[ Everyone Grieves In Their Own Special Ways ] [ It Could Take Years Or Just A Couple Of Days ] [ Alot Of People Leave ] [ Very Few Stay ]
[ For Someone To Believe ] [ That They Would Receive ]
[ Some Relief ] [ No Matter How Brief ] [ They Would Have To Have Some Form Of Belief ]
[ Believing In Something That You Can’t Touch ] [ Is Tough ]
[ Blind Faith Is What Some People Call It ] [ It Is Not Always A Hit ] [ Some People Call It All Bullshit ]
[ If There Is Proof That Can Be Touched, Is One Thing ] [ Some People Do Not Believe The Healing That Religion Can Bring ] [ Is It All Held Together By String? ]
[ Does Religion Ever Work? ] [ Or Is It Preached By A Jerk ] [ With Kinky Quirks? ]
[ If You Die Young ] [ & There Was A Celebration Of Life Going On ] [ Would Anybody Come? ] [ Or Would Every Loved One Be Gone? ]
[ Have You Been Going So Fast ] [ That You Didn’t Leave Your Footprint On Anything In Your Past? ] [ Will There Be Any Remnants Of You, That Will Last? ]
[ Can You See Any Kind Of A Footprint? ] [ Or Is That Just Pocket Lint? ]
[ Where Did The Time Go? ] [ Did It Pass By You Fast Or Slow? ]
[ It Seems That You Don’t ] [ Will Your Neighbors Know? ] [ You Bet They Won’t ]
[ How Come The Only Help ] [ You Can Get ] [ Is From The Lone Review On Yelp? ]
[ You Look & Look ] [ But There Is Zero Chit Chat On Facebook ]
[ What About Your 100’s Of So Called Friends? ] [ Did Anybody Stick By You Through The End? ]
[ You Are Finding Out That You Left Nothing Of Worth ] [ On This Earth ]
[ Not In Your House ] [ Or Words From Your Grieving Spouse ]
[ But You Quickly Find That She Is Not Grieving ] [ She Is Packing Up & Leaving ]
[ Going Into The Unknown ] [ Since All Of Your Life Insurance Has Been Blown ]
[ Why Should She Stay? ] [ Another Week? ] [ Or Another Day ]
[ Would You Want To Bet ] [ That You Will Not Even Find Your Favorite Jacket? ]
[ Would That Be Given To The Goodwill Store? ] [ Since It Does Not Have A Purpose Anymore? ]
[ Did You Cherish Money Over Time Spent With Others? ] [ When You Did Find The Time ] [ You Chose To Stay Under Your Covers ]
[ How Come There Is Not A Single Clue ] [ That There Has Been Any Footprint Made By You? ]
[ You Feel Like You Are Giving Up ] [ You Are Catching Your Tears ] [ By Using Your Coffee Cup ]
[ You Are Feeling Like Your Life Source ] [ Seems To Be Leaving Your Body ] [ It Feels Like You Do Not Have Any Kind Of Protective Force ] [ Keeping Your Head From Getting Foggy ]
[ You Have Tried All Of Your Adult Life ] [ To Be A Good Husband, Father, Friend & Man ] [ To Others, Like Your Son & Your Wife ] [ While Also Wishing That They Would Become Your Biggest Fans ]
[ The Sparkle Has Been Leaving Your Eyes ] [ For Several Years Now ] [ Only You Can See Your Pain & Hear Your Cries ] [ You Would Like To Express This To Others, But You Do Not Know How ]
[ Everyone Is Way To Busy ] [ To See Your Pain ] [ To Others They Might See You As Lazy ] [ & A Little Bit Insane ] [ Some People That Knows You, Might Want To Call You Crazy ] [ But Thankfully, Most Of Them Refrain ]
[ Sometimes All You Hear Is The Riot ] [ In Your Head ] [ Why Can’t You Have A Single Night Of Quiet ] [ Instead? ]
[ The Other Times Your Thoughts Are Like A Spinning Top ] [ There Have Been Many That You Will Feel Like A Flop ] [ Whenever That Happens ] [ It Is So Obvious That Is The Reason Why Your Self-Esteem Will Take A Sudden Drop ]
[ Your Marriage Feels Like It Is Falling ] [ Off A Cliff ] [ Nobody Ever Feels Like Calling ] [ To Give You That Much Needed Lift ]
[ You Used To Have ] [ So Many Names In Your Rolodex ] [ Now You Don’t Even See ½ ] [ That Many Names To Text ]
[ When You Are Smack Dab In The Middle Of A Major Crisis ] [ You Reach For One Of Your Electronic Devices ]
[ But When You Look Through Your Contacts List ] [ You Have No Idea Who To Call ] [ When You Get Upset You Clench Your Fists ] [ All That Does Is Make You Flashback To When Frustration Caused You To Hit A Wall ]
[ But You Are Not Angry, You Are Emotionally Hurt ] [ You Start To Feel That Your Blood Pressure Has Bottomed Out ] [ Will Anyone Be Able To See Your Broken Heart Through Your Shirt? ] [ That Is Just One Of The Many Things That You Doubt ]
[ Your Wife Has Said That She Hates What You Have Changed ] [ Into ] [ Nobody Understands What Your Brain ] [ Has Been Through ]
[ Maybe Your Thought Process ] [ Cannot Be Fixed ] [ That Causes You To Feel Lost ] [ Because You Feel As Strong As A House That Has Been Built With Match Sticks ]
[ When You Text, “I Give Up” To Your Friends, That Was A Cry For Help ] [ Now You Feel Like You Should Have Kept Your Vulnerability ] [ On A Garage Shelf ] [ Because Someone With Your Type Of Personality ] [ Should Have Reached Out On “Yelp” ]
[ You Have Kind Of Felt ] [ Throughout The Years That You Are Like An Aquired Taste ] [ Your Inner Circle Is Getting Smaller Like The Tightening Of The Belt ] [ That You Wear Around Your Waist ]
[ It Is Not Crystal Clear ] [ Where Things Will Be Going From Here ]
[ You Really Have To Get Your Thoughts Straight ] [ You Cannot Wait ] [ You Need To Take Your Future, Your Fate ] [ Into Your Own Hands ] [ Post Haste ]
[ Get Back To Living As “One” With Your Spouse ] [ So You Will Have, Once Again ] [ A Harmonious House ] [ Right When Your Days Begin ] [ Stop Being A Grouch ] [ Do Things That Can Be Looked @ As A “Win-Win” ]
What’s a promise you made to yourself that you’ve actually kept?
[ What Is A Promise You Made To Yourself That You Actually Kept? ]
[ There Have Been (2) That Come To Mind ]
[ The First Promise Was When You Were In (8th) Grade ]
[ You Went Over To A Friend’s House ]
[ He Already Had A Friend There, But No Parents To Be Found, Since It Was The Summer ]
[ Well They Both Started Drinking & Smoking On Someone’s Bong ]
[ Well, Within The Hour They Started Acting Obnoxious & Like Fools ]
[ You Just Got Up & Went Home Thinking That Doing Drugs & Drinking Was Stupid ]
[ You Made The Promise To Yourself That You Would NOT Touch Alcohol Or Drugs Until After You Turned (18yrs) Old & Graduated High School ]
[ During High School You Still Went To The Regular Weekend Parties ]
[ But You Kept Your Promise To Yourself By Being One Of The Very Few To Walk Around Sipping Coke Out Of A Can & Staying Sober ]
[ There Was Alot Of Peer Pressure To Break Your Promise ]
[ You Did Not Try Anything Until You Went To College ]
[ So You Kept Your Promise ]
[ You Did Go To The Parties For The First (2yrs) Then Did Not Touch Another Drop For (10) More Years ]
[ Then You Got Really Drunk @ Your Bachelors Party A Week Before Your Wedding ]
[ The (4) Friends That Took Out Got You Extremely Drunk! ]
[ You Drank More That Night Than You Ever Did Prior ]
[ The Day After Your Party Was When You Made The Other Promise … No More Drinking ]
[ That Was March 9th, 1996 ]
[ So You Are (2) For (2) & You Are Proud Of It ]
[ Whenever You Drank You Never Got Sick Or Had Any Sort Of Hangover ]
[ More Than A Few People Thought You Were Lucky ]
[ You Did Consider Yourself Lucky ]
[ Because Later In Life … ]
[ You Found Out The Truth On Why Your Biological Father Put A Gun To His Girlfriends Head Than Shot Himself In Front Of You & Your Sister In (1966) … They Were Really Drunk & Were Arguing ]
[ Then Your Only Sister Dropped Out Of High School, Started Drinking & Doing Drugs After She Ran Away ]
[ The Last Thing You Ever Knew About Her Was She Was Homeless, Living On The Streets Of S.E. Portland ]
[ She Is Most Likely Dead & That Was Over (15yrs) Ago ]
[ Your Only Brother Went Out On The Town While Living In Las Vegas With His Daughter ]
[ He Went To Sleep & Never Woke Up ]
[ (3) Out Of (3) Family Members Are Gone Because Of Alcohol & Drug Abuse Problems ]
[ You Miss Your Brother The Most! ]
[ Drinking & Drugs Was So Intertwined In Your Families DNA! ]
[ Yes, You Consider Yourself Lucky ]
[ You Don’t Preach To Anyone About Drug &/Or Alcohol Use, Not Even To Your Own Kid ]
[ He Knows All That You’ve Lost & It’s A Choice For Anyone ]
[ Those Are Your (2) Best Promises To Yourself That You Have Worked Really Hard To Keep ]
[ What If Your Life Was Turned Upside Down & Twisted To The Left? ] [ Then Twisted Back To The Right? ] [ Would You Have To Watch Your Step ] [ Before You Are Able To Turn On The Light? ]
[ Life Is Like That ] [ It Seems To Be A Proveable Fact ] [ That You Are Raised & Directed On How To Act ]
[ If Other’s Are Acting In Front Of You ] [ How Do You Continue ] [ Knowing What To Do? ]
[ Do You Just Want To Wing It? ] [ Bit By Bit ]
[ Everything Counts ] [ But If You Are Not Careful ] [ The Bills Will Mount ] [ & Then You Would Have To Empty Your Bilfold ]
[ Then Where Are You @ ] [ If You Keep Eating Processed Food ] [ You Could Get Fat ] [ & That Wouldn’t Be Good ]
[ When It Sounds Like An Argument Is Going Back & Forth ] [ Maybe You Should Take A Pause ] [ Then Go To Your “True North” ] [ Before The Other Person Starts Showing Their Claws ]
[ Because You Might Find That Their Strongest Characteristic ] [ Might Be When They Show How Narcissistic ]
[ They Truly Get & Are ] [ That Might Be Why They Are So High Maintenance ] [ Like A Really Expensive Sports Car ]
[ Going To Your “True North” Can Have Such A Calming Affect ] [ Especially In The Face ] [ Of Someone Who Acts Like They Are An Emotional Train Wreak ]
[ It Is Not Up To You To Solve Their Problems ] [ Or Fix Them ]
[ A Narcissist Cannot Ever Get Out Of Their Own Way ] [ Mainly Because They Do Not Ever Believe They Are In The First Place ] [ No Matter What You Will Say ] [ Or Show To Their Face ]
[ A Narcissist Is Never Truly Empathetic ] [ But Getting Away From One Can Prove To Be ] [ Very Cathartic ] [ & Strangely ] [ Staying With One Can Prove To Become Very Problematic ]
[ So Why Would You Want To Stay With One ] [ Since Now That Everything Has Stopped Being Fun ] [ You Are Just Very Pleased That There Won’t Be An Anniversary For Year (31) ] [ So Take The Advice Of “Run Forest, Run!” ]
[ You Will Find ] [ That You Will Never Be Able To Figure Out The Thinking ] [ That Goes On In Their Mind ] [ They Could Try To Spend Many Nights Binge Drinking ] [ & They Will Never Go Dakine! ]
