[ Sometimes Hope Is A Terrible Thing To Give ]
[ When Someone Is So Depressed ]
[ They Don’t Want To Be Forced To Live ]
[ Living Is The Last Thing That Is On Their Mind ]
[ If Only They Had The Power To Rewind ]
[ The Quest For Hope ]
[ Can Be Washed Away As Fast ]
[ As Water Washes Away Soap ]
[ They Could Tell You To (SHUT THE FRONT DOOR) ]
[ Because They Don’t Want To Hear Anymore ]
[ Then What Are You Saying That For ]
[ For Recognition? ]
[ For Validation? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1318)▪︎[ Don’t Go That Way … 11•14•2019 ]
[ As I Sit Here Brokenhearted ]
[ I Remember The Day Where We Parted ]
[ That Day Was Not A Day Where I Shined ]
[ That Was When I Felt I Was Left Behind ]
[ You Were Going That Way ]
[ But I Didn’t Want To That Day ]
[ I Thought We’d Be Better Off Going There ]
[ But You Never Listened ]
[ Or Cared ]
[ Later That Day I Tried To Call You On Your Phone ]
[ But The Voice That Answered It Was Not Known ]
[ By Me ]
[ I Just Could Not See ]
[ How Things Got So Messed Up ]
[ When I Heard That Man’s Voice ]
[ I Felt Cut ]
[ To Go Outside Of Our Marriage To Get Some Strange ]
[ That Sure Seems Pre-Arranged ]
[ Since You Were So Fast ]
[ To Put Our Future In Your Past ]
[ You Cut Me Out In Nothing Flat ]
[ There’s No Doubt About That ]
[ So Now Where Are @? ]
[ Is There Even Anything To Save? ]
[ That Would Be Where You Would Have To Behave ]
[ If I Get Even The Smallest Feeling Of Doubt ]
[ Then I Will Walk Out ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(865)▪︎[ Good To See Tonight … 10•12•2021 ]
[ Tonight We All Went Out For A Birthday Dinner For
Our Son ]
[ He Turned (2) Years Prior Of (21) ]
[ The Food Was Good & Plenty ]
[ I Can’t Believe My Son Is (1) Year Shy Of (20) ]
[ We Had Good Laughs & Really Good Food ]
[ Nobody Said Or Did Anything That Was Misunderstood ]
[ BD Is Growing Up To Be Quite The Adult ]
[ I Hope He Won’t Go Wandering & Join A Cult ]
[ I Try My Best To Be A Good & Fair Dad ]
[ I Don’t Ever Try To Make Anyone Mad ]
[ He Has Kind Of Made It Known ]
[ That He Is Settling Nicely Into His New Home ]
[ He Has (2) Roommates Around The Same Age ]
[ So Far He Has Controlled His Rage ]
[ BD Seems To Have Found His Spot ]
[ (1) Of His Roommates Likes To Watch Movies ALOT! ]
[ When I Have Visited, It Seems To Be Clear ]
[ That They Have A Very Casual Atmosphere ]
[ It Gives Him Room & Time To Grow ]
[ & He Is Able To Get The Answers To Things That He Wants
To Get To Know ]
[ One Thing I Noticed While Sitting @ The Table ]
[ My Son Is Becoming Strong & Able ]
[ When It Comes To Food He Still Is As Picky As Ever ]
[ So When Can I See Him Eat A Small Dinner Salad? ]
[ I Am Sure The Answer To That Is … NEVER!! ]
[ I Am Sorry For This Kind Of Funny Jab ]
[ Hey When Will You Get A Good Paying Job? ]
[ So Next Time You Can Pick-Up The Tab? ]
[ I Am Sure That Will Come In Time ]
[ He Has Many Other Reasons To Save His Dimes ]
[ Well Last June He Crossed Off Graduating From High
School On His Long To-Do List ]
[ That Was Definitely Worth A Bump Of The Fist ]
[ But Right Now He Is Working & Taking (2) College Classes ]
[ He Needs To Keep His Eyes On His Homework ]
[ & Away From That Co-Ed That Is Batting Her Eyelashes ]
[ Nah, Maybe He Will Find A Girl Who Will Become Important In
His Life ]
[ But Hey Slow Down Now ]
[ He Is Way To Young To Make That First Girlfriend His Wife! ]
[ I Do Wish Someday That He Will Find As Great Of A Woman As I
Have Found In His Mom ]
[ After 25+ Years Of Marriage, I Still Think She’s Da Bomb! ]
[ I Do Hope That He Will Get Lucky Like That ]
[ Always Remember To Be Polite Around ALL Women By Giving
Them A Tip Of Your Hat ]
[ Well Son, It Was Good To Break Bread With You Tonight ]
[ Always Remember That I Love You ]
[ Everytime I Text You Goodnight ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(864)▪︎[ Oh No, Portland!! … 10•12•2021 ]
[ Oh No, All Of The People Up In Portland, OR Are Up In Arms ]
[ Defunding The Portland Police Department Only Caused
The City Harm ]
[ Please Excuse Me For Saying This ]
[ Portland Politicians Should Beware Of What They Wish ]
[ For ]
[ Or Want Anymore ]
[ What The Hell Did They Think Would Happen In The Streets? ]
[ People Would Come Downtown For The Eats? ]
[ They Disbanded The Unit That Handled Violent Street Crimes ]
[ So Out From The Gutter, Came Dirt & Grime ]
[ People Are Going Crazy Using Their Gun ]
[ They Feel That Shooting @ Innocent Bystanders Is Alot Of Fun ]
[ Target Practice If You Will ]
[ Because Some Of These Guys, Do Not Care Who They Kill ]
[ Who Came Up With The Bright Idea To Pull Up In Their Car
& Park ]
[ When It Is Pitch Dark ]
[ & Shoot Up A House ]
[ 30 Or 40 Bullets ]
[ They Don’t Care If You Are There Relaxing With Your Child
& Spouse ]
[ Shoot & Empty The Clip ]
[ Eject Your Clip ]
[ Reload & Continue ]
[ All Because They Defunded The Men & Women In Blue ]
[ Thank You Councilwoman Hardesty For This Bright Idea That
You Had ]
[ Does She Think That This Stupid Idea Turned Out Bad? ]
[ It Does Not Take A Person To Be Very Smart ]
[ To See That This Was A Hugely Bad Idea, From The Very Start ]
[ So She Thinks That If A Man Was Emotionally Distraught &
Was Threatening People With A Gun, Just Wants To Talk? ]
[ & If You Send A Counselor Up There ]
[ They Would Put Their Guns Down & Come Out For A Casual
Walk? ]
[ So The Secret Is To Send An Unarmed Professional Into A
Highly Dangerous Situation? ]
[ & What Would You Call This Profession? ]
[ A Sucker? ]
[ A Ducker? ]
[ Learning How To Duck Would Be A Must ]
[ Trying To Predict The Future Was A Bust ]
[ Did The Politicians In Portland Really Think That Everything
Would Turn Out Good? ]
[ When Have Bullets Been Misunderstood? ]
[ Shootings In Portland Have Been @ An All-Time High ]
[ Only The Blindfolded People Are Asking (HOW?) (WHY?) ]
[ Did Those Politicians Even Take The Time To Think? ]
[ When There Are No Police In The Streets, There Will Be A
Tremendously High Crime Rate ]
[ Or Did They Just Go Out For Drinks? ]
[ There Are Now Lots Of Shootings ]
[ & Alot Of Lootings ]
[ When There Are No Police Around, Criminals Run Amuck ]
[ They Have Guns To Shoot ]
[ So Everybody Walking Around Downtown Portland Better
Learn To Duck ]
[ How Can Portland Turn This Around After Making (DEFUND
THE POLICE) Their Taunt? ]
[ People Should Think Things Through ]
[ They Just May Get The Negative Results Of What They Want! ]
[ Because Those People Opened Their Mouth ]
[ I Will Continue Stay In A Safe City Just A Little Bit South ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(468)▪︎[ The Question Is (WHEN?) … 6•4•2021 ]
[ When Can Someone Say That They Are Successful? ]
[ When Their Cupboards & Belly Are Full? ]
[ Would It Be From The Adulation That They Receive? ]
[ From The People Who Follow Them & Believe? ]
[ Alot Of Success Has To Come From The Gratification
From Others ]
[ It Doesn’t Come From Your Wife Or Your Fake Mother ]
[ Sometimes You Have To Seek Outside Approval Because
Looking In The Mirror Is Not Enough ]
[ The Mirror Can Show You When That Day Has Been Rough ]
[ Money In The Bank Does Not Always Equate To Having
A Great Life ]
[ Right Now, It Does Not Even Equate To Having A Loyal
Wife ]
[ Because A Life Cannot Always Be Made From A Checkbook ]
[ Sometimes You Have To Lift Your Head To Look ]
[ The Picture You Might See Is Not Always Rosy ]
[ The House That You Wake-Up In May Not Be So Cozy ]
[ Anymore ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(861)▪︎[ I Think I’ll Pass … 10•11•2021 ]
[ Right Now Things Are Tough All Over ]
[ Instead Of The Need To Go Outside ]
[ You Want To Hide Under The Covers ]
[ But You Have To Go Out There For Survival Supplies @ Some
Time ]
[ Will You Need To Get Some Lemons To Go With Your Lime? ]
[ You Can’t Be Around Others Anytime Soon ]
[ But You Don’t Want To Get Lazy ]
[ By Not Getting Out Of Bed Before Noon ]
[ Will Your Eyesight Go Hazy ]
[ In This Man-Made Cocoon? ]
[ No Friends Or Visitors To Stop By ]
[ You Would Even Settle For A Solicitor ]
[ To Knock On The Door To Say (HI) ]
[ But Before ]
[ Answering The Door ]
[ Would You Ask (WHO OR WHAT ARE YOU HERE FOR?) ]
[ Would Your Health Be In Danger ]
[ If You Ever Opened The Door To A Stranger? ]
[ What If They Wanted To Shake Your Hand ]
[ Right There, Where You Stand? ]
[ How Do You Diffuse ]
[ A Friendly Gesture ]
[ That You Flat Out Refuse? ]
[ Instead Of Pondering This Situation On Your Mind ]
[ You Would Say (OH, YOU’re BEING TOO KIND) ]
[ But You Would Tell Them That You Pass ]
[ Real Fast ]
[ & Hope That It Won’t Kick You In The Ass ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(858)▪︎[ Nature -vs- Nurture? … 10•10•2021 ]
[ I Often Wonder About Nature -vs- Nurture ]
[ Which One Really Drives Me Into The Future? ]
[ Which One Do I Have To Thank ]
[ About How Much My Dad Drank? ]
[ His Dad Or His Mom? ]
[ Which One Was Responsible For Him Getting Bombed? ]
[ It Seemed Like My Dad Had A Temper When He Would Drink ]
[ He Did Impulsive Things Before He Would Think ]
[ He Seemed To Become A Mess ]
[ When He Would Drink To Excess ]
[ But Then I Look @ My Brother & My Sisters Lives ]
[ They Drank ]
[ & Did Drugs For Many Many Nights ]
[ The (3) Of Us Have The Same Gene’s, From The Same Mom
& Dad ]
[ But (2) Out (3) Of Us Turned Out Sad ]
[ Our Mom Signed Off Her Parental Rights One Day ]
[ Then She Ran Away ]
[ She Wiped Her Hands Of Us ]
[ Walked Out Of The Courthouse ]
[ Then Caught A Bus ]
[ I Was Once Asked What I Would Say To Her If She Was To
Someday Knock On My Door ]
[ I Would Ask (1) Question ]
[ (WHAT ARE YOU HERE FOR?) ]
[ A Relationship As Her Son? ]
[ It Was My Belief That Once She Signed That Document ]
[ Her Relationship With Any Of Us, Was Done ]
[ The Whole Reason Why My Dad Came Over To Hawaii To Get My
Sister & I, Was To Raise Us As His Own ]
[ When He Came Home Drunk That Fateful Night, He Should Have
Left That Gun Alone ]
[ He All Of A Sudden Got This Homicidal Thirst ]
[ Because He Tried To Kill His Girlfriend First ]
[ To His Dismay ]
[ The Gun Did Not Fire ]
[ So Things Did Not Go His Way ]
[ The Situation Became Dire ]
[ So When He Put It To His Head, This Time It Did Fire ]
[ He Was Drunk The Night That He Died ]
[ My Brother Was Drunk The Night That He Died ]
[ Was My Sister High The Night That She Died? ]
[ I Actually Do Not Know If My Sister Has Passed Yet ]
[ But With Her Lifestyle Being What It Is ]
[ It Is A Good Bet ]
[ Becoming A Drug Addict Or Alcoholic Has Never Been One Of
My Biggest Fears ]
[ The Last Time That I Touched Any Drugs Was Around 1984 ]
[ The Last Time I Touched Alcohol Has Been Over (25) Years ]
[ Why Did Both Of My Siblings Go That Route? ]
[ Should I Sleep With Doubt? ]
[ With (1) Eye Open & (1) Eye Shut? ]
[ Wondering If This Was My Destiny ]
[ No Matter What? ]
[ My Sister Was Given The Same Upbringing As Me ]
[ Why Couldn’t She ]
[ Stay & Live Drug Free? ]
[ As We Grew, There Was No Drug Use ]
[ We Were Both Raised In A Home That Was Free Of Child Abuse ]
[ What Pointed Me To Have A Love For Playing Sports? ]
[ & She Went To Drugs & Days In Courts? ]
[ I Really Believe It Was The People That We Chose ]
[ & The Ones Who Remained Close ]
[ My Sister Chose To Follow The Footprints From The Kids
Down The Street ]
[ I Chose To Make A Path From My Own (2) Feet ]
[ My Brother Was Passed Out Drunk The Last Night That He Was
Alive ]
[ Thankfully His Daughter Did Not Allow Him To Drive ]
[ So He Did Not Kill Anyone Else ]
[ That Was Not How He Killed Himself ]
[ So The Addiction Part Flows Through My System ]
[ But I Am Not Letting It Cause A Problem ]
[ I Tried Drugs Several Decades Ago ]
[ Knowing What I Do Now Know ]
[ I Am So Thankful When I Said (NO!) ]
[ Drugs And Alcohol Use Are Not (2) Things That I Fight ]
[ Even Though My Dad & Brother Were Drunk On Their Last Night ]
[ But My Sister Has Been Nowhere In Sight ]
[ For The Last (10) Years Or So ]
[ Her Drug Use Got So Bad & The Relationship Turned Toxic ]
[ I Told Her To Go ]
[ Take Her Lifestyle Elsewhere ]
[ But Now, I Don’t Know Where ]
[ Is Addiction In The Nurture Or In The Nature? ]
[ I Am Not Sure ]
[ Maybe It Is The Mind-Set ]
[ That I Get ]
[ Addiction Can Come On Fast ]
[ I Know How To Keep Alcohol & Drugs In The Past ]
[ I Know In My Heart ]
[ I Just Won’t Start ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1300)▪︎[ A Bump … 11•7•2019 ]
[ When The Sky Turns Dark ]
[ & Something Makes The Dogs Bark ]
[ Should That Make You Fearful Of A Bump In The Night? ]
[ Would You Feel Differently If There Was A Bump When
It’s Light? ]
[ What Exactly Does The Bump Consist Of? ]
[ When It’s In The Dark It’s Evil ]
[ When It’s Light It Could Give You Love ]
[ Why Is The Bump Negative? ]
[ What Can Make It Positive? ]
[ Is The Color Of Sky What Pushes It One Way Or The Other? ]
[ When It Is Light Out Things Are Okay ]
[ When It’s Dark Out, You Run For Cover ]
[ So Quickly, Turn On The Lights ]
[ Hurry & Shine The Light Down On What Gives You The Frights ]
[ Do You Think That Your Judgements Are Right? ]
[ Are They Justifyed ]
[ Are You Mystified ]
[ When & Where Did This Fright Begin? ]
[ If You Dealt With The Bump Once ]
[ Could It Happen To You Again? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1298)▪︎[ My Head … 11•6•2019 ]
[ Where Has My Head Been? ]
[ In The Clouds ]
[ When? ]
[ When There’s A Crowd ]
[ In My Mind ]
[ Because That’s When I’m Inclined ]
[ To Latch Onto Words ]
[ That I Feel That Are Unkind ]
[ They Latch Onto The Memory Part Of My Brain ]
[ Then It’s Like I’m Standing There Staring ]
[ @ The Light Of The Oncoming Train ]
[ Why Can’t I Just Step To The Side ]
[ The Voice Inside ]
[ My Head Said Things Were Okay ]
[ But It Lied ]
[ Because I Really Needed To Get Out Of The Way ]
[ So I Take A Few Steps Back ]
[ Away From The Tracks ]
[ Wow, That Was A Close One ]
[ All I Want To Do Now Is Run ]
[ But I Can’t Escape The Voices In My Head ]
[ Can They Control It With Another Med? ]
[ Or Should I Take Fewer Instead? ]
[ I Need Each & Every Pill & Capsule ]
[ I Could Fall Ill ]
[ & My Senses Could Dull ]
[ I Think I Will Stay Exactly Where I’m @ Med Wise ]
[ Unless My Med Provider Has Been Telling Me Lies ]
[ I Don’t Think So ]
[ How Do I Know? ]
[ I Am Sure ]
[ That I Trust Her ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1302)▪︎[ Altered States … 11•8•2019 ]
[ Have You Ever Stopped To Think ]
[ Then Had Problems Starting Again? ]
[ Sometimes You Can Blink ]
[ & Wonder Where The Time Went? ]
[ It Is Now A Quarter Past Nine ]
[ But I Only Remember It Being Half Past Three ]
[ Did I Mistakenly Indulge In Some Wine? ]
[ & The Alcohol Was Really Quick To Affect Me? ]
[ Maybe Someone Doctored My Soda With My Sleeping Med ]
[ Did They Want Me Dead? ]
[ Or Just Knocked Out On My Bed? ]
[ My Special Sleep Med Is Dangerous In The Hands Of Someone
Who Wants To Cause Pain ]
[ My Sleeping Medication Can Do Tricks On The Brain ]
[ Sometimes In The Morning The Effect Of The Drug Remains ]
[ Put In The Wrong Hands This Drug Could Cause Harm ]
[ When Under This Drug ]
[ Even A Rattlesnake Has Charm ]
[ Then You Start To Wonder Who You Can Trust ]
[ Your Faith In Others Has Gone Bust ]
[ A Complete Bust Of The Bubble That You Used To Live In ]
[ As For Having The Win Or Lose Mentality ]
[ You’re Never Going To Win ]
[ How’s That For Causality? ]
[ How Do You Come Back From Such A Hellish Ride ]
[ Are Your Eyes ]
[ Now Open Wide? ]
[ Now, What Do You Now Think Of The Guy’s ]
[ That Stand By Your Side ]
[ When They Tell Their Lies ]
[ When Saying That They Never Lied ]
[ When You Proved Them Wrong ]
[ Does That Keep You Going Strong? ]
[ Don’t Try To Figure Out Who Slipped You That Mickey ]
[ Their Mentality Was Fairly Sickly ]
[ Getting The Truth Out Of Some]
[ Would Be Pretty Tricky ]
[ The Best Thing To Do Was To Chill ]
[ Before You Get Ill ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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