Friends ]
[ You Want To Say, “Hello”, Not “Goodbye” ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
A hui hou kaua e kuu hoa

Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

~ Aloha ~

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