[ I’m Sorry, Mom & Dad ]
[ About The News ]
[ That Made You, Sad ]
[ I Have To Make This So Clear ]
[ That You Can Always Shed A Tear ]
[ From There To Here ]
[ Good Friends Will Always See ]
[ That Friendship ]
[ Is The Way That Things Will Forever Be ]
[ You Will Never Be Far Apart ]
[ Because He Is Forever ]
[ In Your Memories & Heart ]
[ Surround Your Friend With The Love & Care ]
[ That She Needs ]
[ & Be Able To Share ]
[ Your Necklace Of Beads ]
[ Maybe I Didn’t Get That One Correct ]
[ Well, Since I’m Not Catholic ]
[ What Did You Expect? ]
[ Today & Tommorow ]
[ Will Be Filled With Sadness & Sorrow ]
[ I Believe Your Faith Does Say ]
[ That Now He’ll Walk With God ]
[ For Forever & A Day ]
[ It’s Hard To Realize That You Can’t Get Any Hugs From Any
Other Family Members ]
[ I Hope We Can Give You One In September Or November ]
[ I’m Sure Glad That It Wasn’t Either One Of You ]
[ Life Would Never Be The Same ]
[ If We Couldn’t Show How Much We Love You Two ]
[ I’m Going To Make This The End ]
[ I Send My Empathy To You Both ]
[ Because Of The Passing Of Your Close Friend ]
[ Much Love From Us To You, Mom & Dad ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]
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Tag: #mourn
(1011)▪︎[ Thank You, Best Friend … 12•2•2021 ]
[ You Are About To Lose Your Best Friend & You Do Not
Know What To Do ]
[ Time Won’t Stand Still For You ]
[ Even Though You Wish Upon Wishes That Time Would Not
Fly By ]
[ You Know That It Will ]
[ & You Won’t Have The Ability To Ask Why ]
[ Father Time Will Not Halt A Tic Tok For Anyone ]
[ Because Watching The Seconds Fly By Is Not Very Fun ]
[ You Could Be In Denial ]
[ For Awhile ]
[ You Could Sit Down & Take The Battery Out Of A Clock ]
[ Then Actually Feel Like You Put A Halt ]
[ To Your Life’s Real Tik Tok ]
[ That Would Be Denial In The 4th Degree ]
[ How Would That Feel ]
[ Do You Feel Free? ]
[ Your Best Friend’s Body Has Been Taken Over By Cancer ]
[ Some People Say That Everything Happens For A Reason ]
[ Okay, What Is The Reason, When Can I Hear That Answer? ]
[ This Will Leave Such A Void ]
[ In Your Life ]
[ This Is Something That You Wish You Could Avoid ]
[ No One Will Take Your Best Friend’s Place ]
[ That Choice Would Never Be Made In Haste ]
[ No One Will Ever ]
[ You Can Only Wish That Your Memories Could Last Forever ]
[ You Don’t Have A Negative Memory With Your Friend ]
[ There Is Not A Single Event To Defend ]
[ The Sun Setting @ The Beach Will Always Be A Special Memory ]
[ We Did That Twice ]
[ We Were Never In A Hurry ]
[ Time Did Not Matter On Those Days ]
[ We Liked To Sit & Watch The Waves ]
[ That Was When Time Slowed Down ]
[ & The Sun Was All Around ]
[ The Air Felt Warm With Barely A Breeze ]
[ & We Did What We Pleased ]
[ Great Memories In Your Memory Bank ]
[ & You Have Your Best Friend To Thank ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(801)▪︎[ To My Friend … 9•22•2021 ]
[ Saying (I AM SORRY) Just Doesn’t Cover It ]
[ Not Even A Little Bit ]
[ The Sorrow Cannot Be Measured ]
[ But The Memories Are Really Treasured ]
[ You Might Feel Like Your Life Is Tumbling Out Of
Control ]
[ What Can Fill The Hole ]
[ You Have In Your Heart? ]
[ You Ask (WHEN CAN THAT START?) ]
[ Gather Your Friends & Family, Then Hug Them Tight ]
[ Please Remember The Friends That Are Not Always In
Your Sight ]
[ Do Not Fight What You Feel ]
[ Because Mourning Is Real ]
[ & Oh Yea ]
[ I Have To Give A Shout Out To Where & When Our Friendship
Started ]
[ The Year Was (1998) & The Unit Was Omega ]
[ I Did A (2) Term, (12) Weeks Practicum ]
[ For College ]
[ & The 1st Week I Felt So Dumb ]
[ The 1st Day I Was There, I Knew You Were The Alpha Dog ]
[ The Way That You Dealt With The Kids ]
[ & By What & How You Wrote In The Log ]
[ You Took Me Under Your Wing & Taught Me The Ways ]
[ You Showed Me How To Work The Nights ]
[ & Then The Days ]
[ You & Carla Were The Main Reasons That I ONLY Interviewed
For That Unit ]
[ I Couldn’t See That The Others Would Be A Good Fit ]
[ I Always Knew That You Had Higher Aspirations ]
[ That Was One Of The Reasons That You Were Such An
Inspiration ]
[ Then It All Crumbled ]
[ But You Wouldn’t Let Me Stumble ]
[ You Were The ONLY ONE That Stuck By Me When The Shit Hit
The Fan ]
[ You Sent Me Short, Uplifting Texts With (4) Words ]
[(HANG IN THERE, MAN!) ]
[ I Have Admired You Since That 1st Day On The Floor ]
[ Please Know That You Will Always Be Welcomed @ My
Door ]
[ We May Not Be Good @ Keeping In Touch ]
[ Much ]
[ I Still Love You Even Though You Root For The Las Vegas
Raiders ]
[ Since They Left California, Are They Now Called The
(TRAIDERS?) ]
[ I Miss The Short Text (HEY BUDDY) From You Come
Across My Screen ]
[ Those Are (2) Words That Would Stop My Daily Routine ]
[ When Things Get Rough ]
[ Remember The Friends That Helped When Things Were
Tough ]
[(HANG IN THERE, MAN!) ]
[ Much Respect & Love ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(229)▪︎[ What Kind Of Pain? … 3•6•2020 ]
[ Emotional Pain Is Inward Which Makes Us Avoid Ourselves ]
[ Because We Know Of Nothing Else ]
[ It’s Like Not Using A Belt ]
[ So Your Pants Don’t Fall Down ]
[ You Wouldn’t Know How Others Felt ]
[ When You Looked Like A Clown ]
[ The Cause & Effect Of Brent’s Death Is Another Reason
& Example To Not Take Another Drink ]
[ Stop & Think ]
[ Would This Push Me To The Brink? ]
[ Of What? ]
[ A Punch In The Gut? ]
[ An Undercut? ]
[ But, But, But ]
[ How Would I Know That Would Not Be The Time That I Would
Get Addicted? ]
[ Can That Be Predicted? ]
[ While You Are Convicted? ]
[ The Answer Would Be ( NO! ) ]
[ ( I WOULD NOT KNOW ) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(172)▪︎[ Hurting … 2•22•2020 ]
[ I Hurt So Much Right Now ]
[ I Am Supposed To Pull It Together ]
[ But I Don’t Know How ]
[ I Lost My Younger Brother Brent A Couple Of Nights
Ago ]
[ He Passed As He Slept ]
[ & Now I Don’t Know ]
[ How Long I’ve Wept ]
[ He Was The Last Member Of My Family In My Mind ]
[ Oh If I Could Only Pound On The Button That Says
( REWIND! ) ]
[ I Don’t Know How Far Back In Years I Would Go ]
[ Then I’d Hit ( PLAY ) ]
[ & Take It Really Slow ]
[ You See, We Were Separated About When He Was One &
I Was Two ]
[ I Knew I Had A Brother Out There ]
[ Somewhere ]
[ But I Had No Clue ]
[ I Grew Up Not Asking Questions ]
[ Because It Seemed Like Nobody Cared ]
[ Or Nobody Knew ]
[ It Wasn’t Until After We Were Married & My Wife Asked ]
[ ( WOULD YOU MIND IF I LOOKED FOR YOUR BROTHER? ) ]
[ I Told Her That She Could Take On That Task ]
[ But I Don’t Want To Know A Thing About Our Mother ]
[ She Tracked Down The Police Report For When My Dad
Shot Himself In The Head ]
[ Seeing This Report Was Something That I Grew Up To Dread ]
[ The Report Sent Her In The Direction That Would Make
Her Rave & Rant ]
[ Because It Said That The Names Of His Children Was Bobby,
Robin & Brant ]
[ That Made The Direction Of The Hunt Juke ]
[ Instead Of Jive ]
[ It Seems That When Our Dad Got Depressed He Never Told The Truth ]
[ About His Intentions To Die ]
[ The Information That She Found Blew My Mind To Pieces ]
[ She Even Found Names Of Possible Nephews & Nieces ]
[ So He Said He Couldn’t Help Us Know A Man With Brant For
His Name ]
[ But He Stated That He Has An Uncle ( BRENT ) Who Sounded
The Same ]
[ He Told My Wife He Had His Number & North
Carolina Was Where He
Lived ]
[ He Had His Uncle’s Number & Then Said ( THIS IS ALL I HAVE TO GIVE ) ]
[ The Next Night I Sat Down & Picked Up The Phone ]
[ I Thought ( THIS IS LIKE WALKING INTO THE UNKNOWN ) ]
[ A Man’s Voice Came On & Sounded Kind Of Gruff ]
[ Asking Him About Five Questions Was Kind Of Rough ]
[ Then He Asked Two Questions That I Thought Was Strange
But Funny ]
[ ( WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME … DO YOU NEED A KIDNEY ) ]
[ That Was The Start Of What We Had ]
[ He Talked About The Kids Who Call Him Dad ]
[ Brent Was All Of The Family That I’ve Got ]
[ Now Death Has Taken Him ]
[ & All Of That Effort Was For Naught ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(173)▪︎[ You’re Gone Now … 2•23•2020 ]
[ Oh Brother Brent, Brother Brent ]
[ Now Who Am I Supposed To Call To Vent? ]
[ Besides My Son & My Wife ]
[ You Were One Of The Biggest, Most Important & Loved
Parts Of My Life ]
[ Now My Heart, Feels Like It’s Been Cut Out, With A Knife ]
[ Then One Night, When You Couldn’t Hang On ]
[ One Swipe Of Death’s Hand ]
[ & You Were Gone ]
[ Now I Sit & Wonder, About Where The Time Went ]
[ Who Is Responsible For The Bad Times That Were Sent? ]
[ It Wasn’t Superman ]
[ Or Clark Kent ]
[ What Ever Happened, I’ll Never Know ]
[ Why Did You, Have To Go? ]
[ I’ll Never Know ]
[ Why Do I Feel, So Low? ]
[ This, I Know ]
[ I Feel, For Your Family Members ]
[ They Will Always Have Memories Of You, That They Will
Remember ]
[ I Know, That I Do ]
[ I Will Always Remember The Days, When We Came Out
To North Carolina ]
[ & Met You ]
[ I Had To Wait ]
[ All Of Those Years ]
[ Until 1998 ]
[ We Were Apart For Over 30 Years, But Not Of Our Doing ]
[ Growing Up Knowing You Were Out There, But We
Could Not Meet ]
[ Was Quite Grueling ]
[ I Remember What You Asked When I First Called You In N.C. ]
[ ( WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME? ) ]
[ ( DO YOU NEED A KIDNEY? ) ]
[ I Thought That I Could Not Get That Comment From No Other ]
[ I Said To You ]
[ ( WELL, I AM CALLING YOU BECAUSE I THINK YOU ARE MY
BROTHER ) ]
[ I Didn’t Know What To Expect ]
[ But You Did Not Scoff & Show Disrespect ]
[ It Is Hard To Talk About You In The Past Tense ]
[ Especially When None Of This Makes Sense ]
[ We Hardly Scratched The Surface Of Brotherhood ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(154)▪︎[ Give Myself A Talk … 2•17•2020 ]
[ I Tell You This ]
[ I’ll Tell You No Lie ]
[ That When Death Gave You It’s Kiss ]
[ I Had To Try ]
[ To Keep A Dry ]
[ Eye ]
[ You Were My Last String ]
[ Connecting Me To This Messed Up Family Thing ]
[ Now, Who Will Bring ]
[ Such Laughter ]
[ Only During Our Phone Calls ]
[ Not After ]
[ We’d Punch Each Other Silly With Our Put-Downs ]
[ We’d Take Turns Being The Clown ]
[ You Were Supposed To Take Me To Our Home Island ]
[ & Show Me The Town ]
[ All Of Our Dreams Of Growing Old Together ]
[ Has Changed As Fast As The Oregon Weather ]
[ All Because Of This I Ask ]
[ Why Did You Not Complete The Simple Task ]
[ Of Putting On Your Mask ]
[ During The Night After Last ]
[ Maybe You Are Now Sending Me A Message, In Your Own Way ]
[ If I Want To Wake To See Another Day ]
[ I Must Fight ]
[ To Make Things Right ]
[ By Making Sure That MY Mask Must Be On Tight ]
[ Night After Night ]
[ So Everytime I Balk ]
[ I Should Give Myself A Good Talk ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(452)▪︎[ Not Okay To Mourn … 5•4•2020 ]
[ Is It A Waste Of Time To Mourn? ]
[ Does It Continue To Bring Up The Reasons ]
[ That Has Your Heart Torn? ]
[ Over & Over You Have It Bouncing Around In Your Head ]
[ Would You Rather Feel The Pain ]
[ In Your Heart Instead? ]
[ Nobody Wants To Think About What That Pain You Have Is
All About ]
[ What If You Are Wrong? ]
[ & That Causes Doubt ]
[ If You Shout ]
[ It Out ]
[ Does Anybody Actually Hear A Single Word? ]
[ If They Did ]
[ What Have They Heard? ]
[ Will They Say? ]
[ Today? ]
[ Okay ]
[ But In What Way? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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