(532)▪︎[ I Don’t Know Where I Am Going … 6•29•2021 ]

[ Right Now I Feel Like I Am Set Adrift In A Boat On The
     Sea Of Disarray ]
[ I Am Trying To Get To The Island That Makes Sense ]
[ But I Can’t Find My Way ] 

[ Just When I Think That I Am Heading Down The Right Path ]
[ I Float Right By ]
[ My Coordinates Are Wrong, Because I Have Always Been Bad
     In Math ]

[ I Have Circled The Island @ Least (5) Times Now ]
[ On The (3rd) Pass I Thought That I Saw A Cow ]
[ & Then I Spent A Big Chunk Of Time ]
[ Wondering How? ]

[ But I Guess Whenever I Have A Daytime Nightmare Anything
     Goes ]
[ I Once Had One In June, But Then It Snowed ]

[ Floating Aimlessly On The Sea Was Never On The Bucket
     List For My Life ]
[ I Already Accomplished The One On The Top Of My List ]
[ & That Was To Find Me A Loving, Supportive Wife ]

[ But She Can’t Make A Boat Paddle Magically Appear Anytime
     Soon ]
[ If She Could, I Wish That She Could Do This By Tomorrow Before Noon ]

[ How Can I Get Out Of This Dangerous Current Taking Me
     Nowhere ]
[ Why Can’t I Find The Current That Will Take Me Somewhere ]

[ Somewhere Quiet & Calm ]
[ Somewhere That Won’t Give Me Sweaty Palms ]

[ A Place Where My Feet Are Planted Firmly On The Ground ]
[ Dirt, Grass, Concrete Or Mud ]
[ Somewhere That Doesn’t Involve Water Anywhere Around ]

[ When I Am In These Daytime Nightmares Everything Seems
     To Be Moving Really Slow ]
[ Can I See Them Coming? ]
[ That Would Be A ( NO! ) ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo iā ‘oe  ]
[  A hui hou mākou  ]
[  Aloha  ] ‎ 
  ‎
[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe ]

(1023)▪︎[ Set Adrift … 12•6•2020 ]

[ Lost, Floating On The Sea Of Loneliness ]
[ Could I Ever Feel Less ]
[ Of This Emptiness ]

[ How Did I Get Here? ]
[ My Path Back To Fullfillness Has Never Been
     All That Clear ]

[ When I Came To A Fork In The Road I Thought
     I Turned In The Right Direction ]
[ Using Hindsight ]
[ I Would Make A Correction ]

[ I Thought Going Left Was Good ]
[ Maybe My Brain Misunderstood ]

[ The Bright, Yellow Yield Signs ]
[ Plus, When I Looked @ The Left Side ]
[ There Were No Lines ]

[ Maybe It Was That Way For A Reason ]
[ When I Looked To The Right ]
[ I Did Not Think That I Could Squeeze In ]

[ But Now I Float ]
[ On The Sea ]
[ Without A Single Paddle In My Boat ]

[ I Am @ The Mercy Of The Wind & The Current ]
[ This Problem Seems To Be Recurrent ]

[ Same Problem, But From A Different Issue ]
[ My Inner Strength Is As Strong As A Soft Kleenex
     Tissue ]

[ Flimsy & Easy To Rip To Shreads ]
[ Confusing, Like The Brain On Too Many Meds ]

[ Will I Be Forever Damned? ]
[ & Never Get Back To Dry Land? ]
[ Do I Lean Down ]
[ & Paddle With My Hand? ]

[ After Awhile ]
[ I Found That It Was Futile ]

[ Do I Hear The Sound Of A Storm Coming In? ]
[ When I Sense The Rain Begin ]
[ I Tell Myself ( I JUST CAN’t WIN! ) ]

[ Maybe This Will Be The Way My Life Will Go ]
[ Maybe Not ]
[ Probably So ]
[ Is All Of This Effort For Naught? ]
[ I Really Don’t Know ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]   ‎ 
  ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]