Tag: #ptsd

(1151)▪︎[ Another Episode … 2023 ]

[ When You Have Been Overcome With P.T.S.D. ]
[ Many Times You Might Ask Yourself ]
[ (WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME?) ]
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[ You Might Think That You Are Having An Anxiety Attack ]
[ But In Reality ]
[ You Could Be Having A Severe Flashback ]
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[ You Won’t Have Control Over Anything In Your Life ]
[ No Control Of Whether It Is Daylight]
[ Or Late @ Night ]
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[ The Date Won’t Matter One Bit ]
[ Neither Does It Matter ]
[ If You Were Fat @ The Time Or Fit ]
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[ You Cannot Fight What Is Coming ]
[ Sometimes The Feeling That Comes With It, Is Mind Numbing ]
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[ You Are Sent Back, In Time ]
[ You Very Well Could Have Been In Your Prime ]
[ The Incident Was Definitely Not Sublime ]
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[ Oftentimes It Could Be The Smallest Thing That Triggers You ]
[ To Strangers ]
[ They Have No Clue ]
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[ One Minute You Are Part Of The Conversation, Than The Next Your Mind Is A Million Miles Away ]
[ Being In A Different Year ]
[ Seeing Things In A Different Way ]
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[ It Could Be A Sound Or A Sight ]
[ Guns, Cars, A Certain Date ]
[ It Could Be (2) People In A Fight ]
[ Whatever It Is, Flashbacks Do Not Wait ]
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[ When One Wants To Take Over Your Mind ]
[ They Are Not The Patient Kind ]
[ They Do Not Wait In Line ]
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[ Flashbacks Puts You Back In To The Mess That You Are Trying To Get Your Mind Away From ]
[ It Is Not A Memory That You Always Welcome ]
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[ It Is No Watermelon Sugar High ]
[ Everything Is The Same ]
[ Flashbacks Never Lie ]
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[ Or Exaggerates The Truth ]
[ There Is No Line To Have One ]
[ Unlike The Kissing Booth ]
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[ @ The Country Fair ]
[ That Is The Kind Of Place Where ]
[ You Would Want To Be There ]
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[ Flashbacks Come & Goes Whenever It Pleases ]
[ It Does Not Come Down With A Case Of The Measles ]
[ For That, It Only Teases ]
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[ You Throw It Right Back If Someone Leaves Any Of Their Dirty Laundry, On Your Piece Of The Tile ]
[ The Dirty Clothes ]
[ Can Be Seen For Miles ]
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[ It Neither Shines A Beacon  Of Light Or Raises A Flag ]
[ To Announce It’s Presence ]
[ It Never Plays Tag ]
[ To Give The Location Of It’s Exististence ]
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[ The Life & Times Of P.T.S.D. Is Bafffling ]
[ The Life & Times I is Unraveling ]
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[ Where, When, How Does It Stop? ]
[ When Do The Clouds Drop? ]
[ How Do You Make The Bubble Pop? ]
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[ It All Stops, But ]
[ When … ]
[ Will You Have One Again? ]
 
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~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(750)▪︎[ A Living P.T.S.D. Victim … 2023 ]

[ P.T.S.D. Comes From Different Directions ]
[ It Can Que The Flashbacks From A Simple Suggestion ]

[ Then Today’s Reality Shuts Down ]
[ It Takes Away My Smile ]
[ Because It Makes Me Frown ]
[ When I Come Back It Takes Me Awhile ]
[ To Get Up Off The Ground ]

[ For Me To Come Back ]
[ I Have To Find The Reality I Lack ]

[ I Need A Way ]
[ To Orient Myself To Today ]

[ Because As I Sit ]
[ I Am Definitely Out Of It ]

[ I’ll Take A Deep Breath ]
[ Showing You I’m Not Near Death ]

[ It Takes Me A Minute Or Two ]
[ To Really Come To ]

[ Get The Cobwebs ]
[ Out Of My Head ]
[ But @ Least I’m Not Dead ]

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~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[  Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ] [酪]

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(268)▪︎[ The Worst Day In August … 4•13•2022 ]

[ This Is A Story That Happened (1) Hot, August Night ]
[ When You Write Or Talk About This Event ] 
[ It Makes Your Chest Go Tight ]

[ There Was Nothing You Could Do ]      
[ But Sadly, This Did Happen To You ]   

[ It Was Just Supposed To Be A Regular Shift ]
[ When The (1) Staff That Was Disliked & Disruptive Called Out ]
[ You Thought That Was A Gift ]

[ You Had Another Senior Staff, So You Thought That The
     Night Would Be Good ]
[ Because Without That (1) Staff, Nothing Would Be
     Misunderstood ]

[ When The Kids Would Get A Directive From That (1) Staff ]
[ Most Would Disregard Him ]
[ While The Others Would Laugh ]

[ Your Other Staff Partner Decided To Take The Positive Kids To
The Gym ]
[ Were You Worried Something Dangerous Would Happen? ]
[ It Might You Thought, But The Chances Were Slim ]

[ You Were Left With (13) Kids That Had Their Privileges Taken  Away ]
[ But You Did Not Feel Threatened ]
[ Or Had The Feeling That Something Was Going To Happen That Day ]

[ You Took The Kids Out Back To Get Some Exercise ]
[ You Were Always The Shortest, In Comparative Size ]

[ The Air Was Getting Hot, Heavy & Sticky ]
[ When It Came To Kids Pairing Up ]
[ Some Were Being Really Picky ]

[ Most Kids Would Pair Up With The Same ]
[ Now Kids Paired Up With Different Names ]

[ Something Was Up ]
[ But You Just Couldn’t Figure Out What ]

[ You Got All Of The Kids Back Inside The Unit All Safe & Sound ]
[ You Went Into The Office So You Could See All Around ]

[ A Voice Distracted You To Look In The Dorm ]
[ After That ]
[ Nothing Was Ever The Norm ]

[ Jack And Bill Ran Into The Dorm Wielding A Fire Extinguisher
& A Wooden Cribbage Board ]
[ It Was Bryan That They Were Running Toward ]

[ You Immediately Pulled Your Duress Pin That Was On Your Waist ]
[ Then You Got On The Phone & Called Security ]
[ Telling Them That This Was Not A Mistake ]

[ Securty Told You Not To Engage ]
[ & Stay Safe ]

[ The Unit Went Crazy With Noise ]
[ It Drowned Out Your Voice ]

[ They Were Swinging & Hitting Bryan In The Head ]
[ You Were Hoping That He Was Not Dead ]

[ A Fire Extinguisher Or A Cribbage Board Makes A Distinctive
Sound When It Hits Someone Above The Shoulders ]
[ He  Covered His Head ]
[ So They Only Hit His Head Holders ]

[ (1) Securty Showed Up @ The Front Door, Starting To Come In ]
[ Jack Sprayed Him With The Fire Extinguisher, So He Would Back Out ]
[ You Did Not Know That It Would Be Over (3) Hours Later, Before Anybody Would Try Again ]

[ Jack Would Demand Your Keys Again & Again, But Whenever
     You Refused ]
[ They Would Continue To Hit Bryan ]
[ Who Seemed Dazed & Confused ]

[ They Took Mattresses & Desks To Barricade The Front Door ]
[ It Was Barricaded From Ceiling To Floor ]

[ You Never Knew That A Toilet Or Sink Could Be Busted By An Extinguisher ]
[ It Can, It Did, It Could ]
[ The Dorm Became Flooded With Water ]

[ They Busted Every Window ]
[ Why? ]
[ Maybe Just To Do So ]

[ (3) Hours Had Past ]
[ You Did Not Know How Long This Was Going To Last ]

[ Then You Saw The Hallway Leading Up To The Front Door Fill Up With Very Large Men Who Were Geared Up Head To Toe ]
[ They Busted Through The Door With Weapons Drawn ]
[ You Ran To The Officer Who Was Waving For You To Go ]

[ Once You Were Outside, Was When The Enormity Of The Situation Hit You ]
[ & What You Just Went Through ]

[ That Was When You Had Uncontrollable Shaking In Your Legs ]
[ They Felt Like (2) Heavy Sleds ]

[ (27) First Responder Vehicles Waited For You In The Yard ]
[ To This Day ]
[ You Have Never Been Through Something That Hard ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ] [酪]

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(452)▪︎[ It Continues … 7•10•2022 ]

[ Through The Years Of Having It, I Have Found That P.T.S.D.
     Has Scarred Me Deep ]
[ So Much So ]
[ It Can, Disrupt My Sleep ]

[ It Gets Into My Thoughts & Twists Time ]
[ It Puts In Front Of Me, A Huge Mountain To Climb ]

[ As My Temperature Gets Hotter ]
[ I Am Craving Water ]

[ But It Depends On How The Cold Water Is Made ]
[ What Helps Me To Drink It ]
[ Are Several Long Squirts Of Cherry Or Grape Kool-Aid ]

[ When I Finally, Lay My Head ]
[ Down On My Bed ]

[ It Is A Mystery, Of What Would Come Next ]
[ I Cannot Ask Google ]
[ Nobody Lets Me Know, Through A Text ]

[ My Mind Makes The Flashback, Look Really Clear ]
[ When My Flashbacks Takes Me Backwards, Almost (20) Years ]

[ In The Muggy Weather ]
[ How Do I Keep My Sanity Together? ]

[ Everything, Looks Normal ]
[ The Behaviors, Have Not Started Being Immoral ]

[ But Just Wait ]
[ My Attention Has Been Diverted To The Dorm ]
[ Watching Through The Rolled Down, Security Gate ]

[ This Is When, I Started To Sweat ]
[ By The End Of The Night ]
[ Both Of The Shirts That I Was Wearing, Were Wet ]

[ I Know What Is About To Happen, Physically ]
[ This Causes Others To Look @ Me, Quizzically ]

[ Mario Was Carrying A Fire Extinguisher & Gustavo Was
     Wielding A Cribbage Board ]
[ Made Of Solid Wood ]
[ But Who Were They Running Toward? ]

[ Then, There It Was ]
[ Mario Hit David ]
[ When He Was Asked Later, He Said It Was Just Because ] 

[ The Sound Of A Large, Full, Fire Extinguisher  Hitting A Kids
     Head Is A Sound That I Cannot Ever Forget ]
[ That Memory Is Set ]

[ After I Pushed My Duress, Security Was Coming In The Front
     Door ]
[ But Mario Made Them Backout ]
[ They Did Not Want To Be Sprayed By The Extinguisher Any-
     More ]

[ Then There Was A Change In The Tone ]
[ I Closed The Office ]
[ I Quietly Said To Myself (I GUESS THAT MEANS THAT I WAS
     GOING TO BE ALONE)

[ No One Else Was Coming Onto The Unit ]
[ In Other Words (I WAS IT) ]

[ The Security Office Kept Telling Me To Not Engage ]
[ So I Sat In My Own Cage ]
[ Watching Those (2) Kids Release All Of Their Pent-Up Rage ]

[ The Other Staff Never Came Back ]
[ With The Other (13) Kids ]
[ Maybe They Were Told That If They Stayed In The Gym, They
     Would Get A Snack ]

[ Time Seemed To Drag On As The (2) Kids, Mario & Gustavo, Went
     Around The Unit Breaking Every Window ]
[ They Could See ]
[ But, Why Was The Time Going By So Slow? ]

[ One Hour, (2) Hours Then (3) Dragged By ]
[ I Had So Many Questions, Starting With (WHY?) ]

[ Finally, The State Police S.W.A.T. Team Came Bursting Through
    The Door, Throwing The Desks To The Side ]
[ They Made A Path That Was Really Wide ]

[ One Of Them Pointed @ Me In My Direction, Telling Me To Come
     To Him With His Finger ]
[ I Grabbed My Lunch Box ]
[ & Did Not Linger ]

[ That Should Be A Positive ]
[ For As Long As I Live ]

[ Each Flashback Is The Same & As Different From Each Other ]
[ When One Ends ]
( Then I Experience Another ]

[ When Will The Flashbacks Stop? ]
[ When I Drop? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ] [酪]

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(650)▪︎[ I Am Not Just PTSD … 7•27•2020 ]

[ Okay, I Realize That I Have P.T.S.D. ]
[ But My P.T.S.D. Does Not Define Me ]

[ I Was Asked To Find The Meaning For Me ]
[ Because Having This Does Not Feel Happy ]

[ This Kind Of Blissful Thinking ]
[ Would Definitely Lead To Hard Drinking ]

[ Which Is Not Something That I Want To Do ]
[ Would Any One Of You? ]
[ Want That Too? ]

[ Because Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ]
[ Is Like Reliving A Horrible Event ]
[ By Pushing The Play Button On Your Minds Digital Recorder ]

[ You Should Always Feel Blessed ]
[ If You Never Have To Deal With This Mess ]
[ But If You Do ]
[ Never Think Of Yourself As Being Any Less ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(024)▪︎[ Pretty Set … 1•7•2022 ]

[ There Are Nights When You Do Not Dream ]
[ Those Are Nights When You Do Not Wake-Up Hearing
Your Voice Scream ]

[ You Always Wish That There Could Be More Nights Of Quiet ]
[ Instead, You Have Nightmares Of The Riot ]

[ Yes, That Was (19) Years Ago ]
[ So? ]

[ Your Nightmares Often Happen During The Day ]
[ When (THE MOVIE) Starts ]
[ You Cannot Figure Out How To Get Out Of It’s Way ]

[ It Is As Small As A Dream In Your Head ]
[ It As Large As The Bed ]

[ You Are Not Always In Bed When These Occur ]
[ They Are So Vivid They Make You Feel Really Unsure ]

[ Unsure Of The Date Or The Year ]
[ Nothing Is Clear ]

[ 2002 Seems Like Yesterday ]
[ (GET OVER IT) Some Say ]

[ Fun Fact ]
[ They Are Not The One That Gets Dragged Back ]

[ Back To A Date That You Wish That Your Memory Would
Forget ]
[ No Luck ]
[ It Seems Pretty Set ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(562)▪︎[ A Horrible Memory … 4•18•2019 ]

[ PTSD Is A Horrible Thing To Go Through Life With ]
[ Some People Say (GET OVER IT) ]
[ (KEEP A STIFF UPPER LIP) ]
[ Well Those People Who Like To Shoot From The Hip ]
[ Think They Know How It Is ]
[ But They Don’t Know Shit ]

[ Take The Worst Thing That Ever Happened To You ]
[ Remember The Feelings, Fear Or Fright ]
[ Times That By Two ]
[ Then Relive That Day Or Night ]

[ You Are Completely Back In The Event, Sight, Smell &
Sound ]
[ Were You Standing Up ]
[ Or Were You On The Ground ]

[ Do You Remember What You Did? ]
[ Were You Out In The Open ]
[ Or Were You Hid ]
[ Were You An Adult? ]
[ Or Were You Just A Kid ]

[ Does It Tease ]
[ Your Mind ]
[ Or Does It Freeze ]
[ You @ The Same Time? ]

[ Are You Wide Awake When It Happens ]
[ Is It Your Spirit That It Dampens ]

[ One Never Knows When A Flashback Will Hit ]
[ It’s Like Playing A Game With A Long Snake ]
[ & Out Of Nowhere You Get Bit ]

[ The Length Of A Flashback Can Be Short Or Long ]
[ It All Depends On If You Are Strong ]

[ Or Weak ]
[ PTSD Can Crush The Meak ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1235)▪︎[ This Is A Recording … 10•13•2019 ]

[ I Remember Putting On A Brave Face ]
[ To Hide The Symptoms Of Depression ]
[ I Always Felt Like A Disgrace ]
[ Because I Needed to Make A Confession ]

[ Whenever Someone Would Ask ]
[ [ HOW ARE THINGS? ] ]
[ I Wanted To Take Off My Mask ]
[ & Tell Them About The Guilt That Depression Brings ]

[ I Could Never Get Away From The Guilt Because It Was
Always On My Mind ]
[ Add My PTSD To The Mix ]
[ & It Seemed Like I Was Always On Rewind ]

[ PTSD Affects Me In Many Different Ways ]
[ & It Can Affect Me For Many Consecutive Days ]

[ Day In & Day Out ]
[ There Were Days Where All I Wanted To Do Was Shout ]
[ Because I Was Having Nightmares About Subjects That
I Knew Nothing About ]

[ Later In The Day The Subject Would Become Clear ]
[ I Was Having Nightmares About Things That I Fear ]

[ Can You Hear That? ]
[ I Can ]
[ I Just Don’t Know Where I’m @ ]
[ As A Man ]

[ Oh, I’ve Been Sitting Here All Of The Time ]
[ Having Flashbacks ]
[ In Between Writing Rhymes ]

[ What’s The Subject For The Day? ]
[ Even In My Confusion ]
[ My Thoughts Can Still Stay ]

[ But I Didn’t Want Or Need Them All ]
[ When One Wouldn’t Go Away ]
[ It Drove Me Up The Wall ]

[ How Do I Keep My Modesty & Sanity? ]
[ In A World Filled With ]
[ Insanity & Vanity? ]

[ That’s One Reason That I Try To Keep My Thoughts Wrapped
Up Nice & Tight ]
[ Because Sometimes When I Try To Verbalize Them ]
[ Things Don’t Quite ]
[ Sound Right ]

[ But Most Of The Time I Stay In My Head ]
[ So My Expressionless Face Can’t Be Read ]
[ But Then Complimentary Words Would Go Unsaid ]

[ Often My Home Was My De-Compression Zone ]
[ A Better Place ]
[ Was Never Known ]

[ I Had To Find Another Place Where I Felt As Safe As Before ]
[ Would I Ever Be Able To Find That Door? ]
[ Where It Was Safe To Walk On It’s Floor? ]

[ Now I Know A Place Where I Can Take My Thoughts & Park ]
[ It’s When I Go To Sleep In The Dark ]

[ When I Open My Eyes I’d Hear This Song ]
[ That Usually Told Me When Something Was Wrong ]
[ I’d Tell Myself (BE STRONG, BE STRONG) ]
[ Even When I Did Not Quite Know What Was Going On ]

[ When I Could Clearly See ]
[ I’d Find That There Is Nobody In The Room ]
[ With Me ]
[ Then I’d Wonder (HOW COULD THIS BE?) ]
[ I Figured Out That It Was Another Flashback ]
[ Caused By My PTSD ]

[ How Can I Get Away From This Disorder ]
[ That Is Like A Recorder ]

[ (SHUT DOWN! SHUT DOWN!) ]
[ Is What I Tell Myself ]
[ It Never Works, I’ve Found ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1153)▪︎[ One Day Over & Over … 9•12•2019 ]

[ Could Others Imagine Reliving One Day Over & Over & Over Again? ]
[ Yes, You Can ]
[ & You Remember When This Merry-Go-Round Began ]

[ It Began On A Sweltering Hot Day in August 2002 ]
[ What Affects You Now, May Not Affect Others, Too ]

[ It Was A Very Muggy Day That Quickly Turned To Night ]
[ You Were A Witness To An Event ]
[ That Affected Your Hearing & Sight ]
[ The Thing That You Could Not Prevent ]
[ Was Something That Started With A Fight ]

[ It Was More Like A Beating ]
[ But One Half Of Those Combatants Used A Fire Extinguisher ]
[ & That Was Cheating ]

[ It Seemed Like There Was A Beating Every Half Hour ]
[ As You Stood In The Office ]
[ Feeling Like You Had No Power ]

[ You Didn’t Want To Just Sit ]
[ You Wanted To Go Out On The Floor ]
[ & End It ]

[ But You Were Directed To Do Nothing ]
[ Not Even Something During Those (3), Very Long Hours ]
[ No, Not A Thing ]
[ You Had To Wait ]
[ & See What The State S.W.A.T. Team Had To Bring ]

[ With Their Shouts ]
[ They Were Able To Get You Out ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(681)▪︎[ The Bad Years … 8•16•2021 ]

[ There Were Years When All You Wanted To Do Was Just
     Lay Down & Drift Off Into A Deep ]
[ Long Sleep ]

[ Could Anybody Take Your Pain Away? ]
[ Even For A Day? ]

[ If You Took All Of Those Pills, Would That Do The Trick? ]
[ You Had All Of Those Bottles From Which To Pick ]

[ Days Were Dark ]
[ You Had No Drive ]
[ You Felt Like You Were Stuck In Park ]
[ You Failed To Thrive ]

[ The Nights Were Even Darker ]
[ The Bad Images In Your Mind Were Always Larger ]

[ The Sounds Of That Person In Pain ]
[ You Heard Over & Over Again ]

[ Being Stuck In A (3) Hour Riot ]
[ Has Stolen All Of The Times When You Needed It To Be Quiet ]

[ There Was Nothing You Could Do ]
[ The Whole System Failed You ]

[ You Had To Listen To That Kid Getting Beat ]
[ All The While The Powers That Had Been There ]
[ Directed You To Take A Seat ]

[ This All Became Your PTSD In A Nutshell ]
[ So For So Many Years Your Memory Dragged You Through
     Hell ]

[ You Can’t Say (& BACK) Because Sometimes Your Memory
     Left You There ]
[ These Kinds Of Memories You NEVER Share ]
[ Unless You Wanted To Scare ]

[ Whoever You Were Talking To ]
[ Whenever You Were In A Flashback You Never Knew ]
[ What To Do ]

[ So Your Dark Days Extended To (21) Or (22) Hours Long ]
[ Everything In Your Head Was Wrong ]
[ You Stopped Feeling Strong ]

[ You Never Turned To Alcohol Or Any Illicit Drugs ]
[ You Never Turned Into A Thug ]

[ But You Did Turn Into Your Worst Enemy ]
[ You Could Not See ]
[ How Things Should Be ]
[ All Because Of Your PTSD ]

[ If Only You Could Go To Sleep For A Day Or Two ]
[ Would All Of These Sleeping Pills See You Through? ]

[ They Almost Did That ]
[ I Was @ The Count Of (2) On The Mat ]

[ But Then You Woke Up One Day ]
[ Then Decided That Wasn’t The Way ]

[ Everyday Since Then, You Walk The Fine ]
[ Imaginary Line ]

[ Do You Want To Go? ]
[ Or Do You Want To Stay? ]
[ Do You Always Know ]
[ That It Is Okay If You Are Not Feeling Okay? ]

[ You Say That Only The Wise ]
[ Recognize ]
[ The Prize ]

[ Through All The Angst & Strife ]
[ The Prize Is Living Your Life ]

[ The Best That You Possibly Can ]
[ & Try To Be Your Biggest Fan ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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