[ During Every Day Of My Life, Deep Down Inside, I Wear This Body Of Armour ]
[ But Under That, Lies This Broken Man ]
[ I Decided I Could Either Wither By The Wayside ] [ Or ]
[ Straighten Up & Do The Best I Can ]
[ When I Say The Best ]
[ What Does That Really Mean? ]
[ It Means I’ll Challenge Myself With Every Test ]
[ The Hardest Ones I’ve Ever Seen ]
[ But What Is The Endgame? ]
[ What Is Different About This? ]
[ But What Is The Same? ]
[ Is It The Drive? ]
[ To Thrive? ]
[ All The While ]
[ Trying To Keep Myself Alive ]
[ Driving Towards What? ]
[ What Do I Want To Open Up? ]
[ To Let Go? ]
[ & What Do I Want To Keep Shut? ]
[ Is There A Goal To Be Reached? ]
[ Without The Pushing From Someone Needed To Be There
To Preach? ]
[ Is There The Push To Reach For The Gold? ]
[ By The Time That I Grow Old? ]
[ What Is Too Old To Keep Having Fun? ]
[ 101? ]
[ The Push & Drive To Keep That Light ]
[ Bright? ]
[ All Of My Remaining Life ]
[ Be It For One, Two Or 40 More Years ]
[ I Have To Conquer My Fears ]
[ Maybe Write A New Docket ]
[ & Place That In My Back Pocket ]
[ Go Out & Inspire ]
[ Those Around Me To Reach Higher & Higher ]
[ Until Their Toes Are Barely Touching The Ground ]
[ & Then Be There ]
[ When They Come Down ]
[ Do I See That I Feel Better After All Of These Trials &
Tribulations? ]
[ Have I Improved Any Relations? ]
[ Did I Even Want To? ]
[ How Many? ]
[ Just A Few ]
[ If Any ]
[ Where Will Life Take Me, If Not Here? ]
[ That Answer Is Not All That Clear ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(321)▪︎[ I Miss You Brother … 3•30•2020 ]
[ Oh Brother Brent, I Miss You So Much ]
[ I Wish You Were Here ]
[ So I Could Stick You With Our Bill For Lunch ]
[ I Always Love To Tease You About Your Choice Of A Pro Football Team ]
[ Winning More Games Than They Lost ]
[ Was Always Their Seasonal Dream ]
[ I Bet You Yearn For Teams From Their Winning Years ]
[ Now All They Do Is Cause You To Shed Lots Of Tears ]
[ If You Want To Compare Teams & Things ]
[ It Always Bothered You ]
[ That My Steelers Have So Many More Rings ]
[ I Always Tried To Bring You Over For A Winning Ride ]
[ But I Could Never Tear You Away From The Dark Side ]
[ I Was Always The Older, Taller, Skinnier, Better Looking One ]
[ & You Always Have Been The One That I Make Fun ]
[ Of ]
[ But I Only Do It Out Of Love ]
[ It Always Bothered You That I Was The Tallest ]
[ & I’m Sorry To Tell You Brother ]
[ You’ve Always Been … The Smallest ]
[ I Miss Our Phone Calls That Always Lasted More Than Hour ]
[ Making Me Laugh & Smile ]
[ Was Your Super Power ]
[ Well I Hope You Will Always Be Up There Watching Over Me ]
[ I Know That’s The Only Thing You Would Do For Free ]
[ Because Here, Free Was Always Your Favorite Price ]
[ When You Could ]
[ You Always Went Back Twice ]
[ But You Decided To Leave Before I Got There ]
[ I Wanted To Give You A Big Hug ]
[ & To Tell You How Much I Care ]
[ Your Picture Will Always Be On My Phone ]
[ & The Sound Of Your Voice Will Forever Be On My Mind ]
[ To Me You’ve Always Shown ]
[ That You Are One Of A Kind ]
[ Talking On The Phone With Your Daughter ]
[ Will Always Remind Me Of You ]
[ Her Father ]
[ Well I Better End This Note ]
[ You Know I’ll Always Laugh About How You Used To Vote ]
[ Trump For 2020? ]
[ No Thanks ]
[ We’ve Already Have Had Plenty ]
[ I Miss You More Than I Can Write ]
[ I’m Glad The Thought Of You ]
[ Was The Last One That I Have Tonight ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(341)▪︎[ Yes, But … 4•5•2020 ]
[ When Can You Tell When It’s Time To Let Go? ]
[ Is It That Little Voice In The Back Of Your Head ]
[ That Lets You Know? ]
[ Can It Be The Signs On The Wall ]
[ That Can Be Seen By All? ]
[ Except By You ]
[ Why Didn’t You See That Clue? ]
[ If You Can’t See, Sense, Or Feel Them ]
[ That Becomes A Problem ]
[ Often Times You Have No Idea What’s Going On ]
[ When During A Day Of Running Errands ]
[ They’ve Been Gone ]
[ For So Long ]
[ Do You Ever Feel Sick ]
[ & Feel A Panic ]
[ When You Know ]
[ It’s Not Because Of Traffic? ]
[ When Does That Little Voice ]
[ Stop Being Just Noise? ]
[ When You Start To Sense ]
[ That Things Are Not Adding Up ]
[ & That Makes You Tense ]
[ What Do You Do ]
[ When You Feel ]
[ That Once Again ]
[ They Are Not Just Only Loving You? ]
[ With All Of Those ( YES, BUT … ) ]
[ Tearing A Two Feet Wide Hole ]
[ In Your Gut ]
[ You Just Want To Shout ]
[ ( HOW IS THIS GOING TO PLAY OUT? ) ]
[ Because Now, You Are Having Doubts ]
[ About The Loyalty ]
[ & Their Take On Monogamy ]
[ How Do They Define That Task? ]
[ Are You Afraid To Ask? ]
[ Yes, But … ]
[ Yes But, What? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(331)▪︎[ Goodbye Song … 4•1•2020 ].
[ These Last Three Days Have Been Some Of The Hardest
Days I Have Ever Had ]
[ They Didn’t Even Start Out Good ]
[ They Just Went Straight To Bad ]
[ I’ve Never Felt Like I Was Stuck On An Island Like I Do Now ]
[ I’m Trying To Get Off ]
[ But I Don’t Know Which Way Or How ]
[ I’ve Never Felt So Alone Because Of What You Had Said ]
[ Now Your Unbelievable Words ]
[ Continue To Ping Pong Around In My Head ]
[ If It Weren’t For The Sound Of The Birds ]
[ I’d Think That I Was Dead ]
[ This Last Year Things Have Stabbed Me So Many Times In
The Heart ]
[ If I’d Ever Want To Rebuild ]
[ I Literally Would Not Know Where To Start ]
[ Do I Have To Admit ]
[ That We’ve Grown Too Far Apart ]
[ @ This Juncture In Our Marriage I Never Thought That We Would Need Skyrockets ]
[ Or Bottlerockets ]
[ To Keep Us Going ]
[ But When You Look In My Direction ]
[ You Are No Longer Glowing ]
[ I Used To Get A Sparkle In Your Eye ]
[ When Did That Die? ]
[ It’s Like You Don’t Even Want To Try ]
[ To Still Be In Love With This Guy ]
[ I Can No Longer Get You To Laugh Or Smile ]
[ I No Longer Know How To Turn Your Sexual Dial ]
[ You Really Summed It Up When You Said That I’ve Really
Aged These Last Couple Of Years ]
[ Deep Down Inside ]
[ That Caused Alot Of Tears ]
[ It Looks Like I’ll Literally Have To Face That One
Comment Head On ]
[ I Guess My Youthful Looks Are Long Gone ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(351)▪︎[ The M.D. People … 4•8•2020 ]
[ There Are So Many Brave Doctors, Nurses, Hospital Personnel &
First Responders Out There Working To Help People To Stay Alive ]
[ What Is Their Drive ]
[ To Risk Their Health ]
[ So Strangers Can Survive? ]
[ It’s Like { HI, I’m DR. SO & SO } ]
[ { I’m HERE TO HELP PEOPLE THAT I DON’t EVEN KNOW } ]
[ Why Do They? ]
[ Some People Might Say ]
[ & Ask ]
[ Why Do They Risk There Own Life ]
[ Taking On Such A Dangerous Task? ]
[ They Grow Up Thinking Medicine Is Their Number One Calling ]
[ After School They Go Right Into Helping Others ]
[ Without Stalling ]
[ They Help Others Attain Good Health ]
[ Without Reaching For Great Wealth ]
[ Then, As In Life, There Are The Moans & Groans ]
[ Of Spending The Rest Of Their Lives ]
[ Paying Off The Insurmountable Pile Of Student Loans ]
[ & Then They Always Get To See ]
[ Those Two Most Important Letters After Their Name, M.D. ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(338)▪︎[ Good Times … 4•4•2020 ]
L[ Life Is Short, Make It Sweet ]
[ When Things Are Good ]
[ It Can’t Be Beat ]
[ So Let’s Put This In Drive ]
[ Instead Of Keeping It In Park ]
[ To See If This Is Worth Bringing It Into The Light ]
[ Out Of The Dark ]
[ What Needs To Be Done ]
[ To Make This All Work? ]
[ Let’s Make Life Fun ]
[ So Nobody Gets Hurt ]
[ I’ll See Things Your Way ]
[ If You Could Also Consider Mine ]
[ Let’s Make Every Day ]
[ Fulfilling & Kind ]
[ I Remember Sitting On Your Sofa Laughing & Talking
Into The Wee Hours ]
[ The Sun Would Come Up ]
[ & We Would Listen To The Rain & Watch The Showers ]
[ That Doesn’t Seem To End ]
[ We Know We Need To Get Up & Start The Day ]
[ But We Just Don’t Want To Know When ]
[ I Just Decide To Get Up To Leave ]
[ But You Catch Me @ The Door ]
[ Then Say ( DON’t GO, PLEASE ) ]
[ I Go Back To Sit On The Couch, Next To You ]
[ I Peer Into Your Eyes ]
[ & Look For A Clue ]
[ I Can’t Help But Say ( WOW! ) ]
[ & That Makes You Blush & Smile ]
[ Then You Ask ( OKAY, WHAT NOW? ) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(046)▪︎[ Love Dance … 4•25•2020 ]
[ Is Love A Chance? ]
[ Is It A Crazy Dance? ]
[ Do You Lead With Your Heart? ]
[ Taking The Chance That It Could Be Taken Apart ]
[ Is That The Chance That We All Take ]
[ When That Is The Choice That Some Of Us Make ]
[ Sometimes It Seems That The Choice Is Not Ours ]
[ Some Days You Regret Your Decision Within Hours ]
[ & In Many Ways ]
[ For Many Days ]
[ Is It One Big Taunt? ]
[ That You Just Don’t Get One Thing That You Want ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(354)▪︎[ It Is ALL A Chance … 4•9•2020 ]
[ Is Love A Chance? ]
[ Is It A Crazy Dance? ]
[ Do You Lead With Your Heart? ]
[ Taking The Chance That It Could Be Taken Apart ]
[ Is That The Chance That We All Take ]
[ When That Is The Choice That Some Of Us Make ]
[ Sometimes It Seems That The Choice Is Not Ours ]
[ Some Days You Regret Your Decision Within Hours ]
[ & In Many Ways ]
[ For Many Days ]
[ Is It One Big Taunt? ]
[ That You Just Don’t Get One Thing That You Want ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1114)▪︎[ Are There Misunderstandings? … 12•14•2020 ]
[ Sometimes When We Need To Practice What We Preach ]
[ We Need To Learn What We Are Talking About, Before
We Attempt To Teach ]
[ Sometimes When I Show What I’ve Learned ]
[ You Should Give Me The Respect That I’ve Earned ]
[ For Me To Be Able To See The Other Side Of The Fence ]
[ & To Keep Me From Getting Tense ]
[ The Whole Idea That Is Put In Front Of Me, Must Make
Sense ]
[ As The Days Go By More & More ]
[ I Am Not Knowing If You Understand All Of My
Metaphors ]
[ During The Times That You May Be A Concrete Thinker ]
[ I Might Have On, My Creative Blinker ]
[ & You Will Be As Uncomfortable Taking On My Stress ]
[ As Much As I Would Look Bad Wearing Your Dress ]
[ We Each Have Our Own Cross To Bear ]
[ Just Like We Each Have Our Own Clothes To Wear ]
[ But Even As Much As We Try To Care ]
[ There Are So Many Stressers In Each Others Lives ]
[ That We Are Unaware ]
[ Of ]
[ That We Don’t Love ]
[ That Grip Us Like A Tight Glove ]
[ But What We Do Share ]
[ Is A Love For Each Other ]
[ That We Can’t Compare ]
[ Or That We Can’t & Don’t Find Anywhere ]
[ Else ]
[ Except From Within Ourselves ]
[ The Love & Understanding That We Do Not Give Any
Other Person In Our Life ]
[ Is The Love That We Have ]
[ & Have Gained ]
[ Because, For Almost 25 Years Now, We Have Been
Husband & Wife ]
[ @ That Very Second That I Said ( I DO! ) ]
[ I Knew ]
[ From That Point Forth ]
[ That The Only Thing That Mattered To Me For The Rest
Of My Life … Was You! ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(504)▪︎[ I Miss The Competition … 6•19•2021 ]
[ There Are So Many Times That I Miss When I Was Physically
Able To Compete ]
[ I Miss Going To The Gym On Sunday & Lifting Hard ]
[ Than Going On Monday To Repeat ]
[ The Feeling I Get When My Muscles Contract ]
[ The Feeling I Get When My Chest & The Bar Make Contact ]
[ Gripping The Bar Tight With Both Hands ]
[ Contracting My Body Like A Tight Rubberband ]
[ Even In Warm-Ups I Had Razor Sharp Focus ]
[ Bench Pressing Heavy Weights Did Not Use The Magical
Words Of ( HOCUS-POCUS ) ]
[ I Met The Powerlifting Team In The Summer Of 1994 ]
[ The Tequnique They Were Using Made Me Want To Watch
Alot More ]
[ I Took A Chance To Ask One Of The Team Members ]
[ I Told Him ( I MET YOU A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO IN THE
GYM ) ]
[ & I Was Hoping That He Remembered ]
[ It Was A Big Chance ]
[ Because He Looked Like He Didn’t Remember Me @ First
Glance ]
[ I Could See The Memory Come Back In ]
[ Then He Said ( HEY IT’s GOOD TO SEE YOU AGAIN ) ]
[ We Chatted & I Asked Him About Competing ]
[ I Felt Like This Was A Chance Meeting ]
[ He Then Went On To Say ]
[ To Come Meet The Team The Next Saturday ]
[ The Next Week In The Gym It Was Like The Start Of A Long
Time Wanted Dream ]
[ I Waited On The Side ]
[ Until He Introduced Me To The Rest Of His Team ]
[ They Were Large Muscular, Strong Looking Men ]
[ & Women ]
[ They Asked Me ( WHAT DO YOU WEIGH? ) ]
[ Everybody Went Quiet To Hear What I Would Say ]
[ I Said ( ABOUT 160 POUNDS, MAYBE ) ]
[ Then This Very Large Man, Who Was The Coach ]
[ Said ( HI MY NAME IS TERRY )
[ He Told Me That I Could Fit Into Their 165lb Slot ]
[ Then He Said ( LAY DOWN ON THE BENCH & LET’s SEE
WHAT YOU’ve GOT ) ]
[ Compared To Where I Ended Up In My Lifting Career ]
[ It Was Not Alot ]
[ My Overall Goal Was To Benchpress Three Times My
Bodyweight ]
[ Well That Dream Will Forever Have To Wait ]
[ My First Competition Was In The Summer Of 1995 ]
[ In 1998 I Showed That I Had Finally Arrived ]
[ I Set My First World Record @ The World’s In 1998 ]
[ That Was The Competition Where I Became A World
Champion Teammate ]
[ It Felt So Good To Get That First, First Place Trophy ]
[ @ The World’s ]
[ Nobody Can Take That Away From Me ]
[ I Went To A Total Of 3 World Championships ]
[ So By The End Of My Career, I Had A Total Of Three ]
[ My Benchpressing Goal Was 495 ]
[ & That Was No Lie ]
[ I Only Got To 475 ]
[ So I Was 20lbs Shy ]
[ I Started In ’94 As A Novice & The Team Needed To Show
Me ]
[ Everything About How To Lift ]
[ @ The End I Was A World Champion, Times Three ]
[ & Found That My Ability Was A Gift ]
[ Through Alot Of Hard Work & Support ]
[ Oh How I Miss Competing In That Sport ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
