[ You Sit There ]
[ Hoping That This Would Help You To Repair ]
[ The Noises That Are Going On In Your Mind ]
[ Because This Is Far From ]
[ Going Dakine ]
[ That Is Something That Your Conscious Mind Has To Tell
Your Subconscious Mind ]
[ So Sit Back & Relax ]
[ Make Sure That You Take Off Your Mask ]
[ So Your Breathing Is Not Taxed ]
[ Let’s Go ]
[ Into A Place That You Really Don’t Know ]
[ & That Is The Place Of Total Relaxation ]
[ The Opposite Form Of Maxation ]
[ Not Letting Your Mind Go Somewhere ]
[ Because It Cannot Go Anywhere ]
[ So You Sit Back & Wait ]
[ For The Gate ]
[ To Be Opened ]
[ Then ]
[ You Start To Fall ]
[ You Don’t Reach For Your Phone, To Make A Call ]
[ Because Then ]
[ You Find ]
[ That Everyone There, Is Irrelevant ]
[ Except One ]
[ The One Sane Person That Is Not Done ]
[ On This Run ]
[ You Are Still Falling ]
[ In Pitch Black Air ]
[ & You Are Not Balling ]
[ Your Eyes Out ]
[ Because This Little Hour Of Time ]
[ You Have No Doubt ]
[ That You Were Safe & Sound ]
[ From All Sides Around ]
[ The Falling Part You Could Not Comprehend ]
[ Was It Supposed To Lead To A Dead-End? ]
[ Or To A New Beginning ]
[ Where There Is Nothing But Winning ]
[ So What Happened To Nice Guys Always Finishes Last? ]
[ Well That Was With Another Cast ]
[ The One Person In Your Life That Is Always Relevant To You
In Your Life ]
[ That Is Nicole, Your Wife ]
[ Forever & Ever … Amen ]
[ She Has Always Been ]
[ The (THEN) & The (WHEN) ]
[ Of Your Past ]
[ Present ]
[ & Future ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1089)▪︎[ I Can’t Wait … 12•29•2021 ]
[ Oh, Cavarona Cavarona ]
[ I Sure Am Going To Miss Ya ]
[ I Know That Several Weeks Can Go By ]
[ In Between The Days When You Can Stop By To Say (HI) ]
[ The Main Point There Is That You CAN Do That ]
[ But You Can’t When You Are In The State Where Men
Primarily Wears A Cowboy Hat ]
[ Cavarona You Are Often A Ray Of Sunshine When All
There Is Outside Is Rain ]
[ Sometimes Your Texts Or Phone Calls Are Able To Wash
Away My Internal Pain ]
[ You Are Able To Look Inside Of Me ]
[ & You Are Not Afraid Of What You See ]
[ I Have Always Given Credit Where Credit Is Due ]
[ I Give The Credit For My Growth To You ]
[ You Challenged Me Around Every Corner ]
[ I Was Not Able To Hide No Longer ]
[ Like Little Jack Horner ]
[ You Are Able To Lift My Spirits ]
[ You Taught Me To No Longer To Take Any Shit ]
[ Because I’ve Taken Shit For Way Too Long ]
[ You Showed Me How That Was Wrong ]
[ With Your Encouraging Words ]
[ I’ve Been Able To Stand Up & Stay Strong ]
[ There Is Absolutely Nothing About You That I Don’t
Like ]
[ Before You, I Was Only Able To Ride A Trike ]
[ Now I Have Graduated To Maneuvering ]
[ On An Expensive Mountain Bike ]
[ You Inspire Me With How You Are So Alive ]
[ & How You Always Strive ]
[ To Thrive ]
[ You Know Me Almost As Well As You Know Yourself ]
[ You Have Been The Best Best Friend ]
[ Alot Better Then Anyone Else ]
[ I Will Have To Find A Way ]
[ To Keep Myself From Wanting To See You ]
[ While You Are Away ]
[ I Hope The Best For Your Family, Especially Concerning
The Health Of Your Mother ]
[ I Know That You Have Really Missed Seeing The Smiling
Faces Of Your Sisters & Brother ]
[ Wrap Them In A Hug & Hold Them Tight ]
[ Then Step Back & Enjoy The Sight ]
[ Always Show Them Love ]
[ Before You Part For The Night ]
[ Always Know That I Can’t Wait For You To Return ]
[ Because Through Our Friendship I Have Come To Learn ]
[ When I Don’t See That Beautiful Face For A Long Time
My Stomach Will Burn ]
[ When You Come Back I Will Greet You With Excitement
@ My Door ]
[ & Tell You That I’ve Missed You More ]
[ Than Ever Before ]
[ & Then I Will Give You A Great Big Hug & Not Let Go ]
[ Because I Always Want You To Know ]
[ I Was Sad That You Went ]
[ But I Do Understand Why You Had To Go ]
[ Now I’ll Be Ecstatic When You Get Back Here ]
[ & Once Again You Will Be Near ]
[ & When You Come To My Place ]
[ You Will See A Big Smile On My Face ]
[ Because You Are Home ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1076)▪︎[ He Was My Brother … 12•26•2021 ]
[ Oh Brother Brent, I Miss You So Much ]
[ I Wish You Were Here ]
[ So I Could Stick You With Our Bill For Lunch ]
[ I Always Love To Tease You About Your Choice Of A Pro Football Team ]
[ Winning More Games Than They Lost ]
[ Was Always Their Seasonal Dream ]
[ I Bet You Yearn For Teams From Their Winning Years ]
[ Now All They Do Is Cause You To Shed Lots Of Tears ]
[ If You Want To Compare Teams & Things ]
[ It Always Bothered You ]
[ That My Steelers Have So Many More Rings ]
[ I Always Tried To Bring You Over For A Winning Ride ]
[ But I Could Never Tear You Away From The Dark Side ]
[ I Was Always The Older, Taller, Skinnier, Better Looking One ]
[ & You Always Have Been The One That I Make Fun ]
[ Of ]
[ But I Only Do It Out Of Love ]
[ It Always Bothered You That I Was The Tallest ]
[ & I’m Sorry To Tell You Brother ]
[ You’ve Always Been … The Smallest ]
[ I Miss Our Phone Calls That Always Lasted More Than Hour ]
[ Making Me Laugh & Smile ]
[ Was Your Super Power ]
[ Well I Hope You Will Always Be Up There Watching Over Me ]
[ I Know That’s The Only Thing You Would Do For Free ]
[ Because Here, Free Was Always Your Favorite Price ]
[ When You Could ]
[ You Always Went Back Twice ]
[ But You Decided To Leave Before I Got There ]
[ I Wanted To Give You A Big Hug ]
[ & To Tell You How Much I Care ]
[ Your Picture Will Always Be On My Phone ]
[ & The Sound Of Your Voice Will Forever Be On My Mind ]
[ To Me You’ve Always Shown ]
[ That You Are One Of A Kind ]
[ Talking On The Phone With Your Daughter ]
[ Will Always Remind Me Of You ]
[ Her Father ]
[ Well I Better End This Note ]
[ You Know I’ll Always Laugh About How You Used To Vote ]
[ Trump For 2020? ]
[ No Thanks ]
[ We’ve Already Have Had Plenty ]
[ I Miss You More Than I Can Write ]
[ I’m Glad The Thought Of You ]
[ Was The Last One That I Have Tonight ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(855)▪︎[ The Best Of The Best … 6•22•2019 ]
[ Life Is Like A Competition For The Best Of The Best ]
[ Every New Day Comes With A Harder Test ]
[ There Is No Pillow Talk ]
[ Life Is Not A Leiserly Walk ]
[ There Are Days When You Need To Be Awake & Alert
24/7 ]
[ When You Need Encouragement ]
[ Do You Look Upward, Towards The Heavens? ]
[ What Exactly Gives You The Courage To Move On
These Days? ]
[ Do You Find The Guts & The Ways? ]
[ & Reasons To Stay? ]
[ Does The Thought Of Ignorant People ]
[ Give You The Idea To Walk Away? ]
[ So What If You Walked Away Tomorrow? ]
[ Would There Be The Need ]
[ To Find Money To Borrow? ]
[ What Causes ]
[ You To Make So Many Pauses? ]
[ Sometimes To Figure That Out You Must Look Within ]
[ But When Or Where Do You Begin? ]
[ The Sin Of Your Past ]
[ Were Those So Serious That The Animosity & Pain ]
[ Continue To Last? ]
[ Are You Made Of Soft Material That Turns Completely
Hard ]
[ When Things Are Removed ]
[ Do They Leave Lifelong Scars? ]
[ What Do You Decide To Fix? ]
[ What Do You Nix? ]
[ Are You Set? ]
[ What Things Should You Forget? ]
[ What Decisions Do You Regret? ]
[ There Is Nothing Wrong ]
[ When You Have Situations ]
[ Where You Are Not Strong ]
[ Let Bygones Be Gone ]
[ & Keep Moving … Forward ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1100)▪︎[ Sometimes … 8•29•2019 ]
[ Sometimes When You Write, You Might Sound
Depressed ]
[ Suppressed Or Oppressed ]
[ Most Times You Are Neither ]
[ Because You Don’t Have To Pick, Either ]
[ You Want Others To See, That You Write What’s On
Your Mind ]
[ Sometimes, The Thoughts Are Not Too Kind ]
[ But Maybe, That Helps You Unwind ]
[ After You Rewind ]
[ You Don’t Mean To Cut Anybody Off ]
[ You Never Write Things Just To Look Soft ]
[ It’s Like Taking That First Step Out Of A Loft ]
[ Don’t Let The Ground Break Your Fall ]
[ Don’t Always Follow The Bouncing Ball ]
[ If You Must ]
[ Give Your Brother A Call ]
[ You Could Call Your Brother Anytime Of The Day Or
Night ]
[ & Even Though He Lives So Far Out Of Your Sight ]
[ You Two Always Laugh, You Don’t Fight ]
[ You Call Your Thoughts Clouds ]
[ Some Float By Quietly ]
[ While Others Stay & Are Really Loud ]
[ It Sucks When They Draw A Crowd ]
[ You Try To Be A Quiet, Boring, Private Person In Real
Life ]
[ The Only Time You Are Colorful Is When You Write ]
[ When It Comes To Your Son & Wife ]
[ You Desperately Want To Keep Them Out Of The
Light ]
[ Unless They Make The Choice ]
[ To Shine When THEY Think It’s Right ]
[ You Know That You Write About PTSD ]
[ But PTSD Doesn’t Define You ]
[ It Is Something That You Have Because Of Something
That You Experienced That Was Really Painful To
See ]
[ & Hear ]
[ Thankfully It Didn’t Make You Turn To Getting Drunk
Every Night Off Wine Or Beer ]
[ But You Still Hear It Over Here & There All Too Clear ]
[ & If You Have Debilitating Flashbacks That You Fear ]
[ If You By Chance Write Something That Comes Across
As Depressing ]
[ There Might By Chance Be Something That You’re Stressing ]
[ Politely Tell You To Put It In Park ]
[ By Giving A Nice Reply ]
[ Or A Helpful Remark ]
[ Nobody Is Up On Their (A) Game 24/7 ]
[ If You Always Shoot For A (10) Can You Sometimes Hit An (11?) ]
[ If You Are @ A Loss For Words & Don’t Know What To
Say ]
[ Just Figure That Life Doesn’t Always Work That Way ]
[ But You Do Enjoy The Replies & Remarks That Others Give,
Anyday ]
[ You Like The Positive, Constructive, Flattering
Comments That You Have Received ]
[ You Leave It All On The Table ]
[ & Hide Nothing Up Your Sleeve ]
[ You Never Write A Single Word To Try To Deceive ]
[ So Now, You See, You’re @ A Loss For Words ]
[ So You Think That You’ll Leave ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1070)▪︎[ Socks Needed … 12•25•2021 ]
[ Whenever You Reach Out, Is There Always Someone There? ]
[ Are They There For Kicks & Giggles? ]
[ Or Is It Because They Care? ]
[ It Is Tough, To Remain Empty Handed ]
[ Because Helping You, Has Never Been Demanded ]
[ Sometimes, You Go About Life All Alone ]
[ You Turn On Your Phone ]
[ & Get Nothing, But The Dial Tone ]
[ It Is Hard To Look @ Your Message Emoji ]
[ There Is Never, A Number To See ]
[ You Are On A Solitary Path ]
[ Just Like Doing Your Problems, In Math ]
[ You Think Things, Through In Your Head ]
[ You Always Retain, What You Just Read ]
[ You Do Your Walking, Mostly @ Night ]
[ The Moon & Stars, Make Quite The Sight ]
[ Where You Go, Is Not Planned ]
[ There Are No Timed, Demands ]
[ You Seek Shelter, When It Rains Or It Is Too Hot ]
[ To Walk ]
[ You Eat, When You Are Able ]
[ Sometimes, Kind Hearted People Invite You To Eat With Them ]
[ @ Their Table ]
[ Those Are The Ones ]
[ That You Steal Everything From ]
[ You Tie Everybody Up, After You All Eat ]
[ You Throw Their Shoes Out The Back Door ]
[ So They Would Be Left, With Bare Feet ]
[ When You Find A Bigger Backpack Than Yours ]
[ So Then You Will Leave Your Old One By The Garage Doors ]
[ When You Say Everything, Well This Might Come Across
Quite Odd ]
[ The Only Things That You Steal, Are The Men’s Socks ]
[ Having Dry, Clean Socks Is A Must ]
[ You Feel Kind Of Bad, To All Of The Ones Who You Gave
False-Trust ]
[ Not Too Many People Go To The Police To Report This Kind
Of Theft ]
[ You Always Make Sure There Was (2) Or (3) Pairs Of Socks Left ]
[ If They Only Had (5), You Would Leave (2) ]
[ You Always Thought That Was The Polite Thing To Do ]
[ You Made Sure That The Family Has Been Comfortable Where
They Were @ ]
[ Maybe A Pillow Where They Sat ]
[ One Thing You Loved To Do Was Stop In People’s Houses &
Take Long Showers ]
[ You Always Made Sure The Dog Had Fresh Water & Food To
Eat For The Next Couple Of Hours ]
[ You Made The Time To Do Your Dirty Laundry & Your Shoes ]
[ You Go Your List Of Don’ts & Do’s ]
[ On Your Way Out, You Apologize For The Bad Situation You
Put The Family In ]
[ Then You Ask Them (1) Question ]
[ (WILL YOU EVER LET THIS HAPPEN, AGAIN?) ]
[ You Hope Not ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(562)▪︎[ A Horrible Memory … 4•18•2019 ]
[ PTSD Is A Horrible Thing To Go Through Life With ]
[ Some People Say (GET OVER IT) ]
[ (KEEP A STIFF UPPER LIP) ]
[ Well Those People Who Like To Shoot From The Hip ]
[ Think They Know How It Is ]
[ But They Don’t Know Shit ]
[ Take The Worst Thing That Ever Happened To You ]
[ Remember The Feelings, Fear Or Fright ]
[ Times That By Two ]
[ Then Relive That Day Or Night ]
[ You Are Completely Back In The Event, Sight, Smell &
Sound ]
[ Were You Standing Up ]
[ Or Were You On The Ground ]
[ Do You Remember What You Did? ]
[ Were You Out In The Open ]
[ Or Were You Hid ]
[ Were You An Adult? ]
[ Or Were You Just A Kid ]
[ Does It Tease ]
[ Your Mind ]
[ Or Does It Freeze ]
[ You @ The Same Time? ]
[ Are You Wide Awake When It Happens ]
[ Is It Your Spirit That It Dampens ]
[ One Never Knows When A Flashback Will Hit ]
[ It’s Like Playing A Game With A Long Snake ]
[ & Out Of Nowhere You Get Bit ]
[ The Length Of A Flashback Can Be Short Or Long ]
[ It All Depends On If You Are Strong ]
[ Or Weak ]
[ PTSD Can Crush The Meak ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(901)▪︎[ I Am Sad … 10•26•2020 ]
[ Right Now My Mood Is On A Downward Slide ]
[ My Best Friend Might Be Saying Goodbye ]
[ Her Prioities Has Completely Shifted ]
[ Thoughts & Worries Are Now A Huge Weight On
Her Mind ]
[ & I Can’t Help Her Lift Them ]
[ She Has To Go Back To Her Original Home ]
[ Her Leaving Day Is Not Known ]
[ It Hurts That Small Corner Of My Heart ]
[ That She Has Touched ]
[ My Level Of Sadness Is Off Of The Chart ]
[ I Need To Find The Courage ]
[ To Continue To Encourage ]
[ & Not To Be Selfish ]
[ & Say Things That Might Discourage ]
[ Family Is Everything To Her Family ]
[ That Is One Thing That I Could Always See ]
[ The Thoughts Sure Do Hurt ]
[ I Sweat Through My Shirts ]
[ I Admire Her Total Commitment ]
[ To Her Mom ]
[ & That Has Put Her In This Predicament ]
[ But She Does Not See It That Way ]
[ @ Least That Is How She Said These Things To Me
Today ]
[ I Have My Fears ]
[ That We Will Completely Lose Touch ]
[ & That Made Me Have Tears ]
[ I Have To Stand Tall ]
[ Against The Wall ]
[ & Put My Hands On My Hips ]
[ Make Sure That My Support For Her ]
[ Doesn’t Slip ]
[ & No Matter How Much These Thoughts Hurt ]
[ Continue To Bite Hard On My Lip ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1066)▪︎[ My Nephew, Vladi … 12•23•2021 ]
[ I Have This Nephew Named Vladi ]
[ He Is Kind Of Special To Me ]
[ We Have So Much In Common, Except Age ]
[ That Should Be Put On Another Page ]
[ I Took A Chance On Saturday, March 17th, 2018 ]
[ I Noticed You Before You Were A Teen ]
[ I Asked If I Could Come & Talk To You ]
[ Because That Is What I Wanted To Do ]
[ You Were Sitting Almost In The Corner, Beside Your Dad ]
[ I Could Barely See You, I Might Add ]
[ I Told You That Me & You Have Something Important In
Common ]
[ & That Is Adoption ]
[ A Loving Family Became Yours, Too ]
[ When You Are In Foster Care, That’s What You Are Always
Wishing A Family Would Do ]
[ We Talked About Your Hobbies & I Found Out That We Both
Collected Basketball Cards ]
[ My Collection Might Be A Little Bit Bigger ]
[ & Collecting The Older Cards Have Become Kind Of Hard ]
[ Are You Doing Okay In School, This Year? ]
[ Don’t Look @ School With Fear ]
[ Make Sure That You Always Find A Way ]
[ To Get To Your Classes Everyday ]
[ I Would Love To Hear What You Might Think Is A Fun Activity ]
[ Is It Basketball, Football, Baseball, LaCrosse Or Hockey? ]
[ Or Do You Lean More Towards Your Creativity ]
[ Activities Do Not Always Have To Have Sports @ The Center ]
[ I Wish I Lived Closer ]
[ It Would Have Been Fun To Be Your Mentor ]
[ How Was Your Summer? ]
[ Did You Get Enough Slumber? ]
[ How Many States Did You Travel To? ]
[ Did You Only Travel On The Days When The Sky Was Blue? ]
[ Which State Was Your Favorite One? ]
[ Did You Like The Rainy Ones?]
[ Or Only The States That Have Sun? ]
[ I Want You To Know I Have Not Forgotten About You ]
[ & You Make A Fantastic Nephew ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1109)▪︎[ Nothing Too … 9•1•2019 ]
[ People Who Have Things To Hide ]
[ Never Have Much To Say ]
[ They Should Let Their Conscience Be Their Guide ]
[ What Puts Them In The Bad Mood That They’re In? ]
[ Was It Because Of All Of The Sin? ]
[ When They Begin ]
[ Do They Think They’ll Ever Win? ]
[ Maybe That Is The Sin Right There ]
[ If They Ask (WHERE?) ]
[ You’d Say (CHECK THE SPARE) ]
[ (THE SPARE WHAT?) ]
[ You Might Ask ]
[ It’s The One That’s Been Cut ]
[ That Didn’t Last ]
[ & That’s All You Have To Say]
[ On This Day ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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