[ How Do You Keep Your Head Above The Rising
Water? ]
[ When The Air Around You Keeps Getting Hotter? ]
[ You Want To Dip Your Head Under To Feel Cool ]
[ But The Water Seems To Be Getting So High ]
[ You Have To Stand Up On Your Tallest Stool ]
[ If You Hold Your Breath, You Think You’ll Be Fine ]
[ Life On One Side, Death On The Other ]
[ They Are Just Separated Down The Middle By A Thin Line ]
[ If You Lean To The Right Will You Have Regret ]
[ But When You Look Around ]
[ You Don’t See That Anyone Is Left ]
[ Right Or Wrong ]
[ Having Blind Faith In Others ]
[ Proved That The Bond Was Not Strong ]
[ Two Or Three Have Stayed ]
[ They Never Strayed ]
[ & That Is All That You Have To Say ]
[ About Any Of This ]
[ Right Now On This Day ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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Tag: #death
(1009)▪︎[ What Is This Reason? … 11•30•2021 ]
[ Well That Was Something That You Never Expected ]
[ Was There A Sign That You Neglected? ]
[ Your Best Friend Just Talked To You On The Phone ]
[ & Told You Something That Was Previously Unknown ]
[ You Never Knew That Her Cancer Was That Bad ]
[ It Would Be A Huge Understatement To Say That You Were A
Little Sad ]
[ A Little Bit? ]
[ Holy Shit! ]
[ It Was A Kick In The Butt ]
[ It Was Also A Punch To The Gut ]
[ You Don’t Want To Feel This Broken ]
[ You Don’t Want Your Best Friend Taken ]
[ She Is So Important In Your Life ]
[ The Most Important Person, Behind Your Wife ]
[ Your Best Friend Has The Biggest Balls Of Anyone That You
Have Ever Met ]
[ She Has Taught You To How To Have Your Own Big Set ]
[ It Has Helped You & Your Marriage Tremendously ]
[ You Will Miss Her Tremendously ]
[ Your Love & Support For Her Is Off The Chart ]
[ Right Now You Have A Broken Heart ]
[ You Don’t Want Someone Coming Up To You & Tell You That
Everything Happens For A Reason ]
[ Really? ]
[ WTF Is This Reason? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(875)▪︎[ It Does Not Make Sense … 10•16•2021 ]
[ Grief & Questions Ran Through Your Head ]
[ You Could Not Believe That Your Brother Was Dead ]
[ You Thought, Just Last Week You & Brent Were Talking On The
Phone ]
[ There Were No Abnormalities Concerning His Health That
Were Known ]
[ The Dr’s. Did Not Know, Either ]
[ His Daughter Did Not Know, Neither ]
[ It Seemed Like It Was A Horrible Fluke ]
[ His Health Should Had Jinked ]
[ When Instead It Juked ]
[ He Stopped Breathing Because Of The Position He Was In ]
[ His Airway Was Obstructed ]
[ So He Could Not Catch His Wind ]
[ It Sure Took Some Big Balls ]
[ For His Daughter To Make The Calls ]
[ To Her Mom & You ]
[ Nobody Wanted To Be In Her Shoes ]
[ You Didn’t Go Into Denial When You Got Her Call ]
[ But You Did Want To Hit A Wall ]
[ Through Past Experience You Knew Better Than To Do That ]
[ Your Dreams Of The (2) Of You Growing Old Together, Now
Went Splat! ]
[ Onto The Floor ]
[ So You Cannot Dream That Dream Anymore ]
[ He Really Was Not Taking Care Of His Body As Of Late ]
[ What He Drank ]
[ What He Ate ]
[ Just Was Not All That Great ]
[ Your Brother Always Thought That It Was Best ]
[ To Live His Life With Zest ]
[ Maybe He Thought ]
[ That Kind Of Life Would Put Hair On His Chest ]
[ But It Wouldn’t ]
[ Because It Couldn’t ]
[ Why Didn’t He Take Care Of Himself Better In Those Last Years? ]
[ So Now Your Dreams Are Reduced To Tears ]
[ You Used To Joke About Getting Kicked Out Of Places ]
[ Because You Guys Wouldn’t Stop Putting On Wheelchair
Races ]
[ You Used To Tease Him, But Not The Mean Kind ]
[ That You Always Beat Him In Your Mind ]
[ You Thought That You Will Really Miss Those Calls That
You (2) Had ]
[ Nothing That Was Said, Was Ever Bad ]
[ Everytime You Had To Hang-Up The Phone ]
[ You Got Sad ]
[ Now Who Is Going To Call You To Make You Laugh & Laugh
For Over An Hour? ]
[ You Found That Your Brother Had That Innate Power ]
[ Nothing You Said To Each Other Made Sense ]
[ He Sure Had The Knack Of Helping You Unwind When He Called
To See That Things Were Tense ]
[ The (MOURNING PERIOD) That People Have Always Talked
About Were Incorrect When It Came To You ]
[ Most Of The Levels Of Grief You Breezed Right Through ]
[ Grief Never Got You All Riled ]
[ Most Of The Time ]
[ Because You Never Went Through A Mountain Of Denial ]
[ That You Couldn’t Climb ]
[ When His Daughter Called To Let You Know That Your Brother
Had Died ]
[ You Never Argued With Her & Thought That She Had Lied ]
[ You Did Have Times When You Shed Your Share Of Tears ]
[ But You Never Drowned Your Sorrows ]
[ In Shots Of Tequila & Beers ]
[ Since He Died In February ]
[ A Trip To Las Vegas In March ]
[ Was Not Necessary ]
[ You Struggle To Make Sense Of The Senseless ]
[ Because How Did He Get Into This Mess? ]
[ Now That He Is Gone ]
[ Everyone Has Had To Move On ]
[ Your Brother May Not Have Lived The Cleanest Life ]
[ But You Are So Glad That He Separated From His Horrible,
Greedy & Mean Wife ]
[ You Miss Your Brother @ Times ]
[ That Is Why You Had To Write This Rhyme ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(681)▪︎[ The Bad Years … 8•16•2021 ]
[ There Were Years When All You Wanted To Do Was Just
Lay Down & Drift Off Into A Deep ]
[ Long Sleep ]
[ Could Anybody Take Your Pain Away? ]
[ Even For A Day? ]
[ If You Took All Of Those Pills, Would That Do The Trick? ]
[ You Had All Of Those Bottles From Which To Pick ]
[ Days Were Dark ]
[ You Had No Drive ]
[ You Felt Like You Were Stuck In Park ]
[ You Failed To Thrive ]
[ The Nights Were Even Darker ]
[ The Bad Images In Your Mind Were Always Larger ]
[ The Sounds Of That Person In Pain ]
[ You Heard Over & Over Again ]
[ Being Stuck In A (3) Hour Riot ]
[ Has Stolen All Of The Times When You Needed It To Be Quiet ]
[ There Was Nothing You Could Do ]
[ The Whole System Failed You ]
[ You Had To Listen To That Kid Getting Beat ]
[ All The While The Powers That Had Been There ]
[ Directed You To Take A Seat ]
[ This All Became Your PTSD In A Nutshell ]
[ So For So Many Years Your Memory Dragged You Through
Hell ]
[ You Can’t Say (& BACK) Because Sometimes Your Memory
Left You There ]
[ These Kinds Of Memories You NEVER Share ]
[ Unless You Wanted To Scare ]
[ Whoever You Were Talking To ]
[ Whenever You Were In A Flashback You Never Knew ]
[ What To Do ]
[ So Your Dark Days Extended To (21) Or (22) Hours Long ]
[ Everything In Your Head Was Wrong ]
[ You Stopped Feeling Strong ]
[ You Never Turned To Alcohol Or Any Illicit Drugs ]
[ You Never Turned Into A Thug ]
[ But You Did Turn Into Your Worst Enemy ]
[ You Could Not See ]
[ How Things Should Be ]
[ All Because Of Your PTSD ]
[ If Only You Could Go To Sleep For A Day Or Two ]
[ Would All Of These Sleeping Pills See You Through? ]
[ They Almost Did That ]
[ I Was @ The Count Of (2) On The Mat ]
[ But Then You Woke Up One Day ]
[ Then Decided That Wasn’t The Way ]
[ Everyday Since Then, You Walk The Fine ]
[ Imaginary Line ]
[ Do You Want To Go? ]
[ Or Do You Want To Stay? ]
[ Do You Always Know ]
[ That It Is Okay If You Are Not Feeling Okay? ]
[ You Say That Only The Wise ]
[ Recognize ]
[ The Prize ]
[ Through All The Angst & Strife ]
[ The Prize Is Living Your Life ]
[ The Best That You Possibly Can ]
[ & Try To Be Your Biggest Fan ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(497)▪︎[ Your Brother Is Gone … 6•16•2021 ]
[ As You Sit There Looking @ Your Brothers Tombstone ]
[ You Now Feel, All Alone ]
[ Some Say It Was A Senseless Death That Day ]
[ Is That Really What Some People Say? ]
[ I Am On The Fence ]
[ Is There A Way That your Brother Could Die That Would Make
Sense? ]
[ You Hear Mumbles ]
[ & Grumbles ]
[ You’re Not So Dense ]
[ To Hear That ]
[ & It Not Make You Tense ]
[ This May Sound Dumb ]
[ But Death Took Away My Brother’s Freedom ]
[ He Can No Longer Come Over For A Visit ]
[ You Can’t Have The Option To Go Over To His House & Just
Sit ]
[ For A Bit ]
[ Your Brother Is Pain Free Now ]
[ You Wish That You Could ]
[ But You Don’t Know How ]
[ How Do You Continue On ]
[ Now That Your Brother Is Gone? ]
[ Nobody Knows What Went Wrong ]
[ Was His Will To Live, Not Very Strong? ]
[ When His Path Was Shown ]
[ Was The Writing On The Wall Known? ]
[ The Grim Reaper Does Not Show Up @ Your Doorstep To
Talk ]
[ They Show Up To Take You On That Long, Quiet Walk ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(105)▪︎[ Giving Up … 2•4•2020 ]
[ Right Now Some People Feel Like They’re In The Fight Of
Their Life ]
[ It’s Not Because Of A Stranger With A Knife ]
[ It’s From Fighting The Urge To Not Walk Towards The Bright ]
[ Shining Light ]
[ But It’s So Pretty ]
[ & The Warmth From The Beam ]
[ Feels Like A Soft Kitty ]
[ But What’s On The Other Side? ]
[ The Only Ones That Know ]
[ Have Gone Off & Died ]
[ Why Does Someone Walk Towards The Light When It’s Not
Their Time? ]
[ What If They’re In Their Prime? ]
[ & They Want To Just Call It Quits ]
[ Because @ This Point In Time, They Just Don’t Give A Shit ]
[ Where Did It All Go Wrong? ]
[ When Did They Stop Being Strong? ]
[ Maybe The Length ]
[ Of An Illness ]
[ Has Zapped Their Strength ]
[ & Willingness ]
[ To Go On ]
[ Their Drive Is Gone ]
[ But What About Those Left Behind? ]
[ Will Their Memories Help Remind? ]
[ Them ]
[ Of The Times They Went Out & Dined ]
[ A Picture Whispers A Thousand Words ]
[ When They Spoke ]
[ Were They Heard? ]
[ When They Were Young They Were Alert & Wired ]
[ Now That They Are Older ]
[ They Wake In The Morning Still Tired ]
[ Goodbye, Unyunghikaseyo, Adiōs, Au revoir, Sayōnara Is
What They Wrote ]
[ In Their Final Note ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(229)▪︎[ What Kind Of Pain? … 3•6•2020 ]
[ Emotional Pain Is Inward Which Makes Us Avoid Ourselves ]
[ Because We Know Of Nothing Else ]
[ It’s Like Not Using A Belt ]
[ So Your Pants Don’t Fall Down ]
[ You Wouldn’t Know How Others Felt ]
[ When You Looked Like A Clown ]
[ The Cause & Effect Of Brent’s Death Is Another Reason
& Example To Not Take Another Drink ]
[ Stop & Think ]
[ Would This Push Me To The Brink? ]
[ Of What? ]
[ A Punch In The Gut? ]
[ An Undercut? ]
[ But, But, But ]
[ How Would I Know That Would Not Be The Time That I Would
Get Addicted? ]
[ Can That Be Predicted? ]
[ While You Are Convicted? ]
[ The Answer Would Be ( NO! ) ]
[ ( I WOULD NOT KNOW ) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(200)▪︎[ Grieving & Leaving … 3•1•2020 ]
A[ This Grieving Stuff Is For The Birds ]
[ My Thoughts Are All Consuming ]
[ But I Can’t Put All Of Them Into Words ]
[ Is There A Special Way To Grieve ]
[ Without Making Your Sanity Leave? ]
[ Like The Falling Leaf ]
[ Can It Be Brief? ]
[ Nothing About Grieving Makes Sense ]
[ It’s As Predictable As Getting A Smile ]
[ On The Face Of Vice-President Pence ]
[ Make Your Life ]
[ Like ]
[ Dice ]
[ Throw Them Against The Wall, Twice ]
[ That’s Like My Thoughts Being Rearranged ]
[ Sometimes They Seem Caged ]
[ All Pent Up In A Little Box ]
[ Who Has The Key, Goldilocks? ]
[ I Wish These Thoughts Of Mine ]
[ Would Fall Into Line ]
[ With Nine Rows Of Nine ]
[ Then They’d Take Me Dakine ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(565)▪︎[ No More Pain … 7•9•2021 ]
[ Suicide Is Very Prevalent, In Today’s Society ]
[ It Can Be A Mental Disorder, Where People Suffer Quietly ]
[ As They Go Quietly In The Night ]
[ Because They Give Up ]
[ & Quit The Fight ]
[ Sometimes It Is Because They Have No More Energy To Keep
Fighting ]
[ So They Put Down Their Pen ]
[ After They Are Done Writing ]
[ Their Suicide Note ]
[ Then They Read, What They Just Wrote ]
[ They Wrote That Nothing Makes Them Happy, Anymore ]
[ Not Even A Friend, Walking Through The Door ]
[ Sometimes Days On End ]
[ Are Stayed Covered Up, In Their Bed ]
[ Only Getting Up For Drinks Or Food ]
[ Thinking That Whatever They Say, Will Be Misunderstood ]
[ Getting Up Fewer & Fewer Times, As The Hours Tick By ]
[ Because Of Their Depressive Moods ]
[ No One Comes By, To Say ( HI ) ]
[ The More Days That People Stay Away ]
[ The Less They Eat ]
[ & The Less That They Weigh ]
[ Sometimes Suicidal Thoughts, Consume Them ]
[ Getting Away From The Suicidal Thoughts, Becomes A Problem ]
[ Once They Have Decided To Take Their Pills ]
[ A Feeling Of Warmth, Pushes Out The Chills ]
[ Then They Quietly Lay Down & Close Their Eyes ]
[ No Longer Having To Listen, To Anymore Lies ]
[ When They Are Found, They Are Gone ]
[ Their Soul Has Moved On ]
[ Then, There Is No More Pain ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]