[ Being Alone On An Island Causes Depressing Thoughts ]
[ Looking Up To The Blue Sky ]
[ Makes You See Spots ]
[ But There Should Not Be Any There ]
[ Floating In The Air ]
[ But There They Are, Dancing On The Clouds ]
[ & Then The Silence Of It All ]
[ Can Get So Loud ]
[ So Loud, It Hurts Your Ears ]
[ You Have No Idea How Often This Happens ]
[ But This Has Happened Many Many Times Throughout The Years ]
[ It Is Just A Feeling That You Get ]
[ It Is Also A Feeling That You Would Love To Forget ]
[ It Is The Raw Kind ]
[ That Kicks You From Behind ]
[ Because You’ll Find ]
[ It Is Not A Feeling That Easily Leaves My Mind ]
[ You Just Want To Sleep It Away ]
[ But You Always Know ]
[ It Will Come & Visit Me On Another Day ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
Tag: #alone
(336)▪︎[ The Lonely Man … 4•23•2021 ]
[ Woe Is The Heart Of The Lonely Man ]
[ Walking Through Life Doing The Best That He Can ]
[ He Tries To Put A Smile On The Face Of Someone
Every Single Day ]
[ Each Time Is Different ]
[ & So Is The Way ]
[ Maybe Giving A Much Softer, Kinder Word ]
[ Than The Stranger Has Ever Heard ]
[ In A Long Long Time ]
[ Maybe A Positive Word In A Short Poetic Rhyme ]
[ The Lonely Man’s Sole Intention On This Earth ]
[ Is To Show & Tell Others About Their Worth ]
[ Some May Need A Pick-Me-Up Or A Compliment Or
Two ]
[ Maybe Some Positive Reinforcement About What They
Do ]
[ A Moment In Time That They Will Remember ]
[ A Date In Time Between Now & December ]
[ It Does Not Cost The Lonely Man One Single Cent ]
[ To Show A Stranger That They Only Have The Best
Intent ]
[ & Show Their Best ]
[ Interest ]
[ Does The Lonely Man Ask For Anything In Return? ]
[ Has The Lonely Man Taught The Stranger A Single
Thing To Learn? ]
[ Maybe To Never Judge Another ]
[ Like Others ]
[ Are Prone To Judge A Book By Its Cover ]
[ The Tattered Pages May Look ]
[ Like It May Be An Old Throw Away Book ]
[ But Not By Looks Or The Reading Of A Single Page ]
[ Can A Book Tell The Invaluable Content ]
[ Or The Approximate Age ]
[ Of What May Be The True Intentions That Lie Deep
Down @ The Heart ]
[ If There Was A Finish Line ]
[ When Was The Start? ]
[ A Kind Word From A Stranger May Be Just That ]
[ It Deserves A Thoughtful Thank You ]
[ A Tip Of The Hat ]
[ & Then With A Blink That Lonely Man Is Gone ]
[ Because It Was Past The Time For Him To Move On ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(453)▪︎[ You Just Do Not See It … 5•29•2021 ]
[ I Am Just Trying To Get Through ]
[ To You ]
[ Everynight @ 8:00 O’clock]
[ I Would Try To Call ]
[ But There Were Times When I Found Out Later That I Was
Blocked ]
[ After That Happened More Than Twice ]
[ I Told You That Was Not Very Nice ]
[ You Would Never Like It If That Was Turned Around ]
[ You Should Look For What Is Lost ]
[ But Was Never Found ]
[ It Would Be A Tough Go, Looking For Your Heart ]
[ It Would Be Much Easier To Put The Pieces Together ]
[ Of The Ones That You Tore Apart ]
[ Very Few Were By Accident ]
[ Most Were On Purpose ]
[ Because Of Some Kind Of Incident ]
[ That You Perceived ]
[ But Was Actually Never Received ]
[ You Listen To Your Head Talk ]
[ … Alot ]
[ Sometimes Scenarios Play Out Only In Your Head ]
[ Is It Because You Are No Longer Taking All Of
Your Meds? ]
[ You Have To Realize ]
[ That When You Don’t Take Them ]
[ You Are A Real Ass, When You Try To Socialize ]
[ Nobody Invites You To Get-Togethers Anymore ]
[ When You Come Up On Their Doorbell Cam ]
[ They Go Quiet & Nobody Approaches The Door ]
[ If You Feel Sad Because You Live A Lonely Existence ]
[ Blame Yourself, Not Others ]
[ Because You Never See The Difference ]
[ Between Their Fault Or Yours ]
[ What Was The Last Straw ]
[ Was When You Called Your Last 3 Female Friends ( A HUGE
PACK OF WHORES ) ]
[ That Did It ]
[ They Did Not Deserve That One Bit ]
[ That Is Why You Sit ]
[ Alone ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(453)▪︎[ You Just Do Not See This … 5•29•2021 ]
[ I Am Just Trying To Get Through ]
[ To You ]
[ Everynight @ 8:00 O’clock]
[ I Would Try To Call ]
[ But There Were Times, When I Found Out Later, That I Was
Blocked ]
[ After That Happened More Than Twice ]
[ I Told You That Was Not Very Nice ]
[ You Would Never Like It If That Was Turned Around ]
[ You Should Look For What Is Lost ]
[ But Was Never Found ]
[ It Would Be A Tough Go, Looking For Your Heart ]
[ It Would Be Much Easier To Put The Pieces Together ]
[ Of The Ones That You Tore Apart ]
[ Very Few Were By Accident ]
[ Most Were On Purpose ]
[ Because Of Some Kind Of Incident ]
[ That You Perceived ]
[ But Was Actually Never Received ]
[ You Listen To Your Head Talk ]
[ … Alot ]
[ Sometimes Scenarios Play Out Only In Your Head ]
[ Is It Because You Are No Longer Taking All Of
Your Meds? ]
[ You Have To Realize ]
[ That When You Don’t Take Them ]
[ You Are A Real Ass, When You Try To Socialize ]
[ Nobody Invites You To Get-Togethers Anymore ]
[ When You Come Up On Their Doorbell Cam ]
[ They Go Quiet & Nobody Approaches The Door ]
[ If You Feel Sad Because You Live A Lonely Existence ]
[ Blame Yourself, Not Others ]
[ Because You Never See The Difference ]
[ Between Their Fault Or Yours ]
[ What Was The Last Straw ]
[ Was When You Called Your Last 3 Female Friends ( A HUGE
PACK OF WHORES ) ]
[ That Did It ]
[ They Did Not Deserve That, One Bit ]
[ That Is Why You Sit ]
[ @ Home … Alone ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(605)▪︎[ Alone … 7•4•2020 ]
[ Being Alone All Day Has A Bad Affect On Me ]
[ It Causes My Mind To See ]
[ How Bad Things Can Seem ]
[ But I Have To Remind ]
[ Myself ]
[ That I Need To Be The Kind ]
[ Of Person Not To Rely On Someone Else ]
[ Do I Need To Make A Statement ]
[ & Become Very Independent? ]
[ It Is Clear ]
[ That Won’t Go Over To Well Here ]
[ Am I Supposed To Live My Life? ]
[ Being Dependent On My Wife? ]
[ I Am Really Sure ]
[ That Is Not Fair To Her ]
[ One Way That I Spend My Time ]
[ Throughout The Day & Night ]
[ Is Writing Rhyme After Rhyme ]
[ Not All Of Them Are Good But Not All Are Bad ]
[ If That Was The Case ]
[ I’d Be Kind Of Sad ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(567)▪︎[ Are They The Same … 6•17•2020 ]
[ Is Loneliness The Worst Feeling You Could Have? ]
[ Is That The One Feeling That Makes You Feel Like You Have
Been Cut In Half? ]
[ It Is Like Being Invited To A Party & You Have No One To Bring ]
[ Or Waiting By The Phone ]
[ & It Never Rings ]
[ Is It That You Know ]
[ That Nobody Will Want To Go? ]
[ It Is A Fact ]
[ That When You Do A Selfless Act ]
[ That There Is No One Around To Pat You On The Back? ]
[ Being Altruistic Is Being Kind ]
[ Without Having A Reward In Mind ]
[ But It Is Nice ]
[ When Some Other Person Sees It With Their Own Eyes ]
[ & Then You Feel Like Doing That Twice ]
[ How Does One Make Loneliness Go Away? ]
[ Even For Just One Day? ]
[ When It Does ]
[ Will It Stay ]
[ That Way ]
[ Does Despair ]
[ & Loneliness ]
[ Come As A Pair? ]
[ Is That What Makes People ]
[ Lose All Of Their Hair? ]
[ What Does Someone That Feels All Alone ]
[ Do About The Silence ]
[ When It All Sounds So Monotone? ]
[ Is That Much Better Than Feeling All Alone In A Crowd ]
[ While Trying To Drown ]
[ Out All Of The Voices That Sound ]
[ So Loud? ]
[ Does The Silence ]
[ Bring On The Violence? ]
[ Loneliness & Feeling Alone Are Two Different Things ]
[ The One Thing They Have In Common Though ]
[ Is That They Both Makes The Heart Sting ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(393)▪︎[ A Lonely Boy … 5•8•2021 ]
[ This Is For That One, Sad Boy ]
[ Living Lonely, Without Any Toys ]
[ When You Look In Your Closet, For Some Fun ]
[ You Don’t Find, A Single One ]
[ They Were Taken From You, About Two Years Ago ]
[ For Reasons That You Still, Don’t Know ]
[ One Day They Were Here & The Next Day They Were Gone ]
[ You Don’t Remember What You Did, That Was So Wrong ]
[ To Have Them Taken, When You Were Not There ]
[ & If You Were Asked, You Would Have Gladly Shared ]
[ That Day, Plays Through Your Mind ]
[ Time, After Time ]
[ You Went Down The Street, To The Park ]
[ To Play With Your Friends ]
[ & You Made It Home, Before Dark ]
[ Do You Go To Your Mom Or Dad & Ask ( WHY? ) ]
[ Is It Even, Worth Another Try? ]
[ You Still Have Welts ]
[ From The Last Time, That Your Dad Got Mad & Used His Belt ]
[ You Never Thought ]
[ That He Was Ever Going To Stop ]
[ All Because You Drank A Pop ]
[ Without Your Dad’s Permission ]
[ After Your Admission ]
[ Were The Toys Being Taken Because Of That? ]
[ Being Taken Because Of That One Bad Act? ]
[ Or Was It Because Of The Bank, That You & Your Four
Friends Robbed Two Years Ago, Last May ]
[ You & Your Little Group Of Friends, Just Wanted To Get Paid ]
[ You All Got The Cash ]
[ By Going In & Out, Really Fast ]
[ But Then Your Dad, Caught A View ]
[ Of That Evenings News ]
[ After Stashing Some In The Floor & In A Crawl Space, In The
Hall ]
[ Your Dad Said That He Wanted It All ]
[ Or He Would Make A Call ]
[ So You Had To Give It To Him ]
[ But You Kept What You Bundled Up & Hid In The Wall ]
[ He Had No Clue ]
[ & Neither Did You ]
[ Know That The Story Would Twist ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(37)▪︎[ No Footprint … 1•11•2021 ]
[ Another Day Being Left In The Dark ]
[ Another Day Not Leaving A Mark ]
[ In Society ]
[ So Anyone Can Remember Me ]
[ If Someone Was Looking For My Footprint ]
[ They Would Have To Get To The Right ]
[ Light ]
[ & Squint ]
[ Their Eyes ]
[ Because I Am Just One Of Those Boring, Average Guys ]
[ That Blend ]
[ Someone Easy To Offend ]
[ Someone That No One ]
[ Even Pretends ]
[ To Defend ]
[ I Blend Into The Background ]
[ I Blend Into Whatever Scenery Is Around ]
[ A Chameleon That Doesn’t Want To Be ]
[ A Person, In Person That Nobody Sees ]
[ I Don’t Wear Bright Shorts Or Shirts ]
[ I Am Overlooked & Dismissed So Much It Gets To
The Level That It Hurts ]
[ I Try To Grow Thicker Skin ]
[ I Am Rarely With The Crowd That’s ( IN ) ]
[ I Play Game After Game On My Phone ]
[ & It Seems That I Never Win ]
[ It All Makes Me Feel So Alone ]
[ I Can’t Ever Catch A Break ]
[ I Am Not Ever Thought Of As The One To Thank ]
[ Even Though I Try To Go Out Of My Way ]
[ Everyday ]
[ To Pay A Compliment ]
[ But Never Making A Statement ]
[ To Blow My Own Horn ]
[ If You Asked The Two Barbara’s ]
[ They Did Not Like That I Was Even Born ]
[ Is That Normal Or What? ]
[ Even As I Write This ]
[ The Words Cut ]
[ The Thoughts Are Even Worse ]
[ Oh How I Wish I Wasn’t Born With This Curse ]
[ Who Were My Strong Male Role Models ]
[ My Dad Or Donald? ]
[ My Dad Blew His Brains Out ]
[ Don Pushed Me Out ]
[ Oh, I Sure As Hell Know ]
[ I Really Don’t Think So ]
[ Don Showed Me Plenty Of Examples That Went Into
The Bucket In My Head That Was Labled ( I WON’t ) ]
[ He Showed Me & Did Things In Front Or To Me That
Went Into The Bucket Labeled ( PLEASE DON’t ) ]
[ Donald Taught Me How To Judge ]
[ & To Not Budge ]
[ On His Lifelong Grudge ]
[ With Me, His Only Son ]
[ But When He Refused To Speak To Me This Last Time ]
[ I Knew That Our Relationship Was Done ]
[ But Now I Am Happy To Say That I Am Smiling
In My Head ]
[ Because Dear Ole Donald ]
[ Is Dead. Dead. Dead ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
[ 1023 ][ Set Adrift … 12•6•2021 ]
[ Lost, Floating On The Sea Of Loneliness ]
[ Could I Ever Feel Less ]
[ Of This Emptiness ]
[ How Did I Get Here? ]
[ My Path Back To Fullfillness Has Never Been
All That Clear ]
[ When I Came To A Fork In The Road I Thought
I Turned In The Right Direction ]
[ Using Hindsight ]
[ I Would Make A Correction ]
[ I Thought Going Left Was Good ]
[ Maybe My Brain Misunderstood ]
[ The Bright, Yellow Yield Signs ]
[ Plus, When I Looked @ The Left Side ]
[ There Were No Lines ]
[ Maybe It Was That Way For A Reason ]
[ When I Looked To The Right ]
[ I Did Not Think That I Could Squeeze In ]
[ But Now I Float ]
[ On The Sea ]
[ Without A Single Paddle In My Boat ]
[ I Am @ The Mercy Of The Wind & The Current ]
[ This Problem Seems To Be Recurrent ]
[ Same Problem, But From A Different Issue ]
[ My Inner Strength Is As Strong As A Soft Kleenex
Tissue ]
[ Flimsy & Easy To Rip To Shreads ]
[ Confusing, Like The Brain On Too Many Meds ]
[ Will I Be Forever Damned? ]
[ & Never Get Back To Dry Land? ]
[ Do I Lean Down ]
[ & Paddle With My Hand? ]
[ After Awhile ]
[ I Found That It Was Futile ]
[ Do I Hear The Sound Of A Storm Coming In? ]
[ When I Sense The Rain Begin ]
[ I Tell Myself ( I JUST CAN’t WIN! ) ]
[ Maybe This Will Be The Way My Life Will Go ]
[ Maybe Not ]
[ Probably So ]
[ Is All Of This Effort For Naught? ]
[ I Really Don’t Know ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
[ 206 ][ I Was Never His … 3•12•2021 ]
[ Everytime He Looked @ Me It Reminded Him That
I Wasn’t His ]
[ When The Subject Of Adoption Came Up ]
[ I Wasn’t Anywhere On His To-Do List ]
[ The Thought Was Just Not There ]
[ Not Anywhere ]
[ He Never Jumped For Joy ]
[ Because He Now Had A Boy ]
[ After Adopting Another Daughter ]
[ That Is All That He Wanted To Father ]
[ After That, He Wanted To Be Done ]
[ In His Deepest, Darkest Nightmares ]
[ He NEVER Wanted A Son ]
[ I Should Have Been For Warned In Advance ]
[ When It Came To Don Wanting Me In Their Family ]
[ I Never Had A Chance ]
[ No Matter How Hard I Tried, Don Treated Me Like
A Zero ]
[ So Since Day One I Never Looked @ Him As My Hero ]
[ He Wouldn’t Teach Or Coach ]
[ He Never Tried ]
[ So The Important Father – Son Connection Was
Just A Hoax ]
[ He Was Supposed To Have Skills On The Basketball
Court, But He Wouldn’t Show ]
[ When It Came Down To Teaching Me ]
[ He Was A Total No-Show ]
[ I Grew Up Constantly Asking ( HOW COME? ) ]
[ Until I Went Numb ]
[ But Then Barbara Filled Me In ]
[ & Told Me The Truth ]
[ There Was No Chance In Hell That I Would Find Love
& Acceptance From Him ]
~ The End ~
[ Auhea kuʻu hoaaloha ]
[ Ke manaʻoʻiʻo nei wau e pono ai e lawe i kēia moʻolelo
i kahi hopena ]
[ Mahalo no ka hoʻoloheʻana i kaʻu mau moʻolelo ]
[ No laila,ʻoiaʻiʻo,ʻo ia ka mea ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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