[ Why Do I Put My Neck Out On The Ledge? ]
[ Why Does My Patience Go Out Past The Edge? ]
[ Nobody Else Puts Their Neck Out Past The Line ]
[ Whenever I Look Around ]
[ The Only Neck Out Their Is Mine ]
[ Ready For The Guillotine To Drop ]
[ Even Though I Am Laying There, Yelling For It To Stop ]
[ But Does That Do Any Good? ]
[ Are The Words ]
[ Heard ]
[ By The Man Standing Above Me Wearing That Black Hood? ]
[ It Does Not Seem ]
[ To ]
[ As I Scream ]
[ @ You ]
[ But You Are Not Giving Me Any Attention ]
[ You Are Not Trying To Make A Change In The Direction ]
[ You Think That All That I Was Doing ]
[ Was Trying To Lead An Insurrection ]
[ But You Know That Was Not True Deep Down In Your Heart ]
[ & Your Silence ]
[ Is Tearing My Insides Apart ]
[ But I Won’t Make A Peep ]
[ As I Fall Into A Deep ]
[ Sleep ]
[ It Does Not Seem ]
[ Like I Will Have The Ability To Dream ]
[ Though ]
[ That Is One Thing That Will Be Easy To Know ]
[ & The Signs Will Show ]
[ That I Am Right ]
[ & The Light ]
[ Will Show The Difference Between Black & White ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
Category: [ Poetic Stories ]
(067)▪︎[ Okay, What’s Next? … 1•18•2021 ]
[ Right Now I Feel Like A Rudderless Ship ]
[ On The Turbulent Sea ]
[ Being Just A Blip ]
[ On The Radar That Nobody See’s ]
[ Nobody Makes Time For Me In Their Life ]
[ & That Leaves Scars ]
[ Because The Loneliness Cuts Me Like A Knife ]
[ Is The Sun Coming Up On The Horizon ]
[ Or Is It Going Down? ]
[ It Just Seems Like Another Day Is Done ]
[ Without Me Being Able To Set Foot On Solid Ground ]
[ I Just Don’t Know Which Way To Go ]
[ Do I Head East Or West? ]
[ I Don’t Know ]
[ Which Direction Would Be The Best ]
[ When There Is No Prospect Of Seeing Land ]
[ I Feel Like A Beaten Man ]
[ When There Is No Hope In The Future ]
[ That Pulls @ The Sutures ]
[ That Were Put There To Hold Together The Past Wounds ]
[ Wounds Inflicted By Those That I Was Fooled Into Believing In ]
[ Who Have Now Scattered Like Scared Raccoons ]
[ People Who Sailed With Me When Things Were Calm & Nice ]
[ When The Waters Started To Get Choppy ]
[ They Were Gone ]
[ Without Thinking Twice ]
[ Why? ]
[ Are Really Good Friends Hard To Come By? ]
[ When I Take Them @ Their Word ]
[ They Shake My Hand & Lie ]
[ This Is Not How I Mapped Out My Life To Be ]
[ Was There A Key ]
[ That I Didn’t See? ]
[ Was There Some Kind Of Clue ]
[ That Wasn’t Seen By Me ]
[ But Seen By Those Other Two? ]
[ Did I Keep Going Down The Road When I Should
Have Stopped? ]
[ Was I Dropped? ]
[ From The Priorities Of Those That Used To Text? ]
[ Okay, If That’s How It Is ]
[ Then I Wonder ( WHAT’S NEXT? ) ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(068)▪︎[ Some Things Are Said … 1•18•2021 ]
[ Someone Once Said ( I WELCOME YOUR BOO’s,
BECAUSE I’ve SEEN WHAT YOU CHEER FOR! ) ]
[ For Those Who Looks To Walk In Your Shoes ]
[ I Chose To Not Answer Your Knock @ My Front
Door ]
[ Everyone Is Entitled To The Freedom Of Speech ]
[ But Sometimes Their Words Overreach ]
[ Of What & Who It Was Intended ]
[ But When People Get Offended ]
[ The Conversation Cannot Be Pretended ]
[ Like The Words, Were Never Said ]
[ Sometimes They Get Embedded ]
[ In Another Persons Head ]
[ In Their Memories Or In Their Thoughts ]
[ Making Them See Stripes ]
[ & Polka Dots ]
[ You Can Have Your Rights Of Saying Words ]
[ But I Have The Right To Have My Own Perception ]
[ Of What I Just Heard ]
[ We Are Here Right @ This Point In Our Lives ]
[ Because Of What We Heard, Did, Saw Or Said In Our Past ]
[ But Sometimes Your Internal Drive ]
[ Makes You Go Too Fast ]
[ To Where They Miss The Points In Conversations ]
[ Then They Have Some Reservations ]
[ Because What They Want To Do Is Make Corrections ]
[ Some Things Said Cannot Be Corrected ]
[ Or Be Connected ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(072)▪︎[ Back To A Norm … 1•20•2021 ]
[ In An Attempt To Get Back To Some Form ]
[ Of Norm ]
[ Will We Have To Make Everyone Conform? ]
[ That Would Make Me Scream ]
[ If All Of This Past Month ]
[ Been Part Of Someones Wet Dream ]
[ This, In No Kind Of Way ]
[ Has Been A Couple Of Good Days ]
[ There Was A Day Of Extreme Violence ]
[ Trying To Bring The Voices Of Washington D.C. ]
[ Into A Vote For Silence ]
[ They Brought A Riot That Began In The Street ]
[ Into The Senate ]
[ To Look For Some Democratic Senators To Beat ]
[ They Found A Cop ]
[ & Knocked Him Off Of His Feet ]
[ They Beat Him With A Fire Extinguisher Of All Things ]
[ That Brought Back The Thoughts Of A Very Hard Day ]
[ Where The Memories Really Stings ]
[ & Then I Know What Those Memories Brings ]
[ They Bring The Day Back ]
[ Of The Riot ]
[ & The Attack ]
[ In The Form Of A Very Bad, Realistic Flashback ]
[ They Could Be Short In Time Or Very Long ]
[ The Length Of Them Would Be Based On How Strong ]
[ They Are ]
[ Either Way, It Is Not A Fun Experience To Go Through ]
[ & Many Of You ]
[ Would Think That Way Too ]
[ If You Were In The Position I Was In Clear Back On That
Day, In August Of 2002 ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(063)▪︎[ Two Totally Unfit Mothers … 1•17•2021 ]
[ As The Light Fades In My Eyes ]
[ I Try To Run From All Of The Lies ]
[ The Lie That The Future Looks Bright ]
[ & The One That If I Live A Good, Law Abiding Life ]
[ Things Would Turn Out Alright ]
[ That Is One Lie After Another ]
[ It Started When I Was Given Up By My Mother ]
[ Parents Are Supposed To Love & Protect ]
[ As A Baby ]
[ Wouldn’t That Be The First Thing I Should Expect? ]
[ & Get ]
[ She Did Not Leave A Note Or A Positive Comment ]
[ After She Went To Court ]
[ & Signed Those Documents ]
[ All That She Wanted To Do Is Run ]
[ She Didn’t Want To Be My Mom ]
[ She Just Wanted To Be Done ]
[ Then What Did Fate Bring? ]
[ The Next Mom, Did The Same Thing ]
[ Not The Same Way, But It Had The Very Same Result ]
[ That Barbara ]
[ Kicked Me Out Of Her Life Because Of A Made Up
Insult ]
[ She Literally Kicked Me Out Of Her Life Right Then! ]
[ As Soon As She Told Me To Get Out Of Her Life ]
[ I Literally Knew When ]
[ She No Longer Wanted Me In It ]
[ I KNEW ]
[ Right @ That Minute ]
[ She Was So Sure ]
[ So I Had Zero Words To Say To Her ]
[ I Told Myself ( ONCE THIS EXILE BEGINS ) ]
[ We Would NEVER Talk Again ]
[ First It Was A Piece Of Paper ]
[ Now It Is A Phone Call ]
[ Neither One Was Done As A Favor ]
[ Maybe It Was A Favor That Turned Out To Be For
My Benefit ]
[ If I Was To Look Up The Definition Of ( MOTHER ) ]
[ Neither One Of Them Were A Fit ]
[ Not Even A Little Bit ]
[ I Hope Both Women Really Suffered Physically &
Mentally Before They Died ]
[ Because If Either One Said That They Were EVER A Good
Mother To Me ]
[ … They LIED!! ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(064)▪︎[ All Lies … 1•17•2021 ]
[ Lies, Lies, Lies ]
[ Told To Me, Directly To My Wide Open Eyes ]
[ People Saying That They Are Being Completely
Honest ]
[ Some Saying That What Are Doing Is For The Best ]
[ For Who? ]
[ Is It For Them? ]
[ Or Is It The Best Thing For You? ]
[ It Is Always What Is Best For Themselves ]
[ Everyone Else ]
[ Can Go To Hell ]
[ When Everything Is Said & Done ]
[ 9 Out Of Every 10 People ]
[ ALWAYS, I Mean ALWAYS Looks Out For Number 1 ]
[ When People Look In The Mirror ]
[ They Only Love Who Is Right Here ]
[ Reflecting Back ]
[ Sympathy ]
[ & Empathy ]
[ Are Two Huge Things That Most People Lack ]
[ But They Sure Expect It From Others ]
[ & Not Just From Their Mothers ]
[ Selfish, Self-Centered & Demanding ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(384)▪︎[ How Does The Future Look? … 5•1•2021 ]
[ Sometimes The Pain Inflicted On Your Heart Gets
To Be Close To Be Unbearable ]
[ & Then The Hollow Words Seem To Be Given Like They
Are Charitable ]
[ Positive Words Seemed Forced ]
[ Acts Of Kindness Look Coerced ]
[ When He Was (10) Years Old He Agreed To A Very Hurtful
Statement ]
[ It Was Not Followed By A Single Positive Comment ]
[ Has Things Been Going Up On A Positive Swing? ]
[ What Does Your Show Of Love & Respect Bring? ]
[ There Has Been A Constant & A Consistent Thing ]
[ & That Is The Incredible Sting ]
[ Your One Continuity ]
[ Has Been Humility ]
[ Turn The Other Cheek Is What The Good Book Would Say ]
[ How Many Turns Of Your Cheeks Should Happen In A
Single Day? ]
[ Nothing Hurts You More Than Love That Was Lost ]
[ You Really Underestimated The Total Cost ]
[ It Was Never Monetary ]
[ The Love Loss Was Not Momentary ]
[ A Punch To The Head Would Hurt Alot Less ]
[ Than The Pain That Has Been Inflicted Throughout This Mess ]
[ Was There Ever A Harsh Physical Act? ]
[ Has There Ever Been A Varifyable Fact? ]
[ This Kind Of Hate Just Came Out Of Nowhere ]
[ What Is The Reason? ]
[ You Have Asked Several Times If He Would Ever Like
To Share ]
[ Whenever The Topic Was Brought Up With A ( WHY IS
THIS SO? ) ]
[ It Has Always Been Met With An ( I DON’t KNOW ) ]
[ This Much Callousness Does Not Happen ( JUST BECAUSE ) ]
[ Has He Ever Stopped? ]
[ Or Is This Just What He Does? ]
[ But That Is Not True ]
[ This Behavior Is Only Directed @ You ]
[ It Is Not Directed @ Others ]
[ He Does Not Do This With His Grandparents Or Mother ]
[ Just Like When The Topic Of Conversation Centers On
You ]
[ That Is His Cue ]
[ To Be Abrupt ]
[ Then Quickly Interrupt ]
[ & Change The Topic ]
[ To Something That He Wants To Pick ]
[ The Number Of Times That He Has Been Such The Dick ]
[ Really Makes Your Stomach Sick ]
[ When Did This Start, When Will It Stop? ]
[ When Will The Other Shoe Drop? ]
[ It Does Not Matter The Event Or The State That You
Are In ]
[ Whenever The Mood Fits For Him ]
[ Was He Ever Put On The Spot? ]
[ & Asked About The Lessons That Were Taught? ]
[ Has Your Efforts Been All For Naught? ]
[ It Has Never Been Clear ]
[ Where The Relationship Goes From Here? ]
[ Is There Anything To Salvage Of This Relationship? ]
[ On The Big Screen Of Life Will It Just Be A Blip ]
[ Will It Just Be A Bunch Of Bad Memories In Time? ]
[ A Few Words In A Rhyme? ]
[ Everything Is All Up In The Air ]
[ Will There Be Any Reasons Left To Care? ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(353)▪︎[ The Lonely Sea … 4•27•2021 ]
[ Lost, Floating On The Sea Of Loneliness ]
[ Could I Ever Feel Less ]
[ Of This Emptiness ]
[ How Did I Get Here? ]
[ My Path Back To Fullfillness Has Never Been
All That Clear ]
[ When I Came To A Fork In The Road I Thought
I Turned In The Right Direction ]
[ Using Hindsight ]
[ I Would Have Made A Correction ]
[ I Thought Going Left Was Good ]
[ Maybe My Brain Misunderstood ]
[ The Bright, Yellow, Yield Signs ]
[ Plus, When I Looked @ The Left Side ]
[ There Were No Lines ]
[ Maybe It Was That Way For A Reason ]
[ When I Looked To The Right ]
[ I Did Not Think That I Could Squeeze In ]
[ But Now I Float ]
[ On The Sea ]
[ Without A Single Paddle In My Boat ]
[ I Am @ The Mercy Of The Wind & The Current ]
[ This Problem Seems To Be Recurrent ]
[ Same Problem, But From A Different Issue ]
[ My Inner Strength Is As Strong As A Soft Kleenex
Tissue ]
[ Flimsy & Easy To Rip To Shreads ]
[ Confusing, Like The Brain On Too Many Meds ]
[ Will I Be Forever Damned? ]
[ & Never Get Back To Dry Land? ]
[ Do I Lean Down ]
[ & Paddle With My Hand? ]
[ After Awhile ]
[ I Found That It Was Futile ]
[ Do I Hear The Sound Of A Storm Coming In? ]
[ When I Sense The Rain Begin ]
[ I Tell Myself ( I JUST CAN’t WIN! ) ]
[ Maybe This Will Be The Way My Life Will Go ]
[ Maybe Not ]
[ Probably So ]
[ Is All Of This Effort For Naught? ]
[ I Really Don’t Know ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(380)▪︎[ Well, Okay … 5•1•2021 ]
[ Well, Sum Times Eye Feele Lyke Eye Half Sead Two
Munch ]
[ Eye Jest Can Knot Sea Things Very Cleerly Past Meye
Lunch ]
[ Iz Lunch Tha Mosse Important Meel? ]
[ Duz A Pointed Shue Ever Hert Yore Heal? ]
[ Tha Anser Two That Iz Azz Individual Azz Ewe & Mee ]
[ Kind Uv Separating Tha Difference Beetween Coffee &
Tee ]
[ Dew Ewe Ever Feal Thatt Nuthing Makes Cents? ]
[ Is It Lyke Seying That A Butter Gayme Is Mulch Mor
Off-Fence ]
[ It Iz Knott Lyke Defense Duz Knott Mattur ]
[ It Iz Lyke Bred Tastes Mulch Beter Wen Egs R Put
Thu Badder ]
[ Speeking Uv Bred How Munch Duz Aye Milk Shake Cost? ]
[ How Menny Dollhairs & Calories Rr Givin Beefour
Everything Thing Iz Lost? ]
[ How Can Egs Bee Sony side Up Wen They Seam Upside
Down? ]
[ How Cumb Pepul With Big Read Nozes Allways Half Two
Bee Ay Cloun? ]
[ Pencil Oar Pen, Witch Dew Ewe Chews? ]
[ Iff Eye Wuz Ay Beting Man Wut Wood Eye Half To Looz? ]
[ ( NUTHING MAWMAW ) Sez Tha Litle Blew I’d Boye ]
[ Eye Think Awl Hee Will Want Iz His Litle Whined Up Toye ]
[ Toyez Canned Bee Grate Inn Thu Rite Handz ]
[ If Ewe Hav To Half Battereez ]
[ It Leeves Everything To Chanze ]
[ So Any Won Canned Go & Plae ]
[ Awll Dae ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(381)▪︎[ So, Z … 5•1•2021 ]
[ Let Me See, Let Me See ]
[ Z ]
[ You Say That I Have Not Written A Story About You
That Rhymes ]
[ In A Long Long Time ]
[ You Probably Think That You Are Not On My Mind ]
[ But Your Name Has Always Been Benign ]
[ In My Life ]
[ When You Are Here ]
[ You Bring Me The Rays Of Sunshine ]
[ I Am 100% Safe When You Are Here ]
[ I Am Cared For When You Are Here ]
[ I Know That I Will Eat When You Here ]
[ I Know That I Will Be Showered When You Are Here ]
[ I Know That I Will Be Given My Meds When You Are Here ]
[ When I Am Left Alone ]
[ I Am As Solid As A Soft-Served Ice Cream Cone ]
[ I Am Lost When You Are Not Here ]
[ I Feel Vulnerable When You Are Not Here ]
[ I Feel Like A Target When You Are Not Here ]
[ I Am Not Looked After When You Are Not Here ]
[ Because I Got Slammed Upside My Head With A Clue ]
[ I Fell Onto The Floor ]
[ & He Never Took A Single Step Towards My Rescue ]
[ How Many Different Ways Can I Say That You Are The Best ]
[ How Many Times That I Have To Say That There Has Never
Been Another Caregiver Like You In The Pacific Northwest ]
[ You Always Give Me A Strong Shoulder On Which To
Lean ]
[ You Have Never Been Mean ]
[ @ Least From What I’ve Seen ]
[ & You Have No In-Between ]
[ You Wear Many Hats While You Are On Shift ]
[ Whenever You Come ]
[ It Gives Me A Huge Lift ]
[ I Have Found That Your O.C.D. ]
[ Works Out Really Favorable For Me ]
[ Your Pickiness ]
[ With What You Do ]
[ Is Only Challenged By Your Quickness ]
[ I Worry When You Do Not Feel Right ]
[ I Know That You Have Alot Of Fight ]
[ I Worry Just As Much About You As You Take Care
Of Me ]
[ So, From What I See ]
[ I Lerve You As My Caregiver & I Lerve You As My Friend ]
[ This Is Starting To Get Mushy & Make You Feel Uncomfortable ]
[ So This Is How It Will End ]
[ You Are ALWAYS In My Thoughts ]
[ You Are As Much As I See Spots ]
[ You Are Always A Story In Waiting ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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