[ I Want To Write My Best Stories When I Write About Us ]
[ I Want My Words To Hit The Reader ]
[ Like A Greyhound Bus ]
[ A Bus, Not A Train Or Car ]
[ I Want To Leave Them Wanting More ]
[ I Want Them To Take The Feeling & Put It In A Jar ]
[ Twist The Lid, Nice & Tight ]
[ So Nothing Can Leave, Except A Little Bit Of Light ]
[ Everytime You Called I Would Hang Up & I’d Walk Away Grinning ]
[ Because If I Was In A Competition For Best Brother ]
[ I Knew I Was Winning ]
[ By A Mile ]
[ Even Though I Would Have To Wait Awhile ]
[ Your Call Was ALWAYS Worth The Wait ]
[ & Now When You Moved To A Closer State ]
[ God Called You Home ]
[ Oh, If I’d Only Known ]
[ Every Week I Would Had Been Calling You On The Phone ]
[ But I Didn’t ]
[ & I Couldn’t ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
Tag: #grief
(274)▪︎[ I Miss My Brother … 3•18•2020 ]
[ I Have A Younger Brother, Brent ]
[ A Month Ago ]
[ Heaven Is Where He Went ]
[ He Passed Peacefully, As He Slept ]
[ Many Times Since That Night, I’ve Wept ]
[ Sleep For Me, Is Far Overrated ]
[ Staying Awake Through The Whole Night, Is What I’ve Hated ]
[ Brent Was Not Just A Relative ]
[ He Was Also The Friend ]
[ Who Was Never Negative ]
[ Positivity Is What He Brought Out In Me ]
[ He’ll Always Be That Way In My Mind, To See ]
[ Humor Was One Thing We Had In Common, Too ]
[ When His Name Would Come Across My Caller I.D. ]
[ I’d Automatically Think ( HOW CAN I CLOWN ON YOU? ) ]
[ We’d Make Funny Cut-Downs That We Never Meant ]
[ Time Together Was One Thing In Our Life ]
[ That Was Hardly Spent ]
[ Brent & I Were Separated During Our Toddler Years ]
[ I’m Sure When We Said Our Goodbyes ]
[ There Were Many Nights Of Tears ]
[ So I Grew-Up Knowing I Had A Brother Out There ]
[ But I Never Knew Where ]
[ I Grew Up Not Even Knowing His Name ]
[ Our Birth Mother Is Who I Blamed! ]
[ Over & Over & Over Because She Was The Reason For The Family
Split ]
[ One Day She Was A Mother Of Three ]
[ Then She Decided, She Didn’t Want Any Part Of It ]
[ Just, So She Could Be Free ]
[ She Gave Up, ALL Of Her Parental Rights ]
[ We Were Too Young To Put Up A Fight ]
[ So Then Fast Forward, In My Life ]
[ My Brother, Was Found By My Wife ]
[ He Was In North Carolina & I Was In Oregon ]
[ I Wondered About How We Could Meet Up Again ]
[ My Wonderful, Generous In-Laws Paid For Our Trip There ]
[ A Hotel Room, A Rental Car, Spending Money & Air Fare ]
[ I’ll Never Be Able To Pay Back Their Generosity ]
[ It Would Take More Than Money ]
[ Much More ]
[ That Showed The Love From All Four ]
[ Of Them ]
[ Brent & I Reconnected Really Fast ]
[ But We Felt We Were Always Connected In Our Past ]
[ We Started A Bond That Would Forever Last ]
[ So We Let Each Other Get Known ]
[ During Our Hours On The Phone ]
[ & Now … God Called Him Home ]
[ There’s Not Going To Be Anymore Phone Calls & Hours
Long Laughs ]
[ His Passing Has Cut My Heart In Half ]
[ There Are Voice Mail Messages On My Phone That I Can’t
Bring Myself To Erase ]
[ I Miss His Voice ]
[ Not His Face ]
[ We Had Plans To Grow Old Together ]
[ Oh How I Miss My Brother ]
[ His Voice Will Always Be In My Ear ]
[ What I Wouldn’t Do ]
[ To Have Him Here ]
[ I Miss Him, I Always Will ]
[ If Only There Was A Magical Pill ]
[ Could It Be Certain ]
[ To Stop My Hurtin’? ]
[ Probably Not ]
[ But I Thank God ]
[ For The Family I’ve Still Got ]
[ Because A Daily Hug From My Beautiful Wife ]
[ Sure Does Hit The Spot ]
[ I Miss You Brent ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(290)▪︎[ Not Again … 3•21•2020 ]
[ Oh Brother, Where Did You Go? ]
[ What Happened? ]
[ Only You & God Know ]
[ Why Can’t I Get You Out Of My Head ]
[ @ Night I Need A Potent Sleeping Med ]
[ To Turn My Waking Hours To Sleep ]
[ But It’s Never Too Deep ]
[ So Many Memories Of You Are Always Pleasant ]
[ You Were My Anti-Depressant ]
[ I Would Laugh So Much During Your Calls ]
[ It Would Shake The Walls ]
[ What Am I Supposed To Do Now ]
[ I Want To Laugh Out Loud Again ]
[ But I Don’t Know How ]
[ They Say ( LAUGH OUT LOUD & THE WORLD LAUGHS WITH
YOU ) ]
[ Tell Me How, Send Me A Clue ]
[ I Need To Treasure Those Around Me More ]
[ I Need To Be More @ Ease ]
[ To Open The Door ]
[ I Love Calling Las Vegas To Talk To My Niece ]
[ It Gives My Mind A Little Peace ]
[ Because When I Talk To My Brothers Daughter ]
[ Sanoe Reminds Me So Much Of Her Father ]
[ She Too, Makes Me Laugh ]
[ For The Time That We Talk ]
[ It Cuts My Grief In Half ]
[ I Know I Talk About My Brother Alot ]
[ I Just Can’t Get My Thoughts To Stop ]
[ Have You Ever Been Able To Stop The Thoughts That Come
Into Your Mind? ]
[ How Do You Rewind? ]
[ What Do I Need To Do To Remind? ]
[ Myself To Remember? ]
[ What If The Calendar Says It’s Already December? ]
[ Oh, Wait ]
[ I’m Too Late ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(481)▪︎[ It’s A Double Edged Sword … 5•14•2020 ]
[ It Seems Like Forever Since That Last Phone Call ]
[ If I Knew Then, What I Know Now ]
[ I Would Have Stalled ]
[ If I Knew That Would Be My Last Conversation Forever ]
[ I Wouldn’t Hang Up … Ever? ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Would ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Could ]
[ The Thought That We Would Never Again Talk ]
[ To Him ]
[ Oh The Thought ]
[ Would Make Me Balk ]
[ Forever Never Is An Awfully Long Long Time ]
[ All That I Can Do Now ]
[ Is Write My Pain Out In A Rhyme ]
[ Line After Line, Word After Word ]
[ Hello World ]
[ Please Let Me Be Heard ]
[ Hug Your Family, Pull Them Close ]
[ Make A Circle ]
[ Touch Nose To Nose ]
[ I Found That Brent Died Alone In His Sleep ]
[ There Was No Sound ]
[ Not Even A Peep ]
[ He Didn’t Look Around ]
[ Because His Slumber Was Deep ]
[ He Went Peacefully Into The Night ]
[ There Was No Struggle ]
[ There Was No Fight ]
[ He Had No Trouble ]
[ As He Walked Silently Towards The Light ]
[ There Was No Choice ]
[ He Heard Nobody’s Voice ]
[ & There Was No Noise ]
[ My Plan To Visit Came Three Weeks Too Late ]
[ My Brothers Spirit ]
[ Could Not Wait ]
[ There Was Nothing To Be Done ]
[ In That Moment ]
[ There Wasn’t Even One ]
[ More Comment ]
[ The Next Call From Las Vegas Was A Doozy ]
[ The Conversation Made Me Woozy ]
[ Oh, Brother Brent ]
[ I Have So Many Regrets ]
[ Now, I Feel So Spent ]
[ & As The Sun Sets ]
[ I’ve Lost All Track Of The Times When I’ve Wept ]
[ So Love Your Family, Love Your Friends ]
[ You Just Don’t Know ]
[ When A Life Is Going To End ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(888)▪︎[ Grief Is … 10•21•2020 ]
[ Grief Is Such A Tricky Thing ]
[ You Can Never Know The Amount Of Emotions
It Can Bring ]
[ One Minute You Are Up & Then The Next You Are
Down ]
[ On Your knees ]
[ Staring @ The Ground ]
[ Tears Rolling Down Your Face Dripping Down Your
Chin ]
[ Eyeballs Rolling Back ]
[ Because The Scenery Around You Is Starting To Spin ]
[ But Then It’s Gone ]
[ As Fast As It Came On ]
[ You Pick Yourself Up & Say That You Are Doing
Okay ]
[ Maybe For That Moment ]
[ Maybe For That Day ]
[ But Memories Can Be A Double Edged Sword Of The
Worst Kind ]
[ It All Depends On Which Side Of The Sword ]
[ Landed Upright In Your Mind ]
[ Was It A Blessing ]
[ Memory? ]
[ Or Will It Be Messing ]
[ With A Memory Of Someone That You Will No Longer See? ]
[ Good Times & Bad ]
[ Thinking Of All Of The Regrets That You Had ]
[ Makes You Sad ]
[ When Loved Ones Depart Too Early ]
[ That Could Make You Mad ]
[ The Simplest Thing Can Trigger Your Grief ]
[ But It Is Not So Simple To Find Relief ]
[ You Could Hit The Pills ]
[ & Then The Bottle ]
[ To Make You Extremely Ill ]
[ Alcohol Can Help You Escape YOU ]
[ But You Eventually Wake Up ]
[ So You Never Do ]
[ Grief Is A Snap Of The Finger Away From Starting ]
[ Because You Never Get Over The Dearly Departing ]
[ You May Not Have Known Them Since Birth ]
[ To Gauge Their Total Worth ]
[ On This Earth ]
[ But If You Look Back From The Start ]
[ When They Became A Part ]
[ Of Your Heart ]
[ You Can Let Out A Big Smile ]
[ If Only For A Little While ]
[ Then Tuck Them Away Into Your Quite Large Memory
Bank ]
[ & Saying Their Name Is A Way To Say Thanks ]
[ Then Thrive ]
[ & Stay In Drive ]
[ For As Long As You Are Alive ]
[ Because YOU Still Are ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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