[ When I Pick-Up My Toys & Go Inside ]
[ My Head ]
[ I’m Not Going In There To Hide ]
[ Because I’ve Felt That My Heart Is Dead ]
[ I’ve Gone Inside To Protect Myself From Future Hurt ]
[ That’s Why There’s Nothing Living ]
[ Under My Shirt ]
[ Oh Sure My Body Is Alive ]
[ But My Trust In Others Has Taken A Dive ]
[ It’s Not That I Trust Nobody ]
[ It’s That I Find It Hard To Trust Anybody ]
[ This Apprehension & Distrust Has Been Earned ]
[ From The Many Times That I’ve Been Burned ]
[ Does Everyone Trust Anyone In Their Life? ]
[ Should I Only Trust My Faithful Wife? ]
[ Are There Any Friends Inside This Small Circle Of Mine ]
[ There’s A Few ]
[ Alot Less Than Nine ]
[ But A Couple More Than Two ]
[ One Friend From High School Is My Best ]
[ One Is The Guy Who Trained Me @ Hillcrest ]
[ That Man’s Name Is Nick ]
[ He’s Stood By Me ]
[ Even Through The Tough Years When I Was Sick ]
[ He Never Could Be ]
[ Like ]
[ One Of Those Dicks ]
[ Who Turned Their Backs When I Needed Friends The Most ]
[ One Minute They Were There ]
[ & The Next Minute The Friendship Is As Good As Burnt Toast ]
[ It Seems Like It Wasn’t A Far Reach ]
[ For Them To Turn Into A Ghost ]
[ I Guess They Found My Problems Too Tough To Swallow ]
[ It Proves What I Thought ]
[ Their Miniscule Past Efforts Were Hollow ]
[ They Should Remember The Moral Of The Golden Rule ]
[ (DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WANT THEM TO DO UNTO YOU) ]
[ To Them, It Was A Friendship That Wasn’t Hard ]
[ To Turn Their Backs & Discard ]
[ It Was Easy ]
[ For Them To Act Slimy & Sleazy ]
[ Were They Upfront & Brash ]
[ When They Threw My Name Into The Trash ]
[ I Know That Is Not Why They Did What They Did ]
[ When There Was A Little Controversy ]
[ That’s When They Ran & Hid ]
[ But Nick Has Always Been Honest, Loyal & Upfront ]
[ He Never Sugarcoated Things ]
[ & Bordered On Blunt ]
[ That Is What I Like & Need ]
[ I Like To Grow Honesty After Planting The Seeds ]
[ Nobody Tries To Grow Thorns & Weeds ]
[ I Also Start Questioning My Judgement In The Character
Of Others That Want To Get Close ]
[ As For Backstabbing People ]
[ The Staff @ Hillcrest Gave Me A Huge Dose ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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Category: [ 2019 Stories ]
(1312)▪︎[ Give It To Me … 11•12•2019 ]
[ Just Give Me The Straight News ]
[ & Leave Out Your Own Personal Views ]
[ Of How I Should Go About Living My Life ]
[ It’s Nothing That You Should Or Should Not Like ]
[ I Am Not Here To Seek Your Approval ]
[ For Your Influence Can Be Removable ]
[ & Shun To The Side ]
[ Because After You Lied ]
[ My Respect For You Has Since Died ]
[ Please Don’t Tell Me Anymore Lies ]
[ When I Ask You (WHY?) ]
[ Must I Say (BYE, SEE YA, SO LONG?) ]
[ (MY LOVE FOR YOU IS GONE) ]
[ I See That Your Resolve Is Not That Strong ]
[ As For What I Wanted It To Be ]
[ When You Needed Me ]
[ I Was Right There @ First Light ]
[ Helping You Fight ]
[ Well Past Midnight ]
[ @ Times You Were Surprised ]
[ That I Was Right There ]
[ Hours Before The Sun Would Rise ]
[ Which Was Nice ]
[ Because There’s Not Too Many People In Your Life That Wouldn’t Think
Twice ]
[ On How They Could Get One Over On You ]
[ There’s No Rhyme Or Reason ]
[ That’s Just What They Do ]
[ It’s Not Hurtful Per Say ]
[ That’s Just How Some People Function From Day To Day ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1311)▪︎[ Hope May Not Be … 11•12•2019 ]
[ Sometimes Hope Is A Terrible Thing To Give ]
[ When Someone Is So Depressed ]
[ They Don’t Want To Be Forced To Live ]
[ Living Is The Last Thing That Is On Their Mind ]
[ If Only They Had The Power To Rewind ]
[ The Quest For Hope ]
[ Can Be Washed Away As Fast ]
[ As Water Washes Away Soap ]
[ They Could Tell You To (SHUT THE FRONT DOOR) ]
[ Because They Don’t Want To Hear Anymore ]
[ Then What Are You Saying That For ]
[ For Recognition? ]
[ For Validation? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1318)▪︎[ Don’t Go That Way … 11•14•2019 ]
[ As I Sit Here Brokenhearted ]
[ I Remember The Day Where We Parted ]
[ That Day Was Not A Day Where I Shined ]
[ That Was When I Felt I Was Left Behind ]
[ You Were Going That Way ]
[ But I Didn’t Want To That Day ]
[ I Thought We’d Be Better Off Going There ]
[ But You Never Listened ]
[ Or Cared ]
[ Later That Day I Tried To Call You On Your Phone ]
[ But The Voice That Answered It Was Not Known ]
[ By Me ]
[ I Just Could Not See ]
[ How Things Got So Messed Up ]
[ When I Heard That Man’s Voice ]
[ I Felt Cut ]
[ To Go Outside Of Our Marriage To Get Some Strange ]
[ That Sure Seems Pre-Arranged ]
[ Since You Were So Fast ]
[ To Put Our Future In Your Past ]
[ You Cut Me Out In Nothing Flat ]
[ There’s No Doubt About That ]
[ So Now Where Are @? ]
[ Is There Even Anything To Save? ]
[ That Would Be Where You Would Have To Behave ]
[ If I Get Even The Smallest Feeling Of Doubt ]
[ Then I Will Walk Out ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1300)▪︎[ A Bump … 11•7•2019 ]
[ When The Sky Turns Dark ]
[ & Something Makes The Dogs Bark ]
[ Should That Make You Fearful Of A Bump In The Night? ]
[ Would You Feel Differently If There Was A Bump When
It’s Light? ]
[ What Exactly Does The Bump Consist Of? ]
[ When It’s In The Dark It’s Evil ]
[ When It’s Light It Could Give You Love ]
[ Why Is The Bump Negative? ]
[ What Can Make It Positive? ]
[ Is The Color Of Sky What Pushes It One Way Or The Other? ]
[ When It Is Light Out Things Are Okay ]
[ When It’s Dark Out, You Run For Cover ]
[ So Quickly, Turn On The Lights ]
[ Hurry & Shine The Light Down On What Gives You The Frights ]
[ Do You Think That Your Judgements Are Right? ]
[ Are They Justifyed ]
[ Are You Mystified ]
[ When & Where Did This Fright Begin? ]
[ If You Dealt With The Bump Once ]
[ Could It Happen To You Again? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1298)▪︎[ My Head … 11•6•2019 ]
[ Where Has My Head Been? ]
[ In The Clouds ]
[ When? ]
[ When There’s A Crowd ]
[ In My Mind ]
[ Because That’s When I’m Inclined ]
[ To Latch Onto Words ]
[ That I Feel That Are Unkind ]
[ They Latch Onto The Memory Part Of My Brain ]
[ Then It’s Like I’m Standing There Staring ]
[ @ The Light Of The Oncoming Train ]
[ Why Can’t I Just Step To The Side ]
[ The Voice Inside ]
[ My Head Said Things Were Okay ]
[ But It Lied ]
[ Because I Really Needed To Get Out Of The Way ]
[ So I Take A Few Steps Back ]
[ Away From The Tracks ]
[ Wow, That Was A Close One ]
[ All I Want To Do Now Is Run ]
[ But I Can’t Escape The Voices In My Head ]
[ Can They Control It With Another Med? ]
[ Or Should I Take Fewer Instead? ]
[ I Need Each & Every Pill & Capsule ]
[ I Could Fall Ill ]
[ & My Senses Could Dull ]
[ I Think I Will Stay Exactly Where I’m @ Med Wise ]
[ Unless My Med Provider Has Been Telling Me Lies ]
[ I Don’t Think So ]
[ How Do I Know? ]
[ I Am Sure ]
[ That I Trust Her ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1302)▪︎[ Altered States … 11•8•2019 ]
[ Have You Ever Stopped To Think ]
[ Then Had Problems Starting Again? ]
[ Sometimes You Can Blink ]
[ & Wonder Where The Time Went? ]
[ It Is Now A Quarter Past Nine ]
[ But I Only Remember It Being Half Past Three ]
[ Did I Mistakenly Indulge In Some Wine? ]
[ & The Alcohol Was Really Quick To Affect Me? ]
[ Maybe Someone Doctored My Soda With My Sleeping Med ]
[ Did They Want Me Dead? ]
[ Or Just Knocked Out On My Bed? ]
[ My Special Sleep Med Is Dangerous In The Hands Of Someone
Who Wants To Cause Pain ]
[ My Sleeping Medication Can Do Tricks On The Brain ]
[ Sometimes In The Morning The Effect Of The Drug Remains ]
[ Put In The Wrong Hands This Drug Could Cause Harm ]
[ When Under This Drug ]
[ Even A Rattlesnake Has Charm ]
[ Then You Start To Wonder Who You Can Trust ]
[ Your Faith In Others Has Gone Bust ]
[ A Complete Bust Of The Bubble That You Used To Live In ]
[ As For Having The Win Or Lose Mentality ]
[ You’re Never Going To Win ]
[ How’s That For Causality? ]
[ How Do You Come Back From Such A Hellish Ride ]
[ Are Your Eyes ]
[ Now Open Wide? ]
[ Now, What Do You Now Think Of The Guy’s ]
[ That Stand By Your Side ]
[ When They Tell Their Lies ]
[ When Saying That They Never Lied ]
[ When You Proved Them Wrong ]
[ Does That Keep You Going Strong? ]
[ Don’t Try To Figure Out Who Slipped You That Mickey ]
[ Their Mentality Was Fairly Sickly ]
[ Getting The Truth Out Of Some]
[ Would Be Pretty Tricky ]
[ The Best Thing To Do Was To Chill ]
[ Before You Get Ill ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1273)▪︎[ Which Direction? … 10•28•2019 ]
[ When You Go Outside During The Nights ]
[ Don’t Look Down @ The Ground ]
[ Look Out Over The Lights ]
[ Not The Lights Coming From The Cars ]
[ Look @ The Light Coming From The Stars ]
[ The Stars That Are Way Up High ]
[ When You Live In The Country ]
[ The Stars Seem To Cover The Sky ]
[ You Can Be Short Or Tall ]
[ When You Look Up @ The Sky You Feel So Very Small ]
[ You Can Stand In A Field Of Flowers ]
[ & Feel Weak ]
[ From The Loss Of Your Powers ]
[ & That Took Minutes Not Hours ]
[ Where Do You Go From This Point Of Your Life? ]
[ Do You Have To Walk Towards The Light? ]
[ From All That I Know ]
[ You Don’t Have To Go ]
[ & When You Say [ NO ] ]
[ That Frees You Up For Other Things ]
[ Like Going Oversea & Meet Some Actual Queens & Kings ]
[ Leaving The Country Is Not Always The Best ]
[ The Stress ]
[ Can Press ]
[ On Your Chest ]
[ Can You Forge Ahead Not Really Knowing To Go Which Direction ]
[ When You Make A Decision ]
[ Can You Make Any Corrections? ]
[ Or Can You Get By ]
[ Making Decisions On The Fly? ]
[ What If You Are Wrong? ]
[ & Then Find Out Your Window Is Gone? ]
[ Maybe The Best Thing To Do Would Be To Look Within? ]
[ You Might Find The Strength To Once Again, Begin ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1263)▪︎[ What Injury? … 10•24•2019 ]
[ The Voices Are Always Loud When I’m All Alone ]
[ It Turns Me Cold ]
[ All Of The Way To My Bones ]
[ Do The Voices Always Have The Same Message? ]
[ From The Same Passage? ]
[ Can It Be Passive ]
[ When The Content Was Massive ]
[ Massive Compared To What? ]
[ Do I Always Bleed When I Am Cut? ]
[ But, But, But ]
[ You’re Losing Me With All Of The Impurity ]
[ You’ve Lost Me Because You Caused Me Injury ]
[ & If You Don’t Tell The Whole Truth ]
[ You’ll Be Guilty Of Perjury ]
[ In Front Of Your Peers In The Jury ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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(1221)▪︎[ Don’t See The Light … 10•9•2019 ]
[ Now’s The Dark Days Of Your Life ]
[ Because You Can No Longer See The Light ]
[ Now The Mornings ]
[ Are As Dark As The Night ]
[ How Did Such A Horrible Thing Happen To Where
You No Longer Have The Ability ]
[ To See? ]
[ You Feel That You Are Locked Down In A Jail That’s Completely
Dark ]
[ You’re No Longer In Drive ]
[ & Because You Are In Park ]
[ You No Longer Thrive ]
[ Where Are You Going? ]
[ How Do You Get There ]
[ People Are Knowing ]
[ But Most Don’t Show They Care ]
[ People That You Know & Love Are So Apathetic ]
[ & Right Before Your Darkened Eyes ]
[ Looked So Pathetic ]
[ You Are Not Looking For Pity, By Any Means ]
[ But No One Has Any Empathy It Seems ]
[ When You Lay Awake In The Middle Of The Night On Your Bed ]
[ You Dream That You See Daylight In Your Head ]
[ Then The Old Memories Of Sight Come Flooding In ]
[ That Makes These Days ]
[ The Darkest They’ve Ever Been ]
[ When Will You Come Out Of This Living Dream? ]
[ When Will You Stop Hearing Yourself Scream? ]
[ What Are You Screaming For? ]
[ You Hear A Knock ]
[ Now You Wonder Who Is On The Other Side Of That Door ]
[ Maybe It’s Death ]
[ So You Won’t Suffer Anymore ]
[ Do You Open It Or Keep It Closed? ]
[ After You Woke From This Nightmare ]
[ Did You Ever Wonder What You Chose? ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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