[ Is Loneliness The Worst Feeling You Could Have? ]
[ Is That The One Feeling That Makes You Feel Like You Have
Been Cut In Half? ]
[ It Is Like Being Invited To A Party & You Have No One To Bring ]
[ Or Waiting By The Phone ]
[ & It Never Rings ]
[ Is It That You Know ]
[ That Nobody Will Want To Go? ]
[ It Is A Fact ]
[ That When You Do A Selfless Act ]
[ That There Is No One Around To Pat You On The Back? ]
[ Being Altruistic Is Being Kind ]
[ Without Having A Reward In Mind ]
[ But It Is Nice ]
[ When Some Other Person Sees It With Their Own Eyes ]
[ & Then You Feel Like Doing That Twice ]
[ How Does One Make Loneliness Go Away? ]
[ Even For Just One Day? ]
[ When It Does ]
[ Will It Stay ]
[ That Way ]
[ Does Despair ]
[ & Loneliness ]
[ Come As A Pair? ]
[ Is That What Makes People ]
[ Lose All Of Their Hair? ]
[ What Does Someone That Feels All Alone ]
[ Do About The Silence ]
[ When It All Sounds So Monotone? ]
[ Is That Much Better Than Feeling All Alone In A Crowd ]
[ While Trying To Drown ]
[ Out All Of The Voices That Sound ]
[ So Loud? ]
[ Does The Silence ]
[ Bring On The Violence? ]
[ Loneliness & Feeling Alone Are Two Different Things ]
[ The One Thing They Have In Common Though ]
[ Is That They Both Makes The Heart Sting ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
Author: rdvoe165
I Am A 62yrs Young Man, That Just Enjoys Writing Short Poetic Stories From My Thoughts. I Hope That You Enjoy Them As Much As I Do Writing Them.
(481)▪︎[ It’s A Double Edged Sword … 5•14•2020 ]
[ It Seems Like Forever Since That Last Phone Call ]
[ If I Knew Then, What I Know Now ]
[ I Would Have Stalled ]
[ If I Knew That Would Be My Last Conversation Forever ]
[ I Wouldn’t Hang Up … Ever? ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Would ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Could ]
[ The Thought That We Would Never Again Talk ]
[ To Him ]
[ Oh The Thought ]
[ Would Make Me Balk ]
[ Forever Never Is An Awfully Long Long Time ]
[ All That I Can Do Now ]
[ Is Write My Pain Out In A Rhyme ]
[ Line After Line, Word After Word ]
[ Hello World ]
[ Please Let Me Be Heard ]
[ Hug Your Family, Pull Them Close ]
[ Make A Circle ]
[ Touch Nose To Nose ]
[ I Found That Brent Died Alone In His Sleep ]
[ There Was No Sound ]
[ Not Even A Peep ]
[ He Didn’t Look Around ]
[ Because His Slumber Was Deep ]
[ He Went Peacefully Into The Night ]
[ There Was No Struggle ]
[ There Was No Fight ]
[ He Had No Trouble ]
[ As He Walked Silently Towards The Light ]
[ There Was No Choice ]
[ He Heard Nobody’s Voice ]
[ & There Was No Noise ]
[ My Plan To Visit Came Three Weeks Too Late ]
[ My Brothers Spirit ]
[ Could Not Wait ]
[ There Was Nothing To Be Done ]
[ In That Moment ]
[ There Wasn’t Even One ]
[ More Comment ]
[ The Next Call From Las Vegas Was A Doozy ]
[ The Conversation Made Me Woozy ]
[ Oh, Brother Brent ]
[ I Have So Many Regrets ]
[ Now, I Feel So Spent ]
[ & As The Sun Sets ]
[ I’ve Lost All Track Of The Times When I’ve Wept ]
[ So Love Your Family, Love Your Friends ]
[ You Just Don’t Know ]
[ When A Life Is Going To End ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(434)▪︎[ My Piece Of Tile … 5•24•2021 ]
[ When I Say That I Want To Concentrate On My Own Piece
Of Tile ]
[ That Means That I Won’t Walk A Mile ]
[ So I Could See Your Side For Awhile ]
[ Your Side Is All Yours ]
[ With Your Own Ceiling, Walls & Floors ]
[ I Don’t Even Want To Come & Sneak ]
[ A Peak ]
[ While We Speak ]
[ When It Comes To How You Think, I Have Zero Say ]
[ Today ]
[ Tomorrow ]
[ In Any Way ]
[ You Have 100% Responsibility ]
[ & Accountability ]
[ Just Like You Should Have 100% Confidentiality ]
[ What I Say & Do I Should Own ]
[ Even Though I Might Not Like The Other Person’s Tone ]
[ It Just Seems As I’ve Grown ]
[ Even Though, It Makes Me Feel More & More Alone ]
[ That Is The Affect Of Growing Into Adulthood ]
[ Alot Of Things That I Might Do, Could ]
[ Be Misunderstood ]
[ & Might Even Be Disliked ]
[ If I Call The Wrong Guy ( MIKE ) ]
[ But What I Say & Can Do ]
[ May Or May Not Involve You ]
[ & I Assume ]
[ I Am Not Supposed To Look Your Way & Presume ]
[ What You Might Or Might Not Think ]
[ Or What I Might Guess]
[ What You Would Want To Drink ]
[ I Only Have To Be Aware ]
[ Of ]
[ The One Tile Square ]
[ That I Am Supposed To Love ]
[ So I Can Wine ]
[ & Dine ]
[ On Mine ]
[ Until The Clock Strikes Nine ]
[ All That I Am Responsible For ]
[ Is How My Piece Of Tile Fits On This Very Large Floor ]
[ I Am Supposed To Defend ]
[ Where It Fits In ]
[ & That Is It ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(429)▪︎[ Who Is This Asha? … 5•22•2021 ]
[ Who Is This Asha Woman In A Nutshell? ]
[ Well … ]
[ Okay, I Will Tell ]
[ She Cannot Be Explained In Simple Terms ]
[ She Is A Woman Of Alot Of Words ]
[ She Is A Whole Lot Of Fun & Sometimes Very Predictable ]
[ If She Was A Piece Of Furniture She Would Be A Dining
Room Table ]
[ A Solid & Incredibly Strong Base ]
[ & Always Dependable ]
[ She Can Be Small But Then Expanded By Adding A Leaf ]
[ She Is Totally Transparent ]
[ & Never Hides Anything, Like A Thief ]
[ What You See Is What You Get ]
[ Her Temperature Rarely Changes ]
[ Like Going Cold After Accidentally Getting Wet ]
[ But Then, If You Ask ]
[ If She Could Do A Task ]
[ That Is When The Humor Starts ]
[ After Asking Her To Fold A SWEATSHIRT ]
[ I Had To Break Down The Instructions Into Several Simple
Parts ]
[ Show Her How To Fold Them In Thirds Really Neat & Nice ]
[ But The Whole Concept Confuses Her ]
[ Because In Her Eyes The SWEATSHIRT Was Only Folded
Twice ]
[ She Is Complex, Concerning, Comedic & Confusing ]
[ She Is Also As Sweet, Beautiful & Intelligent As She
Is Tall ]
[ & When Her Sense Of Humor Comes Out, She Is Downright
Amusing ]
[ She May Ask Questions Alot ]
[ & When She Puts On This One Certain Red Dress ]
[ You Can’t Believe Your Eyes, Because She Looks HOT! ]
[ & If You Could Get Up The Nerve ]
[ You Should Ask Ms. Asha ( DAMN, WHERE DO HIDE THOSE
CURVES? ]
[ While You Show Her The Respect ]
[ That Was Not One Image That You Would Ever Expect ]
[ She Has Such A Fast Personality She Can Barely Keep
Up With Herself @ Times ]
[ If You Watch & Really Listen To Her ]
[ Many Things Wind Up In The Stories That Rhyme ]
[ Ms. Asha Is As Honest As They Come ]
[ It Would Be A Huge Mistake For Anyone To Call Her Dumb ]
[ Her Integrity Is Beyond Question ]
[ Sometimes Her Responses CAUSES Questions ]
[ Truth To Be Told ]
[ Asha Is Sincere Instead Of Cold ]
[ & In Most Instances ]
[ She Has The Biggest Heart Of Gold ]
[ If You Ever Have ALOT Of Time & Patience & Want To
Have Some Fun ]
[ Ask Asha To Do A Task That She Has Never Done ]
[ Then Stand Back & Watch ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(942)▪︎[ Don’t Let Them … 7•13•19 ]
A[ Let ‘Em Laugh ]
[ Let ‘Em Spin ]
[ But Don’t Let Them Cut You In Half ]
[ & Win ]
[ Where Do You Start? ]
[ When Do You Finish? ]
[ Do You Give It Your Heart? ]
[ Or Is That Just A Wish? ]
[ When You Watch What You Say ]
[ & Then Figure Things Out ]
[ You’ll Come To The Day ]
[ When You Figure Out What Life Is All About ]
[ When You Play To Win, Not Lose ]
[ You Make The Conscious Choice ]
[ To Choose ]
[ Of Whether Or Not To Use Your Voice ]
[ Or Drown Your Sorrows In Some Booze ]
[ Alcohol Is Not The Choice That You Should Make ]
[ There Could Be ]
[ The Chance When You Wake ]
[ Your Head Could Feel Like You’ve Been Through An Earthquake ]
[ When Your Head Rattles & Rolls ]
[ It’s Your Body That Takes The Toll ]
[ Each & Everytime You Come To ]
[ You Are Less Than Whole ]
[ In Today’s Society ]
[ Much Less Your Own Family ]
[ One Day You’ll Wake & See ]
[ How Things Are No Longer Free ]
[ & How Destructive Your Behavior Can Be ]
[ To Yourself ]
[ & To Everyone Else ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1235)▪︎[ This Is A Recording … 10•13•19 ]
[ I Remember Putting On A Brave Face ]
[ To Hide The Symptoms Of Depression ]
[ I Always Felt Like A Disgrace ]
[ Because I Needed to Make A Confession ]
[ Whenever Someone Would Ask ]
[ [ HOW ARE THINGS? ] ]
[ I Wanted To Take Off My Mask ]
[ & Tell Them About The Guilt That Depression Brings ]
[ I Could Never Get Away From The Guilt Because It Was
Always On My Mind ]
[ Add My PTSD To The Mix ]
[ & It Seemed Like I Was Always On Rewind ]
[ PTSD Affects Me In Many Different Ways ]
[ & It Can Affect Me For Many Consecutive Days ]
[ Day In & Day Out ]
[ There Were Days Where All I Wanted To Do Was Shout ]
[ Because I Was Having Nightmares That Had To Do With Subjects That
I Knew Nothing About ]
[ Later In The Day The Subject Would Become Clear ]
[ I Was Having Nightmares About Things That I Fear ]
[ Can You Hear That? ]
[ I Can ]
[ I Just Don’t Know Where I’m @ ]
[ As One Man ]
[ Oh, I’ve Been Sitting Here All Of The Time ]
[ Having Flashbacks ]
[ In Between Writing Rhymes ]
[ What’s The Subject For The Day? ]
[ Even In My Confusion ]
[ My Thoughts Can Sit Still & Stay ]
[ But I Didn’t Want Or Need Them All ]
[ When One Wouldn’t Go Away ]
[ It Drove Me Up The Wall ]
[ How Do I Keep My Modesty & Sanity? ]
[ In A World Filled With ]
[ Insanity & Vanity? ]
[ That’s One Reason That I Try To Keep My Thoughts Wrapped
Up Nice & Tight ]
[ Because Sometimes When I Try To Verbalize Them ]
[ Things Don’t Quite ]
[ Sound Right ]
[ But Most Of The Time I Stay In My Head ]
[ So My Expressionless Face Can’t Be Read ]
[ & Complimentary Words Would Go Unsaid ]
[ Often My Home Was My De-Compression Zone ]
[ A Better Place ]
[ Was Never Known ]
[ I Had To Find Another Place Where I Felt As Safe As Before ]
[ Would I Ever Be Able To Find That Door? ]
[ Where It Was Safe To Walk On It’s Floor? ]
[ Now I Know A Place Where I Can Take My Thoughts & Park ]
[ It’s When I Go To Sleep In The Dark ]
[ When I Open My Eyes I’d Hear This Song ]
[ That Usually Told Me When Something Was Wrong ]
[ I’d Tell Myself [ BE STRONG, BE STRONG ] ]
[ Even When I Did Not Quite Know What Was Going On ]
[ When I Could Clearly See ]
[ I’d Find That There Is Nobody In The Room ]
[ With Me ]
[ Then I’d Wonder [ HOW COULD THIS BE? ] ]
[ I Figured Out That It Was Another Flashback ]
[ Caused By My PTSD ]
[ How Can I Get Away From This Disorder ]
[ That Is Like Playing A Recorder ]
[ [ SHUT DOWN! SHUT DOWN! ]
[ Is What I Tell Myself ]
[ But It Never Works, I’ve Found ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(891)▪︎[ Humpty Fell? … 10•23•2020 ]
[ Humpty Dumpy Climbed A Slippery Wall ]
[ All Because He Lost His Ball ]
[ When He Got To The Very Top ]
[ He Took Out His Phone ]
[ Only To Watch It Drop ]
[ He Clasped His Hands But Only Caught
Air ]
[ He Got Upset As He Saw His Broken Phone Down
There ]
[ In Pieces On The Ground ]
[ He Couldn’t Call Out For Help ]
[ Because There Was Nobody Even Around ]
[ He Thought That Surely Mrs. Dumpty Will Throw A Fit ]
[ & Instead Of Empathy ]
[ All She Will Do Is Give Him Shit ]
[ She Would Say ( OH, THAT FIGURES, THAT REALLY SUCKS ) ]
[ Humpty Knew In His Heart ]
[ That Mrs. Dumpty, Thinks Humpty Only Has
Bad Luck ]
[ So He Pulled His Tequila Bottle Out Of The Back
Pocket Of His Pants ]
[ He Took Four Swallows ]
[ & Then Began To Dance ]
[ When He Felt Like The Air Was Thinning ]
[ The Scenery All Around Him Started Spinning ]
[ He Started Feeling Queasy In His Gut ]
[ Then He Felt Immense Pressure In His Butt ]
[ He Didn’t Even Have Time To Ask ( WHAT? ) ]!
[ Then Without Hesitating ]
[ His Body Began To Be A Big Blob With 2 Exits ]
[ With No Waiting ]
[ The Mess That He Was Making ]
[ Was All Because Of The Pills He Was Taking ]
[ So He Definitely Was Not Faking ]
[ The Moans & Groans That Was Coming Out Of
His Mouth ]
[ & The Mess That He Was Making Was Moving Down South ]
[ On The Sides, Front & Back Of The Slippery Wall That
He Was Standing On ]
[ Then All Of A Sudden His Balance Was Gone ]
[ Off The Wall Humpty Fell ]
[ He Was Scared ]
[ He Was So Weak,, He Could Not Even Yell ]
[ He Looked @ The Oncoming Ground & He Knew This
Was Going To Hurt Really Bad ]
[ & That Made Him Sad ]
[ So He Decided To Tuck His Legs ]
[ That Made Him Land Upright Without Any Damage ]
[ Because Humpty-Dumpty Forgot That He Was A
Hard Boiled Egg ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(798)▪︎[ Wrong Places … 9•19•2020 ]
[ It Seems That You Have Been Looking For Love In All
The Wrong Places ]
[ You’ve Been Searching For Love ]
[ In The Eyes Of The Wrong Faces ]
[ Hoping That What They Feel ]
[ Is Heartfelt & Real ]
[ You Do Find That Just Because Someone Takes Care Of You ]
[ Does Not Equate In That They Care For You, Too ]
[ You Have To Know Taking Care Of You Is What They Do ]
[ Like Helping You Up ]
[ To Tie Your Shoe ]
[ No One Has Asked For Your Love Or For You To Care ]
[ They Will Ask If You Have Food To Share ]
[ Other Than That ]
[ No Other Emotion Or Feeling Is There ]
[ Never Sit There & Hope ]
[ Don’t Ever Push The Envelope ]
[ How Would You Cope? ]
[ If You Were To Ask Your Questions ]
[ & The Answer Was Always ( NOPE ) ]
[ You Need To Have Much Much Better Radar ]
[ When You Stop Your Car ]
[ To See Where They Are ]
[ Because On Any Specific Day ]
[ They May ]
[ Be Very Far Away ]
[ & Maybe ]
[ That Is Where They Want To Stay ]
[ They’ve Never Had The Strength ]
[ To Get Any Closer ]
[ Than An Arms Length ]
[ & That Is Okay ]
[ That Is Alright ]
[ It’s Not Everyday ]
[ That You Can Find A Guiding Light ]
[ In Any Way ]
[ You Can Often Hear Through Their Tone ]
[ That They Want To Be Alone ]
[ That Also Means ]
[ That You Shouldn’t Text Them On Their Cell Phone ]
[ Most Don’t Want To Talk ]
[ Or Go For A Walk ]
[ & You’ll Find When They Are @ Their Job ]
[ They Just Want To Sit & Watch The Clock ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(516)▪︎[ I Just Want To Scream!!! … 5•27•2020 ]
[ I Really Feel That I’m Coming Apart ]
[ @ The Seems ]
[ My Breaking Heart ]
[ Just Wants To Scream ]
[ When I Look Left, Then Right ]
[ I Don’t See ]
[ Any Help In Sight ]
[ I Am Being Judged By Behavior That I Have No Control Of ]
[ Through Those Judging Eyes ]
[ I Search For Love ]
[ I Know This May Sound Mean ]
[ But There’s No Compassion To Be Seen ]
[ I Just Want To Throw My Hands Up ]
[ & Close My Heart Shut ]
[ I Want To Crawl Inside ]
[ My Mind ]
[ & Never Come Out ]
[ But Once Inside I Can Just Shout ]
[ Again & Again & Again ]
[ Where Is The Portal? ]
[ Where’s My In? ]
[ The Med I Take Is So So Powerful ]
[ & When I Sleep All Night It’s Wonderful ]
[ But Once In Awhile ]
[ I Wake In The Middle Of The Night & My Personality Is Awful ]
[ I Can’t Control My Words Or Self ]
[ I Yell @ Everyone Else ]
[ I Can’t Help This As Much As I Try To Sleep ]
[ My Perfect Night ]
[ Would Include Not Saying A Peep ]
[ But Through My Fright ]
[ I Don’t Stay That Deep ]
[ I Can’t Control My Mouth Or Actions ]
[ I Need A Distraction ]
[ Because My Mind Right Now Is In Fractions ]
[ Maybe This Is A Push To Push Me Out ]
[ Is There A Doubt? ]
[ Then What Is All This About? ]
[ I Don’t Know ]
[ I Want To Take This Slow ]
[ But I Continue To Look Towards My Mind As A Place To Go! ]
[ No One Can Be With Me In There So There Won’t Be Any Hurt ]
[ I Can Control Myself ]
[ So When I Wake I Won’t Feel Like Dirt ]
[ I Can’t Control Myself Is What I Scream ]
[ When Will I Wake ]
[ From This Horrible Dream? ]
[ Has Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem Rolling Around The Floor? ]
[ Maybe, Just Maybe ]
[ It Was Kicked Out The Front Door ]
[ I Can’t Control My Behavior Is What I Say ]
[ Because Is That The Normal Way ]
[ That I Treat You During The Day? ]
[ I Want To Go In & Never Come Out ]
[ Show Me The Path ]
[ Show Me The Route ]
[ The Mean Times Are So Hard To Predict ]
[ You’d Think By Now ]
[ I Would Have Had These Issues Licked ]
[ But I Don’t ]
[ & As Unpredictable As This Med Is … ]
[ I Won’t ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(513)▪︎[ Friends … 5•26•2020 ]
[ Friends Come In All Sizes & Shapes ]
[ A Good Friend Doesn’t Go By The Wayside ]
[ Like Records & Cassette Tapes ]
[ They Are Not Fly By Nights ]
[ They Always Continue To Be ]
[ The Brightest Lights ]
[ Oh Sure, Some People Grow Apart ]
[ As Life Moves On ]
[ The Memories Of Them Don’t Stay In Your Heart ]
[ When They Are Gone ]
[ When You Get To That Place ]
[ In A Friendship ]
[ Where You Would Never Forget Their Smiling Face ]
[ It Is A Wonderful Feeling When You Meet A Person That’s True ]
[ Through & Through ]
[ The Sky Will Be The Only Thing In Your Life That’s Blue ]
[ No More Dark Days That You Dread ]
[ Now You See Nothing But Hope Up Ahead ]
[ But Fake People Can Mislead ]
[ They’d Take Your House & Deed ]
[ If That’s What They Want ]
[ & Need ]
[ The Friends Want Or Ask For Nothing ]
[ That Is Why I Feel So Good ]
[ Giving Them Everything ]
[ Nothing Gets Stolen, Nothing Comes Up Lost ]
[ You Don’t Watch Them Leave ]
[ & Wonder How Much Did That Day Cost ]
[ You Can Turn Your Back & Not Expect A Knife ]
[ To Be There When You Turn Around ]
[ A Special Friend Adds To Your Life ]
[ Good Friendship Is Nothing ]
[ To Some ]
[ & Really Something ]
[ To Those When It Comes ]
[ When Your Best Friend Shows Up It’s Like A Beacon Of
Light ]
[ When She Arrives ]
[ The Clouds Show Sunlight ]
[ Looking Out Over The Ocean & Watching The Sun Set ]
[ With Your Best Friend ]
[ This Will Happen Many More Times, I Bet ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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