2025 ]

[ Hi Ho, Hi Ho ]
[ You Want To Tell Her That You Miss Your Needle Terribly ]
[ Or Did She Already Know? ]

[ In The Early Morning, It Is Way Too Lonely & Quiet ]
[ It Is Hard Waking Up ]
[ When The House Is Totally Silent ]

[ Unfortunately Until She Returns To Her Rightful Place ]
[ Written Words Are Just That ]
[ Until You Express Them To Her, Face-to-Face ]

[ Your Surgery Is Coming Up Really Fast ]
[ You Hate Thinking Of The Aborted Surgery That Was Attempted Last ]
[ But It Just Hangs There, In Your Past ]

[ It Is Hard To Think On The Positive Side ]
[ When There Are Days Like Today, That Kicks @ Your Pride ]
[ It Takes You On A Downward Slide ]
[ Towards The Thought That This Is Your Last Ride ]

[ You Used To Be Afraid Of Death ]
[ But Not Anymore ]
[ Sometimes When You Close Your Eyes @ Night, You Hope That You Would Soon Take Your Last Breath ]
[ Because Death Will Be Knocking On Your Front Door ]

[ Maybe If You Don’t Breathe Heavy Or Cough ]
[ He Will Cross Your Name Off ]

[ That Would Just Be A Taunt ]
[ Because That Is Not Exactly What You Want ]

[ You Are Not Homicidal ]
[ So Please Do Not Worry ]
[ You Are Not Suicidal ]
[ Even Though You Kind Of Seem To Want Death To Come In A Hurry ]

[ What Are You Going To Miss? ]
[ You Cannot Remember Even The Last Year ]
[ That Your Wife, Of Almost (30yrs), Even Wanted A Passionate Kiss ]

[ Will You Miss Another, “Shut The F#*# Up” Spelled Out In A Text? ]
[ Sent To You By Your Loving Son? ]
[ Wondering What He Will Say Next ]
[ Sure Can Create Plenty Of Guesses That Can Sound Fun! ]
[ You Sure Am Glad That He Never Found The Bullet Proof Vest ]
[ That Was Lying Under Your Gun ]

[ You Had Them Sold ]
[ & Taken Far Away From Your Home ]
[ Because You Never Wanted To Find Out How Ice Cold ]
[ He Could Have Become If He Had Known ]

[ (62yrs) On This Earth ]
[ Was Not A Smooth Ride Since Your Birth ]

[ But Then, Nobody Has Ever Said That They Had The Perfect Childhood ]
[ You Survived ]
[ So It Must Have Been Pretty Good ]
[ It Doesn’t Take Downing A Whole Bottle Of Cheap Wine ]
[ To Wonder If Everything That You Were Told As A Child Might Have Been Vastly Misunderstood ]

[ You Feel That You Have Been Very Selective ]
[ With The Answers That Were Written Down ]
[ In Your Advance Directive ]

[ Some Might Say That You Are Being Hasty With This ]
[ If Anyone Wants To Know Your Reasons ]
[ Give You A Minute & You Will Give Them A Full List ]

[ Your Mind Is Completely Clear & Sane ]
[ You Are Not Bordering On The Insane ]
[ But You Are Oh So So Tired Of The Pain ]

[ When They Say, “Everyone Has Pain” That Much Is True ]
[ Unless Someone Wants To Pick Up Your Shoes ]
[ They Don’t Have A Clue ]
[ About All Of The Missed Social Cues ]
[ It’s Not Like You Are Feeling Down & Blue ]
[ It Is Not Like You Haven’t Been Paying Your Dues ]

[ You Did Stop & Pay What Was Due @ Every Tollbooth Along The Way ]
[ But You Never Paid Extra ]
[ Because You Never Wanted To Prolong Your Stay ]
[ For Even A Day ]

[ The Emotional Pain Is The Worst ]
[ That’s The One That Lingers ]
[ & Always Hurts ]
[ From Your Toes, Clear To The Ends Of Your Fingers ]

[ The Pain Is Slow ]
[ It Begins Down Below ]
[ Really Low ]
[ That Kind Of Pain Never Heals Because There Is Not The Much Needed Blood Flow ]

[ The Invisible Wounds Never Heal ]
[ Don’t Let Anyone Try To Convince You That The Pain Is Not Real! ]
[ The Energy That They Steal ]
[ Gives You That Rundown Feel ]

[ You Do Not Wish To Have A Service Of Any Kind ]
[ The Less Your Name Is Said ]
[ The Sooner It Disappears From Everybody’s Mind ]

[ You Have Been Losing Your Will To Live ]
[ Over The Last Couple Of Years ]
[ Sometimes You Feel Like You Don’t Have Anything Left To Give ]

[ You Have Been Trying To Slow Down Your Breathing ]
[ Most Of The Time You Don’t Really Feel Like Eating ]
[ Yes, Needle, Bump, CB2.0EV & Ms. O. You Know That This Sounds Self-Defeating ]
[ But How Do You Put A Positive Spin On Leaving? ]

[ The Only Family You Have Left Is Nicole, Your Wife ]
[ You Feel Like An Albatross Around Her Neck ]
[ But With Your Death, You Hope That She Could Start A Whole New & Exciting Life ]
[ As You Drop The Mic, Can You Ask, “Who’s Picking Up This Check?” ]

~ Ka hopena ~

Mahalo nui loa
A hui hou kaua e kuu hoa

Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

~ Aloha ~

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(014)▪︎[ The Unsolved … 2024 ]

[ Sometimes People Can Be So Cruel ]
[ To Each Other ]
[ Nobody Wants, Chooses Or Feels The Need To Apply The Golden Rule ]
[ Especially When People Drink With Their Brother ]

[ Family In-Fighting ]
[ Is Like A Storm ]
[ Constant Rain, Loud Thunder & Lots Of Lightning ]
[ This Is What The Young Kids See Is The Norm ]

[ During The Day People Are Filled With Charm ]
[ After Introducing The Slightest Bit Of Alcohol ]
[ Family Members Can Set Out To Do Alot Of Harm ]

[ There Are Some People Who Always Want What Others Have ]
[ Maybe When They Know That Their Older Mom Is Taking A Bath ]
[ They Do Not Want To Wait Until Their Mom Passes ]
[ Because Then They Would Only Inherit Half ]

[ Of What Their Mother Ended Up Being Worth ]
[ They Never Knew How Lucky They Have Been Throughout Their Lives ]
[ Because They Had Been In Their Mother’s Will Shortly After Their Birth ]

[ There Is A Big Part Of Society That Wants To Cut Corners In Their Quest To Getting Wealthy ]
[ But Just Like A Person’s Body ]
[ People Are Not In Too Much Of A Hurry To Get Healthy ]

[ You Can Be Sure ]
[ That You Can Never Hurry ]
[ Or Fool Mother Nature ]

[ That Is Why There Will Always Be Nations @ War ]
[ Even Though It Is Filled With Death & Horror ]
[ Though Most Countries Are Prospering Now ]
[ There Are Alot Of Countries That Like To Want More ]

[ Need ]
[ & Greed ]

[ Are Not Too Far Apart ]
[ One Does & One Doesn’t ]
[ Have Or Show Alot Of Heart ]

[ People Do Not Think With That Organ, Though ]
[ So ]
[ The Leaders Of Those Countries Do Not Surround Themselves With Alot Of Men ]
[ That Continue To Say, “Uh, No!” ]

[ Why Do People Argue & Oftentimes Fight With Another Family Member? ]
[ From What Some People & Statistics Say ]
[ Alot Of This Occurs Around The Holdays That Happen In November & December ]

[ That Is During The Times That Alot Of People Fear ]
[ Whoever Thought Up The Stupid Idea ]
[ Of Bringing People Together That They Do Not Want To Deal With The Rest Of The Year ]

[ Then Someone, Years Ago, Decided To Bring Alcohol Into This Almost Explosive Mixture ]
[ Give A Man Of Any Age Several Drinks ]
[ They Start Acting Really Immature ]
[ Then No One Can Figure Out What He Thinks ]

[ There Are Alot Of Single Or Divorced ]
[ That Are Constantly Looking For Their Lifetime Mate ]
[ If A Woman Rebuffs Their Advances, Than They Might Be Forced ]
[ Because Instead Of Love, They Are Filled With Nothing But Hate ]

[ For Some Offenders, That Much Hate Cannot Ever Be Counseled Out Of Their Head ]
[ The One Sure Way To Know If The Counseling Will Ever Work ]
[ When He Is Found In His Apartment, Dead ]
[ Then Women Will No Longer Have To Put Up With The Jerk ]

[ It Seems That The Police Were Not Too Enthused About Signing Off On This Case ]
[ They Don’t Want To Walk Quickly Through A Crime Scene ]
[ Then Overlook A Clue ]
[ As They Shut The Door In Haste ]

[ So It Was Decided By Everyone Involved ]
[ This Case Will Never Be Solved ]

Mahalo Nui Loa
Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

(242)▪︎[ The Death Of Civilization … 2025 ]

[ It Seems To Be So Problematic To Live Life In A Bubble ]
[ All Around You, There Seems To Be Nothing But Trouble ]
[ Because All Around You, People Seem To Be So Gullible ]

[ But When In Doubt ]
[ You Should Look All Around ]
[ Then Stand Up & Shout ]

[ Shout About What, Is Up To You ]
[ Maybe The Way That People See Things, Is A Good Place To Start ]
[ One Clue ]
[ Would Be To See What They Feel, In Their Heart ]

[ Some People See That The City Is The Sunset Of Civilization ]
[ The Consternation ]
[ For Any Civilized Nation ]

[ Does The City Always Promote Growth ]
[ Or Is Concrete]
[ All They Wrote? ]

[ It Is The End Of All Means ]
[ The Dead End Streets ]
[ Shows That There Isn’t A Single Thing In-Betwwn ]

[ In-Between The Concrete Or The Stop Signs ]
[ Making The Street Lights ]
[ Benign ]
[ To Personal Rights ]

[ It Has Been Stated ]
[ & Debated ]
[ That Personal Rights Has Been ]
[ Vastly Overrated ]

[ Some People Try To Be So Professional ]
[ But Then They Want To Remain Impersonal ]

[ The Probability ]
[ Of Having Their World Like That ]
[ Could Possibly ]
[ Be A Possibility ]

[ There Are Those That Just Want To Act Like A.I. ]
[ They Never Want To Look @ You In The Eyes ]
[ So That Seems To Be Why ]

[ Society Has Become What Is Now ]
[ Some Married Couples Don’t Follow Their Vows ]
[ Farms Are Bulldozed Over ]
[ So There Is No More Need For A Plow ]

Mahalo Nui Loa
Na,
Lopaka DeVoe

(019)▪︎[ What She Does … 2024 ]

[ You Do Not Like, The Playing Of This Song ]
[ It Always Reminds You, That She Would Get All Of The Words Wrong ]
[ & That Your Marriage, Did Not Last Very Long ]

[ Nothing In Life, Really Does ]
[ The Wolves Were Always Knocking @ The Door ]
[ Arriving Every Hour, On The Hour, Off Of The Bus ]
[ Every Hour, Bringing More, Than The Hour Before ]

[ Why Was This Permanent Path There, In The First Place? ]
[ Was It Just To Catch A Glimpse Of Her Body ]
[ Or Her Face? ]

[ You Could Always Bet ]
[ That They Had Yet ]
[ To See Her Greatest Asset ]

[ That Would Be Her Dynamic Personality ]
[ That Most Men Only Read About ]
[ But Never Experienced In Reality ]

[ Ever Since Meeting Her, You Began To Feel Alive ]
[ Before Her, Year After Year ]
[ Would Take Your Pitiful Life On An Ever Deeper Dive ]
[ Making Your Way Through Every Gin Joint So You Could Consume Beer After Beer ]

[ Until You Would Drink Well Over (2) Cases In As Little Time As (3) Nights ]
[ Choosing To Pick Fights ]
[ With Every Little Thing That Caused You To Have Night Frights ]

[ You Were Always Haunted By The Death Of Your First Wife ]
[ Because Of Your Drunk Driving ]
[ Your Car Crash Took Her & Both Of Your Twin Daughter’s Lives ]

[ She Just Turned (37) ]
[ Megan & Julliette Just Turned (10) ]
[ All (3) Are Forever Together Up In Heaven ]
[ Boy Do You Think Of Them Often ]

[ Unfortunately, You Walked Away From That Crash With Barely A Scratch On Your Wretched Self ]
[ After That Horrific Night, You Have Rarely Thought Of Anything Else ]
[ Even After (17) Years Your Self-Esteem Was Sitting Still In The Garage On A Shelf ]

[ Every Time That You Get Temporarily Stupid & Reach For A Single Drink ]
[ You Have To Stop & Really Think ]
[ Those Decades Almost Pushed You To The Brink ]

[ You Should Take Their Deaths, As Just A Stepping Stone ]
[ The Problems Only Arise ]
[ When You Have To Deal With The Death Of Loved Ones, All Alone ]

Mahalo
~LopakaDeVoe~

(023)▪︎[ To Your Only Brother … 2024 ]

[ Dear Brother Brent ]

[ You Wish You Could Have Been With Him The Night That He Went ]
[ Maybe You Could Have Camped Outside Of Their Apartment ]
[ In A Tent ]

[ Into His Deep ]
[ Restful Sleep ]

[ Hardly A Day Goes By ]
[ When He Is Not Close To Your Thoughts ]
[ Making You Want To Break Down & Have Yet ANOTHER Good Cry ]

[ What Good Would That Do You? ]
[ Nothing Good Comes From One Though ]
[ How Would You Know When You Are Through? ]

[ When His Death Happened, One Cry Lead In To The Next ]
[ What You Would Have Given ]
[ To Receive Just One More Text ]

[ Or Phone Call ]
[ Where We Would Continuously Tease Each Other ]
[ Because Neither One Of You Is Remotely Considered To Be Tall ]

[ It Was All Good & Fun ]
[ When You Would Call Yourself ]
[ The Taller & Better Looking One ]

[ You Wish That The Last Text Messages Were More Positive Than They Were ]
[ In A Way ]
[ His Responses Left You Feeling Hurt ]

[ You Never Should Have Expected Him To Be Serious ]
[ But You Were More Than Just A Bit Curious ]

[ You Never Thought That Those Would Be The Last Ones That You Would Get ]
[ If You Did, You Wouldn’t Have Text About A Topic That You Have Come To Regret ]

[ Will You Ever Forgive Yourself? ]
[ Does Forgiveness Have To Come From Somewhere Else? ]

[ From Outside Of Your Own Mind? ]
[ Will It Come From Being On The Path To Going Dakine? ]
[ What Could You Be Looking For To Find? ]
[ Will Things Ever Be Fine? ]

[ Again? ]

[ Probably Not ]

|| The End ||

Mahalo
~LopakaDeVoe~

(358)▪︎[ My Job …2023】

[ The Sin Is Deep Inside Of Me ]
[ But I Have To Keep It Under Lock & Key ]

[ In My Nightmares The Man With No Name Put The Weapon In My Hand ]
[ That Helped Me Make It Easier ]
[ To Walk Outside & Kill That Abusive Man ]

[ That Used To Live Two Doors Down ]
[ In Another Apartment ]
[ But His Front Door Was Painted A Dirty Shade Of Brown ]

[ Every Night The Neighbors Could Hear The Violence ]
[ When The Children Were Allowed To Go To School ]
[ They Were Sworn To Silence ]

[ They Always Showed Up With Broken Bones & Bruises ]
[ The Younger Kids Always Showed Up With Small Contusions ]

[ Whenever The Authorities Would Question The Mom & Dad ]
[ The Mother Would Do All Of The Talking ]
[ When The Father Was Asked, He Always Said (I HAVE NOTHING TO ADD) ]

[ The (5) Children Rarely Played Outside ]
[ The Park Across The Street ]
[ Had Swings & A Slide ]

[ The Neighbors Hardly Ever Saw The Father Come & Go ]
[ His Occupation Was Never Known ]

[ He Left Home When Nobody Was Awake ]
[ Every Once In Awhile, There Would Be This Wonderful Smell, Coming From Their Open Window ]
[ That Showed How Good The Father Could Bake ]

[ That Seemed To Be The Only Positive Attribute ]
[ Of The Man ]
[ Whose Voice Was Always Mute ]

[ Being Noticed, Was Never His Intention ]
[ His Goal @ Work, Was Never Ascension ]

[ Nobody Knew His Wants, Not Even His Wife ]
[ Now, Because Of My Nightmares ]
[ It Has Been Left Up To Me To Shut Off His Light ]

[ Some People Think I Have Jumped On The Insane ]
[ Train ]
[ Because Something Must Have Changed ]
[ In My Brain ]

[ After Living (48) Years Being A Law Abiding Person ]
[ I Have Become The Silent, Angry & Homicidal Version ]

[ I Usually Wake In The Middle Of Most Nights ]
[ Starteled Awake By My Night Frights ]

[ That I Have ]
[ That Do Not Make Me Laugh ]

[ I Have Been A Vigilante For Way Too Many Years To Count ]
[ As The Bodies Mount ]
[ I Cannot Give A Total Amount ]

[ I Have Been Sworn To Silence By The Boss ]
[ If I Disappeared ]
[ Would Anyone Consider My Disappearance A Loss ]

[ Even Though Loneliness Has Been Very Hard ]
[ Having A Spouse & A Family Was Never In The Cards ]

[ Why, Would I Ever Put A Family In Danger ]
[ Only To Have Their Lives Taken From Them ]
[ In The Dark, By A Stranger ]

[ Whenever I Got A Note ]
[ I Remember, That I Was Never Asked How I Would Vote ]

[ I Usually Try To Move Near ]
[ So When I Am Seen Many Times Around Where He Lives ]
[ The Target Does Not Say (WHY ARE YOU HERE?) ]

[ Notes Like This, I Treasure ]
[ Because Of Who He Is & What He Does ]
[ Putting Him To Sleep, Is Purely My Pleasure ]

[ I Won’t Touch His Family, Because Of What He Has Already Put Them Through ]
[ I Want Them To Begin A New Life ]
[ While Eventually, He Will Be Known As Someone That They Never Knew ]
[ Maybe I Will Silently Slit His Throat Using My Favorite Knife ]
[ That Will Not Leave A Single Clue ]

[ I Stalk The Neighborhood While Under The Light Of The Moon ]
[ His Family Will Be Safe ]
[ Soon ]

[ You Might Wonder How I Can Decompress? ]
[ After Events Like This ]
[ I Talk With A Woman That Writes A Column For The (WASHINGTON PRESS) ]

[ While She Doesn’t Know My Identity ]
[ I Have Given Her Enough Facts That Were Verified ]
[ So Now She Knows My Murderous Trail History ]

[ Now I Wait For A Cue To Finish My Job ]
[ I Would Want To Tell His Family To NOT Sob ]

[ Once He Is Gone ]
[ I Hope His Wife & Family ]
[ Can Move On ]

[ Oh Look, He Is Walking @ Night, All By Himself ]
[ With Nobody Else ]

[ With Him ]
[ Could I Get Caught? ]
[ Chances Are Really Slim ]

[ Say Bye-Bye! ]

______________________

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [酪]

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(1062)▪︎[ In Your Time Of Grief … 2023 ]

[ Tomorrow, Is A Day, That Every Mother & Grandmother, Will Always Dread ]
[ Their Grand Son & Their Dreams For Him ]
[ Are Now Gone ]
[ There Wilĺ Not, Be Any More Future, For Him Up Ahead ]

[ You Don’t Mean To Be That Blunt, That Was Not, Your Intention ]
[ Science, Is An Amazing Field ]
[ But They Have Yet, To Make An Invention ]
[ That Causes, Death To Yield ]

[ A Grandma, Is Not Supposed To Bury, A Grandson ]
[ There Are, @ Least A Dozen, Other Things ]
[ That Could Be Done ]
[ That Brings ]
[ Alot More Happiness & Fun ]

[ Once Again, Hopes Have Been Dropped ]
[ Dreams, Concerning Wedo, Have Been Stopped ]
[ The Fantasy Balloon, For His Life, Has Been Popped ]

[ He Had So Much Life Ahead Of Him, Then ]
[ Now The Lone Question ]
[ Could Be, When? ]

[ Isaiah, Is Trying To Make Sense, Of It All ]
[ That Could Wind Him Up ]
[ As Tight As A Rubber Ball ]

[ He Might Be Swimming Against The Current Of The River Of Denial ]
[ His State Of Mind ]
[ Might Be Like That, For Awhile ]

[ Another Life, Cut Short, @ Such A Young Age ]
[ How Does Anyone Know, In Their Life Book ]
[ They Are About To Turn, The Last Page ]

[ No One Can Foretell, What Comes Next ]
[ You Never Get, Instructions, For This ]
[ Sent To You, By A Text ]

[ Here Is Hoping, That With Time, You Will Gain Peace ]
[ & Your Sorrow, Will Cease ]

[ When The Sun Comes Up, Signaling A New Day ]
[ But It Is Not The Same ]
[ That Could Be God’s Way ]
[ Of Saying, Wedo’s Name ]

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~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [酪]

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(358)▪︎[ Just Another Job … 2023 ]

[ The Sin Is Deep, Inside Of Me ]
[ But I Have To Keep It, Under Lock & Key ]

[ In My Nightmares, The Man With No Name Put The Weapon In My Hand ]
[ That Helped Me Make It Easier ]
[ To Walk Outside & Kill That Abusive Man ]

[ That Used To Live Two Doors Down ]
[ In Another Apartment ]
[ But His Front Door Was Painted A Dirty Shade Of Brown ]

[ Every Night, The Neighbors Could Hear The Violence ]
[ When The Children Were Allowed To Go To School ]
[ They Were Sworn To Silence ]

[ They Always Showed Up With Broken Bones & Bruises ]
[ The Younger Kids Had Small Contusions ]