(274)▪︎[ I Miss My Brother … 3•18•2020 ]

[ I Have A Younger Brother, Brent ]
[ A Month Ago ]
[ Heaven Is Where He Went ]

[ He Passed Peacefully, As He Slept ]
[ Many Times Since That Night, I’ve Wept ]

[ Sleep For Me, Is Far Overrated ]
[ Staying Awake Through The Whole Night, Is What I’ve Hated ]

[ Brent Was Not Just A Relative ]
[ He Was Also The Friend ]
[ Who Was Never Negative ]

[ Positivity Is What He Brought Out In Me ]
[ He’ll Always Be That Way In My Mind, To See ]

[ Humor Was One Thing We Had In Common, Too ]
[ When His Name Would Come Across My Caller I.D. ]
[ I’d Automatically Think ( HOW CAN I CLOWN ON YOU? ) ]

[ We’d Make Funny Cut-Downs That We Never Meant ]
[ Time Together Was One Thing In Our Life ]
[ That Was Hardly Spent ]

[ Brent & I Were Separated During Our Toddler Years ]
[ I’m Sure When We Said Our Goodbyes ]
[ There Were Many Nights Of Tears ]

[ So I Grew-Up Knowing I Had A Brother Out There ]
[ But I Never Knew Where ]

[ I Grew Up Not Even Knowing His Name ]
[ Our Birth Mother Is Who I Blamed! ]

[ Over & Over & Over Because She Was The Reason For The Family
Split ]
[ One Day She Was A Mother Of Three ]
[ Then She Decided, She Didn’t Want Any Part Of It ]
[ Just, So She Could Be Free ]

[ She Gave Up, ALL Of Her Parental Rights ]
[ We Were Too Young To Put Up A Fight ]

[ So Then Fast Forward, In My Life ]
[ My Brother, Was Found By My Wife ]

[ He Was In North Carolina & I Was In Oregon ]
[ I Wondered About How We Could Meet Up Again ]

[ My Wonderful, Generous In-Laws Paid For Our Trip There ]
[ A Hotel Room, A Rental Car, Spending Money & Air Fare ]

[ I’ll Never Be Able To Pay Back Their Generosity ]
[ It Would Take More Than Money ]

[ Much More ]
[ That Showed The Love From All Four ]

[ Of Them ]

[ Brent & I Reconnected Really Fast ]
[ But We Felt We Were Always Connected In Our Past ]
[ We Started A Bond That Would Forever Last ]

[ So We Let Each Other Get Known ]
[ During Our Hours On The Phone ]
[ & Now … God Called Him Home ]

[ There’s Not Going To Be Anymore Phone Calls & Hours
Long Laughs ]
[ His Passing Has Cut My Heart In Half ]

[ There Are Voice Mail Messages On My Phone That I Can’t
Bring Myself To Erase ]
[ I Miss His Voice ]
[ Not His Face ]

[ We Had Plans To Grow Old Together ]
[ Oh How I Miss My Brother ]

[ His Voice Will Always Be In My Ear ]
[ What I Wouldn’t Do ]
[ To Have Him Here ]

[ I Miss Him, I Always Will ]
[ If Only There Was A Magical Pill ]

[ Could It Be Certain ]
[ To Stop My Hurtin’? ]

[ Probably Not ]
[ But I Thank God ]
[ For The Family I’ve Still Got ]
[ Because A Daily Hug From My Beautiful Wife ]
[ Sure Does Hit The Spot ]

[ I Miss You Brent ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(268)▪︎[ Happy 24th … 3•16•2020 ]

[ Happy Anniversary, Number 24 ]
[ One Thing About Our Anniversaries ]
[ Is That I Always Want More ]

[ Sometimes Our Days & Years Go Up & Down ]
[ I Always Feel Better ]
[ Knowing That You Want Me To Stick Around ]

[ You Are ]
[ The Brightest Star ]

[ That I Could Ever See In The Night Sky ]
[ Making Me The Luckiest Guy ]
[ Because It Was Me That Caught Your Eye ]

[ 24 Years Ago You Said ( I DO ) ]
[ When I Was Asked, I Said That I Do, Too ]

[ Then We Took A Nice Ride In Our Limousine ]
[ We Rode Our Charriot Back To Mom & Dad’s ]
[ For Some Nighttime Cuisine ]

[ If I Was Asked If I’d Do All Of This Again ]
[ I’d Ask Back ]
[ When Do We Begin? ]

[ When I Asked You If I Could Be The Guy That You Would Want
To Marry ]
[ That Was The Most Important Question That I’ve Ever Asked ]
[ I Can See ]
[ That You’ve Proven Up To The Task ]

[ Through All Of These Years You Never Gave Up On Me ]
[ If Someone Offered Me Money To Keep Going ]
[ I’d Say ( NO THANK YOU, I’ll DO THIS FOR FREE ) ]

[ & You Never Gave Up On Us ]
[ You Have Had Many Opportunities ]
[ To Catch The Next Greyhound Bus ]

[ Whoever Said ( YOU COMPLETE ME ) Could Not Have Said
More Appropriate Words ]
[ I Thought Of You ]
[ When That Was A Statement I Heard ]

[ Being Single Is A Computer World, That I Want None Of ]
[ I Believe In The Old Fashioned Way ]
[ Of Finding True Love ]

[ I Would Never Pass As A Computer Nerd ]
[ I Think Being Single ]
[ Is For The Birds ]

[ I’d Be Lost & I Would Experience The Spins ]
[ It Would Have Me Sleeping ]
[ On Needles & Pins ]

[ Well We Have @ Least 26 More Years To Go ]
[ Where Did You Think We’d Be 24 Years Ago ]

[ Are You Where You Want To Be? ]
[ Is There A Bright Future For Us That You Can See? ]

[ Being Married To You Is All That I’ve Wanted All Along ]
[ The Way ]
[ Being By Your Side ]
[ Is Where I Know I Belong ]
[ Day After Day ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[° 245)▪︎[ Can You See Them … 3•9•2020 ]

[ Can You See My Scars? ]
[ Inside My Head, They Are As Big As Cars ]

[ The Ones That Cannot Be Seen ]
[ Are From People Who Were Nasty & Mean ]

[ Those Kinds Of People Attack ]
[ From Behind ]
[ & Stab You In The Back ]
[ & They Don’t Do It By The Light Of Day ]
[ They Do It @ Night When It’s Black ]
[ Outside ]

[ The Scars Can Be As Small As A Paper Cut ]
[ But It Causes A Gap ]
[ That Is Hard To Keep Shut ]

[ The Unseen Scars Are The Deepest & Hurt The Most ]
[ Sometimes They Feel Like They’ve Been Stabbed By A Post ]

[ Then You’ll Never Get Back The Trust That Was Lost ]
[ You’ll Never Come To A Final Cost ]

[ But As You Are Attempting To Recoup Your Loss ]
[ Your Pain Will Always ]
[ Let You Know, Who’s The Boss ]

[ But When The Pain Is Below The Surface ]
[ You Can Never Figure Out How, Or Why ]
[ & What Is The Purpose ]

[ The Purpose Is To Cause More Pain ]
[ Scars Want To Remind You Again & Again ]

[ That It’s Not Going To Be Very Kind ]
[ To Keep Pain On Your Mind ]
[ @ Least That Is What You Find ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(237)▪︎[ Who Is Left? … 3•7•2020 ]

[ Can You Live Your Life With Your Own Failures? ]
[ Would It Be Easy Being On A Ship Living With A Group Of
Sailors? ]

[ What If Half Of The Problems That You’ve Had While You’ve
Been Alive ]
[ Was Wiped Away? ]
[ Would You Then Thrive? ]

[ Or Would You Continue To Dog Paddle In The Deep-End Of
The Lake? ]
[ You Just Do Not Know What It Would Take ]

[ To Reach The Side & Climb Out ]
[ Surviving Is Your Greatest Doubt ]

[ If There Are Always Those That Have To Remember What Was ]
[ There Will Be Those That Will Never Reach For What Can Be ]
[ Because ]
[ They Don’t Want To See ]
[ What Faith Does ]

[ They Will Resist ]
[ As The Faithful Persist ]

[ Who Will Win? ]
[ & ]
[ Who Will Lose ]
[ When It’s Your Choice ]
[ Who Will Begin ]
[ To Choose? ]
[ By Using Their Voice? ]
[ While Not Turning To Booze ]

[ Living Is The Hardest Part Of Life ]
[ Having The Energy To Keeping The Light ]
[ On Strong ]
[ Throughout The Night ]

[ Keeping Safe, The Ones That You Love ]
[ Handling Them Gently ]
[ Like You Would A Dove ]

[ Then Not Putting Up A Fight ]
[ & Letting Them Know What Is Best ]
[ When They Want To Take Flight ]
[ From The Family Nest ]
[ Then You’ll Know To Keep In Sight ]
[ The Love You Have For The Rest ]

[ That Are Left ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(217)▪︎[ Why Don’t You Know? … 3•4•2020 ]

[ I Cry & You Don’t Know When I’m Hurt ]
[ Then My Tears Fall On My Shirt ]

[ What Do You Do? ]
[ All I Get Is A Cold Feeling ]
[ & A Blank Look From You ]

[ Where’s The Love? ]
[ What Are You Thinking Of? ]

[ When You See Me Standing There Looking Like A Mess ]
[ I Have To Confess ]
[ I Feel Totally Undressed ]
[ & That Makes Me Stressed ]

[ Why Do You Not Know How To Comfort Me ]
[ It’s Just Like The Day I Scraped My Knee ]

[ Where Were You? ]
[ I Had No Clue ]

[ Whatsoever ]
[ I Thought You Would Never ]

[ Turn Your Back ]
[ What’s Up With That? ]

[ I Remember Things Like This ]
[ To Me It’s A Total Diss ]
[ When I’m Away From You This Is One Feeling That I Do Not Miss ]

[ Where’s The Respect? ]
[ I Know, I Know, What Should I Expect ]

[ I Expect More ]
[ I Didn’t Expect You To Take My Emotions ]
[ & Sweep The Floor ]

[ Would You Then Take My Heart & Wipe The Windows? ]
[ Who Would Know? ]
[ What Would That Show? ]

[ That Would Show That You Will Always Be The Dominant
One ]
[ Are We THAT Done? ]

[ & That Makes Me Sad ]
[ Dad ]

[ So, Let Me Make This So Crystal Clear ]
[ I Am So Glad That You Are Not Up Here ]

[ & I So Much Care ]
[ That You Wound Up Down There ]
[ So, Here’s To Burnt Hair! ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(213)▪︎[ Don’t Turn Back … 3•4•2020 ]

[ Go Away Little Girls ]
[ With Your Head Full Of Curls ]

[ Stop Being The Kind ]
[ That Tries To Mess With All Of The Mens Minds ]

[ They Are Not Going To Get Very Far ]
[ With Their Head Up In The Stars ]
[ Driving Their Fast Car ]
[ While Stopping In @ All Of The Young Crowd Bars ]

[ Looking In The Dark For Mr. Wright ]
[ But They Find That He’s Nowhere In Sight ]
[ Then Someone Makes The Room All Bright ]
[ By Turning On The Light ]

[ That Just Shines A Light On The Bad ]
[ & What Makes Them So Mad ]
[ Is That The Couples Look Oh So Sad ]

[ Do The Women See No Reason To Take Flight ]
[ Because All They Do Is Fight ]
[ With Who They Thought Was The Guy That’s Right ]

[ They Have No Clue ]
[ About What They Should Do ]

[ They Look For Any Recent Text ]
[ About What To Do Next ]

[ Who Will Take Or See Their Side ]
[ On Everything ]
[ When They Hide ]
[ The Gold Wedding Rings ]
[ When Others Hear That They Lied ]
[ About These Things ]

[ They May Turn Their Backs & Walk ]
[ & Let It Be Known ]
[ That They Will Never Again Be Asked To Sit Down & Talk ]

[ About The Circumstances ]
[ That Had Them Taking Chances ]
[ Going To Those Wild, Loud Dances ]

[ That They Normally Would Not Have Thought Of ]
[ If They Weren’t In The Wrong Places ]
[ Looking For Love ]
[ In A Group Of Strange Faces ]

[ What Were They Exploring? ]
[ Leaving Friends Worrying ]

[ Back Home ]
[ Where They Are Known ]
[ But If They Would Only Pick Up The Phone ]

[ They Would Stop In Their Tracks ]
[ & Come Back ]

[ Where They Started ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(208)▪︎[ Whispers … 3•3•2020 ]

[ In The Dead Of Night I Hear Your Voice In My Ear ]
[ I Hear You Just Like If You Were Here ]
[ It’s Not Warbled ]
[ It Sounds Perfectly Clear ]

[ You Simply Ask ( WHAT’s GOING ON? ) Simple & Plain ]
[ I Want To Shut Out The Noise & Make Yours The Main ]

[ Sound ]
[ Around ]

[ I Told My Care Giver, ( I SO MISS YOUR CALLS ]
[ The Silence Drives Me Up My Four Walls ]

[ I Can’t Say I Miss You Physically Because We Only Saw
Each Other For That One Week 22 Years Ago ]
[ I Miss What I Know ]

[ & That Was Your Voice ]
[ Because It Wasn’t Just Noise! ]

[ It Was The Lifeline Between The Two Of Us ]
[ That’s How Things Was ]

[ Now I Can’t Stop Writing About You ]
[ I Miss You So Much, Times Two ]

[ I Miss You! ]
[ I Miss You! ]

[ Where Did The Time Go, How Was It Spent? ]
[ I Truly Miss You, Brother Brent ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(534)▪︎[ The Footprint … 6•30•2021 ]

[ Who Can Can Catch Lightning In A Bottle? ]
[ Is That The Daredevil Who Is Quick With The Throttle? ]

[ Driving Through Town As Fast As He Can ]
[ When You Think Of Him ]
[ You Could Say That He’s A Man’s Man ]

[ Is He The Only One That Can Leave A Footprint In The Dust? ]
[ Is Being A Daredevil A Must? ]

[ No, It’s Not, Is What You Say ]
[ You Try To Leave Your Foot Print Every Day ]

[ In The Sand, Clay, Mud Or Dirt ]
[ You Would Even Give A Man In Need, Your Own Shirt ]

[ Off Of Your Back ]
[ If You Really Think About It ]
[ That Was Just One Shirt Out Of A Big Stack ]

[ One Way That You Could Leave Your Footprint Is By What
You Can Give ]
[ You Also Can Leave An Impression By How You Live ]

[ Do You Walk, Take A Bus Or Ride The Train? ]
[ Or Do You Stay In The House & Refrain ]

[ & Play Games? ]
[ With People With Various Last Names? ]

[ If You Had One Wish, What Would It Be? ]
[ Would You Wish That One Wish ]
[ Would Turn Into Three? ]

[ & So On & So On Until Everybody Will Have One ]
[ Letting Everyone To Have Some Fun ]

[ One Of Their Own ]
[ Maybe Some Would Wish For A Million Dollars ]
[ While Some Would Just Want An Ice Cream Cone ]

[ Leaving Your Handprint On This Earth ]
[ Does Not Prove Your Worth ]

[ Now Leaving Memories In Lots Of Different People’s
Mind ]
[ Is The Best Kind ]

[ Of Footprint ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(519)▪︎[ Who Is There? … 6•25•2021 ]

[ As I Sit Here Trying To Pull On My White Socks ]
[ I Here The Tic-Tok ]
[ Of My Wall Clock’s]

[ They Are The Only Sounds That I Can Hear ]
[ & That, Right There]
[ Just Illuminates My Fear ]

[ I Don’t Expect To Hear Another Sound ]
[ Because There Is Not Another Soul Around ]

[ @ This Time ]
[ That I Am Sucking On This Lime ]

[ That, In Itself, Makes My Sucker ]
[ Pucker ]

[ Would This Have The Same Affect On You? ]
[ If Not ]
[ What Would It Do? ]
[ If So ]
[ Would You Even Have The Remotest Clue? ]

[ Would It Burn All Of The Way Down? ]
[ Would It Burn The Whole Time That You, Would Be In Town? ]
[ Would Those Answers Force Me To Use A Different Noun ]

[ Or Two ]
[ Hmmm, Am I Picking Up On A Totally Obscure Social Cue? ]

[ I Don’t Know About This ]
[ Let Me Look On My List ]

[ Should I Care ]
[ If It Is Not There? ]

[ Well That Makes Me Feel Like I Need To Go ]
[ So, If You Say So ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(514)▪︎[ You Need To Choose … 6•24•2021 ]

[ Sometimes In Life You Get What You Want But Not What
     You Need ]
[ Why Do You Always Follow? ]
[ When You Really Want To Lead? ]

[ You Have More Talent In Your Little Finger ]
[ Than Most People Have In Their Whole Existence ]
[ You Don’t Want To Step Out ]
[ So, You Just Stand Back & Linger ]

[ Just Wanting To Blend Into The Crowd ]
[ Letting Your Thoughts Drift Into The Clouds ]

[ Thoughts That Could Be The Keys To The Universe ]
[ But You Never Want To Transverse ]
[ On Over ]
[ Just To Converse ]

[ Even For Awhile ]
[ Because That Was Never Your Style ]

[ When Are You Going To Find Your Niche? ]
[ That Should Be Your Number (1) Wish ]

[ But You Would Rather Walk A Mile ]
[ Than To Come Forward & Show Your Guile ]

[ To Be Able To Get Out Of The Muddle You Were In ]
[ Then You Would Have To Show The Puddle That You
     Fell In & When ]

[ Others Would Tell You To Sit Down & Think ]
[ & Slow Down The Drink ]

[ A Shot Here & A Straight Shot Of Tequila There ]
[ Sometimes You Get So Drunk ]
[ You Give Off The Feeling That You Don’t Really Care ]

[ That Is Not A Good Look On You ]
[ & It Looks Like You Have A Mirror With Some Residue ]

[ Of Some Sort Of Powdery Substance That Looks White ]
[ Making People Wonder If You Are Doing Things That Aren’t
     Right? ]

[ You Do Know That Snorting Meth ]
[ Only Leads To Death ]

[ If You Don’t, You Should ]
[ If You Did, You Would ]
[ If You Are, You Could ]

[ Know About That ]
[ Care About That ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]