[ How Does One Grieve? ]
[ Help Me Believe ]
[ That Sometime In The Future I’ll See My Brother Again? ]
[ What If I Sin? ]
[ Does My Brother ]
[ Go One Way ]
[ & I Go The Other? ]
[ Some People Say That Everything Happens For A Reason ]
[ That is One Thing That I Don’t Believe In ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]
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Tag: #grieving
(1009)▪︎[ What Is This Reason? … 11•30•2021 ]
[ Well That Was Something That You Never Expected ]
[ Was There A Sign That You Neglected? ]
[ Your Best Friend Just Talked To You On The Phone ]
[ & Told You Something That Was Previously Unknown ]
[ You Never Knew That Her Cancer Was That Bad ]
[ It Would Be A Huge Understatement To Say That You Were A
Little Sad ]
[ A Little Bit? ]
[ Holy Shit! ]
[ It Was A Kick In The Butt ]
[ It Was Also A Punch To The Gut ]
[ You Don’t Want To Feel This Broken ]
[ You Don’t Want Your Best Friend Taken ]
[ She Is So Important In Your Life ]
[ The Most Important Person, Behind Your Wife ]
[ Your Best Friend Has The Biggest Balls Of Anyone That You
Have Ever Met ]
[ She Has Taught You To How To Have Your Own Big Set ]
[ It Has Helped You & Your Marriage Tremendously ]
[ You Will Miss Her Tremendously ]
[ Your Love & Support For Her Is Off The Chart ]
[ Right Now You Have A Broken Heart ]
[ You Don’t Want Someone Coming Up To You & Tell You That
Everything Happens For A Reason ]
[ Really? ]
[ WTF Is This Reason? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(200)▪︎[ Grieving & Leaving … 3•1•2020 ]
A[ This Grieving Stuff Is For The Birds ]
[ My Thoughts Are All Consuming ]
[ But I Can’t Put All Of Them Into Words ]
[ Is There A Special Way To Grieve ]
[ Without Making Your Sanity Leave? ]
[ Like The Falling Leaf ]
[ Can It Be Brief? ]
[ Nothing About Grieving Makes Sense ]
[ It’s As Predictable As Getting A Smile ]
[ On The Face Of Vice-President Pence ]
[ Make Your Life ]
[ Like ]
[ Dice ]
[ Throw Them Against The Wall, Twice ]
[ That’s Like My Thoughts Being Rearranged ]
[ Sometimes They Seem Caged ]
[ All Pent Up In A Little Box ]
[ Who Has The Key, Goldilocks? ]
[ I Wish These Thoughts Of Mine ]
[ Would Fall Into Line ]
[ With Nine Rows Of Nine ]
[ Then They’d Take Me Dakine ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(173)▪︎[ You’re Gone Now … 2•23•2020 ]
[ Oh Brother Brent, Brother Brent ]
[ Now Who Am I Supposed To Call To Vent? ]
[ Besides My Son & My Wife ]
[ You Were One Of The Biggest, Most Important & Loved
Parts Of My Life ]
[ Now My Heart, Feels Like It’s Been Cut Out, With A Knife ]
[ Then One Night, When You Couldn’t Hang On ]
[ One Swipe Of Death’s Hand ]
[ & You Were Gone ]
[ Now I Sit & Wonder, About Where The Time Went ]
[ Who Is Responsible For The Bad Times That Were Sent? ]
[ It Wasn’t Superman ]
[ Or Clark Kent ]
[ What Ever Happened, I’ll Never Know ]
[ Why Did You, Have To Go? ]
[ I’ll Never Know ]
[ Why Do I Feel, So Low? ]
[ This, I Know ]
[ I Feel, For Your Family Members ]
[ They Will Always Have Memories Of You, That They Will
Remember ]
[ I Know, That I Do ]
[ I Will Always Remember The Days, When We Came Out
To North Carolina ]
[ & Met You ]
[ I Had To Wait ]
[ All Of Those Years ]
[ Until 1998 ]
[ We Were Apart For Over 30 Years, But Not Of Our Doing ]
[ Growing Up Knowing You Were Out There, But We
Could Not Meet ]
[ Was Quite Grueling ]
[ I Remember What You Asked When I First Called You In N.C. ]
[ ( WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME? ) ]
[ ( DO YOU NEED A KIDNEY? ) ]
[ I Thought That I Could Not Get That Comment From No Other ]
[ I Said To You ]
[ ( WELL, I AM CALLING YOU BECAUSE I THINK YOU ARE MY
BROTHER ) ]
[ I Didn’t Know What To Expect ]
[ But You Did Not Scoff & Show Disrespect ]
[ It Is Hard To Talk About You In The Past Tense ]
[ Especially When None Of This Makes Sense ]
[ We Hardly Scratched The Surface Of Brotherhood ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(154)▪︎[ Give Myself A Talk … 2•17•2020 ]
[ I Tell You This ]
[ I’ll Tell You No Lie ]
[ That When Death Gave You It’s Kiss ]
[ I Had To Try ]
[ To Keep A Dry ]
[ Eye ]
[ You Were My Last String ]
[ Connecting Me To This Messed Up Family Thing ]
[ Now, Who Will Bring ]
[ Such Laughter ]
[ Only During Our Phone Calls ]
[ Not After ]
[ We’d Punch Each Other Silly With Our Put-Downs ]
[ We’d Take Turns Being The Clown ]
[ You Were Supposed To Take Me To Our Home Island ]
[ & Show Me The Town ]
[ All Of Our Dreams Of Growing Old Together ]
[ Has Changed As Fast As The Oregon Weather ]
[ All Because Of This I Ask ]
[ Why Did You Not Complete The Simple Task ]
[ Of Putting On Your Mask ]
[ During The Night After Last ]
[ Maybe You Are Now Sending Me A Message, In Your Own Way ]
[ If I Want To Wake To See Another Day ]
[ I Must Fight ]
[ To Make Things Right ]
[ By Making Sure That MY Mask Must Be On Tight ]
[ Night After Night ]
[ So Everytime I Balk ]
[ I Should Give Myself A Good Talk ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(274)▪︎[ I Miss My Brother … 3•18•2020 ]
[ I Have A Younger Brother, Brent ]
[ A Month Ago ]
[ Heaven Is Where He Went ]
[ He Passed Peacefully, As He Slept ]
[ Many Times Since That Night, I’ve Wept ]
[ Sleep For Me, Is Far Overrated ]
[ Staying Awake Through The Whole Night, Is What I’ve Hated ]
[ Brent Was Not Just A Relative ]
[ He Was Also The Friend ]
[ Who Was Never Negative ]
[ Positivity Is What He Brought Out In Me ]
[ He’ll Always Be That Way In My Mind, To See ]
[ Humor Was One Thing We Had In Common, Too ]
[ When His Name Would Come Across My Caller I.D. ]
[ I’d Automatically Think ( HOW CAN I CLOWN ON YOU? ) ]
[ We’d Make Funny Cut-Downs That We Never Meant ]
[ Time Together Was One Thing In Our Life ]
[ That Was Hardly Spent ]
[ Brent & I Were Separated During Our Toddler Years ]
[ I’m Sure When We Said Our Goodbyes ]
[ There Were Many Nights Of Tears ]
[ So I Grew-Up Knowing I Had A Brother Out There ]
[ But I Never Knew Where ]
[ I Grew Up Not Even Knowing His Name ]
[ Our Birth Mother Is Who I Blamed! ]
[ Over & Over & Over Because She Was The Reason For The Family
Split ]
[ One Day She Was A Mother Of Three ]
[ Then She Decided, She Didn’t Want Any Part Of It ]
[ Just, So She Could Be Free ]
[ She Gave Up, ALL Of Her Parental Rights ]
[ We Were Too Young To Put Up A Fight ]
[ So Then Fast Forward, In My Life ]
[ My Brother, Was Found By My Wife ]
[ He Was In North Carolina & I Was In Oregon ]
[ I Wondered About How We Could Meet Up Again ]
[ My Wonderful, Generous In-Laws Paid For Our Trip There ]
[ A Hotel Room, A Rental Car, Spending Money & Air Fare ]
[ I’ll Never Be Able To Pay Back Their Generosity ]
[ It Would Take More Than Money ]
[ Much More ]
[ That Showed The Love From All Four ]
[ Of Them ]
[ Brent & I Reconnected Really Fast ]
[ But We Felt We Were Always Connected In Our Past ]
[ We Started A Bond That Would Forever Last ]
[ So We Let Each Other Get Known ]
[ During Our Hours On The Phone ]
[ & Now … God Called Him Home ]
[ There’s Not Going To Be Anymore Phone Calls & Hours
Long Laughs ]
[ His Passing Has Cut My Heart In Half ]
[ There Are Voice Mail Messages On My Phone That I Can’t
Bring Myself To Erase ]
[ I Miss His Voice ]
[ Not His Face ]
[ We Had Plans To Grow Old Together ]
[ Oh How I Miss My Brother ]
[ His Voice Will Always Be In My Ear ]
[ What I Wouldn’t Do ]
[ To Have Him Here ]
[ I Miss Him, I Always Will ]
[ If Only There Was A Magical Pill ]
[ Could It Be Certain ]
[ To Stop My Hurtin’? ]
[ Probably Not ]
[ But I Thank God ]
[ For The Family I’ve Still Got ]
[ Because A Daily Hug From My Beautiful Wife ]
[ Sure Does Hit The Spot ]
[ I Miss You Brent ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(290)▪︎[ Not Again … 3•21•2020 ]
[ Oh Brother, Where Did You Go? ]
[ What Happened? ]
[ Only You & God Know ]
[ Why Can’t I Get You Out Of My Head ]
[ @ Night I Need A Potent Sleeping Med ]
[ To Turn My Waking Hours To Sleep ]
[ But It’s Never Too Deep ]
[ So Many Memories Of You Are Always Pleasant ]
[ You Were My Anti-Depressant ]
[ I Would Laugh So Much During Your Calls ]
[ It Would Shake The Walls ]
[ What Am I Supposed To Do Now ]
[ I Want To Laugh Out Loud Again ]
[ But I Don’t Know How ]
[ They Say ( LAUGH OUT LOUD & THE WORLD LAUGHS WITH
YOU ) ]
[ Tell Me How, Send Me A Clue ]
[ I Need To Treasure Those Around Me More ]
[ I Need To Be More @ Ease ]
[ To Open The Door ]
[ I Love Calling Las Vegas To Talk To My Niece ]
[ It Gives My Mind A Little Peace ]
[ Because When I Talk To My Brothers Daughter ]
[ Sanoe Reminds Me So Much Of Her Father ]
[ She Too, Makes Me Laugh ]
[ For The Time That We Talk ]
[ It Cuts My Grief In Half ]
[ I Know I Talk About My Brother Alot ]
[ I Just Can’t Get My Thoughts To Stop ]
[ Have You Ever Been Able To Stop The Thoughts That Come
Into Your Mind? ]
[ How Do You Rewind? ]
[ What Do I Need To Do To Remind? ]
[ Myself To Remember? ]
[ What If The Calendar Says It’s Already December? ]
[ Oh, Wait ]
[ I’m Too Late ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(321)▪︎[ I Miss You Brother … 3•30•2020 ]
[ Oh Brother Brent, I Miss You So Much ]
[ I Wish You Were Here ]
[ So I Could Stick You With Our Bill For Lunch ]
[ I Always Love To Tease You About Your Choice Of A Pro Football Team ]
[ Winning More Games Than They Lost ]
[ Was Always Their Seasonal Dream ]
[ I Bet You Yearn For Teams From Their Winning Years ]
[ Now All They Do Is Cause You To Shed Lots Of Tears ]
[ If You Want To Compare Teams & Things ]
[ It Always Bothered You ]
[ That My Steelers Have So Many More Rings ]
[ I Always Tried To Bring You Over For A Winning Ride ]
[ But I Could Never Tear You Away From The Dark Side ]
[ I Was Always The Older, Taller, Skinnier, Better Looking One ]
[ & You Always Have Been The One That I Make Fun ]
[ Of ]
[ But I Only Do It Out Of Love ]
[ It Always Bothered You That I Was The Tallest ]
[ & I’m Sorry To Tell You Brother ]
[ You’ve Always Been … The Smallest ]
[ I Miss Our Phone Calls That Always Lasted More Than Hour ]
[ Making Me Laugh & Smile ]
[ Was Your Super Power ]
[ Well I Hope You Will Always Be Up There Watching Over Me ]
[ I Know That’s The Only Thing You Would Do For Free ]
[ Because Here, Free Was Always Your Favorite Price ]
[ When You Could ]
[ You Always Went Back Twice ]
[ But You Decided To Leave Before I Got There ]
[ I Wanted To Give You A Big Hug ]
[ & To Tell You How Much I Care ]
[ Your Picture Will Always Be On My Phone ]
[ & The Sound Of Your Voice Will Forever Be On My Mind ]
[ To Me You’ve Always Shown ]
[ That You Are One Of A Kind ]
[ Talking On The Phone With Your Daughter ]
[ Will Always Remind Me Of You ]
[ Her Father ]
[ Well I Better End This Note ]
[ You Know I’ll Always Laugh About How You Used To Vote ]
[ Trump For 2020? ]
[ No Thanks ]
[ We’ve Already Have Had Plenty ]
[ I Miss You More Than I Can Write ]
[ I’m Glad The Thought Of You ]
[ Was The Last One That I Have Tonight ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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