[ Hi Ho, Hi Ho ]
[ You Want To Tell Her That You Miss Your Needle Terribly ]
[ Or Did She Already Know? ]

[ In The Early Morning, It Is Way Too Lonely & Quiet ]
[ It Is Hard Waking Up ]
[ When The House Is Totally Silent ]

[ Unfortunately Until She Returns To Her Rightful Place ]
[ Written Words Are Just That ]
[ Until You Express Them To Her, Face-to-Face ]

[ Your Surgery Is Coming Up Really Fast ]
[ You Hate Thinking Of The Aborted Surgery That Was Attempted Last ]
[ But It Just Hangs There, In Your Past ]

[ It Is Hard To Think On The Positive Side ]
[ When There Are Days Like Today, That Kicks @ Your Pride ]
[ It Takes You On A Downward Slide ]
[ Towards The Thought That This Is Your Last Ride ]

[ You Used To Be Afraid Of Death ]
[ But Not Anymore ]
[ Sometimes When You Close Your Eyes @ Night, You Hope That You Would Soon Take Your Last Breath ]
[ Because Death Will Be Knocking On Your Front Door ]

[ Maybe If You Don’t Breathe Heavy Or Cough ]
[ He Will Cross Your Name Off ]

[ That Would Just Be A Taunt ]
[ Because That Is Not Exactly What You Want ]

[ You Are Not Homicidal ]
[ So Please Do Not Worry ]
[ You Are Not Suicidal ]
[ Even Though You Kind Of Seem To Want Death To Come In A Hurry ]

[ What Are You Going To Miss? ]
[ You Cannot Remember Even The Last Year ]
[ That Your Wife, Of Almost (30yrs), Even Wanted A Passionate Kiss ]

[ Will You Miss Another, “Shut The F#*# Up” Spelled Out In A Text? ]
[ Sent To You By Your Loving Son? ]
[ Wondering What He Will Say Next ]
[ Sure Can Create Plenty Of Guesses That Can Sound Fun! ]
[ You Sure Am Glad That He Never Found The Bullet Proof Vest ]
[ That Was Lying Under Your Gun ]

[ You Had Them Sold ]
[ & Taken Far Away From Your Home ]
[ Because You Never Wanted To Find Out How Ice Cold ]
[ He Could Have Become If He Had Known ]

[ (62yrs) On This Earth ]
[ Was Not A Smooth Ride Since Your Birth ]

[ But Then, Nobody Has Ever Said That They Had The Perfect Childhood ]
[ You Survived ]
[ So It Must Have Been Pretty Good ]
[ It Doesn’t Take Downing A Whole Bottle Of Cheap Wine ]
[ To Wonder If Everything That You Were Told As A Child Might Have Been Vastly Misunderstood ]

[ You Feel That You Have Been Very Selective ]
[ With The Answers That Were Written Down ]
[ In Your Advance Directive ]

[ Some Might Say That You Are Being Hasty With This ]
[ If Anyone Wants To Know Your Reasons ]
[ Give You A Minute & You Will Give Them A Full List ]

[ Your Mind Is Completely Clear & Sane ]
[ You Are Not Bordering On The Insane ]
[ But You Are Oh So So Tired Of The Pain ]

[ When They Say, “Everyone Has Pain” That Much Is True ]
[ Unless Someone Wants To Pick Up Your Shoes ]
[ They Don’t Have A Clue ]
[ About All Of The Missed Social Cues ]
[ It’s Not Like You Are Feeling Down & Blue ]
[ It Is Not Like You Haven’t Been Paying Your Dues ]

[ You Did Stop & Pay What Was Due @ Every Tollbooth Along The Way ]
[ But You Never Paid Extra ]
[ Because You Never Wanted To Prolong Your Stay ]
[ For Even A Day ]

[ The Emotional Pain Is The Worst ]
[ That’s The One That Lingers ]
[ & Always Hurts ]
[ From Your Toes, Clear To The Ends Of Your Fingers ]

[ The Pain Is Slow ]
[ It Begins Down Below ]
[ Really Low ]
[ That Kind Of Pain Never Heals Because There Is Not The Much Needed Blood Flow ]

[ The Invisible Wounds Never Heal ]
[ Don’t Let Anyone Try To Convince You That The Pain Is Not Real! ]
[ The Energy That They Steal ]
[ Gives You That Rundown Feel ]

[ You Do Not Wish To Have A Service Of Any Kind ]
[ The Less Your Name Is Said ]
[ The Sooner It Disappears From Everybody’s Mind ]

[ You Have Been Losing Your Will To Live ]
[ Over The Last Couple Of Years ]
[ Sometimes You Feel Like You Don’t Have Anything Left To Give ]

[ You Have Been Trying To Slow Down Your Breathing ]
[ Most Of The Time You Don’t Really Feel Like Eating ]
[ Yes, Needle, Bump, CB2.0EV & Ms. O. You Know That This Sounds Self-Defeating ]
[ But How Do You Put A Positive Spin On Leaving? ]

[ The Only Family You Have Left Is Nicole, Your Wife ]
[ You Feel Like An Albatross Around Her Neck ]
[ But With Your Death, You Hope That She Could Start A Whole New & Exciting Life ]
[ As You Drop The Mic, Can You Ask, “Who’s Picking Up This Check?” ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
A hui hou kaua e kuu hoa

Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

~ Aloha ~

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