(438)▪︎[ The Tears Of A Clown … 2025 ]

[ No One Ever Understands The Tears Of A Clown ]
[ Until The Circus Comes Back Around ]
[ & Puts Up Their Big Tent, In The Newest Town ]

[ A Clown Believes In The Opposite Of Violence ]
[ They Try To Put On Their Bravest Face ]
[ But They Suffer In Silence ]
[ For Fear Of Being Labled A Disgrace ]

[ To The Ultra-Secretive, Humble Clown Brotherhood ]
[ They Feel That They Are Vastly Misunderstood ]
[ In The Worldwide Clown Neighborhood ]

[ Does A Tearful Clown Ever Turn To One Another? ]
[ Why Can’t They Turn To A Brother ]
[ From Another Mother? ]

[ Is It For Fear Of Shame? ]
[ Or Nothing But A Finger Pointing Blame ]
[ Game? ]

[ Nothing Breaks The Chain Of Events ]
[ That Creeps Towards Fear ]
[ The Time That Has Been Spent ]
[ That Can Go On For A Continuous Year ]
[ Under That Mobile Tent ]

[ It Can Go On Without A Break ]
[ There Is No Money To Make ]
[ When The Head Supervisor Is On The Take ]
[ Because He Signed On The Dotted Line In The Form Of A Handshake ]

[ With The Devil ]
[ When The Head Supervisor Is Pure Evil ]

[ It Makes For A Poor Environment In The Emotional Sense ]
[ Because The Amount Of Pressure To Perform ]
[ Is Immense ]
[ It Is Not Near The Norm ]
[ For The Relations To Be So Tense ]

[ When The Clowns Are Treated Like A Dog ]
[ Because The Head Supervisor Wants To Live High On The Hog ]
[ Sometimes The Clowns Would Perform While Being In A Mental Fog ]

[ The Question Though Is, “How Do Hurting Clowns Heal?” ]
[ Is It From A Good Meal? ]
[ Making Sure Everything They Hear Is Real? ]

[ Maybe So ]
[ Or Maybe Not ]
[ The Only One That Will Know ]
[ Is The One Being Put On The Spot ]
[ Maybe The One Feeling Low ]
[ Thinks That When It Comes Down To It, This Doesn’t Play Out Like They Thought ]

[ It Would ]
[ Or Should ]
[ They Know That They Did The Best That They Could ]

[ They Will Just Play It Cool ]
[ Because Their Wife Is Not Married To A Fool ]
[ Their Next Adventure ]
[ Is Going On To Willamette Law School ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
A hui hou kaua e kuu hoa

Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

~ Aloha ~

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(001)▪︎[ Loss … 2025 ]

What would you do if you lost all your possessions?

[ The First Thing That I Would Do If I Lost All Of My Possessions Would Go To My Knees & Cry ]

[ There Have Been Many Nights When A Nightmare Of Losing Everything By An Act Of Mother Nature Woke Me In A Cold Sweat ]

[ Yes, Insurance Will Pay Out ]

[ But Only A Fraction Of The Monetary Value That I Would Ever Have ]

[ What About Possessions That Money Can’t Buy, Or Replicate? ]

[ Physical Pictures, Lifting Awards, Pictures, Money (Over Said Amount), Actual Letters &/Or Cards, Jewelry, Collections, All Clothing, etc… ]

[ I Never Want To Be Put In That Position ]

[ Being Burglarized Was Hard Enough ]

[ The Way Insurance Companies Pay Out Is Another Criminal Act Committed Against You ]

[ Misrepresenting Their Policies ]

[ Making It SO Hard To File, Then Collect On A Claim ]

~ Lopaka DeVoe ~

(1013)▪︎[ Afraid … 12-3-2021 ]

[ You Are Afraid Of How You Would React ]
[ You KNOW How You Are Supposed To Act ]

[ Bold & Strong ]
[ You Are Supposed To Act, Like There Is Nothing Wrong ]

[ This Isn’t A Movie, So You Don’t Have Many Takes ]
[ There Are No (DO OVERS) If You Make Mistakes ]

[ Tears Will Not Be Welcomed ]
[ You Really Should Apologize If You Were To Say Something
Dumb ]

[ What Do You Talk About? ]
[ You Definitely Cannot Pout ]

[ It Is Well Known ]
[ That If You Pout ]
[ You Are Sent Home ]

[ None OfTheir Family Wants You To Bring Your Dark Cloud
Into Their House ]
[ It Is Loud ]
[ So Now You Have To Be As Quiet As A Mouse ]

[ Not A Dirty Rat ]
[ But Then You Would Need A Wild Cat ]

[ Then Cats Have Fleas ]
[ They Would Stay Without Saying (THANK YOU) or (PLEASE) ]

[ You Won’t Know How Many Times You Will Be Able To See
Your Best Friend This Coming Year ]
[ When She Leaves ]
[ How Would You Stop Your Tears? ]

[ If She Knew This, Was What You Are Thinking ]
[ She Would Put You In Your Place, Without Blinking ]

[ She Was (1) Of The Best Things That Ever Happened In Your
Life ]
[ The Only (1) Who Has Ever Been Above Her, Is Your Wife ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(875)▪︎[ It Does Not Make Sense … 10•16•2021 ]

[ Grief & Questions Ran Through Your Head ]
[ You Could Not Believe That Your Brother Was Dead ]

[ You Thought, Just Last Week You & Brent Were Talking On The
     Phone ]
[ There Were No Abnormalities Concerning His Health That
     Were Known ]

[ The Dr’s. Did Not Know, Either ]
[ His Daughter Did Not Know, Neither ]

[ It Seemed Like It Was A Horrible Fluke ]
[ His Health Should Had Jinked ]
[ When Instead It Juked ]

[ He Stopped Breathing Because Of The Position He Was In ]
[ His Airway Was Obstructed ]
[ So He Could Not Catch His Wind ]

[ It Sure Took Some Big Balls ]
[ For His Daughter To Make The Calls ]

[ To Her Mom & You ]
[ Nobody Wanted To Be In Her Shoes ]

[ You Didn’t Go Into Denial When You Got Her Call ]
[ But You Did Want To Hit A Wall ]

[ Through Past Experience You Knew Better Than To Do That ]
[ Your Dreams Of The (2) Of You Growing Old Together, Now
     Went Splat! ]

[ Onto The Floor ]
[ So You Cannot Dream That Dream Anymore ]

[ He Really Was Not Taking Care Of His Body As Of Late ]
[ What He Drank ]
[ What He Ate ]
[ Just Was Not All That Great ]

[ Your Brother Always Thought That It Was Best ]
[ To Live His Life With Zest ]
[ Maybe He Thought ]
[ That Kind Of Life Would Put Hair On His Chest ]

[ But It Wouldn’t ]
[ Because It Couldn’t ]

[ Why Didn’t He Take Care Of Himself Better In Those Last Years? ]
[ So Now Your Dreams Are Reduced To Tears ]

[ You Used To Joke About Getting Kicked Out Of Places ]
[ Because You Guys Wouldn’t Stop Putting On Wheelchair
     Races ]

[ You Used To Tease Him, But Not The Mean Kind ]
[ That You Always Beat Him In Your Mind ]

[ You Thought That You Will Really Miss Those Calls That
     You (2) Had ]
[ Nothing That Was Said, Was Ever Bad ]
[ Everytime You Had To Hang-Up The Phone ]
[ You Got Sad ]

[ Now Who Is Going To Call You To Make You Laugh & Laugh
     For Over An Hour? ]
[ You Found That Your Brother Had That Innate Power ]

[ Nothing You Said To Each Other Made Sense ]
[ He Sure Had The Knack Of Helping You Unwind When He Called
     To See That Things Were Tense ]

[ The (MOURNING PERIOD) That People Have Always Talked
     About Were Incorrect When It Came To You ]
[ Most Of The Levels Of Grief You Breezed Right Through ]

[ Grief Never Got You All Riled ]
[ Most Of The Time ]
[ Because You Never Went Through A Mountain Of Denial ]
[ That You Couldn’t Climb ]

[ When His Daughter Called To Let You Know That Your Brother
     Had Died ]
[ You Never Argued With Her & Thought That She Had Lied ]

[ You Did Have Times When You Shed Your Share Of Tears ]
[ But You Never Drowned Your Sorrows ]
[ In Shots Of Tequila & Beers ]

[ Since He Died In February ]
[ A Trip To Las Vegas In March ]
[ Was Not Necessary ]

[ You Struggle To Make Sense Of The Senseless ]
[ Because How Did He Get Into This Mess? ]

[ Now That He Is Gone ]
[ Everyone Has Had To Move On ]

[ Your Brother May Not Have Lived The Cleanest Life ]
[ But You Are So Glad That He Separated From His Horrible,
     Greedy & Mean Wife ]

[ You Miss Your Brother @ Times ]
[ That Is Why You Had To Write This Rhyme ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(156)[ Could Be A Sad Day … 2•18•2020 ]

[ Today Could Be A Really Sad Day, If I Let It ]
[ The Thoughts In My Head Have Not Taken A Grip ]
[ Actually My Thoughts Have Been Completely Split ]

[ Which Way Do I Go, What Am I Expected To Do ]
[ Why Should I Ask You? ]

[ What Kind Of Experience Do You Have In These
Kinds Of Things? ]
[ I’d Like To See ]
[ What Your Experience Brings ]

[ When Someone Brings Me Their Story ]
[ As They Are Telling Me About P.T.S.D. ]
[ I Get A Little Wary ]
[ Do You Really Have The Disorder ]
[ Or A Really Harmful Memory? ]

[ Okay, You Experienced, Saw Or Heard Something That
Made It A Bad Event ]
[ So, Now Does Your Mind Get Bent? ]
[ When You Start To Relive How It All Went? ]

[ Or You Just Remember It Well ]
[ You’re Not Reliving The Sight, Sounds Or Smells ]

[ Is It Hard To Get Some Sleep? ]
[ & It’s Next To Impossible To Get Some That’s Very Deep ]

[ I Can’t Let What Has Happened The Last Couple Of Days Get Me
Down ]
[ Send Me Crawling On The Ground ]
[ I’ll Get Up On Own ]
[ To Keep My World Going Around ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(633)▪︎[ My Brother’s Grave … 7•20•2020 ]

[ Yesterday I Finally Went To My Brothers Grave ]
[ I Stood There, Staring ]
[ Hoping That My Emotions Behave ]

[ But The Reaction That I Had ]
[ Wasn’t All Bad ]
[ It Was The ( NOT DOINGS) Of His Wife ]
[ That Had Me So Mad! ]

[ She Shows Such Disregard For Her Responsibilities ]
[ She Is In North Carolina Spending Money Like
She Is A Celebrity ]

[ She Is Not Even Showing An Ounce Of Respect ]
[ Since He Died ]
[ What Should I Expect? ]
[ Since She Lied? ]

[ She Was Supposed To Get A Headstone For My Brother ]
[ & She Is Supposed To Be A Loving, Caring Mother ]

[ But When Picking To Do Either ]
[ She Has Done Neither ]

[ So I Want To Switch ]
[ Back My Thoughts On This Story ]
[ & Do No More Talking About That Bitch ]

[ The Cemetary Looks Well Taken Care Of ]
[ Each Gravesite Is Shown Alot Of Love ]
[ & I Hope My Brother Can See That ]
[ From Way Up High Above ]

[ I Am So Grateful That Sanoe Took Me To His Spot ]
[ I Have To Thank Her Alot ]
[ & Then I Look Around @ The Family That I’ve Got ]

[ I Want To Hug Them & Keep Then Near ]
[ Even When I Can’t Always Be Here ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(33)▪︎[ Is There Anyone Home? … 1•11•2021 ]

[ I Hurt When You Are Not Here ]
[ I Did Not Smile All Day ]
[ But I Did Shed A Tear ]

[ You Don’t Seem Bothered @ All ]
[ Sometimes I Want To Hear Your Voice ]
[ But I Don’t Think That You Would Ever Call ]

[ No One Came ]
[ There Is Just One Name ]
[ To Blame ]
[ The Date May Be Different ]
[ But Their Treatment Of Me ]
[ Remains The Same ]

[ What Did I Ever Do ]
[ To Her ]
[ For Her To Remove You? ]

[ From My Life? ]
[ Am I That Bad Of A Guy? ]
[ Do I Abuse My Wife? ]

[ No, Not In The Least ]
[ I Am Not A Monster ]
[ I Am Far From Being A Beast ]

[ I Need You Back ]
[ What If We Kidnap Her? ]
[ Then Throw Her In The River Tied Up In A Sack? ]

[ I Want All Of This Hurt To Go Away ]
[ I Want You Back In My House To Play ]
[ I Want This To Happen Yesterday ]

[ Yes In The Past Tense ]
[ I Just Want To Surround Myself Behind A Fence ]

[ One That Is Ten Feet Long ]
[ Make It Really Tall ]
[ Make It Extremely Strong ]

[ Do You Have Any Feelings Of What I Just Wrote? ]
[ Was There Anything Of Note? ]

[ I Don’t Know How You Are Doing ]
[ But I Do Know Who You Are Screwing ]

[ I Miss Talking To You ]
[ I Miss Hearing Your Voice, Too ]

[ Memories Is All I’ve Got ]
[ I Did Not Realize How Big A Part Of My Day & Life You Are ]
[ I Have Come To Realize That It Is A Hell Of Alot ]

[ I Miss Your Care ]
[ You Should Be Here During The Day ]
[ Not Over There, There Or Over There ]

[ This Is Extremely Bad ]
[ Because My Day Was Very Sad ]
[ & I Am Way Past Being Mad ]

[ I Want This Hiatus To Be Done ]
[ Because This Is Not @ All Fun ]

[ Well … I Really Don’t Have Much More ]
[ So I Will Turn Off The Light ]
[ & Shut The Door ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]