[ 1023 ][ Set Adrift … 12•6•2021 ]

[ Lost, Floating On The Sea Of Loneliness ]
[ Could I Ever Feel Less ]
[ Of This Emptiness ]

[ How Did I Get Here? ]
[ My Path Back To Fullfillness Has Never Been
All That Clear ]

[ When I Came To A Fork In The Road I Thought
I Turned In The Right Direction ]
[ Using Hindsight ]
[ I Would Make A Correction ]

[ I Thought Going Left Was Good ]
[ Maybe My Brain Misunderstood ]

[ The Bright, Yellow Yield Signs ]
[ Plus, When I Looked @ The Left Side ]
[ There Were No Lines ]

[ Maybe It Was That Way For A Reason ]
[ When I Looked To The Right ]
[ I Did Not Think That I Could Squeeze In ]

[ But Now I Float ]
[ On The Sea ]
[ Without A Single Paddle In My Boat ]

[ I Am @ The Mercy Of The Wind & The Current ]
[ This Problem Seems To Be Recurrent ]

[ Same Problem, But From A Different Issue ]
[ My Inner Strength Is As Strong As A Soft Kleenex
Tissue ]

[ Flimsy & Easy To Rip To Shreads ]
[ Confusing, Like The Brain On Too Many Meds ]

[ Will I Be Forever Damned? ]
[ & Never Get Back To Dry Land? ]
[ Do I Lean Down ]
[ & Paddle With My Hand? ]

[ After Awhile ]
[ I Found That It Was Futile ]

[ Do I Hear The Sound Of A Storm Coming In? ]
[ When I Sense The Rain Begin ]
[ I Tell Myself ( I JUST CAN’t WIN! ) ]

[ Maybe This Will Be The Way My Life Will Go ]
[ Maybe Not ]
[ Probably So ]
[ Is All Of This Effort For Naught? ]
[ I Really Don’t Know ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 176 ][ Devoid of Emotion … 2•26•2021 ]

[ I Will Take My Mask Off When I Get Home ]
[ Only If I Am There All Alone ]

[ I Feel Like A Spaceman On The Moon ]
[ But My Solitude Will Be Broken Soon ]

[ When The Kid Gets Home From School ]
[ & The Wife Gets Back From Swimming @ The Neighborhood
     Pool ]

[ But Then While I Was Waiting ]
[ I Realized That I Was Hallucinating ]

[ My Small Family Got Taken From Me Over 3 Years Ago ]
[ When Our House Got Broken Into By 2 Men
     That We Didn’t Know ]

[ They Ordered Us To Lay On The Floor ]
[ As They Went In & Out Our Front Door ]
[ After Everything Got Quiet ]
[ I Looked Around & Could Not See Them In The House
     Anymore ]

[ After Looking All Around ]
[ My Family Was No Where To Be Found ]

[ I Looked All Over The World ]
[ For My Wife & My Girl ]

[ The Police Found No Leads ]
[ Even Though They Seemed They Were Working @ A Fast Speed ]

[ I Never Imagined How Bad The Agony ]
[ Would Be ]

[ Everyday I Was Having Flashbacks Of That Day ]
[ Wishing Things Had Turned Out A Different Way ]

[ But It Didn’t, So Here I Stand ]
[ Only A Shell Of The Man ]

[ That Stood Here 3 Years Before ]

[ Just Waiting For The Phone To Ring ]
[ For Anybody ]
[ To Tell Me Anything ]

[ But That Phone Call Never Comes ]
[ So Here I Live ]
[ Feeling Totally Numb ]
[ With Nothing More To Give ]
[ Feeling Like An Emotional Bum ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 187 ][ Problems … 3•3•2021 ]

[ Sometimes When I Get Nervous, I Stutter ]
[ So When I Talk To Myself Alot ]
[ People Will Think That All I Do Is Mutter ]

[ That Puts Me In A World Where ]
[ There ]
[ Is Only One Chair ]

[ My Room That I Am Stuck In Is The Size Of A Closet ]
[ I Have To Go Outside ]
[ To Let My Mind Reset ]

[ & Shake The Cobwebs ]
[ Out Of My Head ]

[ One Thought, Then Two, Then A Whole Bunch ]
[ Alot ]
[ Of Those Thoughts ]
[ Have Been Ping Ponging Around In My Head Since Lunch ]

[ Granted, That It Was Kind Of Late ]
[ In The Day, When I Ate ]

[ I Have Worked On My Stutter For A Very, Very Long Time ]
[ That Is When It Helped Me To Recite Nursery Rhymes ]
[ Then I Started To Write Some Of My Own ]
[ Since I’ve Never Been Published, I Have Never Made A Dime ]

[ But That Is Okay ]
[ I’d Say ]
[ I Never, Ever Thought I Would Pay ]
[ My Bills This Way ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 188 ][ People Are Way Too Sensitive … 3•3•2021 ]

[ The Sensitivity Is Getting Way Out Of Hand ]
[ If One Person Gets So Over-Sensitive ]
[ Then They Make Their Demands ]

[ Burn The Books ]
[ & Cancel The Cartoon Shows ]
[ Did That Story Make Fun Of My Looks? ]
[ & Make Fun Of My Nose? ]

[ These Are All Cartoons, All Of You Sensitive Folks ]
[ These Cartoons Are Filled With Nothing But Jokes ]

[ They Are Not Excluding Anyone’s Race ]
[ They Are Not Poking Fun Of The Color Of Someone’s
     Face ]

[ Didn’t You Know ]
[ That These Books Were Written Many Decades Ago ]

[ If You Have A Beef Or A Problem ]
[ Don’t Spend Your Money ]
[ So Don’t Even Buy Them ]

[ The Minority Races Want To Be Included On Everything ]
[ But No Other Races Are Included In Their Things ]
[ Would You Want White People To Scream ( THAT STINGS! ) ]

[ Would It Make The Minorities Think? ]
[ If White People Say That The Double Standards Really Stink? ]

[ Why Must The Majority ]
[ Always Change Because Of A Very Very Small Noisey
     Minority ]

[ It Has Never Made Sense ]
[ That Minorities Feel That They Must Be Included In
     Whatever Goes On In My Side Of The Fence ]

[ I Don’t Want Them In My Business & I Don’t Want To
    Be In Theirs ]
[ Whatever They Want To Do With Their Time ]
[ Makes Me Not Care ]

[ Are People Getting So Primitive ]
[ When They Are Being So Sensitive? ]

[ So Stay Home ]
[ & Get Drunk Or Stoned ]
[ But Whatever You Do ]
[ Leave The Classical Children’s Books Alone ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 185 ][ Who Stays?… 3•2•2021 ]

[ A ][° 185 °][ WHO STAYS? … 3•2•2021 ]

[ You Should Always Be Who You Are & What You Feel ]
[ Then You Will Figure Out Who Is Real ]

[ A Real Friend Would Not ]
[ Put You On The Spot ]
[ & Would Not Only Stick Around Based On What You’ve
     Got ]

[ They Will Never Hang Around You ]
[ Because Of Your Financial Value ]

[ Fake People Will Always Have Money On Their Mind ]
[ & When Those Types Of People Are Left Alone ]
[ In Your Home ]
[ They Might Pocket Anything That They Find ]

[ It Is Best That You Always Keep What You Have Earned
    & Owned ]
[ Never Exchange Money Between Friends As A Loan ]

[ If You Feel That You Have Some Money To Burn ]
[ Remember The Past About The Lessons You Learned ]

[ If A Friend Is In Need & Needs A Financial Lift ]
[ Never Make It A Loan, Give It As A Gift ]

[ A Real Friend Would Never Take On The Task ]
[ To Ask ]

[ Especially Face To Face ]
[ They Should Know That Is Not Their Place ]

[ But It Is Extremely Hard To Be So Honest With
     Oneself ]
[ Especially If You Are Constantly Being Criticized By
     Everybody Else ]

[ Stand Tall ]
[ & Then See Where The Chips Fall ]

[ When You Stand Your Ground ]
[ See If You Really Have The Kinds Of Friends That Do Stick
     Around ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 191 ][ Some Girls … 3•4•2021 ]

[ Sometimes There Are Some Girls That Grow Up With
A Hole In Their Heart ]
[ Their Life Is Behind The Eight Ball ]
[ Right From The Very Start ]

[ She Grows Up Being Sad ]
[ Because She Was Not Able To Know Her Mom Or Dad ]

[ But Most Of The Time You Hear ]
[ That This Strong Girl Does In Fact Persevere ]

[ She Does In Life, Play & In Work ]
[ They Spend Everyday ]
[ Trying Their Best To Stay Away From All Of The Jerks ]

[ Most Of The Time She Can Succeed ]
[ & Run Away From Them @ A High Speed ]

[ But Sometimes She Shows A Vulnerable Side ]
[ Where Her Heart Is Open Wide ]
[ But Then Does She Regret That Decision ]
[ Then Run & Hide? ]

[ She Rarely Regrets Anything That She Does ]
[ She Rarely Does Things Just Because ]

[ All Of Actions Are Well Thought Out ]
[ So She Doesn’t Worry About ]
[ Doubt ]

[ She Shoots Straight From The Hip ]
[ & Her Shoulders Don’t Have Chips ]

[ No One Ever Has To Remind ]
[ Her ]
[ That When She Speaks Her Mind ]
[ She Is Always Sure ]

[ No, She Stands Up & Dusts Herself Off ]
[ She Does Not Let The Faults ]
[ Of Others, To Make Her Lost ]

[ She Stands On Her Own Two Feet ]
[ Because She Marches To Her Own Beat ]

[ She Does Not Take Crap From No One ]
[ She Doesn’t Balk & Run ]

[ She Is Her Own Person ]
[ Who Has Learned Many Lessons ]

[ For Such A Young Age ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 183 ][ What Says The Signs? … 3•1•2021 ]

[ A ][° 183 °][ WHAT SAYS THE SIGNS? … 3•1•2021 ]

[ If A Man Has Never Discovered Something That
     He Would Die For ]
[ He Isn’t Fit To Live ]
[ It Is A Shame That He Would Never Open His Own Front
     Door ]
[ To Give ]

[ To A Stranger, A Friend Or A Family Member ]
[ He Has Not Done Anything Good Enough To Remember ]

[ You Either Die For Something ]
[ Or Die For Nothing ]

[ Dieing Is Not Always The End Game ]
[ Just Like All Lives Are Not The Same ]

[ Are You Only Good ]
[ When You Are @ Peace With Yourself ]
[ Not When You Are Misunderstood ]
[ By Everyone Else ]

[ Sometimes We Make Our Own Heaven & Hell While
     We Are Still Alive On This Earth ]
[ Because We Have Been Hurting People Since Our Birth ]

[ The Heaven We Make Is When We Make Others Happy & Smile ]
[ One Thing About Happiness ]
[ It Is Short Lived & Fragile ]

[ Hate Is Like A Really Heavy Chain & Lock Around
     Your Neck ]
[ Whenever Hate Gets Loose & Unchecked ]

[ It Ages Your Face ]
[ & Ruins Your Name All Over The Place ]
[ Where You Once Were Accepted ]
[ Now You Are A Disgrace ]

[ Then You Will Figure Out Really Quick That Money
     Can’t Buy You Love ]
[ You Should Always Try To Soar Like An Eagle ]
[ Instead Of Flying Low Like Dove ]

[ Money Sometimes Causes People Pain ]
[ Because They Can’t Keep Up With All The People That
     Have Latched Onto People ]
[ That Are Only There For Financial Gain ]

[ Blank Faces With Different Names ]
[ But The ( WANT ) Is Always The Same ]

[ When The Room Is Empty The Silence Can Be Deafening ]
[ It Does Not Look Like Anyone Is Listening ]

[ Then You Feel That Nobody Has Heard ]
[ A Single Word ]

[ Said Or Written ]
[ Making You Feel Like You Have Been Twice Bitten ]

[ Nobody Hears A Word, Because Nobody Is There ]
[ Everyone Left ]
[ Because They Found That You Do Not Care ]
[ To Share ]

[ Then That Causes You To Question The Whole Idea
     About The Hereafter ]
[ Because To Reach It ]
[ Some May Need A Really Tall Ladder ]

[ You Find That The Ones That You Figure Have To Really
     Reach ]
[ Are The Loudest One’s Who Preach ]

[ Maybe You Figure Out That It Is Time To Lay Low ]
[ Because Of The Actions Of Others ]
[ That Is What Says So ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 181 ][ Okay … 3•1•2021 ]

How Do The Words ( RUN ) & ( DONE ) Sound So Much Alike
But Drastically Mean Almost Opposite Things. One
Means To Leave & One Means You Are Finished. How Did
Jack Climb The Beanstalk When He Was Afraid Of Frogs?
Little Red Ridinghood Never Liked The Color Red. She
Was More Into Yellows & Greens. But The Name ( LITTLE
YELLOW RIDINGHOOD ) Just Did Not Flow. The Three Bears
Adopted A Daughter But She Ran Away. If Having A ( BLUE )
Sky Is Good, Why Is ( FEELING BLUE ) Something Depressing?
If There Is ( EMAIL ) Through Your ( GMAIL ) Whatever Happened
To ( FMAIL )? Or Would They Call That ( FAIL MAIL )? How Did Someone Take The Words ( PILL ) & ( LOW ) & Make It Something
Comfortable To Lay Our Heads Down On? Does ( FENCE )
Mean ( DENSE ) Wood? But If It Is Made Of Wiire, What Should
It Be Called? ( WIRED )? How Come The Moon Is Not Always
Full Like The ( SUN )? We Never Call It A ( FULL SUN ). How Is
The Color ( YELLOW ) Bright Like The Sun When The Word Is
( YELL ) & ( OW ). That Sounds Like A Cry For Help To Me.
Kermit The Frog Was A Vegan & A Polygamist, Having Four
Wives Already. Humpty’s Real Name Was Herbert & He Went To
Pieces Because Of A Psychotic Break. So Of Course
All Of The Kings Men Could Not Put Him Back Together
Again Because They Were All Colorblind. But Take The Whole Premise Of That Word. Isn’t Black, White & Gray Actual Colors? So No One Is Actually ( COLOR BLIND ). The Big Bad Wolfe
Always Had A Low Self-Esteem. So That Is Why He Tried To
Blow Down The Houses Of The 3 Pigs. They Always Teased
Him About His Tail By Saying That He DID Have ONE, But
He Could Never GET Some Tail. He Had A Horrible Lisp
That Caused Him To Keep To Himself @ The Bars. Dorothy
Was Actually Running From An Abusive Family Situation.
She Never Wanted To Go Back To Indiana. That Is Where She
Had An Twin Evil Sister That Was A Year Older Than Her & Looks
Nothing Like Her. Superman & Robin Buy Their Thong
Underwear Off Of The Same Website ( UP YOUR CRACK ).
It Sells Fancy Male Underwear, Hiking Books & Really
Good Teriyaki Bat Feet. You Get A Nice Side Helping Of
Potato Salad With Every Order Over $30. Snow White
Always Pimps Out Her Dwarfs. Alfred Was Actually
Batman’s Uncle. Casper Haunts The Minds Of Only 4.87%
Of The Kids. Archie & Charlie Brown Were Actually Lovers But
They Were ( ON THE DOWN LOW ) Chuck Never Wanted Lucy To
Know Because She Was A Really Mean Drunk. Bewitched Always
Wiggled Her Nose Because She Does Too Much ( BOOGER
SUGAR ). Now You Are Up To Date On The 0550hrs.

[ 180 ][ Stumbling & Bumbling … 3•7•2021 ]

[ I Tripped On A Cloud & Fell Eight Miles High ]
[ When I Tell Myself That Things Are Okay ]
[ Am Telling Myself A Lie? ]

[ Okay By What Standards & By What Measure ]
[ Do I Count My Friends & Loved Ones ]
[ Or The Size Of My Stolen Treasure? ]

[ Do I Create My Own Hell When I Cause Someone’s Pain? ]
[ When I See The Light @ The End Of The Tunnel ]
[ Is It A Fast Oncoming Train? ]

[ When I Hope For The Best ]
[ I Prepare For The Worst ]
[ I Try To Get Things Off Of My Chest ]
[ When I Feel Like I Am Cursed ]

[ Being Born Under A Dark Cloud That Was Raining ]
[ Did Not Give Me Much Time For Training ]

[ Training For The Better Things In Life ]
[ & Never Hsd Good Examples To Emulate ]
[ When It Came To How To Be A Good Husband To A Wife ]

[ Does Good Fortune Ever Have A Ceiling That Is
     Too High? ]
[ When Someone Compliments Me Are They Telling
     A Big Lie? ]

[ I Never Want To Stumble & Fall ]
[ As Far As Some People Are Tall ]

[ So Many Times I Feel All Alone When I Am In A Crowd ]
[ Then The Silence, The Silence ]
[ Can Be So Piercing Loud ]

[ So Much So That I Have To Go Outside ]
[ To Straighten Out The Jumbled Thoughts ]
[ That Are Racing Back & Forth In My Mind ]

[ Oftentimes It Might Stop When I Go To Sleep ]
[ But Even Though My Eyes Might Be Closed ]
[ I Rarely Ever Go In Deep ]

[ I Am All Alone Again As I Try To Navigate This Crooked
     Path That I Have Stumbled Upon ]
[ I Would Prefer To Have Less Off Days ]
[ Than I Have On ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 184 ][ What To Do … 3•2•2021 ]

[ Frustration Sets Out All Over The Land ]
[ Whenever This Happens ]
[ Things Seem To Get Out Of Hand ]

[ When The Frustration Rises To The Top ]
[ Everything That Is Going Right ]
[ Comes To An Abrupt Stop ]

[ It Oozes Out Of The Sides, Front & Back ]
[ That Always Means That My Self-Esteem ]
[ Becomes Aware Of An Attack ]

[ A Punch To The Gut Is What Always Happens First ]
[ Then My Body Is Overcome With Thirst ]

[ The Thirst That Only Validation Will Quench ]
[ Something, Anything To Get My Fists To Unclench ]

[ Fists So Tight ]
[ Making My Knuckles Turn White ]

[ How Does Frustration Take Over My Brain? ]
[ It Gets My Thoughts Going So Fast ]
[ They Have The Momentum Of An Oncoming Train ]

[ Then The Dark Clouds Roll In ]
[ Turning The Sky Black ]
[ Right Before The Storm Begins ]

[ The Rain Comes Down Like A Shower ]
[ Completely Dampening All Of My Powers ]

[ Making Me Lose Control Of Each & Every Thought ]
[ Making Me Have Questions ]
[ About Every So-Called Friend That I’ve Got ]

[ Is There Even A Single Person That I Could Always Call? ]
[ Who Could Be That One Person Who Be There ]
[ Anytime I Was Backed Up Against The Wall? ]

[ That One Person Would Be My Best Friend That Lives
In The City ]
[ Of Albany ]

[ She Is The One Person Who Has Never Done Me Wrong ]
[ Over These Last Couple Of Years ]
[ She Has Taught Me How To Be Strong ]

[ She Taught Me How I Can ]
[ Stand Tall In Front Of My Spouse ]
[ She Taught Me How To Be The Man ]
[ Of This House ]

[ & She Calls Me Out ]
[ Whenever I Have Doubt ]

[ Just Thinking Of Her Puts My Frustrationd To Bed ]
[ That Are Inside Of My Head ]

[ Thank You Maria For Teaching Me To Fight ]
[ For Myself & Equality ]
[ When I Don’t Think That Something Isn’t Right ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]