[ We Met One Day, Downstairs In A Breakroom ]
[ After That Casual Meeting ]
[ I Didn’t Know That A Year & A Half Later I’d Be Your Groom ]
[ All Of This After I Asked You If You Wanted To
Rent The Other Room ]
[ It Seems Like We Were Meant To Be Husband & Wife ]
[ The Third Degree Of Separation ]
[ Happened Very Early In My Life ]
[ It Was Like The Turning Of The Clock ]
[ When My Father’s Mother ]
[ Lived Near Your Family Almost On The Same Block ]
[ Then I Was Asked What Your Last Name Was ]
[ Why Did She Want To Know? ]
[ Oh, Just Because? ]
[ When I Said The Name I Gave Your Mother’s Maiden Name ]
[ I Don’t Know Why I Said It ]
[ Because It Wasn’t Even Close To Being The Same ]
[ It Turned Out That Your Mother & My Step-Mother
Went To School Together When They Were Young ]
[ It’s Not Like The Ladder Was Sturdy ]
[ When I Climbed It Rung By Rung ]
[ I Loved Everything About You When We Talked Late Into
The Night ]
[ But There Was No Spark ]
[ Until … ]
[ One Day I Woke-Up & Saw You Under A Different Light ]
[ Right Away We Knew We Were Meant For Each Other ]
[ I’ve Had Plenty Of Dates With Other Women In The Past ]
[ After That Awakening Day, I Never Wanted Another ]
[ I Knew I Wanted To Marry You As Soon As Possible ]
[ But Getting You A Good Ring ]
[ Was Far From Probable ]
[ Then I Went To Alaska For The Wedding Of A Friend From
My College Years ]
[ When I Was Up There I Talked About You So Much ]
[ I Possibly Hurt Their Ears ]
[ From That Conversation a Diamond Wedding Ring Set Fell
Into My Lap ]
[ I Told Her That There Will A Gap ]
[ Between Now & When It Would Be Paid ]
[ I Thought The Woman Was So Excited ]
[ I Could Have Got Laid ]
[ I Went & Got On The Plane With The Ring Set ]
[ Stuffed In A Box ]
[ & Then Into My Pocket ]
[ I Had To Wait A Few Months Before I Could Propose ]
[ December 25th, 1994 Was The Date That I Chose ]
[ @ First Her Mom Sent Her Off To Another Room With
A Task ]
[ When She Came Back ]
[ I Knelt Down In Front Of Her & Said That I had Something
That I Wanted To Ask ]
[ As I Contemplated Where To Sit ]
[ I Looked Her In The Eyes & Asked … (WHAT TIME IS IT?) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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Category: [ 2019 Stories ]
(1183)▪︎[ A, B & C … 9•27•2019 ]
[ Learning To Think About Your Thinking ]
[ May Cause Some People To Start Drinking ]
[ If You Start To Think About Your Emotions ]
[ Will That Cause A Commotion? ]
[ The [ A ] Is The Event Or Antecedent ]
[ Is This Something For Which You Get Bent ]
[ The [ B ] Is The Belief Or The Bullshit You Tell Yourself ]
[ Is That Like The Tightening Of The Belt? ]
[ Which Can Cause Welts ]
[ The Emotion Does Not Come From The Event, But From
The Belief ]
[ If You Think About That ]
[ It Should Be A Big Relief ]
[ The [ C ] Is The Consequence Of The Belief For Some ]
[ Because People Can Believe One Way ]
[ & That Makes Them Look Dumb ]
[ & For That Minute, Hour Or Day ]
[ Wish That They Had Not Come ]
[ Sometimes People Need A Brain Check ]
[ Because Oftentimes In Their Mind ]
[ They Are A Train Wreck ]
[ Why Are You Getting Upset @ Someone That Is Not Even There ]
[ Because Wherever That Person Is ]
[ Do They Really Care? ]
[ Did They Actually Do Or Say What You Think They Did? ]
[ & Then Ran & Hid? ]
[ Is This Something Worthy Of Flipping Your Lid? ]
[ Does This Help You Get What You Really Want? ]
[ Or Are These Words Just A Taunt? ]
[ How Does One Work Towards What The Want In Life? ]
[ Do They First Must Have Harmony & Peace ]
[ Between You & The Wife? ]
[ For Those Who Think That They Can Have Complete Harmony &
Peace With Others ]
[ Should Go Back To Bed & Get Under The Covers ]
[ For What They’re Having Is But A Dream ]
[ & They Can Also Figure Out What’s Their Favorite Ice Cream ]
[ Or So It Seems ]
[ The Worst Thing That Can Be True About Anything, Is That It
Is Just True ]
[ Then YOU Have To Figure Out What To Do ]
[ Based On Your Values ]
[ & What Skills You Might Have @ That Time ]
[ Are Your Skills Worth A Penny Or A Dime? ]
[ Do You Need To Build New Skills? ]
[ & You’ll Find ]
[ That Change Does Not Always Kill ]
[ So In Your Mind ]
[ Does It Change The Story About Jack & Jill? ]
[ Was Jill Being Kind ]
[ When She Pushed Jack Down The Hill? ]
[ Or Maybe Jack Only Thought That Jill Was The Cause Of His
Trip & Fall ]
[ He’ll Let Someone Else Figure It Out ]
[ Once He Gives His Attorney A Call ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1182)▪︎[ Why, Did I? … 9•26•2019 ]
[ Why, Oh Why, Do I Put Myself Into Such A Predicament? ]
[ It’s Almost Like I Always Need To Go Through An Incident ]
[ Before I Get My Point Across ]
[ & Then Everyone Is @ A Loss ]
[ Of Words To Say ]
[ That Even Goes For The Day After Today ]
[ Such As Tommorow ]
[ From Which We Borrow ]
[ The Energy To Survive ]
[ & Have Enough To Drive ]
[ This Car ]
[ But We Become Slack ]
[ When It Comes To Paying Tommorow Back ]
[ If You Borrow From Tomorrow’s Life Source ]
[ It’s Imperative That You Pay It Back Of Course ]
[ You Don’t Want Tomorrow To Be Empty & Hanging By
A Thread ]
[ That Is One Thought That I Dread ]
[ It Would Have Me Seeing Red ]
[ When The Next Day I See Myself On Death’s Bed ]
[ So I’ve Been Taught ]
[ To Not ]
[ Get Placed In That Hot ]
[ Of A Spot ]
[ & Instead Find A Nice, Cool Spot ]
[ Not One That Is Burning Hot ]
[ Where Does One Stand? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1235)▪︎[ This Is A Recording … 10•13•2019 ]
[ I Remember Putting On A Brave Face ]
[ To Hide The Symptoms Of Depression ]
[ I Always Felt Like A Disgrace ]
[ Because I Needed to Make A Confession ]
[ Whenever Someone Would Ask ]
[ [ HOW ARE THINGS? ] ]
[ I Wanted To Take Off My Mask ]
[ & Tell Them About The Guilt That Depression Brings ]
[ I Could Never Get Away From The Guilt Because It Was
Always On My Mind ]
[ Add My PTSD To The Mix ]
[ & It Seemed Like I Was Always On Rewind ]
[ PTSD Affects Me In Many Different Ways ]
[ & It Can Affect Me For Many Consecutive Days ]
[ Day In & Day Out ]
[ There Were Days Where All I Wanted To Do Was Shout ]
[ Because I Was Having Nightmares About Subjects That
I Knew Nothing About ]
[ Later In The Day The Subject Would Become Clear ]
[ I Was Having Nightmares About Things That I Fear ]
[ Can You Hear That? ]
[ I Can ]
[ I Just Don’t Know Where I’m @ ]
[ As A Man ]
[ Oh, I’ve Been Sitting Here All Of The Time ]
[ Having Flashbacks ]
[ In Between Writing Rhymes ]
[ What’s The Subject For The Day? ]
[ Even In My Confusion ]
[ My Thoughts Can Still Stay ]
[ But I Didn’t Want Or Need Them All ]
[ When One Wouldn’t Go Away ]
[ It Drove Me Up The Wall ]
[ How Do I Keep My Modesty & Sanity? ]
[ In A World Filled With ]
[ Insanity & Vanity? ]
[ That’s One Reason That I Try To Keep My Thoughts Wrapped
Up Nice & Tight ]
[ Because Sometimes When I Try To Verbalize Them ]
[ Things Don’t Quite ]
[ Sound Right ]
[ But Most Of The Time I Stay In My Head ]
[ So My Expressionless Face Can’t Be Read ]
[ But Then Complimentary Words Would Go Unsaid ]
[ Often My Home Was My De-Compression Zone ]
[ A Better Place ]
[ Was Never Known ]
[ I Had To Find Another Place Where I Felt As Safe As Before ]
[ Would I Ever Be Able To Find That Door? ]
[ Where It Was Safe To Walk On It’s Floor? ]
[ Now I Know A Place Where I Can Take My Thoughts & Park ]
[ It’s When I Go To Sleep In The Dark ]
[ When I Open My Eyes I’d Hear This Song ]
[ That Usually Told Me When Something Was Wrong ]
[ I’d Tell Myself (BE STRONG, BE STRONG) ]
[ Even When I Did Not Quite Know What Was Going On ]
[ When I Could Clearly See ]
[ I’d Find That There Is Nobody In The Room ]
[ With Me ]
[ Then I’d Wonder (HOW COULD THIS BE?) ]
[ I Figured Out That It Was Another Flashback ]
[ Caused By My PTSD ]
[ How Can I Get Away From This Disorder ]
[ That Is Like A Recorder ]
[ (SHUT DOWN! SHUT DOWN!) ]
[ Is What I Tell Myself ]
[ It Never Works, I’ve Found ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1439)▪︎[ The Start Of A Brand New Day … 12•30•2019 ]
[ You Made A Wish Upon A Shining Star When It Was Pitch
Black Dark, In The Night ]
[ It Was So Dark Outside ]
[ You Were Torn Between Your (FIGHT OR FLIGHT) ]
[ That’s The Frame Of Mind That You Get In When You Feel
That You Need To Save Your Own Ass ]
[ It Also Is The Kind of Thinking That You Have When You’re Trying
To Get Away From Your Past ]
[ No One That You Know Likes To Be Passed ]
[ & Then Wind Up Coming In Last ]
[ When The Sun Comes Up, You’re Blinded For A Second Or Two ]
[ Since You’re Not Usually Outside @ This Time ]
[ This Event Was Something New ]
[ You Told Yourself That You Needed To Do This Again ]
[ When It’s A Clear Blue Sky ]
[ With No Rain Or Wind ]
[ You’ve Never Been Fond Of Windy Weather ]
[ It Moves Things All Around ]
[ & That Mixes Things Together ]
[ When You’re Out In Short Sleeves ]
[ Raking Leaves ]
[ Into Piles ]
[ The Wind Comes Along ]
[ & Then Makes A Mess For Miles ]
[ You Guess The Weather Can Put A Crimp In Your Plans For Doing
Yard Work ]
[ The Wind Is Not One Of Nature’s Perks ]
[ It’s More Like The Kid From Down The Street ]
[ Coming Through & Acting Like A Jerk ]
[ You’ll Take The Calm Weather Of A New Sunny Day ]
[ You Could Only Wish That You Could Start Every Morning
In That Kind Of Peaceful Way ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1433)▪︎[ It’s Not As It Seems … 12•26•2019 ]
[ He Says He’s Smiling Inside ]
[ But Don’t Let That Fool You ]
[ His Insides Had Died ]
[ In Year Number Two ]
[ How Could He Just Sit & Smile When He’s In So Much Pain? ]
[ There He Is, Going Through The Motions Everyday ]
[ With Nothing To Gain ]
[ Smiling Again & Again ]
[ Is That Committing A Sin? ]
[ Who Loses? ]
[ Who Wins? ]
[ As Good As It Is To Lie ]
[ It Must Have Been Done ]
[ By The Other Guy ]
[ But Why Do They Make A Joke ]
[ About Going Up To That Old Man ]
[ & Giving Him A Poke? ]
[ Poking Another ]
[ Should Not Be A Laughing Matter ]
[ To Someone Else’s Brother ]
[ Your Comments Does Not Bring Any Laughter ]
[ It Is A Bit Unrealistic ]
[ To Say People Are Helping ]
[ When They Are So Antagonistic ]
[ But Where In Life Is The Finish Line? ]
[ Is It Anywhere Close ]
[ To When You Go Dakine? ]
[ So Many People Leave Life As An Unfinished Project ]
[ When They Started Out As Such A Good Prospect ]
[ Some May Have A Mid-Life Crisis & Never Bounce Back ]
[ Is That Because They Are In Hiding ]
[ From A Blind Sided Attack? ]
[ When You Finally Have The Answers In Life ]
[ Someone Changes The Questions ]
[ Given To Them By Their Wife ]
[ The Moral Of This Story ]
[ If You Go Through Life Looking For Glory ]
[ Glory Is What You Make ]
[ When You’re In A Giving Mood ]
[ Instead Of Being In The Mood To Take ]
[ Or Being Rude ]
[ & Nobody Needs A Fake ]
[ Attitude ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1375)▪︎[ What Joy … 12•6•2019 ]
[ What Gives You Joy During The Day? ]
[ When People Will Stop, Sit & Listen To What Your Stories
Have To Say ]
[ It’s Not That You’re Trying To Change Their Mind ]
[ You Just Want Them To Hear A Word That Is Kind ]
[ What Gives You Joy Is To Hear & Be Heard ]
[ You Would Like That, On Every Word ]
[ @ Least It’s Not Like Someone Walking Down The Street
Giving You The Bird ]
[ Joy Is When Your Wife Smiles ]
[ It Can Also Be When You Hear Her Singing From Miles & Miles ]
[ Away ]
[ Today, Or Any Day ]
[ You Find Joy When A Story That You Write ]
[ Is Tight ]
[ & Just Sounds Right ]
[ Joy Does Not Come Upon You Easily ]
[ Sometimes You Feel That You Don’t Have Alot Of Joy To Give ]
[ Because You See ]
[ Joy Cannot Be Earned ]
[ But Sometimes The Quest For Joy Can Get You Burned ]
[ Joy Can Be Got ]
[ & To Some, Joy Can Be Bought ]
[ The Quest For Joy ]
[ Can Oftentimes Lead To A Toy ]
[ Now Giving Joy To A Child ]
[ Is fun, To Put It Mild ]
[ @ Times It Causes Them To Go Wild ]
[ Mentioning Joy & Wild In The Same Sentence Is Crazy ]
[ That Proves That Joy Isn’t Always Lazy ]
[ You Can Be Lazy, & Then Joy Can Be Found ]
[ You Don’t Ever Want It Touching The Ground ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1377)▪︎[ What Does It Need? … 12•7•2019 ]
[ You’ll Find That In Life You Either Win Or You
Learn ]
[ @ Times You Have To Begin Again & Again ]
[ To Get Over The Times When You Got Burned ]
[ Sometimes You Have Got To Turn Your Life Completely
Around ]
[ Before You Gain Some Ground ]
[ Using Your Brain Power ]
[ Hour After Hour ]
[ Are You Even Strong Enough To Grow A Flower? ]
[ Keeping A Relationship Going ]
[ Is Alot Harder ]
[ Than Keeping A Flower Growing ]
[ A Flower Needs Water & Sunshine From Above ]
[ A Relationship Needs Affection & Heartfelt Love ]
[ Another Person Can Be Moody & Unpredictable ]
[ You Just Don’t Want The Flower To Be Pick-Able ]
[ Not All Flowers Are Protected By Thorns ]
[ Sometimes You Can’t See The Bad People Coming ]
[ Because They Don’t Wear Horns ]
[ So Give Them A Smile That’s Not Fake ]
[ Hey, For Once, Come In To Give ]
[ Instead Of Take ]
[ You’ve Been Taken For A Ride Too Many Times ]
[ Why Do They Think That You Hide Your Quarters & Dimes? ]
[ Trust Can Be Like The Soggy Bottom Of A Pie ]
[ When You Lie ]
[ It Puts Such A Bad Taste In Your Mouth ]
[ There’s Nothing You Can Do ]
[ To Keep The Relationship From Heading South ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1385)▪︎[ Don’t Preach … 12•10•2019 ]
[ Why Would Anyone Get On A Soapbox To Preach ]
[ You’d Rather Be The Person That Stands On Their Own Two Feet ]
[ & Teach ]
[ Preach To You & The Words Will Burn ]
[ Teach To You & The Words Will Help You Learn ]
[ Teach You How To Better Yourself In The Long Run ]
[ Let You Run Around Yelling (I WON! I WON!) ]
[ People Don’t Usually Win, They Lose ]
[ Not Entering The Race ]
[ Is What Most People Would Choose ]
[ Now They Have Shows Like (MAN -vs- BEAR) ]
[ Who Brought This Idea Up? ]
[ Why Would Anyone Want To Go There? ]
[ Into An Area Full Of Bears All Over The Land ]
[ Who Would Take Charge? ]
[ Will The Bears Follow A Command? ]
[ You Have No Idea How To Survive ]
[ Waiting For Help To Arrive ]
[ You Want To Leave That Show Breathing On Your Own
& Alive ]
[ Someone Could Look @ Your Cowardice & Ask (WHERE’s
YOUR PRIDE?) ]
[ You Live Life Without A Guide ]
[ You Have To Say (I WASN’t SCARED FOR A MINUTE) ]
[ Well, You Lied ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1402)▪︎[ It’s Hard … 12•15•2019 ]
[ Growing Up Is Hard To Do ]
[ It Doesn’t Matter If You’re Almost 12 ]
[ Or Past 52 ]
[ Sometimes You Have To Begin ]
[ With ]
[ Taking A Step Back & Looking Within ]
[ The Problem With Always Looking Back ]
[ Is That You’ll Never Get Passed Your Past ]
[ & You Won’t See What Is Coming @ You From The Front
To Attack ]
[ It Is Hard ]
[ To Always Be On Guard ]
[ But If It Seems You Must ]
[ Because There Is A Large Degree Of Mistrust ]
[ Know It Is Not Always Your Fault ]
[ If You Need To Take Everything That One Person Says
[ (WITH A GRAIN OF SALT) ]
[ There Should Not Be An Ounce Of Guilt ]
[ If You Have Tried Your Hardest ]
[ & Have Had The Attitude That You Just Don’t Quit ]
[ When Some People See Hard Times Ahead ]
[ & Then Find Out Their Drive Is Dead ]
[ They Can’t Figure Out How To Take On A Challenge ]
[ Because They Lose Their Balance ]
[ & Lean Way Too Much To One Side ]
[ Because Someone, Somewhere Lied ]
[ About How To Get Around The Pot Holes ]
[ & Climb The Poles ]
[ That Gets Oneself Out Of Failures Grip ]
[ When Push Comes To Shove ]
[ Alot Of People Are Not Traveling The Same Trip ]
[ You’re Born W/No Shoes, Clothes & A Screaming Voice ]
[ & All Of The Answers To The Questions That Lie Ahead ]
[ Are Made For You Without Giving You A Choice ]
[ When It’s Finally Time To Take That Giant Step All Alone ]
[ Find A Good Person To Live With ]
[ Put Down Some Roots & Call It Your Home ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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