[ As Anxiety & Depression Sweeps Across My Cloudy
Mind ]
[ I Sit Back & Attempt To Find ]
[ Something In My Life That Actually Makes Sense ]
[ Something, Where I Can Say I Am On This Specific Side
Of The Fence ]
[ Not Straddling Or Standing On Top ]
[ I Want To Pick A Side & Just Stop ]
[ The Hopping ]
[ The Dropping ]
[ The Shopping ]
[ For A Better Deal ]
[ Because I Am Not Trying To Reinvent The Wheel ]
[ I Am Just Trying To Make A Stand ]
[ No Matter The Demand ]
[ & Try To Get My Mind Into Better Shape ]
[ Instead Of Keeping In Mind Where All Of The Exits Are For A
Quick Escape ]
[ I Am Trying To Face These Issues Head-On ]
[ Instead Of Throwing Up My Arms In Defeat & Yelling
( OH, C’mon ) ]
[ Don’t Exasperate ]
[ When Looking Down @ My Fate ]
[ Trying To Lace Up My Big Boy Boots ]
[ Looking Somewhere To Put Down Some Roots ]
[ Not Trying To Wait ]
[ Since I Have Been In This House Since 2008 ]
[ What Better Place To Do That Than Here? ]
[ What Do I Have To Fear? ]
[ That Part … Has Never Been Clear ]
[ Like A Very Wise President ( F.D.R. ) Once Said ( … THE ONLY
THING THAT WE HAVE TO FEAR, IS FEAR ITSELF ) ]
[ Not Fear Of Ourselves ]
[ Or Fear Of Someone Else ]
[ I Think That The Fear Of Failure Is A Very Real Thing ]
[ I Think, That If There Was A Ranking ]
[ That Would Be The King ]
[ Is That Easy To Look Past? ]
[ You Can Never Do That Very Fast ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
Author: rdvoe165
(418)▪︎[ Social Injustice … 5•17•2021 ]
[ The Footage Sparked Outrage Across The Nation ]
[ America Has Now Been Reduced To Fractions ]
[ This Fraction Of People See’s The George Floyd Murder
Tape This Way ]
[ Another Fraction Of People See The Tape ]
[ & They Decided That They Sure Had Alot To Say ]
[ A Paramedic In-Training Tried To Give Floyd Some Medical
Attention ]
[ To Check His Pulse & Breathing ]
[ Not To Administer Medication ]
[ Christopher Martin Stated That He Wished That He Had Never
Made The Call ]
[ That Started This All ]
[ He Has Been Racked With Guilt Ever Since Then ]
[ He Feels That If He Would Not Had Made The Call, None Of This
Would Have Happened ]
[ In The Video He Had His Hands On His Head Looking & Acting
Stressed ]
[ Thinking That He Caused All Of This Mess ]
[ That Stress Should Not Have Been Laid Upon His Young
Shoulders ]
[ How Will This Affect His Life As He Grows Older? ]
[ How Many Of Those Bystanders Called 911? ]
[ Because Of Chauvin’s Actions ]
[ The Only Thing That Chauvin Did Not Do, Was Use His Gun ]
[ The Fault For This Lies Squarely On Chauvin’s Head ]
[ It Was Completely His Actions That Caused George Floyd
To Be Dead ]
[ Those Bystanders Witnessed A Murder Right In Front Of
Their Eyes ]
[ Because Of The Police Body Cams & The Bystanders Recording
EVERYTHING On Their Phones ]
[ The Public Did Not Have To Be Forced Into Believing All Of The
Police Officers Lies ]
[ Oh, I Am Sure That The Officers Would Say That Floyd Died
From Acute Problems ]
[ Because Of The Drugs In His System ]
[ Chauvin’s Body Language During That Whole Video Showed
That He Was Very Relaxed ]
[ While Floyd’s Breathing System Was Taxed ]
[ Chauvin Did Not Show Any Sign That His Life Was In Any
Danger ]
[ Chauvin’s Demeanor Seemed Calm ]
[ There Was No Sign Of Anger ]
[ Floyd Had @ Least Two Other Cops Holding Him Down ]
[ Floyd Was A Very Large Man ]
[ Nobody Was As Big As Him Around ]
[ That Did Not Mean That He Deserved To Be Tortured ]
[ While He Was Being Murdered ]
[ Chauvin Did His Part ]
[ Because He Had Evil Intentions In His Heart ]
[ Chauvin Did Not Seem Affected By George’ Condition
When He Got Up ]
[ Maybe Because Floyd Showed No Wounds Or Cuts ]
[ Outwardly Floyd Looked Fine ]
[ He Wasn’t ]
[ Because Chauvin’s Actions Caused Floyd To Die ]
[ Everytime That I See That Video I Try To Come Up With
The Right Verb ]
[ But I Keep Coming Back To The Same One … Disturbed ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(423)▪︎[ Happy Birthday … 5•19•2021 ]
[ When The Sky Is Hazy ]
[ The Violets Turn Blue ]
[ My Love Seems Crazy ]
[ While I Make This Birthday Wish For You ]
[ Sometimes Things That You Do, Drive Me Bat Shit
Crazy, But Never Enough To Walk Away ]
[ For A Minute, Hour, Or Day ]
[ You Are The Center Of My Life ]
[ You Have Been Ever Since You Said That You Would
Be My Wife ]
[ it Has Been An Up & Down Bumpy Ride ]
[ You Did Not Lie ]
[ When You Made Me A Deal That You Would Always Stand
By My Side ]
[ My Love Has Grown For You Since That First Day ]
[ I Am Thankful That We Pulled Together Through The Hardest
Years That We Have Ever Had ]
[ & Neither One Of Us Tried Or Wanted To Runaway ]
[ Happy Or Sad ]
[ We Both Decided To Stay ]
[ I Think This Will Be The 26th Birthday To Celebrate Together ]
[ Our Bond That Binds Us Is Stronger Than Leather ]
[ Some Say That Wishes Do Not Come True ]
[ Well I Know One We Saw & ]
[ & Made It All The Way Through ]
[ @ The Time It Was My Biggest Wish ]
[ It Was To Change Our Last Name To Devoe ]
[ & Never, Ever Have To Say That Our Last Name Was ( BISH ) ]
[ Every Morning That I Wake Up Next To You On Our
King Size Bed ]
[ I Feel As Lucky & In Love Since The Day That We Wed ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(371)▪︎[ Where Is This Going? … 5•7•2021 ]
[ When You Leave Home To Go To Work, Does That Mean
That You Never Had Work @ Home? ]
[ What If You Feel @ Home Where You Work? ]
[ Can You Also Feel Like You Have Work To Do @ Home? ]
[ Some Say That Home Is Where You Hang Your Hat ]
[ What If You Only Have Clothes & Pictures To Hang? ]
[ Does That Mean That You Are Never @ Home? ]
[ What Is The Difference Between A House & A Home? ]
[ Everything ]
[ The Word ( HOUSE ) Has One More Letter ]
[ ( HOUSE ) Has One More Vowell ]
[ The Letters Are Completely Different Letters, Except
For Three Letters ]
[ The ( H ), The ( O ) & The ( E ) ]
[ What Would You Be Missing If You Did Not Have The Those
Letters? ]
[ One Less Gardening Tool ]
[ Are You A Pessimist, If, When Telling Time You Say
( HALF PAST THE HOUR ) Instead Of ( 30 MINUTES UNTIL )? ] [ Speaking Of That ]
[ How Come ( HAY ) Is Horse Food & ( HEY ) Is A Casual Greeting ] [ ( HI ) Is Another Casual Greeting, But ( HIGH ) Is What Alot Of
People Do Behind Closed Doors ]
[ ( BEHIND ) Is In The Back Of The Group ]
[ & ( BEHIND ) Is What Some People Has That Gets Kicked ]
[ Well It Could Also Mean That You Are Not Keeping Up With
Something Or Someone ]
[ How Can The Word ( ASS ) Have Three Different Meanings? ]
[ Okay ]
[ ( WELL ) Now That Has Two Different Meanings ]
[ ( HOW ) Has Two Different Meanings ]
[ ( CAN ) Has Four Different Meanings ]
[ ( MEAN ) Has Three ]
[ ( DO ) Has Three Different Spellings, Meaning Different Things ] [ ( OBJECT ) Has Two Different Meanings ]
[ ( DRINK ) Has Three Different Meanings ]
[ Even ( DRUNK ) Has Two Different Meanings ]
[ One Is In The Present Tense & One Is The Past Tense ]
[ The First Tents Could Possibly Mean There May Be More ]
[ Would They Set The Tents Up In The Front Yard Or The
Backyard? ]
[ If They Set Up Tents In The Front Yard, Why? ]
[ Who Are These People That Are Setting Up The Tents On The
Sidewalk Anyways? ]
[ What Was Wrong With The Front Yard? ]
[ I Still Don’t Know Who These People Are? ]
[ Who Has This Many Tents? ]
[ If They Do Set-Up In The Front Yard, What If The Humane Society
Is Called About All Of The Stray Cats & Gerbils? ]
[ Do Gerbils Bark When They Drop & Squat? ]
[ If They Set Up Their Tents In The Backyard, Who Let Them Back
There? ]
[ What About The Rabbits That Are Living In The Attic? ]
[ They Ate Every Single Piece Of Celery That I Had In The Glove
Compartment Of The Police Car ]
[ A Really Nice Fire Fighter Flipped Me The Bird Because I Pulled
My Shorts Down & Mooned Him ]
[ You Don’t Think That He Had Any Bad Intentions For
That Finger, Do You? ]
[ The Two Police Marines Were Very Nice, Then Gave Me A Ride
Home From The Liquor Store ]
[ I Guess The Bartender @ The Lawn & Garden Section Thought
That I Was Only There To Pick-Up Chicks ]
[ I Had To Show That I Had Chickens In My Purse Too ]
[ But When I Was Walking In That Ambulance I Told The Single
Country/Western/Punk Rocker/Swing Dancer That I Had To
Pee ]
[ They Both Said That The Light Just Turned Red So It Was Time
To Swim Another Lap ]
[ I Thought That Was A Great Idea ]
[ Because I Will Just Pee In The Pool & Then Walk On The
Treadmill ]
[ But Whatever Happened With The Tents? ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(370)▪︎[ Love You … 5•6•2021 ]
[ To My Wife ]
[ The One Woman Whom I Said That I Will Love For
The Rest Of My Life ]
[ When I Said ( I DO ) ]
[ That I Will ]
[ Love You ]
[ Then ]
[ & I Want To Tell You That I Love You Still ]
[ There Is One Thing That I Know ]
[ That It Was Well Over 9,133 Days Ago ]
[ When I Decided That I Could Never Let You Go ]
[ It Would Certainly Hurt The Heart Of This Plain, Old,,
Ordinary Guy ]
[ If Another Man Could Catch Your Eye ]
[ I Am A Simple Man With Really Simple Tastes ]
[ As I Get Older ]
[ I Am Sorry About My Ever Expanding Waist ]
[ We Are Not The Spring Chickens Anymore ]
[ So We Cannot Dance As Long As We Did Before ]
[ I Always Love Telling New Acquaintenances Our Wonderful
Love Story ]
[ I Must Have Told It @ Least 25 Times ]
[ & It’s Never Boring ]
[ It Sure Has Been A Bumpy Ride ]
[ I Tell Everyone About Our Longevity With Pride ]
[ If I Had The Choice To Do This All Over Again ]
[ I Would Say ( YES ) ]
[ Again & Again ]
[ I Think The Phrase I Was Looking For Was ( IN A NEW
YORK MINUTE ) ]
[ Yes, I Will Jump Back In It ]
[ Meeting You Almost 27 Years Ago Was Perfect Timing ]
[ Who Knew That Four Years Ago ]
[ I Would Receive The Gift From God That I Could Write
Stories That Are Rhyming ]
[ We Have Been Through So Much, But We Stayed
Together ]
[ We Never Discarded Each Other When There Was A Change
In The Weather ]
[ Since We Live In Oregon There Are 10 Changes Every Day ]
[ When The Negative People Voiced Their Opinion ]
[ We Continue To Stay ]
[ We Are Good With Hunches ]
[ & We Have Never Resorted To Throwing Punches ]
[ We Never Touch Each Other In An Angry Way ]
[ We Keep Loving Each Other Even Though The Hair On My
Head Nearly All Went Away ]
[ It All Went Away To La-La Land ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(362)▪︎[ The Frustration Sets In … 4•30•2021 ]
[ As The Frustration Sets In ]
[ I Said To Myself ( NOT THIS AGAIN ) ]
[ Then I Think ( I JUST CAN’t WIN ) ]
[ So You ]
[ Think That This Is All Brand New? ]
[ Well Let Me Tell You A Thing Or Two ]
[ This Is Something Real ]
[ You Are Not Reinventing The Wheel ]
[ Here ]
[ Do I Make Myself Clear? ]
[ I’ve Tried & Tried ]
[ As He Has Lied & Lied ]
[ After All Of This Time ]
[ Part Of Me Has Actually Died ]
[ So Don’t Come In Here & Point Your Finger ]
[ @ All Of This ]
[ Because What Lingers ]
[ Is The Constant Diss ]
[ You Have Been Here A Grand Total Of About A Week ]
[ & I’ll Sit Here & Let You Speak ]
[ Your Piece ]
[ & I’ll Say Nothing ]
[ Just To Keep The Peace ]
[ So I Will Watch You Dance]
[ & Give You The Chance ]
[ Because As You Think You Are Rearranging ]
[ His Attitude ]
[ I Say That Are Only Changing ]
[ The Altitude ]
[ & Are Hanging ]
[ My Gratitude ]
[ You Have All Of These Ideas That You Think That Are Grand ]
[ Then I Will Sit Quietly ]
[ Wanting To Ask ( AND? ) ]
[ So Don’t Come @ Me Self-Righteously ]
[ Acting Like You Are In Command ]
[ Normally, I Am A Very Calm Guy ]
[ But In MY Home ]
[ This Just Doesn’t Fly ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(370)▪︎[ The PTSD That I Have Come To Know … 5•2•2021 ]
[ There Are Times When I Feel Like I Could Get So Lost In
My Mind ]
[ But In There Lies The Danger Of The Memories ]
[ That I Hate To Hit The Button To Rewind ]
[ The Thick Air Of That Hot August Day In The Year
2002 ]
[ When That Flashback Comes ]
[ There Is Only One Thing I Can Do ]
[ Just Sit There & Suffer Through Another Flashback ]
[ It Will Be 19 Years ]
[ & The PTSD Still Attacks ]
[ Takes Over My Brain, My Body, My Whole Day ]
[ It Always Comes @ Me The Same Way ]
[ The Sound Of A Fire Extinguisher Hitting A Kid’s Head ]
[ Then Look Where That Led ]
[ I Was Never Sure Why They Attacked David ]
[ While He Was Just Sitting Helpless On His Bed ]
[ I Was Directed ( TO NOT ENGAGE @ ALL ) ]
[ When Mario Would Demand My Keys ]
[ All I Could Do Say Was ( I WOULD NEED TO MAKE A CALL ) ]
[ I Knew What They Would Say ]
[ ( THAT WOULD BE A NO, OKAY ) ]
[ Let Them Be Mad @ Security Instead Of Me ]
[ I Knew That I Could Never Hand Over My Keys ]
[ The Time Dragged After They Barricaded The Door With
Desks & Mattresses ]
[ I Think That Increased My Stressors ]
[ When There Is A Flashback, There Will Be A Form Of PTSD ]
[ No One Else Can See ]
[ How Debilitating Flashbacks Can Be ]
[ It Literally Takes My Mind From Here ]
[ To Then ]
[ It Was Always Clear ]
[ About The Why & The When ]
[ Every Word ]
[ That Was Said Or Heard ]
[ That Makes For A Long Night ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
[ It Is Always
(355)▪︎[ Who Was That? … 4•28•2021 ]
[ One Day The Lonely Man Came Back To Show
His Deepest Scars ]
[ When He Pulled Up His Undershirt T-Top ]
[ They Looked As Big As Small Cars ]
[ Why Would The Lonely Man Lift Up His Shirt? ]
[ & Show His Hurt? ]
[ It Was NOT For The Itty Bitty ]
[ Pity ]
[ That He Could Get From A Stranger In The City ]
[ It Was So Others Could Learn ]
[ That It Doesn’t Take Spicy Food ]
[ To Cause Someone’s Heart To Burn ]
[ Wounds Are Not Always Made In The Physical Sense ]
[ Just Like Someone’s Dirty Look Can Make You Tense ]
[ A Stab Is Not Always Physical ]
[ Jokes Are Not Always Comical ]
[ If You Are Not Always Mindful ]
[ Jokes Can Quickly Turn Hurtful ]
[ You Can Not Joke About Gender, Race Or Being
Black Or White ]
[ You Can’t Joke About Age Or Weight ]
[ But People Still Joke About Some One’s Height ]
[ Asks The Lonely Man ]
[ You Don’t Try To Go There, There Or There ]
[ But Others Have A Sense Of Entitlement & Think That
They Can ]
[ Sometimes He Takes The Elder Woman’s Cart ]
[ Back Into Walmart ]
[ Not Because He Was Being Asked ]
[ By The Older Lady With The Smile On Her Mask ]
[ He Never Stands Out In The Crowd ]
[ That Is Not What The Lonely Man Is About ]
[ How Will His Wounds Heal? ]
[ How Do His Wounds Feel? ]
[ Everyone One Has Wounds Of Some Sort ]
[ Some People Have Been Successful In Building Their
Own Imaginary Emotional Fort ]
[ ( THAT IS QUITE THE WALL THAT YOU’ve BUILT ) ]
[ Is It As High As Your Mountain Of Guilt? ]
[ How About The Many Pages Of Regrets? ]
[ The Lonely Man Has More, He Bets ]
[ Looking Within @ Your Own Feelings Stings ]
[ Self-Doubt & Insecurity Are The Kings ]
[ Nothing Around The Lonely Man Makes Him Feel
That Bad ]
[ Or That Sad ]
[ Oh Here Is One ( HELLO, DAD! ) ]
[ Sometimes The Lonely Man Could Be Standing On
The Corner Waiting For The Bus ]
[ Sometimes There Is A Little Bit Of The Lonely Man
In Each One Of Us ]
[ ( a very quiet mike drops ) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(402)▪︎[ It Sets In Slowly … 5•11•2021 ]
[ A Sense Of Isolation Is Starting To Set In ]
[ When Will This End? ]
[ When Did It Actually Begin? ]
[ Was It Yesterday Or Ten Years Ago? ]
[ The Exact Date Was … ]
[ Well I Really Don’t Know ]
[ It Seems Like It Drifted In While I Slept ]
[ I Cannot Remember How Many Nights That I Wept ]
[ Yes, Grown Men DO Cry ]
[ When I Read You A Really Sad Story ]
[ I Don’t Want To See A Dry Eye ]
[ This Isn’t About How Debilitating PTSD ]
[ Is For Me ]
[ No, Not This Rhyme ]
[ No, Not This Time ]
[ Maybe If I Was A Huge Loud Bird ]
[ My Words ]
[ Would Be Heard ]
[ Since I Am Not A Betting Man ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Can ]
[ Definitely Not In My Own ]
[ Home ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||
(566)▪︎[ Strikes A Nerve … 6•16•2020 ]
[ Sometimes Things, Words, Events Really Hit Close To Home ]
[ Where Or When Did This Start ]
[ That Is Not Known ]
[ When I Was Very Young, I Had A Bad Night ]
[ It Was Because My Dad Was Drunk ]
[ So He & His Girlfriend Decided To Argue & Fight ]
[ My Dad Made The Worst Decision He Had Ever Made ]
[ He Got His Gun ]
[ & It Was His Life That He Gave ]
[ It Was Not Fun ]
[ To See His Name On A Grave ]
[ But The Rest Of Us @ Home That Night Survived ]
[ But Was I Really Alive? ]
[ There Have Been Bumps & Turns ]
[ Suntans & Burns ]
[ Everybody Had Bad Events Growing Up ]
[ Every Kid Had Times When They Just Wanted To Keep
Their Eyes Shut ]
[ But The Point Is To Get Back Up & Fight Again & Again ]
[ That Is The Only Way You Win ]
[ But My Friends, I Write My Thoughts & I Feel What I Write ]
[ Nobody Says What Is Wrong Or Right ]
[ I Just Want To Turn On The Light ]
[ To Begin Another Day ]
[ To Find A Way ]
[ To Write What I Want To Say ]
[ It’s Not Wrong ]
[ To Have Those Moments When You Don’t Feel Strong ]
[ Don’t Make Hasty Decisions, Without Thinking Ahead ]
[ If You Are Not Feeling Well ]
[ Lay Your Head Down On Your Bed ]
[ & Go To Sleep ]
~ Ka hopena ~
|| Mahalo iā ‘oe ||
|| A hui hou mākou ||
|| Aloha ||
|| Na ||
|| Lopaka DeVoe ||