(021)▪︎[ The Tears … 2026 ]

[ Now You Cannot Help But See That There Are Some Really Tough Roads That Lay Ahead ]
[ This Is Not A Good Time ]
[ To Run Out Of That Anti-Psychotic Med ]
[ Maybe You Should Go Out & Enjoy Committing A Crime ]
[ Instead ]

[ A Good Medication Won’t Make Your World Spin ]
[ It Will Help You Win ]
[ Even Before The Placebo Affects Start To Begin ]

[ Why Does A Bad Med Keep The Earth From Being Still? ]
[ Will ]
[ The Next Pill ]
[ Help You To Remain Chill? ]

[ What Will Calm You Down? ]
[ When You Look Around ]
[ Don’t Show The Tears Of A Sad Clown ]

[ A Clown Is Supposed To Show A Smile ]
[ For The Whole Day ]
[ Not For Just For A Little While ]
[ You Wish There Was A Way ]
[ That You Could Change Your Mood By Just Turning A Dial ]

[ When A Clown Is Sad ]
[ Where Can They Go To Hide? ]
[ It Makes You Feel So Bad ]
[ It Feels Like Your Soul Has Died ]

[ You Feel Like Everything Is Going By You So Fast ]
[ But You Feel Like You Are Going So Slow ]
[ You Are Only Seeing The Mistakes That You Made In Your Past ]
[ Now You Don’t Know In Which Direction You Should Go ]
[ To Make Good Memories That Can Last? ]

[ Do You Start With Your Right Foot, Or Your Left? ]
[ Will It Always Be A Fight ]
[ To Continue To Watch Your Step? ]

[ That Will Always Have You Looking Down, Instead Of Forward ]
[ There Is No Reward ]

[ If You Start Going Backwards ]
[ Because Someone That You Thought Was Close ]
[ Chose ]
[ To Say Some Choice Words ]

[ That Made Themselves Feel Better ]
[ But Not You ]
[ Would A Letter ]
[ Had Been The Best Way To Give A Clue? ]
[ Maybe Waving A Feather ]
[ Would Had Been A Good Social Cue ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
A hui hou kaua e kuu hoa

Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

~ Aloha ~

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(438)▪︎[ The Tears Of A Clown … 2025 ]

[ No One Ever Understands The Tears Of A Clown ]
[ Until The Circus Comes Back Around ]
[ & Puts Up Their Big Tent, In The Newest Town ]

[ A Clown Believes In The Opposite Of Violence ]
[ They Try To Put On Their Bravest Face ]
[ But They Suffer In Silence ]
[ For Fear Of Being Labled A Disgrace ]

[ To The Ultra-Secretive, Humble Clown Brotherhood ]
[ They Feel That They Are Vastly Misunderstood ]
[ In The Worldwide Clown Neighborhood ]

[ Does A Tearful Clown Ever Turn To One Another? ]
[ Why Can’t They Turn To A Brother ]
[ From Another Mother? ]

[ Is It For Fear Of Shame? ]
[ Or Nothing But A Finger Pointing Blame ]
[ Game? ]

[ Nothing Breaks The Chain Of Events ]
[ That Creeps Towards Fear ]
[ The Time That Has Been Spent ]
[ That Can Go On For A Continuous Year ]
[ Under That Mobile Tent ]

[ It Can Go On Without A Break ]
[ There Is No Money To Make ]
[ When The Head Supervisor Is On The Take ]
[ Because He Signed On The Dotted Line In The Form Of A Handshake ]

[ With The Devil ]
[ When The Head Supervisor Is Pure Evil ]

[ It Makes For A Poor Environment In The Emotional Sense ]
[ Because The Amount Of Pressure To Perform ]
[ Is Immense ]
[ It Is Not Near The Norm ]
[ For The Relations To Be So Tense ]

[ When The Clowns Are Treated Like A Dog ]
[ Because The Head Supervisor Wants To Live High On The Hog ]
[ Sometimes The Clowns Would Perform While Being In A Mental Fog ]

[ The Question Though Is, “How Do Hurting Clowns Heal?” ]
[ Is It From A Good Meal? ]
[ Making Sure Everything They Hear Is Real? ]

[ Maybe So ]
[ Or Maybe Not ]
[ The Only One That Will Know ]
[ Is The One Being Put On The Spot ]
[ Maybe The One Feeling Low ]
[ Thinks That When It Comes Down To It, This Doesn’t Play Out Like They Thought ]

[ It Would ]
[ Or Should ]
[ They Know That They Did The Best That They Could ]

[ They Will Just Play It Cool ]
[ Because Their Wife Is Not Married To A Fool ]
[ Their Next Adventure ]
[ Is Going On To Willamette Law School ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
A hui hou kaua e kuu hoa

Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

~ Aloha ~

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(901)▪︎[ I Am Sad … 10•26•2020 ]

[ Right Now My Mood Is On A Downward Slide ]
[ My Best Friend Might Be Saying Goodbye ]

[ Her Priorities Have Completely Shifted ]
[ Thoughts & Worries Are Now A Huge Weight On
Her Mind ]
[ & I Can’t Help Her Lift Them ]

[ She Has To Go Back To Her Original Home ]
[ Her Leaving Day Is Not Known ]

[ It Hurts That Small Corner Of My Heart ]
[ That She Has Touched ]
[ My Level Of Sadness Is Off Of The Chart ]

[ I Need To Find The Courage ]
[ To Continue To Encourage ]
[ & Not To Be Selfish ]
[ & Say Things That Might Discourage ]

[ Family Is Everything To Her Family ]
[ That Is One Thing That I Could Always See ]

[ The Thoughts Sure Do Hurt ]
[ I Sweat Through My Shirts ]

[ I Admire Her Total Commitment ]
[ To Her Mom ]
[ & That Has Put Her In This Predicament ]

[ But She Does Not See It That Way ]
[ @ Least That Is How She Said These Things To Me
Today ]

[ I Have My Fears ]
[ That We Will Completely Lose Touch ]
[ & That Made Me Have Tears ]

[ I Have To Stand Tall ]
[ Against The Wall ]

[ & Put My Hands On My Hips ]
[ Make Sure That My Support For Her ]
[ Doesn’t Slip ]
[ & No Matter How Much These Thoughts Hurt ]
[ Continue To Bite Hard On My Lip ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(1013)▪︎[ Afraid … 12-3-2021 ]

[ You Are Afraid Of How You Would React ]
[ You KNOW How You Are Supposed To Act ]

[ Bold & Strong ]
[ You Are Supposed To Act, Like There Is Nothing Wrong ]

[ This Isn’t A Movie, So You Don’t Have Many Takes ]
[ There Are No (DO OVERS) If You Make Mistakes ]

[ Tears Will Not Be Welcomed ]
[ You Really Should Apologize If You Were To Say Something
Dumb ]

[ What Do You Talk About? ]
[ You Definitely Cannot Pout ]

[ It Is Well Known ]
[ That If You Pout ]
[ You Are Sent Home ]

[ None OfTheir Family Wants You To Bring Your Dark Cloud
Into Their House ]
[ It Is Loud ]
[ So Now You Have To Be As Quiet As A Mouse ]

[ Not A Dirty Rat ]
[ But Then You Would Need A Wild Cat ]

[ Then Cats Have Fleas ]
[ They Would Stay Without Saying (THANK YOU) or (PLEASE) ]

[ You Won’t Know How Many Times You Will Be Able To See
Your Best Friend This Coming Year ]
[ When She Leaves ]
[ How Would You Stop Your Tears? ]

[ If She Knew This, Was What You Are Thinking ]
[ She Would Put You In Your Place, Without Blinking ]

[ She Was (1) Of The Best Things That Ever Happened In Your
Life ]
[ The Only (1) Who Has Ever Been Above Her, Is Your Wife ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(875)▪︎[ It Does Not Make Sense … 10•16•2021 ]

[ Grief & Questions Ran Through Your Head ]
[ You Could Not Believe That Your Brother Was Dead ]

[ You Thought, Just Last Week You & Brent Were Talking On The
     Phone ]
[ There Were No Abnormalities Concerning His Health That
     Were Known ]

[ The Dr’s. Did Not Know, Either ]
[ His Daughter Did Not Know, Neither ]

[ It Seemed Like It Was A Horrible Fluke ]
[ His Health Should Had Jinked ]
[ When Instead It Juked ]

[ He Stopped Breathing Because Of The Position He Was In ]
[ His Airway Was Obstructed ]
[ So He Could Not Catch His Wind ]

[ It Sure Took Some Big Balls ]
[ For His Daughter To Make The Calls ]

[ To Her Mom & You ]
[ Nobody Wanted To Be In Her Shoes ]

[ You Didn’t Go Into Denial When You Got Her Call ]
[ But You Did Want To Hit A Wall ]

[ Through Past Experience You Knew Better Than To Do That ]
[ Your Dreams Of The (2) Of You Growing Old Together, Now
     Went Splat! ]

[ Onto The Floor ]
[ So You Cannot Dream That Dream Anymore ]

[ He Really Was Not Taking Care Of His Body As Of Late ]
[ What He Drank ]
[ What He Ate ]
[ Just Was Not All That Great ]

[ Your Brother Always Thought That It Was Best ]
[ To Live His Life With Zest ]
[ Maybe He Thought ]
[ That Kind Of Life Would Put Hair On His Chest ]

[ But It Wouldn’t ]
[ Because It Couldn’t ]

[ Why Didn’t He Take Care Of Himself Better In Those Last Years? ]
[ So Now Your Dreams Are Reduced To Tears ]

[ You Used To Joke About Getting Kicked Out Of Places ]
[ Because You Guys Wouldn’t Stop Putting On Wheelchair
     Races ]

[ You Used To Tease Him, But Not The Mean Kind ]
[ That You Always Beat Him In Your Mind ]

[ You Thought That You Will Really Miss Those Calls That
     You (2) Had ]
[ Nothing That Was Said, Was Ever Bad ]
[ Everytime You Had To Hang-Up The Phone ]
[ You Got Sad ]

[ Now Who Is Going To Call You To Make You Laugh & Laugh
     For Over An Hour? ]
[ You Found That Your Brother Had That Innate Power ]

[ Nothing You Said To Each Other Made Sense ]
[ He Sure Had The Knack Of Helping You Unwind When He Called
     To See That Things Were Tense ]

[ The (MOURNING PERIOD) That People Have Always Talked
     About Were Incorrect When It Came To You ]
[ Most Of The Levels Of Grief You Breezed Right Through ]

[ Grief Never Got You All Riled ]
[ Most Of The Time ]
[ Because You Never Went Through A Mountain Of Denial ]
[ That You Couldn’t Climb ]

[ When His Daughter Called To Let You Know That Your Brother
     Had Died ]
[ You Never Argued With Her & Thought That She Had Lied ]

[ You Did Have Times When You Shed Your Share Of Tears ]
[ But You Never Drowned Your Sorrows ]
[ In Shots Of Tequila & Beers ]

[ Since He Died In February ]
[ A Trip To Las Vegas In March ]
[ Was Not Necessary ]

[ You Struggle To Make Sense Of The Senseless ]
[ Because How Did He Get Into This Mess? ]

[ Now That He Is Gone ]
[ Everyone Has Had To Move On ]

[ Your Brother May Not Have Lived The Cleanest Life ]
[ But You Are So Glad That He Separated From His Horrible,
     Greedy & Mean Wife ]

[ You Miss Your Brother @ Times ]
[ That Is Why You Had To Write This Rhyme ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(819)▪︎[ So, So Sad … 9•25•2020 ]

[ Sad, So So Sad What The Fires Have Done ]
[ Some People Were Unable To Pack Anything Of Value ]
[ Because They Only Had Enough Time To Run ]

[ Where Can They Go? ]
[ Where Can They Stay? ]
[ It Is Impossible To Really Know ]
[ Information That They Have Needed Like Yesterday ]

[ Nature Doing This, Is Terrible ]
[ Criminals Coming In ]
[ Is Horrible ]

[ How Many Of Satan’s Spawn ]
[ Have The Blackest Of Souls ]
[ To Go Out To The Burned Areas Between Dusk & Dawn ]

[ & Steal The Valuables That Were Not Burned In The
Devastating Fires? ]
[ When Or If They Are Caught ]
[ They Turn Into The Biggest Liars ]

[ Who Would Break Into The Cars & Trunks & Take Someone’s
Sole Possession? ]
[ Adding On To The Whole Devastation ]

[ How Can They Explain What Is In The Trunk Of Their Cars? ]
[ How Many Transactions Will Happen ]
[ In The Backrooms Of Some Of The Shady Bars? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(682)▪︎[ A Sad Statement … 8•15•2021 ]

[ You Don’t Make Things Up, Just To Write Something Nice ]
[ You Never Think ]
[ That Every Word That You Write Will Be Taken As Advice ]

[ You Don’t Say Something Nice Just So YOU Feel Good ]
[ If That Is How It Comes Across ]
[ Than The Whole Situation Has Been Vastly Misunderstood ]

[ You Say Or Do Something With A Pure Heart ]
[ If That Is Not Believed ]
[ Then Why Should You Even Start? ]

[ You Just Want To Make Others Smile ]
[ Not For Just Awhile ]

[ Some People Never Give Or Get A Compliment In Their Life ]
[ They Would Rather Stand On The Side ]
[ & Slash @ People With A Knife ]

[ Cut Downs Is What They Are Used To ]
[ They Are Not Used To What You Come Out & Do ]

[ Some People Are Used To Being Used ]
[ & Pointed @ & Accused ]

[ Men Are The Main Perpetrators ]
[ There Is The Occasional Woman ]
[ & Men Are Also Some Of The Worst Instigators ]

[ You Are Not Expecting Anything Out Of It ]
[ You Are Not Saying Anything Just To Show Your Wit ]

[ Everybody Should Like A Little Sunshine Sprinkled On
      Their Head ]
[ Would They Rather Have Negative Remarks Thrown @ Them ]
[ That Sticks In Their Memory, Instead? ]

[ You Guess Negative Comments Are Much Easier To Take ]
[ They Sure Are Easier To Make ]

[ Their Height, Their Weight Or What They Are Wearing ]
[ It Is Much Easier To Say Something That Shows That
     You Not Caring ]
[ None Of Those Would Be Worth Sharing ]

[ It Seems That People Accept Rude Comments Much Easier
     Than They Do Compliments ]
[ & That Is A Very Sad Statement ]

[ Why Is It Easier For Some To Accept Remarks That Cut? ]
[ Instead Of Compliments That Are Supposed To Lift Their
     Spirits Up? ]

[ People Are Quick To Tear Others Down ]
[ Than They Are To Say Something Nice To Replace The
     Frown ]

[ It Is Really Strange How That Works ]
[ The Good Guys Always Finish Last ]
[ Because Some People Are Used To The People That Spend
     Their Time Being Jerks ]

[ & That Is Sad ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(1125)▪︎[ My Big Mistake … 12•19•2020 ]

[ All That I Could Ever Do ]
[ Is To Say That I Am Sorry ]
[ Because I Never Meant To Hurt You ]

[ I Wish That The Words Would Have Stayed In
My Head ]
[ So They Were Never Said ]

[ @ That Instance You Were Not Listening To Me ]
[ & I Would Not Just Let Things Be ]
[ But Now I Can See ]

[ That You Are Just Being The Same Old You ]
[ & I Was Blind To The Social Cue’s ]

[ As Soon As I Said It I Had Regret ]
[ Because Saying That ]
[ Was As Low As Low Can Get ]

[ I Have Been Really Moody Since The Day After Last ]
[ Usually I Have A Good Filter ]
[ But That Comment Came Out Way Too Fast ]

[ I Am Very Sure ]
[ That The Comment Did Not Paint A Very Good Or
Accurate Picture ]

[ I Can’t Apologize Anymore Than I Already Had ]
[ I Know What I Said Was Extremely Bad ]
[ But If We Can’t Work This Out ]
[ I Will Be Very Sad ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(207)▪︎[ Where Are You … 3•2•2020 ]

[ The Questions Are ( WHERE AM I GOING? ) ]
[ ( WHERE HAVE I BEEN? ) ]
[ I Think My Mind Is Slowing ]
[ But I Don’t Know Since When ]

[ Has The Memory Gone Foggy? ]
[ While During The Day I’m Groggy? ]

[ I Shake My Head Hard, Side To Side ]
[ But That Does Nothing ]
[ To Keep My Eyes, Open Wide ]

[ I Scan My Surroundings To See What I Can See ]
[ Oh, Is Father Time ]
[ Trying To Catch Up To Me? ]

[ I Don’t Have The Grey Hair ]
[ Or, Bent Over Back ]
[ I’m Really Glad That I Haven’t Had The Scare ]
[ Of A Stroke Or Heart Attack ]

[ Maybe I Should Have Talked About Things, Years Ago ]
[ With People That Know ]

[ What’s Going On ]
[ Because, C’mon ]
[ Do You Really Know Why The Good Old Days Are Gone? ]
[ Long … Gone ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(156)[ Could Be A Sad Day … 2•18•2020 ]

[ Today Could Be A Really Sad Day, If I Let It ]
[ The Thoughts In My Head Have Not Taken A Grip ]
[ Actually My Thoughts Have Been Completely Split ]

[ Which Way Do I Go, What Am I Expected To Do ]
[ Why Should I Ask You? ]

[ What Kind Of Experience Do You Have In These
Kinds Of Things? ]
[ I’d Like To See ]
[ What Your Experience Brings ]

[ When Someone Brings Me Their Story ]
[ As They Are Telling Me About P.T.S.D. ]
[ I Get A Little Wary ]
[ Do You Really Have The Disorder ]
[ Or A Really Harmful Memory? ]

[ Okay, You Experienced, Saw Or Heard Something That
Made It A Bad Event ]
[ So, Now Does Your Mind Get Bent? ]
[ When You Start To Relive How It All Went? ]

[ Or You Just Remember It Well ]
[ You’re Not Reliving The Sight, Sounds Or Smells ]

[ Is It Hard To Get Some Sleep? ]
[ & It’s Next To Impossible To Get Some That’s Very Deep ]

[ I Can’t Let What Has Happened The Last Couple Of Days Get Me
Down ]
[ Send Me Crawling On The Ground ]
[ I’ll Get Up On Own ]
[ To Keep My World Going Around ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]