(540)▪︎[ Big M Is My Hero! … 7•5•2021 ]

[ I Meant It When I Said That You Are One Of The Hardest
Working Men That I Know? ]
[ You Don’t Even Know How To Go Slow ]

[ When You Start A Project You Are Done Sooner Than
Projected ]
[ When You Start A Project The End Result Is Always
Better Than Expected ]

[ It Takes A Special Kind Of Man To Be A Wildlife Fire
Fighter Such As Yourself ]
[ With The Exception Of You Guys ]
[ There Is Nobody Else ]

[ Hey This Summer Could I Get A Cool Sweatshirt That
I Could Count As My Own? ]
[ If I Do, My Mind Will Be Blown! ]

[ I Have Just Gotten Used To You Being Around ]
[ I Have Really Been Enjoying Having You Around ]
[ I Have Been Liking The Visits When You Come Around ]

[ Who Is Going To Come Over To Give Attitude Adjustments
To My Disrespectful Son? ]
[ I Love Watching The Video Of You Coming Through The
Door & Making Him Run ]

[ Your Job Is Not Done Here ]
[ We Still Need To Get Him Out Of Here ]

[ It Started With Him Looking Up To You ]
[ Then You Gave Him What Was Way Overdue ]

[ The Kind Of Ass Chewing That He Deserved ]
[ When You Did That I Wanted To Say ( DINNER IS SERVED ) ]

[ When We Met You Were Kind Of Reserved & Quiet ]
[ Now You Are A Riot! ]

[ But The Good Kind ]
[ Not The Ones That Messes With My Mind ]

[ Big M, You Have Become An Integral Part In My Life ]
[ You Are A Protective Light ]

[ You Are The Only Younger Man That I Have Come To
Respect ]
[ When Zoey Comes Over For Any Kind Of Event ]
[ You Will Also Be Someone That I Expect ]

[ Through My Years I Have Learned ]
[ That Respect Is Something Earned ]

[ You Earned Mine Before We Even Met ]
[ That Is Hard To Give ]
[ & Extremely Hard To Get ]

[ I Know With Your Job You Are Extremely Careful, Every
Step You Take ]
[ & There Are Very Few Mistakes That Are Made ]

[ Every Day & Every Night ]
[ You Put Up Your Best Fight ]

[ I Have Always Made This Clear ]
[ Any Time That You Ever Want To Talk ]
[ I Am Right Here ]

[ Big M, Things Are Going To Be Just Fine ]
[ Always Hold The Line ]

[ Everyday That Zoey Is Here I Always Ask How You Are ]
[ Near Or Far ]

[ You Are Always In My Thoughts ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(209)▪︎[ Yes You … 3•3•2020 ]

[ I Want To Write My Best Stories When I Write About Us ]
[ I Want My Words To Hit The Reader ]
[ Like A Greyhound Bus ]

[ A Bus, Not A Train Or Car ]
[ I Want To Leave Them Wanting More ]
[ I Want Them To Take The Feeling & Put It In A Jar ]

[ Twist The Lid, Nice & Tight ]
[ So Nothing Can Leave, Except A Little Bit Of Light ]

[ Everytime You Called I Would Hang Up & I’d Walk Away Grinning ]
[ Because If I Was In A Competition For Best Brother ]
[ I Knew I Was Winning ]

[ By A Mile ]
[ Even Though I Would Have To Wait Awhile ]

[ Your Call Was ALWAYS Worth The Wait ]
[ & Now When You Moved To A Closer State ]

[ God Called You Home ]
[ Oh, If I’d Only Known ]
[ Every Week I Would Had Been Calling You On The Phone ]

[ But I Didn’t ]
[ & I Couldn’t ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(189)▪︎[ You’re Still Here … 2•26•2020 ]

[ Damn! ]
[ Man ]
[ We Had Made So Many Plans ]

[ Now I Have None! ]
[ Where’s The Fun? ]

[ It’s Gone! ]
[ You’ve Moved On ]

[ There Goes The Wheelchair Races That We Had Planned When
We Got Old ]
[ Now A Chunk Of My Heart Has Gone Cold ]

[ Who Am I Going To Give A Hard Time When They Vote For
Trump & Pence? ]
[ C’mon, Don’t Leave Me In Suspense! ]
[ Because That Vote Just Doesn’t Make A Bit Of Sense! ]

[ So I See By Her Shirt That You Have Politically Infected
Your Daughter ]
[ Oh, It’s Always The Youngest Who Pays For The Sins Of
The Father ]

[ What About Our Hours Long Talks? ]
[ What About Our Hours Long Walks ]

[ You Were My Brother! ]
[ You Are My Brother! ]
[ You Will ALWAYS Be My Brother! ]

[ Even Though You Are No Longer On This Earth ]
[ You Have Not ]
[ Will Not ]
[ Ever Lose Your Worth ]

[ We Have Not Seen Each Other In Years ]
[ & It Was A Long Time Ago Since We Were Conversing ]
[ But Your Voice Is Still In My Ears ]

[ I Miss You So Much, Little Bro! ]
[ Why Did You Have To Go? ]
[ Nobody Can Answer That ]
[ So I Will Never Know ]

[ We Were Coming Out To See You In A Week Or Two ]
[ Oh, If I Would Have Known ]
[ I Would Have Come To See You ]

[ Earlier ]

[ I Will Always Miss You ]
[ I’m Always Thinking Of You ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(274)▪︎[ I Miss My Brother … 3•18•2020 ]

[ I Have A Younger Brother, Brent ]
[ A Month Ago ]
[ Heaven Is Where He Went ]

[ He Passed Peacefully, As He Slept ]
[ Many Times Since That Night, I’ve Wept ]

[ Sleep For Me, Is Far Overrated ]
[ Staying Awake Through The Whole Night, Is What I’ve Hated ]

[ Brent Was Not Just A Relative ]
[ He Was Also The Friend ]
[ Who Was Never Negative ]

[ Positivity Is What He Brought Out In Me ]
[ He’ll Always Be That Way In My Mind, To See ]

[ Humor Was One Thing We Had In Common, Too ]
[ When His Name Would Come Across My Caller I.D. ]
[ I’d Automatically Think ( HOW CAN I CLOWN ON YOU? ) ]

[ We’d Make Funny Cut-Downs That We Never Meant ]
[ Time Together Was One Thing In Our Life ]
[ That Was Hardly Spent ]

[ Brent & I Were Separated During Our Toddler Years ]
[ I’m Sure When We Said Our Goodbyes ]
[ There Were Many Nights Of Tears ]

[ So I Grew-Up Knowing I Had A Brother Out There ]
[ But I Never Knew Where ]

[ I Grew Up Not Even Knowing His Name ]
[ Our Birth Mother Is Who I Blamed! ]

[ Over & Over & Over Because She Was The Reason For The Family
Split ]
[ One Day She Was A Mother Of Three ]
[ Then She Decided, She Didn’t Want Any Part Of It ]
[ Just, So She Could Be Free ]

[ She Gave Up, ALL Of Her Parental Rights ]
[ We Were Too Young To Put Up A Fight ]

[ So Then Fast Forward, In My Life ]
[ My Brother, Was Found By My Wife ]

[ He Was In North Carolina & I Was In Oregon ]
[ I Wondered About How We Could Meet Up Again ]

[ My Wonderful, Generous In-Laws Paid For Our Trip There ]
[ A Hotel Room, A Rental Car, Spending Money & Air Fare ]

[ I’ll Never Be Able To Pay Back Their Generosity ]
[ It Would Take More Than Money ]

[ Much More ]
[ That Showed The Love From All Four ]

[ Of Them ]

[ Brent & I Reconnected Really Fast ]
[ But We Felt We Were Always Connected In Our Past ]
[ We Started A Bond That Would Forever Last ]

[ So We Let Each Other Get Known ]
[ During Our Hours On The Phone ]
[ & Now … God Called Him Home ]

[ There’s Not Going To Be Anymore Phone Calls & Hours
Long Laughs ]
[ His Passing Has Cut My Heart In Half ]

[ There Are Voice Mail Messages On My Phone That I Can’t
Bring Myself To Erase ]
[ I Miss His Voice ]
[ Not His Face ]

[ We Had Plans To Grow Old Together ]
[ Oh How I Miss My Brother ]

[ His Voice Will Always Be In My Ear ]
[ What I Wouldn’t Do ]
[ To Have Him Here ]

[ I Miss Him, I Always Will ]
[ If Only There Was A Magical Pill ]

[ Could It Be Certain ]
[ To Stop My Hurtin’? ]

[ Probably Not ]
[ But I Thank God ]
[ For The Family I’ve Still Got ]
[ Because A Daily Hug From My Beautiful Wife ]
[ Sure Does Hit The Spot ]

[ I Miss You Brent ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(208)▪︎[ Whispers … 3•3•2020 ]

[ In The Dead Of Night I Hear Your Voice In My Ear ]
[ I Hear You Just Like If You Were Here ]
[ It’s Not Warbled ]
[ It Sounds Perfectly Clear ]

[ You Simply Ask ( WHAT’s GOING ON? ) Simple & Plain ]
[ I Want To Shut Out The Noise & Make Yours The Main ]

[ Sound ]
[ Around ]

[ I Told My Care Giver, ( I SO MISS YOUR CALLS ]
[ The Silence Drives Me Up My Four Walls ]

[ I Can’t Say I Miss You Physically Because We Only Saw
Each Other For That One Week 22 Years Ago ]
[ I Miss What I Know ]

[ & That Was Your Voice ]
[ Because It Wasn’t Just Noise! ]

[ It Was The Lifeline Between The Two Of Us ]
[ That’s How Things Was ]

[ Now I Can’t Stop Writing About You ]
[ I Miss You So Much, Times Two ]

[ I Miss You! ]
[ I Miss You! ]

[ Where Did The Time Go, How Was It Spent? ]
[ I Truly Miss You, Brother Brent ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(290)▪︎[ Not Again … 3•21•2020 ]

[ Oh Brother, Where Did You Go? ]
[ What Happened? ]
[ Only You & God Know ]

[ Why Can’t I Get You Out Of My Head ]
[ @ Night I Need A Potent Sleeping Med ]

[ To Turn My Waking Hours To Sleep ]
[ But It’s Never Too Deep ]

[ So Many Memories Of You Are Always Pleasant ]
[ You Were My Anti-Depressant ]

[ I Would Laugh So Much During Your Calls ]
[ It Would Shake The Walls ]

[ What Am I Supposed To Do Now ]
[ I Want To Laugh Out Loud Again ]
[ But I Don’t Know How ]

[ They Say ( LAUGH OUT LOUD & THE WORLD LAUGHS WITH
YOU ) ]
[ Tell Me How, Send Me A Clue ]

[ I Need To Treasure Those Around Me More ]
[ I Need To Be More @ Ease ]
[ To Open The Door ]

[ I Love Calling Las Vegas To Talk To My Niece ]
[ It Gives My Mind A Little Peace ]

[ Because When I Talk To My Brothers Daughter ]
[ Sanoe Reminds Me So Much Of Her Father ]

[ She Too, Makes Me Laugh ]
[ For The Time That We Talk ]
[ It Cuts My Grief In Half ]

[ I Know I Talk About My Brother Alot ]
[ I Just Can’t Get My Thoughts To Stop ]

[ Have You Ever Been Able To Stop The Thoughts That Come
Into Your Mind? ]
[ How Do You Rewind? ]
[ What Do I Need To Do To Remind? ]

[ Myself To Remember? ]
[ What If The Calendar Says It’s Already December? ]

[ Oh, Wait ]
[ I’m Too Late ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(633)▪︎[ My Brother’s Grave … 7•20•2020 ]

[ Yesterday I Finally Went To My Brothers Grave ]
[ I Stood There, Staring ]
[ Hoping That My Emotions Behave ]

[ But The Reaction That I Had ]
[ Wasn’t All Bad ]
[ It Was The ( NOT DOINGS) Of His Wife ]
[ That Had Me So Mad! ]

[ She Shows Such Disregard For Her Responsibilities ]
[ She Is In North Carolina Spending Money Like
She Is A Celebrity ]

[ She Is Not Even Showing An Ounce Of Respect ]
[ Since He Died ]
[ What Should I Expect? ]
[ Since She Lied? ]

[ She Was Supposed To Get A Headstone For My Brother ]
[ & She Is Supposed To Be A Loving, Caring Mother ]

[ But When Picking To Do Either ]
[ She Has Done Neither ]

[ So I Want To Switch ]
[ Back My Thoughts On This Story ]
[ & Do No More Talking About That Bitch ]

[ The Cemetary Looks Well Taken Care Of ]
[ Each Gravesite Is Shown Alot Of Love ]
[ & I Hope My Brother Can See That ]
[ From Way Up High Above ]

[ I Am So Grateful That Sanoe Took Me To His Spot ]
[ I Have To Thank Her Alot ]
[ & Then I Look Around @ The Family That I’ve Got ]

[ I Want To Hug Them & Keep Then Near ]
[ Even When I Can’t Always Be Here ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]