(456)▪︎[ They Won’t Let Me Out … 5•30•2021 ]

[ I’m Locked Up, They Won’t Let Me Out ]
[ It Doesn’t Matter, How Loud I Shout ]

[ The Only Time I Hear A Key ]
[ When I Get Put In Solitary Confinement ]
[ Is When They Have A Meal For Me ]

[ Every Year ]
[ That I Am Here ]

[ More & More Of My Sanity Gets Left Behind These Bars ]
[ It Has Been Over 10,000 Days ]
[ Since I Was Allowed To Take A Walk Under The Stars ]

[ No Falling Stars In Sight ]
[ The View Of The Bottom Of My Cellmates Bunk ]
[ Is All That I See @ Night ]

[ There Are Days When I Am So Used To This Place ]
[ There Are Some Times I Do Not Want To Look In
The Mirror ]
[ To See The Refection Of My Face ]

[ These Eyes Have Seen Too Many Crimes ]
[ & ]
[ These Fingers Have Written Many, Many Rhymes ]

[ I Guess I Am Getting ]
[ Institutionalized ]
[ In This Setting ]

[ I Have Dreamt That I Would Take A Shot Of Cuervo Gold,
If Given ]
[ But Looking Back ]
[ Being A Drunk, Was A Bad Way Of Livin’ ]

[ I Knew I Never Should Had Left My Sisters Husband,
Laying In The Driveway ]
[ That Way ]

[ With A Jagged Hole, Between His Eyes ]
[ Freezing His Age, @ 35 ]
[ But The Way He Told His Many Lies ]
[ My Sister Is Much Better Off, Because He Is No Longer
Alive ]

[ She Will No Longer, Be Financially Used ]
[ She Will No Longer, Be Physically & Mentally Abused ]

[ So Here I Sit With A Life Sentence With No Chance Of
Parole ]
[ When I Heard The Word, ( GUILTY ) ]
[ I Gave Satan, My Soul ]

[ I Thought That Where I Was Going, It Was Better That I Did
Not Have One ]
[ It Seemed That I Hadn’t Had A Pure Soul, Since I Was Young ]

[ So I Live My Life, Behind These Bars Of Steel ]
[ There Are Over 100 Angry Men That I Have To Sit With,
Whenever I Eat A Meal ]

[ My Life Is Now Ruled, By Guards ]
[ & I Get My Exercise, By Doing Laps, Around A Concrete Yard ]

[ My Day Is Broken Up Into Segments, Based On The Time Of
The Blaring Horn ]
[ I Miss The Barbeques Of Hot Dogs, Steaks & Husks Of
Corn ]

[ My Family Does Not See Things, From My Point Of View ]
[ I Tell My Sister ( I DID ALL OF THIS, FOR YOU ) ]
[ & When You Had Me Served With Court Papers, I Knew ]

[ That It Would Be Best, For All If You Make ]
[ A Clean & Complete Break ]

[ Every Day I Listen To The Guards, Yelling Out Their Commands ]
[ Every Second, Of Every Hour ]
[ There Are Inmate Demands ]

[ Some Are Comical ]
[ The Number Is, Astronomical ]

[ When I Wake Up @ Four ]
[ In The Morning ]
[ I Wonder How Much More ]

[ I Can Take ]
[ But In This Environment, You Are Made ]
[ To Learn, How To Fake ]

[ That I Hurt ]
[ So Bad ]
[ Under My Shirt ]

[ My Heart Aches ]
[ Going Cold Turkey Off Of Alcohol & Drugs ]
[ Gave Me The Shakes ]

[ @ Night The Guards Would Do Their Searches Of The
     Cells ]
[ They Go By What They See, What They Hear & What They
     Smell ]

[ They Are Not Polite When They Throw, The Only Belongings
That I Have In Life ]
[ On The Floor ]
[ Like The 3 Pictures That I Have With My Wife ]

[ This Is Life As I Know It ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(529)▪︎[ For Zoey, My Only Caregiver … 5•31•2020 ]

[ My Newest Caregiver Right Now Is A Woman Named
     Zoey ]
[ She Fits Right In ]
[ & I Think That She Will Be Good For Me ]

[ I Absolutely Would Not Be Wrong ]
[ When I Say That Woman ]
[ Is Extremely Mentally Strong ]

[ She Tells Her Story So Well ]
[ Even Though Her Life Has Put Her Through Hell ]

[ But Even Through It All ]
[ She Didn’t Turn Into An Introvert ]
[ Or Build Up A Wall ]

[ She Has Been Put Through So Much @ Such A Young Age ]
[ She Shows No Anger ]
[ Nor Does She Display, Even The Slightest Bit Of Rage ]

[ She Has Every Reason There Is To Hold A Chip On
     Her Shoulder ]
[ She Seems Like A Warm Person ]
[ Not One That Continues To Grow Colder ]

[ Her Personality Is Kind ]
[ Even With All That She Has On Her Mind ]

[ When She’s Here, Her Mind Isn’t Over There ]
[ She Talks & She Shares ]
[ I Feel She Will Protect Me & Care ]

[ When She Talks About Her Past ]
[ She Doesn’t Run Through It So Fast ]
[ That It Doesn’t Make Her Words Last ]

[ My Empathy For Her Is Through The Roof ]
[ Because When She Talks ]
[ She Never Acts Aloof ]

[ She Is Sincere ]
[ Every Minute That She Is Here ]

[ & She Knows ]
[ That I Will Always Keep Her On Her Toes ]
[ Because I Think Entitled & Arrogant ]
[ People Really Blows ]

[ She Takes The High Road In Most Situations In Life ]
[ She Loves My Dog ]
[ & Gets Along With My Wife ]

[ She Is NOT Here To Kiss Or Blow Smoke Up My Ass ]
[ Because I’ve Made It Really Clear ]
[ That Will Not Pass ]

[ She Is Definitely Not Here To Just Have A Good Time ]
[ & To Hear A Couple Of Good Rhymes ]
[ While Making Just A Tad Bit More Than A Dime ]

[ I’ve Gladly Shown Her That I Am A Straight Shooter ]
[ Not A Rebel ]
[ Or Looter ]

[ She Knows That What’s Mine Is Not Hers ]
[ She Told Me That She Knows That For Sure ]
[ & I Believe Her Heart Is Pure ]

[ She Certainly Knows Not To Take Kindness ]
[ For Weakness ]

[ & Trust ]
[ Is A Must ]
[ & It Is Not Like Something That You Can Bust ]

[ So Far So Good, Is What I Say ]
[ I Think I’ll Like Her ]
[ If She Wants To Stay ]
[ For All Four Of Days ]

[ I Told Her The First Day That The Agency Put All Their Eggs In
     One Basket ]
[ I Told Her That Nothing Is Set ]
[ Yet ]
[ But I Do Have To Tell Her, That I’m Really, Really Glad That We Met ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(507)▪︎[ To My Friend … 5•23•2020 ]

[ My Cavarona, I So Wish I Could Give You Five More Minutes ]
[ But I Have No Say In This ]

[ You Are So Important In My Life ]
[ You Are Just A Step Away ]
[ From My Wife ]

[ I Have Always Had Good Female Friends In The Past ]
[ But As I Look Around ]
[ Not A Single One Could Last ]

[ If We Do, Time Will Tell ]
[ When It Comes To Keeping Friends ]
[ I Do Not Do That Very Well ]
[ When They End ]
[ Everything Just Goes To Hell ]

[ I Know That I’m No Peach ]
[ & Finding That A True Friend ]
[ Is Always A Reach ]

[ But I Feel That You See ]
[ The Real Me ]
[ & Being A Real Friend To You ]
[ Is All That I Want To Be ]

[ I Think I Always Show You How I Want To Be Seen ]
[ I’ve Got A Big Heart ]
[ & I’m Not Mean ]

[ I’ve Been Told In The Past That I Have Mean Eyes ]
[ Inside I Yell ( THOSE ARE ALL LIES! ) ]
[ I’m Just Not One Of Those Guys ]

[ I Have Alot Of Feelings & So It Shows In What & How
I Write ]
[ So I Never Write A Story ]
[ Just To Cause A Fight ]

[ Cavarona, I Always Want You To Be Here ]
[ It Is So Clear ]
[ That The Thought Of You Will Always Be Near ]

[ You Have Shown Me Your Vulnerable Side Again & Again When ]
[ You Feel Comfortable ]
[ To Do It Over & Over Again ]

[ I Keep Our Friendship Close To My Heart ]
[ Especially In The Upcoming Days ]
[ When We Are Physically Apart ]

[ I Will Always Be Just A Phone Call Away ]
[ & I’ll Take Your Call ]
[ Every & Any Day ]

[ You’ve Left Your Mark On Me Since Day One ]
[ You Have Been So Much Fun ]
[ & I Never Want To Say Our Days Are Done ]

[ On Monday Night, When You Walk Out My Door ]
[ I Wish I Could Ask The Man ]
[ For Just Five Minutes More! ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(492)▪︎[ You’ve Made An Impact! … 5•18•2020 ]

[ Oh Cavarona ]
[ There Is So Many Things ]
[ That I Admire About Ya ]

[ Nobody, I Mean NOBODY, Can Rock You ]
[ That Is Just One Thing ]
[ That A Single Person Can’t Do ]

[ You Are DEFINITELY One Of A Kind ]
[ You Are In Constant Pain ]
[ But You Never Whine ]

[ I Know The Pain Is Sharp & Deep ]
[ But I Never Hear A Peep ]

[ When We Talk, I Listen To Every Word ]
[ Some Of Your Advice ]
[ Is The Most Unique & The Best I’ve Ever Heard ]

[ You Never Throw Me Bullshit ]
[ To Make Me Feel Good ]
[ I Have To Admit ]

[ I Only Have A Couple Of Friends & My Wife ]
[ Because I Don’t Need Many ]
[ But You Have Left Your Mark On My Life ]

[ I’m Insecure & Sometimes Shy ]
[ I’m Flat Out ]
[ An Unconfident Guy ]

[ I’ve Only Felt Proud With About Five Accomplishments ]
[ & I Look Down When I’m Given A Compliment ]

[ I Go Inside Myself More Than I Should ]
[ It Is Hard To Come Back Out ]
[ & I Don’t, Even Though I Could ]

[ You, Cavarona Bring Me Out & Make Me Smile ]
[ Even When You Are Only Here For Awhile ]

[ You Are Able To Make Me Feel @ Ease ]
[ You Are Sincerely Nice & Sweet ]
[ Not A Tease ]

[ You Know When To Set Me Straight When It’s Needed ]
[ & I Hear You ]
[ When You Tell Me To Stay Seated ]

[ You Are The Best & Will Always Be ]
[ Hey Cavarona ]
[ You’ve Have Made A Huge Impression On Me ]

[ Staying In Contact With You Is My Greatest Wish ]
[ You Need To Tell Bennett To Treat You Like A Queen ]
[ Because You Are Quite The Dish ]

[ Tell Him He Is Lucky For Sure ]
[ Because He Can Walk Around ]
[ & Say ( YA, I KNOW HER! ) ]

[ In Exactly Eight Days Part Of The Day Will Have
     No Joy ]
[ That Will Be The First Day That You Will No
     Longer Be In My Employ ]

[ Thank You Maria For ALL That You’ve Done & Do ]
[ Please Always Remember, Think & Know ]
[ That I Deeply Respect & Love You ]

[ To No End ]
[ My Friend ]

[ You Are Always Welcomed To Come & Sobramaysa In My House
     With Me, ANYTIME! ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(488)▪︎[ Be Careful … 5•17•2020 ]

[ You Need To Live Your Life ]
[ Not Re-Live Your Past ]
[ Then Cut The Strife ]
[ So It Won’t Last ]

[ You Can Always Remember The Past Memories As Being
Great ]
[ But Those Thoughts ]
[ Should Not Be The Main Thing On Your Plate ]

[ If You Do The Math ]
[ 75℅ Of Your Time ]
[ Should Be Used To Pave A New Path ]

[ They Say That The Present Is A Gift That Should
Be Handled With Care ]
[ When You Make Plans For The Future ]
[ You Need To Find The Way To Get There ]

[ It Is Good To Have Different Dreams ]
[ On Different Nights ]
[ But They Should Not Cause Screams ]
[ If They Turn Into Fears That You Fight ]

[ Open Your Eyes ]
[ & Open Your Arms ]
[ You Don’t Want To Be One Of Those Guys ]
[ That When He Speaks ]
[ He Only Harms ]

[ Words Can Be Sharper Than A Sword ]
[ Because They Can Cut Deep ]
[ & Even A Negative Word ]
[ To Someone That Is Trying To Sleep ]

[ They Will Remember What You Said When They Wake ]
[ When They Have That Memory ]
[ It Could Be A Make Or Break ]
[ On What Kind Of Day It Could Be ]

[ Unless You Want To Live Your Life All Alone ]
[ Watch What You Say ]
[ As Much As You Need, To Be Careful Of Your Tone ]
[ All Through Your Day ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(449)▪︎[ Stand-Up … 5•28•2021 ]

[ Sometimes When You Are Trying To Stand On Your Own
     Two Feet ]
[ You Just Need To Stand Up ]
[ Before You Are Put Out On The Street ]

[ Must There Be A Catalytic Event? ]
[ For Energy To Be Spent? ]

[ You Must Cut The Umbilical Cord To Totally ]
[ Be ]
[ Free ]

[ Of The Parental Chains That Bind ]
[ Being Able To Go To Your Own Place To Unwind ]

[ Stand Alone With Your Own Stuff ]
[ Get Through The Days That Are Rough ]

[ When You Feel All Alone ]
[ Pick Up Your Phone ]
[ Don’t Sit There ]
[ Only Listening To The Dial Tone ]

[ Call A Sibling Or Reach Out To Your Mom ]
[ Just Because You Moved Out ]
[ That Doesn’t Mean That The Support Is Gone ]

[ Standing Up Is Totally Different Than Standing On Your
     Own ]
[ One Is Like The Flavor Of Chocolate ]
[ & The Other Would Be A Vanilla Ice Cream Cone ]

[ There Are Hard, Scary, Hungry & Desperate Times Ahead ]
[ It Doesn’t Work To Go Numb With Alcohol & Meds ]

[ When You Finally Come Out Of Your Drug Or Alcohol
     Fed Binge ]
[ The Problems Are Still There Waiting For You Like Before ]
[ & There Is Still No Food For Anyone In The Fridge ]

[ You Still See That The Cupboards Are Bare ]
[ & You Know That You HAVE To Do Laundry ]
[ Because You Are Completely Out Of Clean Underwear ]

[ Standing Up Could Be For Pride ]
[ While Living In Your Parents House, You Get A Free Ride ]
[ Moving Out ]
[ & Maturity Kind Of Coincide ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(447)▪︎[ Scary Events … 5•28•2021 ]

[ There Are Scary Events Happening Outside Of My
     House ]
[ I Feel So Worried About My Few Friends, Son & Spouse ]

[ Shootings In All Of America’s States ]
[ Things Are Very Unsettling ]
[ Because There Seems To Be Alot Of Hate ]

[ Bullets Are Flying ]
[ People Are Dying ]

[ Bullets Go In One Direction ]
[ Once Fired ]
[ There Is No Chance To Make A Correction ]

[ Bullets Do Not Go In Reverse ]
[ Sometimes The Shooter Does Not Care If The Crowd Is
     Diverse ]

[ People Are Judging Others Because Of The Color Of
     Their Skin ]
[ For Some ]
[ Because Of This ]
[ People Feel That They Will Never Be Given A Chance When They
     Win ]

[ Today It Seems ]
[ Statistics Shows ]
[ That Several Income Levels Have No Such Way Of Reaching The ( AMERICAN DREAM ) ]

[ Of Owning A House With 2.5 Children & A White Pickett
     Fence ]
[ A Big Chunk Of Society Is Now Homeless & Living In Tents ]

[ Of Course They Still Have Choices During The Day &
     Night ]
[ They Have To Find A Place & A Way ]
[ To Pitch Their Tent Where There Is Alot Of Light ]

[ People Are Losing Their Jobs & Then Seek To Retaliate
     Against Those That They Blame ]
[ Then Coming Back Armed ]
[ Looking For Specific Names ]

[ Not Very Many People Still Love Their Neighbors ]
[ Not Many People Knows The NAMES Of Their Neighbor ]
[ & Judges Are Hiding In Their Chambers ]

[ Road Rage Is Still Going Strong ]
[ That Guy Shot @ The Car Of That Guy ]
[ Because That Guy Was Looked @ Wrong ]

[ Why Is There So Much Violence? ]
[ Neighborhoods Put Out The Word That ( SNITCHS GET
     STITCHES ) ]
[ Forcing Witnesses To Keep The Silence ]

[ People Live In Fear ]
[ If A Stranger Comes Near ]

[ A Mask Used To Be Only Worn By Batman, Robin & The Lone
     Ranger ]
[ How Does Someone Know That The Fast Approaching
     Stranger ]
[ Is Not A Danger? ]

[ To The Life ]
[ Of Your Son & Wife? ]

[ They Don’t ]
[ & They Won’t ]

[ Until He Is Another Guy ]
[ Just Passing By ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(444)▪︎[ Magic … 5•27•2021 ]

[ Sometimes The Game Changer ]
[ Comes Across As The Lone Ranger ]

[ He Is Not The Masked Guy On The White Horse ]
[ Of Course ]
[ He Was A T.V. Hero ]
[ So You Have To Consider The Source ]

[ That Man Was Make Believe ]
[ Never Giving Anyone Outside Of T.V. Land ]
[ Any Relief ]

[ That Guy Always Found A Way ]
[ To Come In & Save The Day ]

[ Some People May Ask ( SAYS WHO? ) ]
[ The Other Guy Says ( SAYS YOU! ) ]

[ The One Who Believes In Tall Tales ]
[ Yes, The One Who Believes In Big Blue Whales ]

[ Believing In The Make-Believe ]
[ Is Not Always The One That People Feel ]
[ That They Have Something Up Their Sleeves ]

[ It Would Be Tragic ]
[ If No One Believed In Kids Magic ]

[ Rabbits Being Pulled Out Of Hats ]
[ Putting A Spell On Someone Who Is Afraid Of Black Cats ]

[ Do You Feel That Making Everything Disappear Out Of
A Cart ]
[ Is Satanic Or An Art? ]

[ There Are Shows That You Feel For Them To Stay Level ]
[ They Must Sign Their Soul ]
[ Over To The Devil ]

[ The Ones That Cause The Cheers & Grunts ]
[ Are The Ones Who Do Their Own Stunts ]

[ Or The Guys ]
[ Whose Hands Are Faster Than Your Eyes ]

[ They Make Cards Disappear ]
[ Then Make Them Reappear ]

[ Those Are The One’s That Get You ]
[ The One’s Who Can Take Something That Is The Color
Of Red ]
[ Then Turn It Into Something Blue ]

[ Those Are The One’s That Play With Your Head ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(442)▪︎[ Another Dream … 5•26•2021 ]

[ Welcome To The Present ]
[ Where You Can Get Comments That You May Resent ]

[ From A Friend Or From A Family Member ]
[ Those Are The One’s That Hurt ]
[ & Seems To Be The One’s That You Remember ]

[ You Can Try To Shake Them Out Of The Memory Part
     Of Your Brain ]
[ You Can Try To Wash Them Out By Standing Outside In
     The Freezing, Pouring Rain ]

[ When The Thunder Booms ]
[ It Literally Shakes The Room ]

[ As Soon As You Go Outside ]
[ You Watch For The Lightning Strikes ]

[ But The Comments Are Still In Your Head ]
[ Do You Wait It Out ]
[ Or Take Your Night Meds ]
[ & Get Into Your Bed? ]

[ You Lay There Waiting For The Xyrem To Do It’s Thing ]
[ The Next Second You Are Watching The Start Of A Dream ]

[ Where Is This Dream Going? ]
[ Is There Water Flowing? ]
[ Or Is The Wind Blowing? ]

[ Maybe The Dream Is Taking You To Your Favorite Spot? ]
[ The Beach ]
[ You Have Had This Dream Alot ]

[ You Are Walking In The Sand ]
[ There Is No Time Schedule ]
[ Or Demands ]

[ Your Beautiful Wife Is Walking With You Beside Your Left
     Shoulder ]
[ She Is The One Person Who Makes Your World Go ‘Round ]
[ The One Who Has Not Just Been A Rock, She Has Been Your
     Boulder ]

[ She Has Been Much Bigger Than A Single Rock ]
[ That Would Be Like Comparing A Seiko Watch ]
[ To A Grandfather’s Clock ]

[ 25 Years Are In The Bank ]
[ You Look @ Your Wife, Because You Know, She Is The One To
     Thank ]

[ The Water Is Now Touching Your Feet ]
[ You Both Go Further Up The Beach ]
[ Looking For Your Seat ]

[ It Is Sitting On This One Very Big Log ]
[ When You Look @ The Ocean In Awe ]
[ No One Could Ever Convince You That There Is No God ]

[ This Is Your Favorite Part Of The Day ]
[ When The Sun Starts To Give Way ]

[ To The New Moon ]
[ & Because It Is The Middle Of June ]

[ It Was Getting Late ]
[ I Had To See The Whole Sunset ]
[ & I Saw That It Was, Worth The Wait ]

[ But … That Is Not What I Got To See ]
[ The Morning Alarm Was Going Off To Wake Me ]
[ Watching The Full Sunset Was Not To Be ]

[ Maybe Tomorrow Night ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(438)▪︎[ Nothing But Air … 5•25•2021 ]

[ Everytime I Reach Out, I Grasp @ Air ]
[ When I Need A Hand ]
[ Nobody Is Ever EVER There ]

[ Things Are Never Reciprocated ]
[ I Guess That Is Too Much Of An Inconvenience ]
[ & That Seems To Make Something So Simple,
     Complicated ]

[ I Always Have Time For Them ]
[ No Matter The Problem ]

[ When Others Speak, I Always Listen To Every Word ]
[ When I Speak ]
[ It Never Seems Like I Was Ever Heard ]

[ When I Listen, I Look For Ways Where I Can Help Make
     Their Lives Easier, Better ]
[ When I Talk ]
[ No One Listens To A Letter ]

[ I Try To Listen & Then Connect The Dots ]
[ I Help Them When They See Spots ]

[ Nobody Has Time When I Need A Shoulder ]
[ When I Whisper ( HELP ) ]
[ The Room Gets Colder ]

[ It Gets Colder Because There Is A Quick Trot Out The
     Nearest Exit ]
[ I Guess Standing Up For Me Is Not In Anyone’s Script ]

[ I Am A Ghost In The Room ]
[ I Would Not Be Noticed Even On Zoom ]

[ Even If I Called The Meeting ]
[ People Would Only Notice If Someone Was Eating ]
[ While Talking ]
[ Then Leaving ]

~ Ka hopena ~

|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||   ‎
‎
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||