(1076)▪︎[ He Was My Brother … 12•26•2021 ]

[ Oh Brother Brent, I Miss You So Much ]
[ I Wish You Were Here ]
[ So I Could Stick You With Our Bill For Lunch ]

[ I Always Love To Tease You About Your Choice Of A Pro Football Team ]
[ Winning More Games Than They Lost ]
[ Was Always Their Seasonal Dream ]

[ I Bet You Yearn For Teams From Their Winning Years ]
[ Now All They Do Is Cause You To Shed Lots Of Tears ]

[ If You Want To Compare Teams & Things ]
[ It Always Bothered You ]
[ That My Steelers Have So Many More Rings ]

[ I Always Tried To Bring You Over For A Winning Ride ]
[ But I Could Never Tear You Away From The Dark Side ]

[ I Was Always The Older, Taller, Skinnier, Better Looking One ]
[ & You Always Have Been The One That I Make Fun ]

[ Of ]
[ But I Only Do It Out Of Love ]

[ It Always Bothered You That I Was The Tallest ]
[ & I’m Sorry To Tell You Brother ]
[ You’ve Always Been … The Smallest ]

[ I Miss Our Phone Calls That Always Lasted More Than Hour ]
[ Making Me Laugh & Smile ]
[ Was Your Super Power ]

[ Well I Hope You Will Always Be Up There Watching Over Me ]
[ I Know That’s The Only Thing You Would Do For Free ]

[ Because Here, Free Was Always Your Favorite Price ]
[ When You Could ]
[ You Always Went Back Twice ]

[ But You Decided To Leave Before I Got There ]
[ I Wanted To Give You A Big Hug ]
[ & To Tell You How Much I Care ]

[ Your Picture Will Always Be On My Phone ]
[ & The Sound Of Your Voice Will Forever Be On My Mind ]
[ To Me You’ve Always Shown ]
[ That You Are One Of A Kind ]

[ Talking On The Phone With Your Daughter ]
[ Will Always Remind Me Of You ]
[ Her Father ]

[ Well I Better End This Note ]
[ You Know I’ll Always Laugh About How You Used To Vote ]

[ Trump For 2020? ]
[ No Thanks ]
[ We’ve Already Have Had Plenty ]

[ I Miss You More Than I Can Write ]
[ I’m Glad The Thought Of You ]
[ Was The Last One That I Have Tonight ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo iā ‘oe  ]
[  A hui hou mākou  ]
[  Aloha  ] ‎ 
  ‎
[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe ]

(855)▪︎[ The Best Of The Best … 6•22•2019 ]

[ Life Is Like A Competition For The Best Of The Best ]
[ Every New Day Comes With A Harder Test ]

[ There Is No Pillow Talk ]
[ Life Is Not A Leiserly Walk ]

[ There Are Days When You Need To Be Awake & Alert
24/7 ]
[ When You Need Encouragement ]
[ Do You Look Upward, Towards The Heavens? ]

[ What Exactly Gives You The Courage To Move On
These Days? ]
[ Do You Find The Guts & The Ways? ]

[ & Reasons To Stay? ]
[ Does The Thought Of Ignorant People ]
[ Give You The Idea To Walk Away? ]

[ So What If You Walked Away Tomorrow? ]
[ Would There Be The Need ]
[ To Find Money To Borrow? ]

[ What Causes ]
[ You To Make So Many Pauses? ]

[ Sometimes To Figure That Out You Must Look Within ]
[ But When Or Where Do You Begin? ]

[ The Sin Of Your Past ]
[ Were Those So Serious That The Animosity & Pain ]
[ Continue To Last? ]

[ Are You Made Of Soft Material That Turns Completely
Hard ]
[ When Things Are Removed ]
[ Do They Leave Lifelong Scars? ]

[ What Do You Decide To Fix? ]
[ What Do You Nix? ]

[ Are You Set? ]
[ What Things Should You Forget? ]
[ What Decisions Do You Regret? ]

[ There Is Nothing Wrong ]
[ When You Have Situations ]
[ Where You Are Not Strong ]

[ Let Bygones Be Gone ]
[ & Keep Moving … Forward ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1100)▪︎[ Sometimes … 8•29•2019 ]

[ Sometimes When You Write, You Might Sound
Depressed ]
[ Suppressed Or Oppressed ]

[ Most Times You Are Neither ]
[ Because You Don’t Have To Pick, Either ]

[ You Want Others To See, That You Write What’s On
Your Mind ]
[ Sometimes, The Thoughts Are Not Too Kind ]
[ But Maybe, That Helps You Unwind ]
[ After You Rewind ]

[ You Don’t Mean To Cut Anybody Off ]
[ You Never Write Things Just To Look Soft ]
[ It’s Like Taking That First Step Out Of A Loft ]

[ Don’t Let The Ground Break Your Fall ]
[ Don’t Always Follow The Bouncing Ball ]
[ If You Must ]
[ Give Your Brother A Call ]

[ You Could Call Your Brother Anytime Of The Day Or
Night ]
[ & Even Though He Lives So Far Out Of Your Sight ]
[ You Two Always Laugh, You Don’t Fight ]

[ You Call Your Thoughts Clouds ]
[ Some Float By Quietly ]
[ While Others Stay & Are Really Loud ]
[ It Sucks When They Draw A Crowd ]

[ You Try To Be A Quiet, Boring, Private Person In Real
Life ]
[ The Only Time You Are Colorful Is When You Write ]
[ When It Comes To Your Son & Wife ]
[ You Desperately Want To Keep Them Out Of The
Light ]
[ Unless They Make The Choice ]
[ To Shine When THEY Think It’s Right ]

[ You Know That You Write About PTSD ]
[ But PTSD Doesn’t Define You ]
[ It Is Something That You Have Because Of Something
That You Experienced That Was Really Painful To
See ]

[ & Hear ]
[ Thankfully It Didn’t Make You Turn To Getting Drunk
Every Night Off Wine Or Beer ]
[ But You Still Hear It Over Here & There All Too Clear ]
[ & If You Have Debilitating Flashbacks That You Fear ]

[ If You By Chance Write Something That Comes Across
As Depressing ]
[ There Might By Chance Be Something That You’re Stressing ]

[ Politely Tell You To Put It In Park ]
[ By Giving A Nice Reply ]
[ Or A Helpful Remark ]

[ Nobody Is Up On Their (A) Game 24/7 ]
[ If You Always Shoot For A (10) Can You Sometimes Hit An (11?) ]

[ If You Are @ A Loss For Words & Don’t Know What To
Say ]
[ Just Figure That Life Doesn’t Always Work That Way ]
[ But You Do Enjoy The Replies & Remarks That Others Give,
Anyday ]

[ You Like The Positive, Constructive, Flattering
Comments That You Have Received ]
[ You Leave It All On The Table ]
[ & Hide Nothing Up Your Sleeve ]
[ You Never Write A Single Word To Try To Deceive ]
[ So Now, You See, You’re @ A Loss For Words ]
[ So You Think That You’ll Leave ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1070)▪︎[ Socks Needed … 12•25•2021 ]

[ Whenever You Reach Out, Is There Always Someone There? ]
[ Are They There For Kicks & Giggles? ]
[ Or Is It Because They Care? ]

[ It Is Tough, To Remain Empty Handed ]
[ Because Helping You, Has Never Been Demanded ]

[ Sometimes, You Go About Life All Alone ]
[ You Turn On Your Phone ]
[ & Get Nothing, But The Dial Tone ]

[ It Is Hard To Look @ Your Message Emoji ]
[ There Is Never, A Number To See ]

[ You Are On A Solitary Path ]
[ Just Like Doing Your Problems, In Math ]

[ You Think Things, Through In Your Head ]
[ You Always Retain, What You Just Read ]

[ You Do Your Walking, Mostly @ Night ]
[ The Moon & Stars, Make Quite The Sight ]

[ Where You Go, Is Not Planned ]
[ There Are No Timed, Demands ]

[ You Seek Shelter, When It Rains Or It Is Too Hot ]
[ To Walk ]

[ You Eat, When You Are Able ]
[ Sometimes, Kind Hearted People Invite You To Eat With Them ]
[ @ Their Table ]

[ Those Are The Ones ]
[ That You Steal Everything From ]

[ You Tie Everybody Up, After You All Eat ]
[ You Throw Their Shoes Out The Back Door ]
[ So They Would Be Left, With Bare Feet ]

[ When You Find A Bigger Backpack Than Yours ]
[ So Then You Will Leave Your Old One By The Garage Doors ]

[ When You Say Everything, Well This Might Come Across
     Quite Odd ]
[ The Only Things That You Steal, Are The Men’s Socks ]

[ Having Dry, Clean Socks Is A Must ]
[ You Feel Kind Of Bad, To All Of The Ones Who You Gave
     False-Trust ]

[ Not Too Many People Go To The Police To Report This Kind
     Of Theft ]
[ You Always Make Sure There Was (2) Or (3) Pairs Of Socks Left ]

[ If They Only Had (5), You Would Leave (2) ]
[ You Always Thought That Was The Polite Thing To Do ]

[ You Made Sure That The Family Has Been Comfortable Where
     They Were @ ]
[ Maybe A Pillow Where They Sat ]

[ One Thing You Loved To Do Was Stop In People’s Houses &
     Take Long Showers ]
[ You Always Made Sure The Dog Had Fresh Water & Food To
     Eat For The Next Couple Of Hours ]

[ You Made The Time To Do Your Dirty Laundry & Your Shoes ]
[ You Go Your List Of Don’ts & Do’s ]

[ On Your Way Out, You Apologize For The Bad Situation You
     Put The Family In ]
[ Then You Ask Them (1) Question ]
[ (WILL YOU EVER LET THIS HAPPEN, AGAIN?) ]

[ You Hope Not ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(562)▪︎[ A Horrible Memory … 4•18•2019 ]

[ PTSD Is A Horrible Thing To Go Through Life With ]
[ Some People Say (GET OVER IT) ]
[ (KEEP A STIFF UPPER LIP) ]
[ Well Those People Who Like To Shoot From The Hip ]
[ Think They Know How It Is ]
[ But They Don’t Know Shit ]

[ Take The Worst Thing That Ever Happened To You ]
[ Remember The Feelings, Fear Or Fright ]
[ Times That By Two ]
[ Then Relive That Day Or Night ]

[ You Are Completely Back In The Event, Sight, Smell &
Sound ]
[ Were You Standing Up ]
[ Or Were You On The Ground ]

[ Do You Remember What You Did? ]
[ Were You Out In The Open ]
[ Or Were You Hid ]
[ Were You An Adult? ]
[ Or Were You Just A Kid ]

[ Does It Tease ]
[ Your Mind ]
[ Or Does It Freeze ]
[ You @ The Same Time? ]

[ Are You Wide Awake When It Happens ]
[ Is It Your Spirit That It Dampens ]

[ One Never Knows When A Flashback Will Hit ]
[ It’s Like Playing A Game With A Long Snake ]
[ & Out Of Nowhere You Get Bit ]

[ The Length Of A Flashback Can Be Short Or Long ]
[ It All Depends On If You Are Strong ]

[ Or Weak ]
[ PTSD Can Crush The Meak ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(901)▪︎[ I Am Sad … 10•26•2020 ]

[ Right Now My Mood Is On A Downward Slide ]
[ My Best Friend Might Be Saying Goodbye ]

[ Her Prioities Has Completely Shifted ]
[ Thoughts & Worries Are Now A Huge Weight On
Her Mind ]
[ & I Can’t Help Her Lift Them ]

[ She Has To Go Back To Her Original Home ]
[ Her Leaving Day Is Not Known ]

[ It Hurts That Small Corner Of My Heart ]
[ That She Has Touched ]
[ My Level Of Sadness Is Off Of The Chart ]

[ I Need To Find The Courage ]
[ To Continue To Encourage ]
[ & Not To Be Selfish ]
[ & Say Things That Might Discourage ]

[ Family Is Everything To Her Family ]
[ That Is One Thing That I Could Always See ]

[ The Thoughts Sure Do Hurt ]
[ I Sweat Through My Shirts ]

[ I Admire Her Total Commitment ]
[ To Her Mom ]
[ & That Has Put Her In This Predicament ]

[ But She Does Not See It That Way ]
[ @ Least That Is How She Said These Things To Me
Today ]

[ I Have My Fears ]
[ That We Will Completely Lose Touch ]
[ & That Made Me Have Tears ]

[ I Have To Stand Tall ]
[ Against The Wall ]

[ & Put My Hands On My Hips ]
[ Make Sure That My Support For Her ]
[ Doesn’t Slip ]
[ & No Matter How Much These Thoughts Hurt ]
[ Continue To Bite Hard On My Lip ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1066)▪︎[ My Nephew, Vladi … 12•23•2021 ]

[ I Have This Nephew Named Vladi ]
[ He Is Kind Of Special To Me ]

[ We Have So Much In Common, Except Age ]
[ That Should Be Put On Another Page ]

[ I Took A Chance On Saturday, March 17th, 2018 ]
[ I Noticed You Before You Were A Teen ]

[ I Asked If I Could Come & Talk To You ]
[ Because That Is What I Wanted To Do ]

[ You Were Sitting Almost In The Corner, Beside Your Dad ]
[ I Could Barely See You, I Might Add ]

[ I Told You That Me & You Have Something Important In
     Common ]
[ & That Is Adoption ]

[ A Loving Family Became Yours, Too ]
[ When You Are In Foster Care, That’s What You Are Always
     Wishing A Family Would Do ]

[ We Talked About Your Hobbies & I Found Out That We Both
     Collected Basketball Cards ]
[ My Collection Might Be A Little Bit Bigger ]
[ & Collecting The Older Cards Have Become Kind Of Hard ]

[ Are You Doing Okay In School, This Year? ]
[ Don’t Look @ School With Fear ]

[ Make Sure That You Always Find A Way ]
[ To Get To Your Classes Everyday ]

[ I Would Love To Hear What You Might Think Is A Fun Activity ]
[ Is It Basketball, Football, Baseball, LaCrosse Or Hockey? ]
[ Or Do You Lean More Towards Your Creativity ]

[ Activities Do Not Always Have To Have Sports @ The Center ]
[ I Wish I Lived Closer ]
[ It Would Have Been Fun To Be Your Mentor ]

[ How Was Your Summer? ]
[ Did You Get Enough Slumber? ]

[ How Many States Did You Travel To? ]
[ Did You Only Travel On The Days When The Sky Was Blue? ]

[ Which State Was Your Favorite One? ]
[ Did You Like The Rainy Ones?]
[ Or Only The States That Have Sun? ]

[ I Want You To Know I Have Not Forgotten About You ]
[ & You Make A Fantastic Nephew ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1109)▪︎[ Nothing Too … 9•1•2019 ]

[ People Who Have Things To Hide ]
[ Never Have Much To Say ]
[ They Should Let Their Conscience Be Their Guide ]

[ What Puts Them In The Bad Mood That They’re In? ]
[ Was It Because Of All Of The Sin? ]
[ When They Begin ]
[ Do They Think They’ll Ever Win? ]

[ Maybe That Is The Sin Right There ]
[ If They Ask (WHERE?) ]
[ You’d Say (CHECK THE SPARE) ]

[ (THE SPARE WHAT?) ]
[ You Might Ask ]
[ It’s The One That’s Been Cut ]
[ That Didn’t Last ]

[ & That’s All You Have To Say]
[ On This Day ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1105)▪︎[ All Alone … 8•31•2019 ]

[ You Just Want Be Alone ]
[ You Want To Be Somewhere Secluded ]
[ Where You Couldn’t Even Be Seen By A Giant Drone ]
[ Right Now You Don’t Want To Be Included ]
[ Because Your Heart Has Turned To Stone ]

[ You Won’t Show It Because It Can Be Broken ]
[ To Make It Pump ]
[ It Takes More Than A Token ]

[ Love Is Not What It Would Take ]
[ Beware Of The Woman With The Two Headed Snake ]
[ She’ll Try To Get In With Some Cookies She Baked ]
[ This Will Need Something Better Than A Chocolate Cake ]

[ Is Love Given Only Because It Is A Token Of
Someone’s Gratitude? ]
[ Was It Given With A Loving Attitude? ]
[ We’re They Rude? ]

[ You Could Say You Love A Person & Not Mean A
Thing ]
[ What Positive Feelings Saying (I LOVE YOU) Bring? ]

[ Does That Always Bring Two People Together? ]
[ No Matter The Weather? ]

[ Rain, Snow, Sleet Or Baking Sun ]
[ Staying Inside Is Not Always Fun ]
[ Run Forrest, Run ]
[ When Does A Couple Turn Towards Each Other & Say ]
[ (I THINK WE’re DONE) ]

[ Or Do They Keep Plugging Along To See Where
False Love Can Take Them? ]
[ Does It Take Them To Southern California? ]
[ Or North Salem? ]

[ Given The Examples Of A Man ]
[ They’re Not Really A Big Fan ]

[ Love Comes ]
[ & Love Goes ]
[ @ Times It Makes You Do Something Dumb ]
[ Why, How Or When ]
[ Nobody Knows ]
[ But It Will Happen Again ]
[ Just Wait For The Shows ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1103)▪︎[ Minute After Minute … 8•30•2019 ]

[ You Found That You Could Only Sleep Minute After
Minute ]
[ You Don’t Know Why ]
[ But Your Mind Was Not In It ]

[ A Minute Here & A Minute There ]
[ You’d Open Your Eyes & Just Stare ]
[ If I Woke Her Up ]
[ Would She Care? ]

[ Even Just A Little Bit? ]
[ Would She Just Give Me Lip? ]
[ Would You Just Be A Blip ]

[ On Her Screen Of Life ]
[ What Did She Consider Doing, As Your Wife? ]

[ Would She Even Consider Turning On The Light? ]
[ Would She Make The Room Look Like The Day ]
[ Instead Of It Being Dark As Night? ]
[ Would She Find A Way ]
[ To Turn This Into A Fight? ]
[ Considering How Things Went Today ]
[ She Might ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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