[ You Have Spent Your Whole Life Trying To Figure Out
What You Want Out Of Life ]
[ Everyday, You Have Looked For That Light ]
[ To Be A Guide ]
[ Many People Cannot Accept, Or See ]
[ The Hypocrisy ]
[ Of Other People’s Lives, Or Even Their Own ]
[ Because, In The Dead Of The Night, When They Wake ]
[ They Then See, That They Are In Fact, All Alone ]
[ It Is Critical ]
[ To See ]
[ How Hypocritical ]
[ Others Can Be ]
[ Most People Can Ever See Themselves In Others ]
[ When They Make Mistakes ]
[ They Think That They Can Hide Amongst Their Sisters &
Brothers ]
[ When They See That Others Might Have Some Success ]
[ They Forget About Their Own Mess ]
[ & Spend To Excess ]
[ On Credit Cards With High Interest Rates ]
[ Hoping Some Day ]
[ That Their Debts Magically Dissipates ]
[ Hoping To Be Fortuitous In Life ]
[ Hoping To Be Lucky In Love ]
[ When Or If They Find Their Husband Or Wife ]
[ Then Hoping, That They Hit Every Green Light On The
Road ]
[ Going To & From, Their Happy Abode ]
[ Then Finding That Such Luck Does Not Even Exist ]
[ No Matter How Much They Insist ]
[ That It Does, Or Doesn’t ]
[ Because If There Was ]
[ They Will Quickly Find, That There Wasn’t ]
[ People Have A Hard Time Looking Within ]
[ They Never Want To Look In The Mirror & See Their Own
Sin ]
[ When They Peer Deeply In Their Own Eyes ]
[ Do They See Their Lies? ]
[ That They Have Told To Themselves? ]
[ Or Told Someone Else? ]
[ I Bet They Won’t ]
[ I Bet They Don’t ]
[ So They Quickly Put The Handheld Mirror Down ]
[ Then They Look Around ]
[ Silence Is What They Hear ]
[ Because Nobody Is Near ]
[ So … No Harm, No Foul ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(688)▪︎[ A Total Surprise … 8•19•2021 ]
[ If You Lay Really Still, Will Life Pass You By? ]
[ If You Were Told Yes ]
[ Would They Be Telling You A Lie? ]
[ Maybe All Of The Lies & Pain ]
[ That Comes Back Again & Again ]
[ Are Because Of How You Think ]
[ & Because Of How Much You Drink
[ Sometimes Others Have Had A Hunch ]
[ That You Drink To Much ]
[ When You Take A (3) Hour Lunch ]
[ Do You Ever Think That You Need To Reign That In? ]
[ You Have So Much To Lose ]
[ If You Let Alcohol Win ]
[ You Can’t Possibly Like Those Mornings When You Wake ]
[ With A Hangover & A Terrible Headache ]
[ That You Can’t Shake All Day ]
[ You Know When It Comes To Drinking ]
[ You Have To Pay While You Play ]
[ You Seem To Be Drinking More & More During Your
Nights ]
[ & You Are Starting More Fights ]
[ @ Home & In The Bars ]
[ You Have Already Wrecked Your (3) Cars ]
[ How Come? ]
[ You Have Been Drinking Until You Go Numb? ]
[ Is There Something That You Are Running From? ]
[ So You Point To This Big Duffel Bag ]
[ You Finally Admit ]
[ That On Weekends You Dress In Drag ]
[ There Is Silence In The Whole Room ]
[ That Would NOT Have Beeen Something That Anybody Would
Have Assumed ]
[ Then Someone Says …
( OKAY, COOL! WHAT’S FOR DINNER?) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(039)▪︎[ There Is No Yesterday … 1•21•2021 ]
[ Uh Oh ]
[ Here You Go ]
[ Into Some Territory In Your Life ]
[ That You Do Not Know ]
[ You Do Not Have A Clue Where You Are Going ]
[ You Wished That You Could Meet Someone That Was
All Knowing ]
[ Could They Then ]
[ Tell You When Or If You Should Start Slowing? ]
[ Or Maybe Not ]
[ But Your Imagination Is All That You’ve Got ]
[ The Imagination To Dream ]
[ But Sometimes ]
[ Some Things Make You Scream ]
[ Definitely Not In Delight ]
[ Maybe When Your Imagination Gives You Nightmares
During The Night ]
[ That Is Why You Turn On The Light ]
[ Leave It On Would Be More Exact ]
[ You Try To Tell It Like It Is ]
[ So You Tell Just The Facts ]
[ Sometimes Your Imagination Gives You Better Sight ]
[ Into A World, Where There Is No Wrong Or Right ]
[ & There Is Alot Of Things That Happen Just Because ]
[ Plenty Of Future ]
[ Very Little (WAS) ]
[ A Place Where People Find Out Really Fast ]
[ About How To Learn From Their Past ]
[ & Never Have The Reason ]
[ To Dwell On What Happened Last ]
[ Last Year, Last Month Or Yesterday ]
[ Trying To Find A Better Way ]
[ To Try To Change Something That You Cannot
Change ]
[ Nothing Or A Reason To Rearrange ]
[ Something You Can’t ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(685)▪︎[ Betrayal, Of The Worst Kind … 9•10•2021 ]
[ Wow, That Is A Huge Slap In Your Face ]
[ After Always Welcoming Her Into Your Place ]
[ That Was A Backstabbing That You Cannot Forgive ]
[ She Basically Cut You Down, Because Of How You Live ]
[ How Could She Do This With All That You Have Done ]
[ When She Got Fired Back In January, You Should Have Run ]
[ But No, You Completely Saved Her Ass ]
[ & There Were So Many ( CALL-OUTS ) That You Let Pass ]
[ There Were So Many Weeks, With So Many Empty Shifts ]
[ There Were So Many Times, When You Gave Her Gifts ]
[ She Is Looking A Gift Horse In The Mouth ]
[ It Must Have Been About (4) Months Ago ]
[ When This Arrangement Started Heading South ]
[ Through All Of Those Days, When There Were No Calls ]
[ You Should Have Shown Some Balls ]
[ To Really Look @ The Writing On The Walls ]
[ The (CALL OUTS), (BEING LATE), (LEAVING EARLY) & (NO
SHOWS) Was Getting To Be A Little Too Much ]
[ She Missed So Much Work ]
[ She Seemed To Be Losing Her Touch ]
[ How Dare She Make That Last Remark ]
[ That Just Showed You How Much She Turned Dark ]
[ She Tried To Cut You Off @ The Knees ]
[ She Built This Entitlement Attitude ]
[ So She Thought That She Could Do Whatever She Pleased ]
[ You Don’t Get It, Because You Gave Her Everything ]
[ She Did Not Give You Anything ]
[ You Don’t Get It ]
[ Because This Is Just A Load Of Bullshit ]
[ She Had It So Easy Here ]
[ If She Is Looking For Someone To Blame For Getting Fired ]
[ She Should Just Hold Up A Mirror ]
[ You Feel So Betrayed ]
[ You Feel Like She Thought You Were A Bug ]
[ So She Sprayed You With Raid ]
[ But Now She Is Reaching Out In An Effort To Explain ]
[ You Don’t Think That It Would Be Worth Your Time ]
[ Just To Hear Her Complain ]
[ Why, Oh Why? ]
[ Did She Have Plans To Hang You Out To Dry? ]
[ Like This? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(3)▪︎[ The First Day … 1•1•2020 ]
[ Today Is The First Day Of The New Year ]
[ Is It Going To Be Full Of Cheer? ]
[ Or Are There Going To Be Problems That Kick You In The Rear? ]
[ To Some, This Is The Start Of The 2020 Decade ]
[ Will You Need Or Come To Someone’s Aid? ]
[ If You’re Always Going To Be There @ The Drop Of A Hat ]
[ Are You Able To Let A Stranger Come Up To Bat ]
[ & Take Their Swings? ]
[ That May Help Them Get Their Wings ]
[ When You Randomly Give Things ]
[ You’ll Soon Realize What Happiness It Brings ]
[ But Always Use Your Common Sense ]
[ Don’t Leave Someone Hanging ]
[ In Suspense ]
[ If You Are Going To Give, Then Give ]
[ Make It Easier For Someone To Live ]
[ Will The New Decade Bring New Problems ]
[ That You Won’t Want To Face? ]
[ Can You Solve Them? ]
[ So You Can Put Your Priorities Back In Place? ]
[ Face This New Decade Head On ]
[ If You Run & Hide ]
[ Then Throw It Out Onto The Lawn ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(683)▪︎[ He Did Finally Move Out … 8•17•2021 ]
[ Getting Him Out Of Your House Became All-Consuming @
Times ]
[ When He Was About To Be Placed, You Found Out That You
Did Not Have Enough $’s & Dimes ]
[ Even With All Of His Strange Quirks ]
[ Everybody Knew That He Had To Go To Work ]
[ That Began To Be The Only Thing That You Were Thinking
About ]
[ You Were Stressing Because You Had ALOT Of Doubt ]
[ That He Would Never Move Out ]
[ He Would Have Never Moved Out On His Own ]
[ Even Though He Was (18) & Grown ]
[ It Became Perfectly Clear ]
[ Most Of The Time, You No Longer Wanted Him Living Here ]
[ You Know He Is Your Son ]
[ & You Love Him As One ]
[ But Then He Became Your Number (1) Agitator ]
[ & Your Number (1) Aggravator ]
[ He Aggravated You To No End ]
[ You Know, As The Father, You Are Supposed To Bend ]
[ But You Almost Broke ]
[ & He Could See That ]
[ Then All He Did Was Poke & Poke & Poke! ]
[ He Also Knew What Buttons To Push Down On, Hard ]
[ There Were Some Times When You Really Wanted To Go
Toe-to-Toe With Him In The Back Yard ]
[ Oh So Close ]
[ But You Did Not Grow Up To Be As Dumb As A Post ]
[ You Knew Where That Would Have Led ]
[ So You Used Your Head ]
[ Instead ]
[ You Had To Wait & Wait & Wait ]
[ You Have Been Disappointed So Many Times In Your Life ]
[ It Was Tough To Have Faith ]
[ You Are Not Disowning Your Son By Any Means ]
[ He Has Stolen From You So Many Times & Had Said So
Many Things ]
[ But Nobody Heard Your Screams! ]
[ But Now July 14th Is Being Named As Your Independence
Day ]
[ Someone Finally Heard You Say ]
[ (HE CAN’t LIVE HERE ANYMORE!) ]
[ He Needed To Be Shown The Other Side Of The Door ]
[ So He Was Doing Well @ His New House ]
[ & You Were Loving, Living With Just Your Spouse ]
[ When He Was Coming Over We Asked Him To Mow Our Small
Yard ]
[ While He Was Doing It ]
[ He Made A Simple Thing, Be So Hard! ]
[ Then He Exploded With Anger & Demanded To Be Taken Home ]
[ Once That Was Known ]
[ You Told Him Then, That Would Be What We Will Do ]
[ He Started Crying, Saying (I DIDN’t MEAN IT!) ]
[ You Wanted To Say (WELL BOO WHO WHO!) ]
[ You Have Always Told Him That There Is No Such Thing As
(TAKE-BACKS IN REAL LIFE!) ]
[ Especially Since He Did Not Say It Very Nice ]
[ It Was So Nice To Take Him & His Bad Attitude To A
Different Address ]
[ & Then You Do Not Have To Deal With His Mess ]
[ The First Visit Sure Did Sink Down The Drain ]
[ Pretty Quick ]
[ When His Anger Comes On Like A Run Away Train ]
[ You Won’t Have To Deal With Him Whenever He Starts
Being A D–k ]
[ Right Away On Any Visits, You Could Tell Him To His Face ]
[ That If He Gets An Attitude ]
[ You Can Quickly Return Him To His Own Place ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(679)▪︎[ This Should Not Surprise You … 8•14•2021 ]
[ Do You Feel Good, When You Do Something Good? ]
[ When Others Don’t ]
[ Are They Misunderstood? ]
[ (9) Out Of (10) Just Won’t ]
[ So They Don’t ]
[ Don’t Expect A Word To Be Said ]
[ Don’t Let That Mess With Your Head ]
[ Most People Do Not Notice Or Care Unless It Happens
To Them, Personally ]
[ Does That Sound Reasonably ]
[ Correct? ]
[ Does That Connect? ]
[ It Is Really Sad ]
[ But Really True ]
[ Is It Bad? ]
[ If Sometimes That Could Include You? ]
[ But That Is Not The Norm For You Now ]
[ So You Cry ( FOUL!) ]
[ That Is Not How You Live ]
[ Because When Others Stand There & Take ]
[ You Are Usually One Of The Few That Would Rather Give ]
[ Being Handed Something ]
[ Does Not Feel As Good As Giving Something ]
[ Unless The Person Acts Entitled To It ]
[ That Is When You Do Not Want To Give Them Even A
Little Bit ]
[ Entitled People Could Take A Walk ]
[ Because Dealing With Those Kinds Of People Makes Me
Just Stop ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(683)▪︎[ The Storm … 8•17•2021 ]
[ When You Hear A Loud Outside, It Startles You Awake ]
[ It Always Makes You Shiver & Shake ]
[ When You Look, It Is Pitch Black Outside ]
[ Now Your Eyes Are Open Wide ]
[ You Don’t Know If Anyone Is Out There ]
[ & That Makes You Pull @ Your Hair ]
[ The Pitch Black Always Makes You Wonder ]
[ Will There Be A Storm Coming In ]
[ Bringing The Lightning & Thunder? ]
[ You Are Not Telling A Lie ]
[ When You Say That You Love When The Lightning Flashes
Across The Sky ]
[ It Is The Thunder That Gets Inside Your Head ]
[ As You Lay In Your Bed ]
[ Thunder Makes A (BOOM) ]
[ & That Shakes Your Bedroom ]
[ You Could Hear Nothing Else ]
[ You Hope That It Doesn’t Rattle What Is On Your Shelves ]
[ A Minute Or Two ]
[ & The Storm Moves Through ]
[ On To Rattle & Shake Elsewhere ]
[ Where? ]
[ You Don’t Really Care ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(682)▪︎[ A Sad Statement … 8•15•2021 ]
[ You Don’t Make Things Up, Just To Write Something Nice ]
[ You Never Think ]
[ That Every Word That You Write Will Be Taken As Advice ]
[ You Don’t Say Something Nice Just So YOU Feel Good ]
[ If That Is How It Comes Across ]
[ Than The Whole Situation Has Been Vastly Misunderstood ]
[ You Say Or Do Something With A Pure Heart ]
[ If That Is Not Believed ]
[ Then Why Should You Even Start? ]
[ You Just Want To Make Others Smile ]
[ Not For Just Awhile ]
[ Some People Never Give Or Get A Compliment In Their Life ]
[ They Would Rather Stand On The Side ]
[ & Slash @ People With A Knife ]
[ Cut Downs Is What They Are Used To ]
[ They Are Not Used To What You Come Out & Do ]
[ Some People Are Used To Being Used ]
[ & Pointed @ & Accused ]
[ Men Are The Main Perpetrators ]
[ There Is The Occasional Woman ]
[ & Men Are Also Some Of The Worst Instigators ]
[ You Are Not Expecting Anything Out Of It ]
[ You Are Not Saying Anything Just To Show Your Wit ]
[ Everybody Should Like A Little Sunshine Sprinkled On
Their Head ]
[ Would They Rather Have Negative Remarks Thrown @ Them ]
[ That Sticks In Their Memory, Instead? ]
[ You Guess Negative Comments Are Much Easier To Take ]
[ They Sure Are Easier To Make ]
[ Their Height, Their Weight Or What They Are Wearing ]
[ It Is Much Easier To Say Something That Shows That
You Not Caring ]
[ None Of Those Would Be Worth Sharing ]
[ It Seems That People Accept Rude Comments Much Easier
Than They Do Compliments ]
[ & That Is A Very Sad Statement ]
[ Why Is It Easier For Some To Accept Remarks That Cut? ]
[ Instead Of Compliments That Are Supposed To Lift Their
Spirits Up? ]
[ People Are Quick To Tear Others Down ]
[ Than They Are To Say Something Nice To Replace The
Frown ]
[ It Is Really Strange How That Works ]
[ The Good Guys Always Finish Last ]
[ Because Some People Are Used To The People That Spend
Their Time Being Jerks ]
[ & That Is Sad ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(681)▪︎[ The Bad Years … 8•16•2021 ]
[ There Were Years When All You Wanted To Do Was Just
Lay Down & Drift Off Into A Deep ]
[ Long Sleep ]
[ Could Anybody Take Your Pain Away? ]
[ Even For A Day? ]
[ If You Took All Of Those Pills, Would That Do The Trick? ]
[ You Had All Of Those Bottles From Which To Pick ]
[ Days Were Dark ]
[ You Had No Drive ]
[ You Felt Like You Were Stuck In Park ]
[ You Failed To Thrive ]
[ The Nights Were Even Darker ]
[ The Bad Images In Your Mind Were Always Larger ]
[ The Sounds Of That Person In Pain ]
[ You Heard Over & Over Again ]
[ Being Stuck In A (3) Hour Riot ]
[ Has Stolen All Of The Times When You Needed It To Be Quiet ]
[ There Was Nothing You Could Do ]
[ The Whole System Failed You ]
[ You Had To Listen To That Kid Getting Beat ]
[ All The While The Powers That Had Been There ]
[ Directed You To Take A Seat ]
[ This All Became Your PTSD In A Nutshell ]
[ So For So Many Years Your Memory Dragged You Through
Hell ]
[ You Can’t Say (& BACK) Because Sometimes Your Memory
Left You There ]
[ These Kinds Of Memories You NEVER Share ]
[ Unless You Wanted To Scare ]
[ Whoever You Were Talking To ]
[ Whenever You Were In A Flashback You Never Knew ]
[ What To Do ]
[ So Your Dark Days Extended To (21) Or (22) Hours Long ]
[ Everything In Your Head Was Wrong ]
[ You Stopped Feeling Strong ]
[ You Never Turned To Alcohol Or Any Illicit Drugs ]
[ You Never Turned Into A Thug ]
[ But You Did Turn Into Your Worst Enemy ]
[ You Could Not See ]
[ How Things Should Be ]
[ All Because Of Your PTSD ]
[ If Only You Could Go To Sleep For A Day Or Two ]
[ Would All Of These Sleeping Pills See You Through? ]
[ They Almost Did That ]
[ I Was @ The Count Of (2) On The Mat ]
[ But Then You Woke Up One Day ]
[ Then Decided That Wasn’t The Way ]
[ Everyday Since Then, You Walk The Fine ]
[ Imaginary Line ]
[ Do You Want To Go? ]
[ Or Do You Want To Stay? ]
[ Do You Always Know ]
[ That It Is Okay If You Are Not Feeling Okay? ]
[ You Say That Only The Wise ]
[ Recognize ]
[ The Prize ]
[ Through All The Angst & Strife ]
[ The Prize Is Living Your Life ]
[ The Best That You Possibly Can ]
[ & Try To Be Your Biggest Fan ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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