(019)▪︎[ POSITIVE ENERGY … 2023 ]

[ Well That’s (10) Minutes That You Won’t Get Back! ]
[ Then You Get That Look Of Someone Who Took Their Time
To Give Someone Else Some Flack? ]

[ How Many Times Have You Said That In Anger? ]
[ Wouldn’t You Want To Put That On A Wire Hangar? ]

[ Hang It Up In The Broom Closet ]
[ Where You Keep Your Tennis Racket ]
[ & Fishing Net? ]

[ You Wish You Could Deal With Your Anger As Easy As That? ]
[ Or Figure Out How To Burn Off Unwanted Fat ]

[ It Would Be Nice If Positive Energy Could Transfer Over As
Easily As Making A Wish? ]
[ There Would Always Be A Hitch ]

[ Whenever You Want Something Positive To Happen On The
Spot ]
[ Something Negative Happens ]
[ Making All That Hoping, Was For Naught ]

[ Were You Born Under A Dark Cloud? ]
[ With Incessant Rain ] been Be Be Be He be Be Be Be b Be
[ That Sounds So Loud ]

[ When It Lands On The Tin Roof Of The House ]
[ Making The Kids Hide Under Their Covers ]
[ Hurrying Home, So You Could Be With Your Spouse ]

[ Staying Inside ]
[ Wondering When The Rain Will Subside ]

[ The Sun Rarely Peaks Out Around Your Neighborhood ]
[ Most People Do Not Like That ]
[ In The End Your Circumstances Are Completely Misunderstood ]

|| THE END ||

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|| Ka hopena ||

|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||

|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||

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(031)▪︎[ The Worst Experience … 2024 ]

[ Sometimes, When You Are The Unluckiest Of People, That Were Handpicked To Experience Grief ]
[ From That Date Forward ]
[ It Is Like Part Of Your Soul, Was Stolen By A Silent, Thief ]
[ & Nobody Finds It Important, To Post A Reward ]

[ You Don’t Feel That You Will Ever Get The Time Back, That You Lost ]
[ You Have Gone To The Best Psychiatrists ]
[ No Matter The Cost ]

[ You Grew Up Surrounded By Opulence ]
[ You Thought That Everyone Did ]
[ You Were Told This, When You Learned That The Grass Isn’t Always Greener, On Your Neighbors Side, Of The Fence ]

[ You Thought That Anyone That Grew Up In The South ]
[ Were Taught Not To Pout ]
[ You Quickly Learned That Not Everybody Grew Up With A Silver Spoon, In Their Mouth ]

[ Not Every Child Grew Up Using A Plate Or Spoon ]
[ There Was Zero Glassware ]
[ Used Before Noon ]

[ Now Heaven Has Reached Down & Taken The Number One Reason To Live ]
[ When You Met Her ]
[ You Did Not Know How To Forgive ]

[ She Talked You Off Of That Buildings Ledge ]
[ For The Last Year & A Half ]
[ You Were Living Your Life On The Edge ]

[ Racing Motorcycles Up To The Edge Of The Cliff ]
[ Confronting Strangers ]
[ That Do Not Want To Be Involved In Any Mindless Rift ]

[ This Is The Seventh Death, In Your Family, In The Last (2½ Years) ]
[ This Has Superceeded, Your Worst Fears ]

[ You Never Expected ]
[ Or Accepted ]

[ The Talk That You Would Constantly Over Hear ]
[ Ever Since Then ]
[ Nothing Seems To Be, @ All Very Clear ]

[ You Hear Whispers, Until You Look ]
[ You Do Not Eat ]
[ Unless You Are The Only One That Will Cook ]
[ You Became Vegan, So You No Longer Make Meals With Meat ]

[ It Was A Forced Choice ]
[ Not One, That Was Made, With Your Voice ]

[ But As You Begin To Follow The Prescribed Menu By The Letter ]
[ You Have Slowly ]
[ Started Feeling Better ]

[ Inside, Maybe ]
[ Only By The Passing Of Time ]
[ Will You See ]

|| The End ||

||- ▪︎▪︎ -•- ● ▪︎-||○ – -₩- – ○||-▪︎ ● -•- ▪︎▪︎ -||

|| Ka hopena ||

|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||

|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||

||- ▪︎▪︎ -•- ● ▪︎-||○ – -₩- – ○||-▪︎ ● -•- ▪︎▪︎ -||

(1151)▪︎[ Another Episode … 2023 ]

[ When You Have Been Overcome With P.T.S.D. ]
[ Many Times You Might Ask Yourself ]
[ (WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME?) ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ You Might Think That You Are Having An Anxiety Attack ]
[ But In Reality ]
[ You Could Be Having A Severe Flashback ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ You Won’t Have Control Over Anything In Your Life ]
[ No Control Of Whether It Is Daylight]
[ Or Late @ Night ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ The Date Won’t Matter One Bit ]
[ Neither Does It Matter ]
[ If You Were Fat @ The Time Or Fit ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ You Cannot Fight What Is Coming ]
[ Sometimes The Feeling That Comes With It, Is Mind Numbing ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ You Are Sent Back, In Time ]
[ You Very Well Could Have Been In Your Prime ]
[ The Incident Was Definitely Not Sublime ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ Oftentimes It Could Be The Smallest Thing That Triggers You ]
[ To Strangers ]
[ They Have No Clue ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ One Minute You Are Part Of The Conversation, Than The Next Your Mind Is A Million Miles Away ]
[ Being In A Different Year ]
[ Seeing Things In A Different Way ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ It Could Be A Sound Or A Sight ]
[ Guns, Cars, A Certain Date ]
[ It Could Be (2) People In A Fight ]
[ Whatever It Is, Flashbacks Do Not Wait ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ When One Wants To Take Over Your Mind ]
[ They Are Not The Patient Kind ]
[ They Do Not Wait In Line ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ Flashbacks Puts You Back In To The Mess That You Are Trying To Get Your Mind Away From ]
[ It Is Not A Memory That You Always Welcome ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ It Is No Watermelon Sugar High ]
[ Everything Is The Same ]
[ Flashbacks Never Lie ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ Or Exaggerates The Truth ]
[ There Is No Line To Have One ]
[ Unlike The Kissing Booth ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ @ The Country Fair ]
[ That Is The Kind Of Place Where ]
[ You Would Want To Be There ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ Flashbacks Come & Goes Whenever It Pleases ]
[ It Does Not Come Down With A Case Of The Measles ]
[ For That, It Only Teases ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ You Throw It Right Back If Someone Leaves Any Of Their Dirty Laundry, On Your Piece Of The Tile ]
[ The Dirty Clothes ]
[ Can Be Seen For Miles ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ It Neither Shines A Beacon Of Light Or Raises A Flag ]
[ To Announce It’s Presence ]
[ It Never Plays Tag ]
[ To Give The Location Of It’s Exististence ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ The Life & Times Of P.T.S.D. Is Bafffling ]
[ The Life & Times I is Unraveling ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ Where, When, How Does It Stop? ]
[ When Do The Clouds Drop? ]
[ How Do You Make The Bubble Pop? ]
‐‐☆‐‐
[ It All Stops, But ]
[ When … ]
[ Will You Have One Again? ]

(•) ● ||▪︎○▪︎|| ● ||•○●○•|| ● ||▪︎○▪︎|| ● (•)
[(°)] [(°)]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[(°)] [(°)]
(•) ● ||▪︎○▪︎|| ● ||•○●○•|| ● ||▪︎○▪︎|| ● (•)

(007)▪︎[ The Long Walk … 2024 ]

[ Can You Start To Heal By Taking A Long Walk? ]
[ Then You Don’t Have To Become, An Anonymous Outline In Chalk ]
[ On A City Sidewalk ]

[ There Are People, That Persevere ]
[ Because They Are The Ones, That Get In The Driver’s Seat, To Steer ]
[ Not Succumbing To The Demons ]
[ That Push Others Onto A Barstool, Drowning Their Sorrows, In Beer ]

[ (2) Vastly Different People, Who Have A Different Goal ]
[ One Wants To Once Again Become Whole ]
[ The Other Invited Satan Into Their Troubled World ]
[ Then Sold Their Soul ]

[ For What They Thought Would Be Some Sort Of Relief ]
[ Having The Belief]

[ That Since Alcohol Would Temporarily Make Them Numb ]
[ It Was Their Way Back To Normalcy ]
[ That Just Proved To Be An Extremely Dumb ]
[ Fallacy ]

[ They Never Learned, That Making It Back, To Getting Ahead ]
[ Takes Hard Work ]
[ Not By Making Alcohol, Their Cure All Med ]
[ Giving Them Permission, To Go Berserk ]
[ Then Sleeping For Days, In Their Bed ]

[ The Way Back, During Recovery ]
[ Can Be Filled ]
[ With Both Positive & Negative Discovery ]

[ Oftentimes, Not Knowing How Good You Have It In Your Life, Until It Is Yanked Away ]
[ Here Today ]

[ Then Gone The Next ]
[ Not Being Told In A Letter ]
[ Now Being Sent A (DEAR JOHN) Text ]

[ Right There In Front Of You, On Your Phone ]
[ Possibly Leaving You, All Alone ]
[ Your Future Plans, Being Blown, Up ]
[ Cutting You To The Bone ]

[ How Do You Start Back Up? ]
[ Or … Do You Just Give Up? ]

[ This Is A Make ]
[ Or ]
[ Break ]

[ Moment ]
[ Maybe, Not The Best Time, For A Sarcastic Comment ]

[ You Realize That This Will Be The Time, To Pull Up Your Big Boy Pants ]
[ Getting Off Of The Floor ]
[ Away From The Ants ]
[ To Walk Out The Front Door ]

[ You See The Darkness In The Distance ]
[ Sherpa Steps ]
[ You Have To Fight Against The Resistance ]

[ Do You Love Life & Hate It @ The Same Time ]
[ Looking @ Yourself In The Mirror ]
[ As You Drink From The Same Vine ]
[ Asking Yourself (WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?) ]

((•)) ▪︎▪︎ ▪︎○▪︎ ▪︎▪︎ ((•)) ▪︎▪︎ ▪︎○▪︎ ▪︎▪︎ ((•))

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] (酪)

((•)) ▪︎▪︎ ▪︎○▪︎ ▪︎▪︎ ((•)) ▪︎▪︎ ▪︎○▪︎ ▪︎▪︎ ((•))