[ Sometimes, You Wish You Could Go To The Top Of The Highest
Building & Cut Open Your Shirt ]
[ Then Point To Your Heart ]
[ & Yell ( THIS IS WHERE I HURT! ) ]
[ You Don’t Know How Or Why ]
[ You Have Become, Such The Insecure Guy ]
[ It Is Clear ]
[ That You Do Not Feel ]
[ That You Have Stood On Firm Ground, In Years ]
[ When You Go Away ]
[ For The Day ]
[ Will Your Life Change, Without Your Say? ]
[ From What Others Tell & They Can See ]
[ That Everything In Your Life, Has Become Cheugy ]
[ Out Of Date ]
[ In Their Natural State ]
[ Where Does Your Life, Go From Here? ]
[ You Feel Like Some Bright Headlights Were In Your Eyes ]
[ Showing Your Fear ]
[ Do You Stand Tall? ]
[ Even Through Those Times Where You Feel, Like You Are So
Off Balanced ]
[ You Were Going To Fall ]
[ Who Will Be There, To Lend YOU A Hand? ]
[ You Have Been There For So Many Others All Across
The Land ]
[ It Is Not Like Your Plea For Help, Has Turned Into A Demand ]
[ For Attention ]
[ Sympathy Or Affection ]
[ That Was Never, Your Style ]
[ Not For A Single Minute ]
[ Not Even For Awhile ]
[ From What You Know ]
[ About Yourself ]
[ That May Be So ]
[ For Someone Else ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
Author: rdvoe165
I Am A 62yrs Young Man, That Just Enjoys Writing Short Poetic Stories From My Thoughts. I Hope That You Enjoy Them As Much As I Do Writing Them.
(368)▪︎[ Very Unusual … 5•5•2021 ]
[ I Heard Someone Say That They Put Their Foot In
Their Mouth Unintentionally ]
[ That Made No Sense ]
[ Who In Their Right Mind Would Do It Intentionally? ]
[ C’mon, Really? ]
[ Freely? ]
[ That Would Be Like Someone Saying That They Made Themselves
Look Like A Horses Ass Because They Thought It Would Look
Good ]
[ As A Child ]
[ Were They Always Misunderstood? ]
[ Like Eating Paint ]
[ Is Good For The Brain? ]
[ Does Anyone Ever Like To Embarrass Themselves? ]
[ I Know That Some People Want To Embarrass Everyone Else ]
[ Some People Like To Do That For Sport ]
[ Driving Some Where To Hide Behind Their Own Imaginary Fort ]
[ Some Of The Walls ]
[ Can Be 40 Feet High ]
[ With Skinny Long Halls ]
[ The Inner Sanctum Is Seen By Very Few ]
[ Definitely Not By Anyone New ]
[ & If By Chance Anyone Is Let In ]
[ They See The Person That Nobody Knew ]
[ Trust ]
[ Is A Must ]
[ If Someone Is Let In, They Usually Will Not Like What They See ]
[ How Things Look ]
[ & How Things Seem To Be ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(361)▪︎[ Things Are Easier … 4•29•2021 ]
[ It Is So Easy To Live In The Land Of Make Believe ]
[ Looking For Someone Or Something That Will Give You A
Second Of Relief ]
[ Sometimes It Is Really Hard To See ]
[ The Forest In The Trees ]
[ When In Fact The Trees Make It A Forrest ]
[ & You Are Trying To Find What Works The Best ]
[ Do You Believe What You’ve Heard? ]
[ Or Do You Only Go By The Written Word? ]
[ But By Whom? ]
[ Is Your Only Physical Contact With Society Is Your Weekly Get
Togethers On Zoom? ]
[ It Is Much Easier To Be A Recluse ]
[ Than Turning Away Invitations With The Latest, Made Up Excuse ]
[ You Can’t Say That You Have To Stay Home To Wash Your
Hair ]
[ Because You Personally Shave Your Head Twice A Week So you
Won’t Have Any Hair There ]
[ Staring @ The Same Six Walls ]
[ Then Getting Your Food Delivered To You Everyday By Making
The Same Four Calls ]
[ You End Up Having Long Conversations With Your Vacuum ]
[ Spending 25 Hours In The Same Pair Of Pajamas ]
[ On Your Unmade Bed In Your Back Bedroom ]
[ Your Imagination Still Runs Wild ]
[ You’ll Resort Back To The Many Behaviors You Had When
You Were A Child ]
[ Your Imagination As A Child Was Amazing ]
[ Then You Started Vaping ]
[ & You Now Have Zero Control Of The Child That You Are
Raising ]
[ That Is Your Biggest Downfall ]
[ When You Think Of It All ]
[ He Never Once Let You Coach Him In How To Catch/ Run
With/ Field/ Throw/ Kick/Hit/Dribble/Pass Or Bounce
A Ball ]
[ & You Could Show Everyone Through Your Shirt ]
[ How Much That Hurts ]
[ But Nobody Seems To See You Being Sad In The Shadows ]
[ Nobody Ever Knows ]
[ About The Hurt That Never Physically Shows ]
[ So Then What Do You Do? ]
[ Are There Any Clues? ]
[ You Just Relax In Your Own Space ]
[ Not Letting Others See Your Face ]
[ Your Family Wonders What Really Went Wrong ]
[ They Now Compare Your Life To A Sad Country Song ]
[ Of Course ]
[ This Doesn’t Mean You Lost Your Horse ]
[ You Just Let Your Life Move Along @ A Snails Pace ]
[ Not Interacting With Anyone @ Your Place ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(360)▪︎[ The Weather … 4•29•2021 ]
[ Inside Every One Of Us Is A Storm Waiting To Rage ]
[ Are You The Rain, The Thunder, The Lightning ]
[ Or The Next Ice Age? ]
[ When There Are Storms @ The Beach ]
[ The Waves Crash So Hard & So Loud ]
[ You Cannot Hear Anyone Speak ]
[ Some People Have A Fascination With Storms ]
[ That Is Just Slightly Out Of Other Peoples Norms ]
[ Is It The Driving, Blinding Rain ]
[ That Floods The Outside Drains ]
[ That Drive Those People Insane? ]
[ Is The Flash Of The Lightning Or The Thunderous Boom ]
[ That Makes People Hide ]
[ Or Run Into The Inside Rooms? ]
[ The Weather Guy ]
[ Tells No Lies ]
[ When He Predicts That The Lightning @ Night ]
[ Will Light Up The Sky’s ]
[ Others Like The Calm & The Warmth That The Sun Brings ]
[ That Seems To Be When All Of The Birds Sing ]
[ It Also Has You Wonder ]
[ What Opportunities A New Day Will Bring ]
[ The Opportunities Would Be Endless ]
[ & If You Tried ]
[ It Would Knock You Senseless ]
~~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(606)▪︎[ The Mind … 7•22•2021 ]
[ It Is Not Very Fun When You Get Lost In Your Own
Thoughts ]
[ It Is Disconcerting That When You Open Your Eyes
You See Spots ]
[ Feeling Like A Square Peg Being Pushed Into A Round Hole ]
[ It Burns You So Much Being Pushed & Pushed ]
[ It Aches @ Your Soul ]
[ You Set Off Flares & Yelling That You Don’t Fit ]
[ No One Listens ]
[ Or Even Cares Just A Little Bit ]
[ Then You Feel Pushed Aside & Being Told To Go Stand
With The Other Misfits ]
[ You Quickly Found Out That You Don’t Sit Near The Fan
When Someone Throws In The Shit ]
[ Pails Of Bullshit Being Thrown @ The Fan Night & Day ]
[ One Day Of Sitting Next To The Fan ]
[ You Will Try Really Hard To Get Up To Get Away ]
[ Where Do You Run Without Leaving A Trail A Mile Long ]
[ After Sitting Next To The Fan, The Stench Is Really Strong ]
[ A (30) Minute Shower Might Do You Some Good ]
[ Seeing What You Have Been Through ]
[ Everyone Understood ]
[ Being Put Under So Much Stress Flicks A Switch With
Your P.T.S.D. ]
[ That, Is Always, A Wait & See ]
[ Will It Awaken With The Slightest Touch? ]
[ How Can You Tell ]
[ When The Stress Is Too Much? ]
[ It Could Be A Noise? ]
[ A Voice? ]
[ A Combination Of The Two? ]
[ You Can Never Predict ]
[ What Your Mind Will Do ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(603)▪︎[ Family … 7•22•2021 ]
[ How Would I Describe ( FAMILY ) That Doesn’t Drop You With A
A Thud ]
[ It’s What You Make ]
[ & Every Member Does Not Always Have To Be Blood ]
[ A Family Member Could Be A Longtime Friend Who Always Had
Their Place Set ]
[ A Family Member Could Also Be This Great Person That You
Just Met ]
[ An Automatic Place @ The Table For Blood Relatives Is Not
Something They Get ]
[ & Those Are The People That Are The Most Shocked, I Bet ]
[ The First 16 Years Of My Life I Grew Up Side-By-Side With My
Bio Older Sister ]
[ But Then Drugs & Alcohol ]
[ Turned Her Into A Category (5) Tornado Twister ]
[ Wrecking Havoc Of Everything In Her Path ]
[ She Did This Just As Well ]
[ As She Used To Solve Problems In Math ]
[ She Used To Be The Good Child ]
[ With So Little Restraints ]
[ She Decided To Turn Wild ]
[ I Used To Be The Troubled One ]
[ I Did Not Want To Spend My Time Studying ]
[ I Wanted To Play Sports & Have Fun ]
[ We Were Both Given The Same Chances ]
[ She Decided To Spend Her Weekends Smoking & Drinking ]
[ While I Enjoyed Going To The School Dances ]
[ She Used To Be Strong ]
[ I Wonder ]
[ If She Ever Wonders Where It All Went Wrong ]
[ Does She? ]
[ Or Doesn’t She? ]
[ I Wonder, What That Answer Would Be ]
[ Either Way, I Have Put That Question Behind Me ]
[ While I Was Competing In Sports ]
[ She Was Off Drinking ]
[ & Doing Snorts ]
[ She Would Be Telling Me Lies ]
[ If She Said That It Wasn’t Because Of Those Bad Boy Guys ]
[ That Lived Down The Street ]
[ Weren’t Those The Ones That She Snuck Out In The Middle Of
The Night To Meet ]
[ Instead Of Spending The Last 25 Years Working On A
Relationship With My Wife ]
[ I Could Have Just As Easily Been Sucked Into That Life ]
[ Anybody Could Have ]
[ But … Just Anybody Would Have? ]
[ In My Younger Years, I Tried A Thing Or (2) ]
[ But Then I Told Myself That Wasn’t Anything That I No Longer
Wanted To Do ]
[ I Had Times When I Sunk ]
[ I Had Times When I Got In A Funk ]
[ But I Did Not Turn Those Times Into Being A Drunk ]
[ I Have Survived The Worst Of Times ]
[ I Have Survived After Being Down To My Last Dime ]
[ Right Now, I Have Been Blessed With The Ability To Write Stories
That Rhyme ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(602)▪︎[ Who Does She … ? … 7•22•2021 ]
[ Yes, She’s The Bitch, She’s The Bitch ]
[ She’s The Bitch That Wears Black ]
[ She’s Stone Cold Sober ]
[ As A Heart Attack ]
[ When She Walks Around She Sets Down Clues ]
[ That In Her Eyes ]
[ That Makes Her Much Better Than You ]
[ In Her Mind ]
[ She Is Of The Better Kind ]
[ She Is So Dangerous ]
[ Because Her Kind Is So Cancerous ]
[ It’s The Way That She Grooves ]
[ That Makes The Transiton Go Really Smooth ]
[ & With Her Sultry Moves ]
[ She’s Got Nothing To Prove ]
[ Around Every Blind Corner ]
[ She Runs For The Border ]
[ She’s Not Pretty Enough For Pop ]
[ & She’s Not Cool Enough For Indie Rock ]
[ That’s Why Her Everyday Shoes ]
[ Has Her Singing The Blues ]
[ But Now She Knows ]
[ That She Can’t Go Where The Hip People Goes ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(604)▪︎[ Memories … 7•22•2021 ]
[ I Want To Grow Old With Memories That Make Me
Smile ]
[ I Don’t Want My Memories To Last Only For Awhile ]
[ I Remember My Wedding Day ]
[ Like It Was Yesterday ]
[ Seeing My Beautiful Bride ]
[ Standing Up On The Alter ]
[ Getting Me To Tear Up & Making My Smile Get So Wide ]
[ Seeing Friends That Are In My Life & ]
[ & Were Before I Met My Wife ]
[ Our Time In Jamaica, The Blue Water & The White Sand ]
[ Being Carefree By Not Wearing A Watch ]
[ Making Zero Time Demands ]
[ My Time With My Wife When It Was Just Us Two ]
[ Driving Around Washington For Two Days ]
[ Because We Had No Plans For Anything To Do ]
[ Being In Your Parents Kitchen To Overhear ( THAT
STARTED TRYING ) ]
[ Having The Nurse Put Our Newborn Son In My Arms
& I Wouldn’t Stop Crying ]
[ Then Being @ Camp Attitude & Getting On A Horse @
The Same Time As My Son ]
[ It Was A Big Deal To Even Get On One ]
[ That Was When B.D. Came Running To Me Yelling
( YOU DID IT! YOU DID IT! ) ]
[ Yes, I Did Do It ]
[ I Remember Getting Bucked Off One Horse & Then Almost
Getting In The Head ]
[ That Was When I Was About (5) Years Old @ A Foster
Home ]
[ That Was The Night One Of The Parent’s Son Wanted
Me Dead ]
[ I Remember Barbara Saying So Long ]
[ When She Forced Me To Go Live With Don ]
[ I Remember That Year & A ½ Were Our Best Times, Ever ]
[ Once We Moved With Mary & Kenny ]
[ He Turned Into The Same Passive/Aggressive Prick That
I Sadly Remembered ]
[ I Have Good Memories Meeting Nicole In The Fred Meyer’s
Employee Break Room ]
[ In Under (2) Years Later I Became Her Groom ]
[ I Wish That I Had Memories Of When I Lived In Hawaii ]
[ I Guess My Mind Won’t Let Me Remember My Mom
Abusing Me Daily ]
[ Because Of My Horrible Mother ]
[ I Was Separated From My Brother ]
[ I Have No Memories Of My Dad Shooting Himself ]
[ In Front Of Me & My Sister ]
[ After Trying To Take The Life Of Someone Else ]
[ Memories Can Come Back In A Flood ]
[ Trying To Guess One Up ]
[ Would Be A Dud ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(605)▪︎[ Calmer Atmosphere … 7•22•2021 ]
[ I Love It That I Can Enter EVERY Room In The House
With Just A Turn Of The Doorknob ]
[ As Sure As Some People In My Life Still Calling Me
Bob ]
[ No More Keypad Combinations ]
[ Needed ]
[ No More Hesitations ]
[ Heeded ]
[ If Company Is Around, I Will Lock My Room ]
[ But There Will Be No Reason To Lock My Bathroom ]
[ Unless The Dark Force Beckons Our Hall ]
[ But, First He Must Call ]
[ It Is Very Clear ]
[ @ Least It Should Be To Him ]
[ That He MUST Have Permission To Even Come Here ]
[ I Never, Ever Want To Live Under The Same Roof ]
[ Every Month I Will Need Physical Proof ]
[ That He Will Pay Another Month’s Rent ]
[ He Should Never Say That It Had Been Spent ]
[ If He Needs (2) Or Even (3) Jobs To Get By ]
[ He Needs To Be One Hella Busy Guy ]
[ If He Has To Work All Day, Everyday ]
[ Then, That’s Okay ]
[ As Far As I Am Concerned ]
[ He Had (3) Or (4) Years Worth Of ABC’s ]
[ & He Never Learned ]
[ Not One Lesson In Life ]
[ So Who Suffered? ]
[ Me & My Wife ]
[ I Would Be The Target Of His Hate ]
[ Last August Or September I Had Enough ]
[ & Yelled ( CHECKMATE ) ]
[ He Poked The Bear, One Too Many Times ]
[ He Stole One Too Many Dimes ]
[ Him & I Always Clashed ]
[ The Father – Son Connection Was Bashed ]
[ Bashed Down To Paste ]
[ It Never Was Made To Taste ]
[ If It Was, It Was Fermented ]
[ About (6) Years Ago He Really Went Demented ]
[ In A Huge Way ]
[ Our Future Connection Was Like The Worst Car In An
Accident ]
[ The One That Was Completely Dented ]
[ I Want Our Empty Nest Home ]
[ Left Alone ]
[ All That I Care ]
[ About ]
[ Is That I Will Stay Here & He Will Stay Over There! ]
[ Especially If He Wants To Pout ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(601)▪︎[ What A Horrible Visit … 7•21•2021 ]
[ This Home Visit Was A Disaster From The Get-Go ]
[ The When, Was What We Did Not Know ]
[ So … ]
[ It Was Within The First (2) Hours ]
[ When Everything Went Sour ]
[ Then His Actions & Words Reminded His Mom About Why
He Was Moved ]
[ He Came Here To Knock Me Out Of My Groove ]
[ When He Turned Into A Problem ]
[ I Would Not Let Him! ]
[ To Continue On This Path ]
[ He Was Making As Much Sense ]
[ As Trigonometry Math ]
[ When He Demanded That We Take Him Home ]
[ My Reaction Was Soon To Be Shown ]
[ I Told Him ( OKAY, LET’s GO! ) ]
[ He Counted On Me Saying ( NO! ) ]
[ The Way That I Was In The Past ]
[ I Knew Could Not Last ]
[ He Used To Leave Footprints On My Back ]
[ A Straight, Solid Spine Is What I Lacked ]
[ So Into My Life Came This Strong Willed, Stubborn & No
Nonsense Caregiver For Me ]
[ She Really Taught Me How Things SHOULD Be ]
[ One Time Her Grandson Stole Her Credit Card ]
[ She Did Not Just Dismiss It Because He Was A Kid ]
[ No, She Let The Justice System Come Down On Him,
Really Hard ]
[ I Listened & Learned From This Woman Who Seemed So Wise ]
[ This Woman Does Not Bullshit Through Her Life ]
[ Or Let Anybody Get Over On Her By Telling A Handful Of Lies ]
[ She Taught Me Well ]
[ She Told Me To Use My Five Senses ]
[ Especially My Sense Of Smell ]
[ If A Situation Smells Like Bullshit, It Probably Is ]
[ & To Never Get Bent Out Of Shape ]
[ From An Occasional Diss ]
[ But B.D. Loved To Test My Patience To No End ]
[ Now When He Does Something That I Don’t Like ]
[ I Know Longer Pretend ]
[ That Something He Did Does Not Bother Me Now ]
[ When I React With A ( WOW! ) ]
[ ( WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS RIGHT HERE? ) ]
[ I No Longer React With A Submissive ( OH DEAR ) ]
[ Maybe He Does Not Like This Straight, Strong Spine ]
[ Of Mine ]
[ It Has Been Rough ]
[ Being On The Path, To Becoming This Tough ]
[ When I Kept Saying That It Was Time For Him To Say
( BYE-BYE ) ]
[ All He Did Was Sit There & Cry ]
[ When I Went Near Him & Asked ( WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT? ) ]
[ He Would Stop & Shout ]
[ ( I WANT TO HAVE A DO-OVER! ) ]
[ When I Would Say ( THEY DO NOT EXIST IN REAL LIFE )
He Would Pout ]
[ Then I Said ( THIS IS THE REASON WHY YOU WERE MOVED
OUT! ) ]
[ I Kept Moving Him Towards The Door ]
[ I Kept Telling Him ( DON’t BRING YOUR DRAMA HERE
ANYMORE ) ]
[ He Thought He Could Come Here To Throw A Rock Into Our
Calm Pond ]
[ That, Right Then & There ]
[ Was When His Thinking Went Wrong ]
[ He Quickly Found ]
[ That His Thinking Errors Were Abound ]
[ & One Thing That He Did Not Figure On ]
[ Was That I Would Stand My Ground ]
[ We Were Finally Able To Drive Him Back To Where He Now
Lives ]
[ When He Comes Here ]
[ He Still Has No Respect To Give ]
[ But He Can Now Take His Circus Act On The Road ]
[ Because Of His Temper ]
[ This Visit Was Blown ]
[ Better Luck Next Time ]
[ So Be On The Look-Out For Another Rhyme ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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