(260)▪︎[ The Hard Time With My Dad … 3•30•2021 ].

[ In Less Than 180 Minutes, I Need You To Be
     By My Side ]
[ Because My Thoughts Are Making Me Write A Story
     About The Night My Father Died ]

[ It Seemed Like I Had Not Lived With My Dad For Very Long ]
[ Was It About Two Weeks, Before Everything Went All Wrong ]

[ The Apartment Seemed Kind Of Small & The Furniture Was Sparse ]
[ I Guess Anything Was Better Than Living With My Mom ]
[ When Every Day Was Harsh ]

[ I Thought For A Young Child I Was Really Good @ Watching My Dad ]
[ One Constant That I Did Notice ]
[ Was That It Didn’t Take Much To Make Him Really Mad ]

[ He Wasn’t Used To Having 2 Young Children @ His Feet ]
[ He Didn’t Have Alot Of Food In The House ]
[ That 2 Kids Under 3 Could Eat ]

[ It Took Me Awhile To Be Able To Chew & Swallow ]
[ @ Least I Have Food ]
[ So My Belly Does Not Feel So Hollow ]

[ We Had Already Met His Girlfriend Twice ]
[ She Seemed Really Nice ]

[ They Would Go Out Drinking Almost Every Night ]
[ Our Babysitter Was Really Good @ Comforting Us
     When They Would Come Home Drunk ]
[ & Continue To Fight ]

[ Then One Night They Came Home Fighting Until It
     Got Really Late ]
[ Whatever They Were Yelling About ]
[ It Sounded Like There Was Alot Of Hate ]

[ The Amount That They Argue I Couldn’t Tell What
     They Saw In Each Other ]
[ I Wondered If She Was Supposed To Replace My Mother? ]

[ The Yelling Continued For Hours ]
[ My Dad Was So Angry & Sweaty ]
[ That It Looked Like He Just Walked Out Of A Shower ]

[ This Happened Many Nights In A Row ]
[ Whatever Was Wrong ]
[ I Was Too Young To Know ]

[ Then My Dad Left The Room For A Minute Or Two ]
[ I Was Hoping That The Arguement Was Through ]

[ But My Dad Came Back ]
[ & He Looked Like He Was Ready To Attack ]

[ He Was So Angry ]
[ That Is Why I Didn’t See ]

[ The Gun Until It Was Up Against Her Temple ]
[ Who Knew That This Was Getting So Terrible ]

[ I Thought He Just Used It To Scare ]
[ & Then He Pulled The Trigger Right Then & There ]

[ All I Heard Was A ( CLICK! ) ]
[ My Stomach Was Getting Sick ]

[ My Dad Was More Than Frustrated ]
[ He Was Hotly Irritated ]

[ When He Put The Gun To His Own Head & Pulled The Trigger ]
[ Everything Was In Slow Motion ]
[ & Everything Got Bigger ]

[ The Noise Was Loud & Shocking ]
[ The Shock Stopped Me From Walking ]

[ My Dad Did Not Have A Phone Anywhere ]
[ His Girlfriend Ran Out The Front Door ]
[ Looking Very Scared ]

[ I Looked @ My Sister, Not Knowing What To Do ]
[ I Did Not Have A Clue ]
[ I Was Barely Older Than Two ]

[ I Just Stood There Watching My Dad Dieing On The Floor ]
[ I Wanted To Stop Crying ]
[ While Wondering If We Would See His Girlfriend Anymore ]

[ What Was Never Known ]
[ Is That His Girlfriend Ran & Used The Closest Pay Phone ]

[ To Call For Help ]
[ Her Selfless Act ]
[ Should Have Been Written About On Yelp ]

[ That Was The Last Time That I Saw My Dad Alive ]
[ From That Moment On ]
[ My Life Took A Long, Spiraling Dive ]

~ The End ~

[ Auhea kuʻu hoaaloha ]
[ Ke manaʻoʻiʻo nei wau e pono ai e lawe i kēia moʻolelo
     i kahi hopena ]

[ Mahalo no ka hoʻoloheʻana i kaʻu mau moʻolelo ]
[ No laila,ʻoiaʻiʻo,ʻo ia ka mea ]

[ A hui hou aku ]
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[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]