[ I Like To Express Myself Through What I Write ]
[ Because I Have Feelings Every Morning, Noon & Night ]
[ & Because I Am Writing What I Think ]
[ There Is No Wrong Or Right ]
[ Some Say This Is A Gift ]
[ Whenever I Think About How I Got It ]
[ It Gives Me A Tremendous Lift ]
[ When I Write My Thoughts I Know Some Don’t Approve ]
[ But Not To Be Sounding Rude ]
[ I Have Nothing To Prove ]
[ So With This Attitude ]
[ I Always Look For Ways & Times Where I Can Improve ]
[ I’ve Been Told That Sometimes I Write What Others Want
To Say ]
[ How Come Others Can’t Find Their Own Way ]
[ To Say What Their Thoughts Are Everyday? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
Category: [ 2020 Stories ]
(595)▪︎[ Two Days In A Row! … 6•30•2020 ]
[ After Sitting Around The Living Room Listening To The Tic-Toc ]
[ Of The Wall Clock ]
[ I Decided To Get Up Off Of My Butt & Go For A Walk ]
[ Around The Block ]
[ Yesterday I Went Two Laps Around ]
[ So Two Laps & One Mailbox Further ]
[ Had Me Covering More Ground ]
[ So Down The Street & Then A Left Turn ]
[ I Want To Do This ]
[ Before My Back Feels A Burn ]
[ I Go One More Mailbox Everyday ]
[ This Is Because I Really Do Not Like What I Weigh ]
[ Once You Reach A Certain Age ]
[ Body Fat Seems To Want To Stay ]
[ This Was The First Time In My Most Recent Life ]
[ That I Went & Got Nicole ]
[ My Wife ]
[ I Wanted Her To Walk Too ]
[ Because She Needs Too As Much As I Do ]
[ We Walked Almost A Full Mile ]
[ Even Though It Took Us Awhile ]
[ I Felt An Accomplishment On My Side ]
[ I’ve Done That Hill Four Times Now ]
[ & I Haven’t Died ]
[ I Remember That I Would Have Always Had To Stop ]
[ Or I Felt I Would Drop ]
[ Before I Completely Made It To The Top ]
[ I Cannot Say That This Is Alot Of Fun ]
[ & I Know That I Could Never Do This In A Run ]
[ But I Do Feel Really Good When I’m Done ]
[ Two Days In The Books ]
[ Let’s See How All Of This Looks ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(592)▪︎[ @ Times … 6•29•2020 ]
[ Sometimes When Things Get Loud ]
[ I Instantly Want To Get Away From The Crowd ]
[ & Stand All Alone ]
[ So I Can Just Be On My Own ]
[ But When I Look Down ]
[ There Is No Other Person Around ]
[ Was The Noise ]
[ Just My Own Voice? ]
[ & The Reflection I See ]
[ In The Mirror ]
[ Was Just Me ]
[ Standing Here ]
[ Then How Do I Get Away? ]
[ For Just One Day? ]
[ What If I Spun Around Until My Head Will Spin? ]
[ I’d Probably Fall On My Butt ]
[ & Never Want To Do That Again ]
[ I Don’t Want To Go Outside Because Of All Of The Violence ]
[ I’d Stay In & Create My Own Silence ]
[ Sometimes Silence Is A Good Thing ]
[ Sometimes I Like The Smiles ]
[ That It Brings ]
[ The Smiles & Good Times ]
[ That Are Not Attached With Strings ]
[ Nothing Asked For, Nothing Borrowed ]
[ Not A Single Demand ]
[ That Needs To Be Delivered Tomorrow ]
[ Everything Is For Now! ]
[ There Is No One Peeking Around The Corner ]
[ Asking ( HOW? ) ]
[ Nobody Around To Not Believe You ]
[ Everybody Around Takes Your Word ]
[ @ Face Value ]
[ Ever ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(579)▪︎[ Why Is This So? … 6•23•2020 ]
[ Laugh & The World Laughs Too ]
[ Cry ]
[ & Everybody Moves Away From You ]
[ Why Do Tears ]
[ Cause Fears? ]
[ & Then When You Talk ]
[ There Are No Ears ]
[ Laugh Out Loud & People Are Running Towards You To Talk ]
[ They Want To Know What You Have To Say ]
[ When You Cry ]
[ People Won’t Hesitate To Walk ]
[ Away ]
[ That Is When You Need That Shoulder ]
[ But When People Turn Their Back ]
[ & The Atmosphere Gets Colder ]
[ Why Is That? ]
[ Why Is That So? ]
[ Why Are You All Of A Sudden Treated Like A Doormat? ]
[ By The People You Know? ]
[ When You Cry In Front Of Others ]
[ Do They Have To Be ]
[ Your Mother Or Brothers? ]
[ Trust ]
[ Is A Must ]
[ Because When You Are Down ]
[ You Don’t Want To Feel That You Are The Clown ]
[ That Is Being Talked About ]
[ All Over Town ]
[ Cry Because Of Love Lost ]
[ Cry Because Of The Loss ]
[ Mourn What Was Lost ]
[ Cry & Reach For That Hand ]
[ Don’t Feel Any Less Of A Man ]
[ Empathy Cannot Be A Demand ]
[ If A Friend Is There ]
[ To Give You Care ]
[ Let Them Pull Up A Chair ]
[ Then Share ]
[ You Never Should Open Your Heart ]
[ Just To Have It Torn Apart ]
[ So Laugh & The World Laughs ]
[ But Tears ]
[ Shouldn’t Cut You In Half ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(570)▪︎[ If There Is Bias, There Should Be Silence … 6•19•2020 ]
[ Prejudice In Any Form ]
[ Should Not Be The Norm ]
[ Or Put Out There ]
[ For Others To Perform ]
[ Either Because Of Height, Weight Or The Color Of
Your Face ]
[ There Should Never Be A Time Or Place ]
[ For Someone To Be Biased Because Of Your Race ]
[ But Others Think That It Is Quite Alright ]
[ To Make Fun Of Someone’s Height ]
[ Why Or How ]
[ Can That Be Right? ]
[ Height Or Race Was Never A Choice ]
[ Being That Tall Or That Color ]
[ The Person Had No Voice ]
[ If You Do Think That They Did, Then What Was Said? ]
[ The Conversation Was Not Just In That Person’s Head ]
[ Was Something Else Heard Instead? ]
[ Weight Is A Whole Different Conversation Altogether ]
[ Losing Weight ]
[ Can’t Change Like The Oregon Weather ]
[ Most Everything Is Off Limits Except If You Are Not On
The Tall Side ]
[ That’s When You Get Comments That Are Hurtful & Snide ]
[ People Should Not Be Hurtful Or Biased Towards Each Other ]
[ Not Every Woman Is Your Sister Or Mother ]
[ But You Can Treat Other Men ]
[ As Well As You Would Treat Or Welcome Him As A Brother ]
[ To Help Everyone Cope ]
[ Don’t Treat Anybody Like A Dope ]
[ On Any Scope ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(567)▪︎[ Are They The Same … 6•17•2020 ]
[ Is Loneliness The Worst Feeling You Could Have? ]
[ Is That The One Feeling That Makes You Feel Like You Have
Been Cut In Half? ]
[ It Is Like Being Invited To A Party & You Have No One To Bring ]
[ Or Waiting By The Phone ]
[ & It Never Rings ]
[ Is It That You Know ]
[ That Nobody Will Want To Go? ]
[ It Is A Fact ]
[ That When You Do A Selfless Act ]
[ That There Is No One Around To Pat You On The Back? ]
[ Being Altruistic Is Being Kind ]
[ Without Having A Reward In Mind ]
[ But It Is Nice ]
[ When Some Other Person Sees It With Their Own Eyes ]
[ & Then You Feel Like Doing That Twice ]
[ How Does One Make Loneliness Go Away? ]
[ Even For Just One Day? ]
[ When It Does ]
[ Will It Stay ]
[ That Way ]
[ Does Despair ]
[ & Loneliness ]
[ Come As A Pair? ]
[ Is That What Makes People ]
[ Lose All Of Their Hair? ]
[ What Does Someone That Feels All Alone ]
[ Do About The Silence ]
[ When It All Sounds So Monotone? ]
[ Is That Much Better Than Feeling All Alone In A Crowd ]
[ While Trying To Drown ]
[ Out All Of The Voices That Sound ]
[ So Loud? ]
[ Does The Silence ]
[ Bring On The Violence? ]
[ Loneliness & Feeling Alone Are Two Different Things ]
[ The One Thing They Have In Common Though ]
[ Is That They Both Makes The Heart Sting ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(481)▪︎[ It’s A Double Edged Sword … 5•14•2020 ]
[ It Seems Like Forever Since That Last Phone Call ]
[ If I Knew Then, What I Know Now ]
[ I Would Have Stalled ]
[ If I Knew That Would Be My Last Conversation Forever ]
[ I Wouldn’t Hang Up … Ever? ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Would ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Could ]
[ The Thought That We Would Never Again Talk ]
[ To Him ]
[ Oh The Thought ]
[ Would Make Me Balk ]
[ Forever Never Is An Awfully Long Long Time ]
[ All That I Can Do Now ]
[ Is Write My Pain Out In A Rhyme ]
[ Line After Line, Word After Word ]
[ Hello World ]
[ Please Let Me Be Heard ]
[ Hug Your Family, Pull Them Close ]
[ Make A Circle ]
[ Touch Nose To Nose ]
[ I Found That Brent Died Alone In His Sleep ]
[ There Was No Sound ]
[ Not Even A Peep ]
[ He Didn’t Look Around ]
[ Because His Slumber Was Deep ]
[ He Went Peacefully Into The Night ]
[ There Was No Struggle ]
[ There Was No Fight ]
[ He Had No Trouble ]
[ As He Walked Silently Towards The Light ]
[ There Was No Choice ]
[ He Heard Nobody’s Voice ]
[ & There Was No Noise ]
[ My Plan To Visit Came Three Weeks Too Late ]
[ My Brothers Spirit ]
[ Could Not Wait ]
[ There Was Nothing To Be Done ]
[ In That Moment ]
[ There Wasn’t Even One ]
[ More Comment ]
[ The Next Call From Las Vegas Was A Doozy ]
[ The Conversation Made Me Woozy ]
[ Oh, Brother Brent ]
[ I Have So Many Regrets ]
[ Now, I Feel So Spent ]
[ & As The Sun Sets ]
[ I’ve Lost All Track Of The Times When I’ve Wept ]
[ So Love Your Family, Love Your Friends ]
[ You Just Don’t Know ]
[ When A Life Is Going To End ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(891)▪︎[ Humpty Fell? … 10•23•2020 ]
[ Humpty Dumpy Climbed A Slippery Wall ]
[ All Because He Lost His Ball ]
[ When He Got To The Very Top ]
[ He Took Out His Phone ]
[ Only To Watch It Drop ]
[ He Clasped His Hands But Only Caught
Air ]
[ He Got Upset As He Saw His Broken Phone Down
There ]
[ In Pieces On The Ground ]
[ He Couldn’t Call Out For Help ]
[ Because There Was Nobody Even Around ]
[ He Thought That Surely Mrs. Dumpty Will Throw A Fit ]
[ & Instead Of Empathy ]
[ All She Will Do Is Give Him Shit ]
[ She Would Say ( OH, THAT FIGURES, THAT REALLY SUCKS ) ]
[ Humpty Knew In His Heart ]
[ That Mrs. Dumpty, Thinks Humpty Only Has
Bad Luck ]
[ So He Pulled His Tequila Bottle Out Of The Back
Pocket Of His Pants ]
[ He Took Four Swallows ]
[ & Then Began To Dance ]
[ When He Felt Like The Air Was Thinning ]
[ The Scenery All Around Him Started Spinning ]
[ He Started Feeling Queasy In His Gut ]
[ Then He Felt Immense Pressure In His Butt ]
[ He Didn’t Even Have Time To Ask ( WHAT? ) ]!
[ Then Without Hesitating ]
[ His Body Began To Be A Big Blob With 2 Exits ]
[ With No Waiting ]
[ The Mess That He Was Making ]
[ Was All Because Of The Pills He Was Taking ]
[ So He Definitely Was Not Faking ]
[ The Moans & Groans That Was Coming Out Of
His Mouth ]
[ & The Mess That He Was Making Was Moving Down South ]
[ On The Sides, Front & Back Of The Slippery Wall That
He Was Standing On ]
[ Then All Of A Sudden His Balance Was Gone ]
[ Off The Wall Humpty Fell ]
[ He Was Scared ]
[ He Was So Weak,, He Could Not Even Yell ]
[ He Looked @ The Oncoming Ground & He Knew This
Was Going To Hurt Really Bad ]
[ & That Made Him Sad ]
[ So He Decided To Tuck His Legs ]
[ That Made Him Land Upright Without Any Damage ]
[ Because Humpty-Dumpty Forgot That He Was A
Hard Boiled Egg ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(798)▪︎[ Wrong Places … 9•19•2020 ]
[ It Seems That You Have Been Looking For Love In All
The Wrong Places ]
[ You’ve Been Searching For Love ]
[ In The Eyes Of The Wrong Faces ]
[ Hoping That What They Feel ]
[ Is Heartfelt & Real ]
[ You Do Find That Just Because Someone Takes Care Of You ]
[ Does Not Equate In That They Care For You, Too ]
[ You Have To Know Taking Care Of You Is What They Do ]
[ Like Helping You Up ]
[ To Tie Your Shoe ]
[ No One Has Asked For Your Love Or For You To Care ]
[ They Will Ask If You Have Food To Share ]
[ Other Than That ]
[ No Other Emotion Or Feeling Is There ]
[ Never Sit There & Hope ]
[ Don’t Ever Push The Envelope ]
[ How Would You Cope? ]
[ If You Were To Ask Your Questions ]
[ & The Answer Was Always ( NOPE ) ]
[ You Need To Have Much Much Better Radar ]
[ When You Stop Your Car ]
[ To See Where They Are ]
[ Because On Any Specific Day ]
[ They May ]
[ Be Very Far Away ]
[ & Maybe ]
[ That Is Where They Want To Stay ]
[ They’ve Never Had The Strength ]
[ To Get Any Closer ]
[ Than An Arms Length ]
[ & That Is Okay ]
[ That Is Alright ]
[ It’s Not Everyday ]
[ That You Can Find A Guiding Light ]
[ In Any Way ]
[ You Can Often Hear Through Their Tone ]
[ That They Want To Be Alone ]
[ That Also Means ]
[ That You Shouldn’t Text Them On Their Cell Phone ]
[ Most Don’t Want To Talk ]
[ Or Go For A Walk ]
[ & You’ll Find When They Are @ Their Job ]
[ They Just Want To Sit & Watch The Clock ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(516)▪︎[ I Just Want To Scream!!! … 5•27•2020 ]
[ I Really Feel That I’m Coming Apart ]
[ @ The Seems ]
[ My Breaking Heart ]
[ Just Wants To Scream ]
[ When I Look Left, Then Right ]
[ I Don’t See ]
[ Any Help In Sight ]
[ I Am Being Judged By Behavior That I Have No Control Of ]
[ Through Those Judging Eyes ]
[ I Search For Love ]
[ I Know This May Sound Mean ]
[ But There’s No Compassion To Be Seen ]
[ I Just Want To Throw My Hands Up ]
[ & Close My Heart Shut ]
[ I Want To Crawl Inside ]
[ My Mind ]
[ & Never Come Out ]
[ But Once Inside I Can Just Shout ]
[ Again & Again & Again ]
[ Where Is The Portal? ]
[ Where’s My In? ]
[ The Med I Take Is So So Powerful ]
[ & When I Sleep All Night It’s Wonderful ]
[ But Once In Awhile ]
[ I Wake In The Middle Of The Night & My Personality Is Awful ]
[ I Can’t Control My Words Or Self ]
[ I Yell @ Everyone Else ]
[ I Can’t Help This As Much As I Try To Sleep ]
[ My Perfect Night ]
[ Would Include Not Saying A Peep ]
[ But Through My Fright ]
[ I Don’t Stay That Deep ]
[ I Can’t Control My Mouth Or Actions ]
[ I Need A Distraction ]
[ Because My Mind Right Now Is In Fractions ]
[ Maybe This Is A Push To Push Me Out ]
[ Is There A Doubt? ]
[ Then What Is All This About? ]
[ I Don’t Know ]
[ I Want To Take This Slow ]
[ But I Continue To Look Towards My Mind As A Place To Go! ]
[ No One Can Be With Me In There So There Won’t Be Any Hurt ]
[ I Can Control Myself ]
[ So When I Wake I Won’t Feel Like Dirt ]
[ I Can’t Control Myself Is What I Scream ]
[ When Will I Wake ]
[ From This Horrible Dream? ]
[ Has Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem Rolling Around The Floor? ]
[ Maybe, Just Maybe ]
[ It Was Kicked Out The Front Door ]
[ I Can’t Control My Behavior Is What I Say ]
[ Because Is That The Normal Way ]
[ That I Treat You During The Day? ]
[ I Want To Go In & Never Come Out ]
[ Show Me The Path ]
[ Show Me The Route ]
[ The Mean Times Are So Hard To Predict ]
[ You’d Think By Now ]
[ I Would Have Had These Issues Licked ]
[ But I Don’t ]
[ & As Unpredictable As This Med Is … ]
[ I Won’t ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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