[ Sometimes It Is So Hard To Be Authentic Day
In & Day Out ]
[ No Matter How Well You Present Yourself ]
[ There Are Always A Few That Try To Give You Doubt ]
[ It Feels So Free & Liberating ]
[ Not Needing Any Outside Validating ]
[ Searching For Outside Validation ]
[ Can Lead To So Many Days Full Of Frustration ]
[ Searching & Waiting ]
[ Searching Becomes Days & Days That Are So Frustrating ]
[ What Would Bring Some Quick Relief ]
[ If Somoneone Can Bring Some Brief ]
[ Belief ]
[ It Is Hard To Fight Against The Majority ]
[ Authentic People Are The Minority ]
[ It Has Been Like That Since The Beginning Of Time ]
[ I Feel That I Have Been Authentic Through This Whole Rhyme ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(953)▪︎[ The Silence … 11•10•2021 ]
[ After You Spilled Out How You Were Feeling ]
[ You Were Talking About How You Were Dealing ]
[ With Your Life ]
[ With Your Kids ]
[ & With Your Wife ]
[ What Almost Started A Second Of Violence ]
[ Was After You Really Talked To Your Friend From The Heart ]
[ Her Response ]
[ Her Reply ]
[ All That Was Said … Was Silence ]
[ Not A Single Word ]
[ Was Uttered ]
[ Or Heard ]
[ With You Thinking That She Had Been Your Best Friend Not
Just For Years, But For Decades ]
[ When You Were A Much Younger Age ]
[ She Pushed You Through Some Of Your Hardest Years ]
[ You Have Held Her Up ]
[ When You Helped Her Face Her Fears ]
[ You Have Been Through Thick & Thin ]
[ When Things Were Not The Fashion ]
[ But Letting Her Know What (WAS IN) ]
[ When She Answered You With Silence, You Were Floored ]
[ You Wanted To Run To The Door ]
[ Except You Were In Your Own Home ]
[ Why She Did That, Will Never Be Known ]
[ You Could Not Bring Yourself To Open Your Mouth, To
Talk ]
[ You Had Nothing, After You Balked ]
[ The Silence Was Deafening ]
[ The Silence Was Threatening ]
[ What To Do? ]
[ What To Do? ]
[ Right Now, You Don’t Know What To Do ]
[ So You Left ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(311)▪︎[ Sorry … 4•14•2021 ]
[ It Has Never Been My Wish ]
[ To Ever Cause You Great Anguish ]
[ I Will Always Say ]
[ That My Intentions Are Always In The Opposite Way ]
[ I Never Wanted My Actions ]
[ To Become A Big Distraction ]
[ I Have Always Wanted To Be A Positive Force ]
[ Someone Who Always Tries To Make Your Life Happier ]
[ But All I Did Was Become A Negative Source ]
[ Of Energy ]
[ So That Is Why I See ]
[ The Need ]
[ To Ask You To Forgive Me ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(309)▪︎[ What Is The Time? … 4•14•2021 ]
[ I Just Wanted To Know What Time It Was ]
[ I Didn’t Need To Know How The Clock Was Made ]
[ & Also Because ]
[ I Didn’t Need To Know How Much You Paid ]
[ Paid For The Clock Of Course ]
[ If Another Person Chose To Tell Me ]
[ I Would Have To Consider The Source ]
[ Why ]
[ Would I Take The Word, Of An Ordinary Guy? ]
[ Some Guys ]
[ Look You In Your Eyes ]
[ While They Are Telling You A Number Of Lies ]
[ Telling Lies Are What Some People Do ]
[ The Rationalization For Them ]
[ Is They Think That Most Everybody Else, Does Too ]
[ That Is The Furthest From The Truth, As Others Would
Say ]
[ Some People Are Exposed As Liars ]
[ Much To Their Families Dismay ]
[ Telling Lies Is Their Normal Way Of Life ]
[ Some Do Not See The Wrong In Things ]
[ & They Don’t Care About What Is Right ]
[ & That Is Where Everything Goes All Wrong ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(316)▪︎[ What A Ride … 4•15•2021 ]
[ Hey, Where Did You Go? ]
[ Around The Corner? ]
[ Up The Street? ]
[ Is There A Way That You Could Let Me Know? ]
[ It Seems That You Cannot See The Wounds That I Have Under My
Scars ]
[ Some Feel So Long & Deep ]
[ You Could Park (2) Cars ]
[ The Wounds That Are Inflicted By You Because Of The Words
That You Have Said ]
[ In The Past ]
[ Really Stuck In My Head ]
[ If They Had Been Written ]
[ I Would Have Been Twice Bitten ]
[ Where Do You See This Going, When Things Are Not Going So
Well? ]
[ I Think That I Can Figure Out The Smell ]
[ That Hangs In The Air Sometimes ]
[ Those Are The Many Days When You Dragged Our Relationship
Through Hell ]
[ I Can Be Optimistic When I Look @ That Half Filled Cup ]
[ The Only Direction Our Relationship Can Go ]
[ & That Is Up ⬆️ ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(930)▪︎[ To Dr. Peffley … 11•3•2021 ]
[ I Remember The Night Well, Even Though It Was A Long
Long Time Ago ]
[ I Decided To Take A Chance On A Dr. That I Did Not Know ]
[ He Was The Camp Dr., For The Week, That We Were There ]
[ I Watched How He Interacted With The Other Campers ]
[ & How He Gave Care ]
[ I Did Not See Him Set A Broken Bone Or Diagnose A
Brain Tumor ]
[ But I Thought That He Was Very Personable ]
[ & Had A Great Sense Of Humor ]
[ I Continued To Observe ]
[ & See If He Had A Steady Nerve ]
[ Everybody Seemed To Like Him ]
[ & He Them ]
[ So After One Of The Evenings, Entertainment One Night ]
[ I Got Up The Courage ]
[ To Get Over My Fright ]
[ I Went Up To Dr. Peffley ]
[ To See ]
[ If He Could Be A Dr. For Me ]
[ So I Took On The Task ]
[ To Hide How Nervous I Was ]
[ As I Stepped Towards Him To Ask ]
[ (WOULD YOU BE MY REGULAR DOCTOR?) ]
[ I Did Not Give Him Another Choice ]
[ Like Saying (OR) ]
[ He Looked @ Me @ First, With An Expressionless Face ]
[ Then He Said The Most Memorable (5) Words Back ]
[ (YOU ARE A COMPLEX CASE) ]
[ For The Record ]
[ That Comment Stumbled Me For A Second ]
[ It Would Have Been Awhile ]
[ If Dr. Peffley Hadn’t Been Standing There Now, With A Big Smile ]
[ Then He Asked (BUT YOU HAVE SPECIALISTS ALREADY
IN PLACE, RIGHT?) ]
[ He Seemed To Understand My Plight ]
[ So Started A Longtime Dr./Patient ]
[ Relationship ]
[ Dr. Peffley’s Practice Has Gone Through Several Changes
Through The Past Couple Of Years ]
[ Having Him For My Doctor, Has Eased Many Fears ]
[ I Still Don’t Want To Bother Him @ Odd Hours Of The
Night ]
[ I Guess I Am Old Fashioned & I Don’t Think That Is My Right ]
[ Dr. Peffley Is Always Accurate With His Diagnosis &
Quick With The Joke ]
[ When I Say That He Is The Best Doctor, That I Have Ever Had ]
[ I Am Not Blowing Any Smoke ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(931)▪︎[ The Man In The Mirror … 11•4•2021 ]
[ Sometimes When You Look In The Mirror You Feel Like You See
An Imposter ]
[ You Look In Your Phone ]
[ But Don’t See His Name On Your Roster ]
[ Who Is This Much Older Man That You See? ]
[ Why Is He Here? ]
[ In Your Mirror? ]
[ You Don’t Know Who The Man Could Be ]
[ He Kind Of Looks Familiar ]
[ He Is Much Older ]
[ & Looks Kind Of Peculiar ]
[ He Is Kind Of Slumped Over, So He Is Shorter Than You ]
[ Your Favorite Color Is Pink ]
[ But This Guy Looks Good In Blue ]
[ His Face Is Unshaven ]
[ & His Hair Is Uneven ]
[ There Is No Sparkle In His Eyes ]
[ The Wrinkles In His Forehead ]
[ Say That He Has Been Told Alot Of Lies ]
[ But There Is Something About This Man That You Can Trust ]
[ When He Gives His Word, He Means It ]
[ & He Can Easily Adjust ]
[ To Any Problems ]
[ That Are Thrown @ Him ]
[ But This Man Looks Tired Beyond His Age ]
[ If He Ever Chose To Write His Autobiography ]
[ It Would Be Page After Page ]
[ Of Deep Thoughts ]
[ About Being In Tight Spots ]
[ He Would Be The Type Of Guy Who Could Sit & Drink A Coke ]
[ He Does Not Drink Coffee & Has Never Smoked ]
[ He Seems Like A Soft Spoken Man, Who Carries A Big Stick ]
[ He Stands By His Friends ]
[ Even When The Air Gets Thick ]
[ He Is Always There To Give You A Poke ]
[ With A Funny Joke ]
[ His Features Soften In Time ]
[ You Wonder What This Man Looked Like In His Prime ]
[ His Eyes Seem Like They Are In A Faraway Gaze ]
[ As They Are Trying To Adjust To The Haze ]
[ Then Your Alarm Goes Off & You Jump Out Of Your Bed ]
[ You Run To Look In The Mirror ]
[ & You Can See That Man Was You, Many Years Ahead ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1414)▪︎[ Just A Thought … 12•19•2019 ]
[ As I Lie Here On My King Sized Bed ]
[ I Find That I Have A Thousand Thoughts Going Through
My Head ]
[ I’ve Found That When I’m In Distress ]
[ I Look Inward ]
[ & See Nothing But A Mess ]
[ I Thought That If I Write Myself An Explanation Letter ]
[ In A Matter Of Three Weeks ]
[ I’d Feel Better ]
[ But Has This Type Of Thinking Added Or Subtracted Years
From My Life Span ]
[ Does This Kind Of Thinking Make Me A Better Man? ]
[ But What Am I Going To Find ]
[ When I Try To Look Into My Mind? ]
[ When I Find Something Profound ]
[ Can I Hang On To It? ]
[ Or Let It Slip Out? ]
[ & It Crashes To The Ground? ]
[ No Amount Of Money Can Buy A Second Of Time ]
[ & No Amount Of Words ]
[ Can Always Make A Good Rhyme ]
[ A Good Rhyme Consists Of Many Words Coming
Together From A Single Thought ]
[ You Put Your Heart & Soul In Each One ]
[ Because You’re Not A Robot ]
[ When Everything Is Written, Said & Done ]
[ You Should Be Thankful With What You’ve Got ]
[ The Finished Product Is Not Always Great ]
[ But 8 Out 10 Is Definitely Worth The Wait ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1430)▪︎[ Better Each Day … 12•25•2019 ]
[ Why Do I Take A Chance & Write Out My Thoughts? ]
[ Why Do I Attempt To Distinguish Myself Being Different Than Robots? ]
[ Do Robots Always Have A Story To Tell? ]
[ Sometimes I Just Want To Let Loose & Yell ]
[ Do I Have More Feelings Than A Robot Does? ]
[ If It’s There, It’s There ]
[ If It Were, It Was ]
[ How Do I Differenciate Myself From Others? ]
[ In Another Life ]
[ Do I Have More Sisters & Brothers? ]
[ I Don’t Want Another Useless, Throwaway Mother ]
[ More Brothers I Want, But More Sisters I Don’t ]
[ If It’s In A Fantasy Land That’s A Maybe ]
[ But In Real Life I Won’t ]
[ The Two Females I Grew Up With Were/Are/Make/
Made Horrible Sisters ]
[ They Left My Life ]
[ Acting Like Tornado Twisters ]
[ They Wreck Havoc With Everything They Touch ]
[ Their Hatred Towards Me Was A Little Bit Too Much ]
[ For Me To Be Around ]
[ It Seems That If They Had Their Way ]
[ They’d Knock Me To The Ground ]
[ But Like Always, I’ll Get Up EVERY … SINGLE … Time ]
[ & I Would Collect My Wits ]
[ & Write Out Another Rhyme ]
[ I’ll Never Let The Venom They Spewed Ruin The Rest
Of My Life ]
[ I Have Great In-Laws ]
[ & A Great Child & Wife ]
[ As I Grow Older ]
[ I Want To Grow Better ]
[ Not Colder ]
[ With My Writings There Is Always Room For Improvement ]
[ I Just Don’t Want To Grow Stagnant ]
[ Smarter, Yes ]
[ Not Dormant Or Ignorant ]
[ & Use This God-Given Gift As Long As I Possibly Can ]
[ Or As Long As God Has Me Be A Man ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1438)▪︎[ The Start Of A … 12•30•2019 ]
[ It’s Almost 0300 O’clock In The Morning & You Have
Yet To Close Your Eyes ]
[ In Just A Couple Of Hours ]
[ You Will Watch The Sun Rise ]
[ You Lie Here, Then You Sit Up Here ]
[ You Wish You Had The Sleeping Habits Of Your Peers ]
[ But You Have Never Been Like The Other Guys ]
[ Macking On Strange Women ]
[ & Then Telling Them Their Lies ]
[ They Are Wolves ]
[ In A Sheep’s Disguise ]
[ They Are Really Good @ Separating The Weak ]
[ From The Strong ]
[ The Ones That They Seek ]
[ Eventually Do Something Wrong ]
[ Why Do You Extend Your Days So Many More Hours? ]
[ When It Comes To Falling Asleep ]
[ You Have Lost All Of Your Powers ]
[ When You Don’t Take Your Xyrem You Get Very Little
Sleep ]
[ When You Do Take Your Xyrem ]
[ You Go Down Extremely Deep ]
[ Sometimes Too Deep For Your Own Comfort ]
[ It’s Like A Ship Being Kept Out Of Port ]
[ Things Will ]
[ Come To A Standstill ]
[ & That Could Cause Strife ]
[ In Your Life ]
[ Stay Outside Of The Dark On The Edge ]
[ You Don’t Want To Make Your Partners Feel ]
[ Like They Are Balancing On A Ledge ]
[ Be Strong & Don’t Budge ]
[ Above It All ]
[ Don’t Constantly Judge ]
[ People Can Turn That & Start Going Against You In
The Worst Way ]
[ You Don’t Want That Happening Today ]
[ Do You? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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