[ I Really Feel Like I Am Going Nowhere Fast ]
[ Sometimes I Want To Throw In The Towel ]
[ Because I Just Don’t Know If My Will To Live Is Going To Last ]
[ Last Until Tomorrow, Or The Day After That ]
[ I Am So Glad That I Do Not Have Nine Lives Like An
Ordinary Cat ]
[ I Don’t Feel Like I Have A Purpose Or A Goal ]
[ I Don’t Feel Like I Have Anything Left To Give, Deep Down In
My Soul ]
[ It Has Been Oh So Long Since I First Fell In This Hole ]
[ I Do Not Remember Ever Feeling Completely Whole ]
[ Where Do I Go Right Now? ]
[ Really? ]
[ How? ]
[ My Gas Tank Is Running On A Lower Level Then Fumes ]
[ My Presence Would Not Be Noticed, If I Came Or Left The Room ]
[ I Feel Like I Am An ‘Ain’t ]
[ I Never Stand Out ]
[ I Just Blend Into The Paint ]
[ To Me An ‘Ain’t Is Neither A Good Thing Or A Bad ]
[ I Am A Husband Of 25 Years ]
[ But I Am Not Respected As A Dad ]
[ I ‘Ain’t This & I ‘Ain’t That ]
[ If I Was To Ever Be Given An Androgynous Name, It Would
Definitely Be Pat ]
[ Something That You Can’t Tell If It Isn’t Or Is An Is ]
[ The Only Time That I Am In Front & Center Is When I Am Getting
Dissed ]
[ But That Is Never A Good Feeling ]
[ That Always Leaves Me Reeling ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
Author: rdvoe165
I Am A 62yrs Young Man, That Just Enjoys Writing Short Poetic Stories From My Thoughts. I Hope That You Enjoy Them As Much As I Do Writing Them.
(291)▪︎[ Kirsten & Cassidy … 4•6•2021 ]
[ Kirsten & Cassidy Make Quite The Pair ]
[ It Was A Nice Surprise ]
[ When I Got To Meet Cassidy When I Was There ]
[ Cassidy Came From Ohio ]
[ So Nicole & I Were More Than Happy To Greet
Her With A Warm Hello ]
[ I Am Sure That Everyone Feels That The Part Of The Country
That They Currently Reside In, Is The Best ]
[ But I Will Still Ask ]
[ How Do You Like Being In The Great Pacific Northwest? ]
[ How Did You Pick Our Itty ]
[ Bitty ]
[ … City? ]
[ When You Were Assigned To Kirsten To Shadow ]
[ You Will See That She Is The Best There Is ]
[ Because I Have Yet To Ask Her A Question Concerning My P.T.
That She Did Not Know ]
[ Kirsten Might Be Slender In Stature, But She Packs Alot Of
Power ]
[ She Doesn’t Ever Need A Rest @ The End Of The Hour ]
[ I Always Come To See Kirsten When My Body Is A Wreck ]
[ Right Now It Is My Foot, Back & Neck ]
[ I Haven’t Yet ]
[ & She Has Never Let ]
[ For Me To Ask Her To Cut Me Some Slack ]
[ Why Should I? ]
[ Because She Does Amazing Work On My Back ]
[ I Just Write Whatever Comes To My Mind ]
[ & I Write About People Who I Find ]
[ Are Really Kind ]
[ Even Before My Surgery The Subject Of P.T. Was Talked About
Really Nice ]
[ Before I Was Asked Where? ]
[ I Did Not Have To Think Of The Answer Twice ]
[ Kirsten Isn’t Done With Me Until I Feel Better ]
[ When I Look Back Over The Last Couple Of Years ]
[ I Am Always Thankful That I Met Her ]
[ I Actually Have A Hard Time With The Whole Premise Of Fate ]
[ & Sending Me To The Best Was Not A Mistake ]
[ I Could Compliment This Wonderful Therapist Until I Was Blue In
The Face ]
[ But This Is Not The Time Or The Place ]
[ I Was Very Impressed With Something That You Did Cassidy ]
[ This Was Something That I Don’t Usually See ]
[ It Wasn’t The Whole Time That Your Face Was Making A
Statement ]
[ Of Acknowledgement ]
[ It Was How You Approached The Table & You ]
[ Knew ]
[ What To Do ]
[ Today I Felt & Could See ]
[ That You Were NOT Just An Observer ]
[ I Had 2 Very Qualified Physical Therapists Helping Me ]
[ To Get To A Place That Time Forgot ]
[ That Is A Time & Day Where I Could Go Through A Whole Day …
OF Being Pain Free! ]
[ From The Bottom Of My Heart … I Say Thank You ]
[ Those Two Very Important Words ]
[ Are Always Way Over Due ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(215)▪︎[ The Culmination … 3•15•2021 ]
[ Tomorrow Is The Culmination Of 25 Years ]
[ Through It All There Has Been Lots Of Fears ]
[ & Tears ]
[ Faced & Shed ]
[ There Has Been Alot Of Thought Going In & Out Of
My Head ]
[ Tomorrow Is A Celebration Of Me Taking A Bride ]
[ & For The Most Part It Has Been A Wonderful Ride ]
[ All Marriages Are As Up & Down As A Roller Coaster ]
[ Most Days Are Very Pleasant ]
[ Some Make You Feel Like You Have Been Burnt Through A
Toaster ]
[ There Has Been Many Many Successes ]
[ With Very Little Expenses ]
[ Money Should Not Make Or Break A Marriage ]
[ It Should Not Cost Alot To Buy A Good Baby Carriage ]
[ What Is Important Is That You Cover All Of The Big Major
Points ]
[ So Nothing Surprises You ]
[ Or Makes Her Be Out Of Joints ]
[ But Surprises Come In Big & Small ]
[ Just Don’t Let Your Anger Encompass All ]
[ But Tomorrow You Will Wake Up In A Hospital Room ]
[ Celebrating 25 Years Of Being A Groom ]
[ I Wish You Luck In All Of Your Future Endeavors ]
[ Just Don’t Go Broke By Doing Too Many Favors ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(216)▪︎[ Nice Nurse Named Laurel … 3•15•2021 ]
[ Well, Here I Sit On Monday, March 15th, 2021 ]
[ I Was Excited For This Surgery ]
[ But Now I Am Really Glad That It Is Finally Done ]
[ Spending The Night Before My Anniversary Has
Never Been An Ultimate Dream Of Mine ]
[ But @ Least It Is Just One Day & Night ]
[ Instead Of Nine ]
[ This Is A Whole Lot Better Than My Eleven Days ]
[ Stay ]
[ Completely Different Circumstances Than The Time
Before ]
[ Back Then The Need For Care Was A Whole Lot More ]
[ One Thing Is Definitely The Same With All Of My Stays ]
[ & That Is The Appreciation I Have For The Salem Hospital’s
Nurse’s ]
[ Each & Every Day ]
[ This Time I Am On The 7th Floor ]
[ Five More ]
[ Than The Time Before ]
[ I Had Fantastic Nurses Then ]
[ & I Have Fantastic Nurses Now ]
[ So How Did I Ever Get So Lucky, Again? ]
[ My Nurse Right Now Is A Nice Woman Named Laurel ]
[ If The Head Of The Hospital Ever Asked Me If She Should Get A
Big Raise ]
[ I Would Not Quarrel ]
[ Nurse Laurel Is So Nice & Polite In Everything She Does ]
[ She Is Not Looking For Accolades ]
[ She Does It, Just Because ]
[ It Is Not In Her Job Description, It Is In Her ]
[ There Is No Hidden Agenda ]
[ Because Her Intentions Are Pure ]
[ I Am Sure There Must Be Days That Nurses Wished It Would Go
By Quicker ]
[ Those Must Be The Days When Each Patient Comes Feeling
Sicker ]
[ Sicker Than The One Prior ]
[ Or During The Period Of Times When We Had The Fires ]
[ Sometimes They Probably Go A Whole Day Without Someone
Saying ( THANK YOU ) ]
[ But That Is Not The Reason That They Do What They Do ]
[ It Is Sad To Think That The Doctor’s Get All Of The Glory While
The Nuses Do All The Work ]
[ & I Bet More Than 1 Out Of Every 5 Patients Can Be A Jerk ]
[ Then You Brought Up This Nice Nurse Named Matt To Replace
The I.V. ]
[ That Had Fallen Out Of Me ]
[ To Be A Great Nurse Like Laurel You Must Start ]
[ With A Nice Personality & A Big Heart ]
[ & Not Just Anyone Can Handle This Part ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(207)▪︎[ Full Circle … 3•12•2021 ]
[ There Are Some Things In Life That Come Full Circle ]
[ It Is Like The Gamble You Take When You Put Your
Hand In The Bag ]
[ To Pull Out Some Good Tiles While You Are Playing
The Game Called Quircle ]
[ I Tried & Tried To Be Accepted By Don ]
[ I Never Knew If I Was Doing Good ]
[ But I Sure Found Out If I Was Doing Something Wrong ]
[ I Have Come @ My Son From Every Angle That I Know ]
[ The Results Don’t Come In Slow ]
[ They Quickly Fly Into My Face As A ( NO ) ]
[ When I Was Around Don I Would Always Hold My Tongue ]
[ But My Son Has Been Cursing @ Me Since He Was
Really Young ]
[ I Never Did Anything To Don That Would Have Given Him Any
Reason To Permanently Walk Away ]
[ My Son Gives Me Many Reasons To Walk, Many Times A Day ]
[ Don Walked Away Because He Was Miffed ]
[ I Have Never Gone Anywhere When I Have Been So Pissed ]
[ My Son Never Gives Me A Single Reason To Want To Stay ]
[ Some Days I Just Smile & Say ]
[ ( OKAY! ) ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(205)▪︎[ About Her … 3•12•2021 ]
[ What Can You Do When You Feel So Broken
Hearted? ]
[ Does It Make You Feel Regret That You Ever Started? ]
[ When You Met Her ]
[ You Seemed So Sure ]
[ That Your Dating Days Were Done ]
[ Because You Thought She Was The One ]
[ The One To Be Your Wife ]
[ The One Who Will Be On Your Arm ]
[ Giving You A Happy Life ]
[ It All Fell Apart When You Caught Her Cheating ]
[ & Then She Refused To Answer Your Questions ]
[ Last Monday Night When You Were Eating ]
[ This Is Not The First Time That You Turned The
Other Cheek ]
[ From The Other Times That She Had Cheated ]
[ Because She Takes Your Kindness As Being Weak? ]
[ This Is Not The First, Second Or Third Time ]
[ All The While Living Off Of Your Dime ]
[ What Has She Done Since You Two Got Married? ]
[ What Part Of The Burden Has She Carried? ]
[ She Gets Money Because Of Her Great Grandfather’s
Trust ]
[ Getting A Job Throughout Her Life Was Never A Must ]
[ She Has Never Had To Live Alone ]
[ She Has Never Had Disconnect Letters Concerning Her
Cell Phone ]
[ Or Wondered When Her Next Meal Will Come ]
[ She Has Never Sat @ An Empty Table & Wondered Where That
Meal Will Come From ]
[ She Has Been Treated Like A Little Princess Every Day &
Night ]
[ How Would She Like Living When PGE Turned Off The Lights? ]
[ She Is Going To Learn Fast ]
[ Because Tomorrow I Am Taking My Life Back ]
[ By Kicking Her Out On Her Ass ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(620)▪︎[ Some People … 7•26•2021 ]
[ Sometimes People Need To Get Out Of Their Own Way ]
[ Like What They Say ]
[ To Make It Through Their Day ]
[ To Even Reach The Norm ]
[ Some People Will Have To Try To Conform ]
[ & Get Rid Of Their Arrogant Attitude ]
[ Because That Ruins Everyone’s Mood ]
[ & When That Does Not Do Them Any Good ]
[ They Think That Everyone Else Is Wrong ]
[ & They Are Misunderstood ]
[ Everybody Else Is Wrong ]
[ Is Their Favorite Song ]
[ They Sing That Song To Themselves Every Night & Everyday ]
[ ( I AM NEVER WRONG! ) Is What They Say ]
[ There Just Seems To Be One Problem ]
[ They Just Can’t Get Anybody To Agree With Them ]
[ Sometimes What They Say Is Misconstrued ]
[ But Then Other Times What They Say, Comes Out Rude ]
[ They’ve Never Met ]
[ Someone Who Could Sit & Go Over Proper Etiquette ]
[ With Them Yet ]
[ They Have Asked Around ]
[ There Are No Volunteers To Be Found ]
[ Nobody Has The Patience ]
[ Their Asks Are Always Met With Silence ]
[ Silence Is Not Their Friend ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(343)▪︎[ It Was All A Shame … 4•25•2021 ]
[ Is Part Of The Healing Process, Showing The Ability
To Keep Moving On? ]
[ Especially After Your Love For One Another Has Gone? ]
[ Gone, But Not Forfotten ]
[ & Thought Of Often ]
[ Could She Ever Budge ]
[ On That Long, Drawn-Out Grudge? ]
[ That Is The Main Reason She Left ]
[ Because Of That One Imaginary Theft ]
[ She Made A Mountain Out Of A Mole Hill ]
[ When She Asked You To Explain ]
[ You Gladly Said ( I WILL ) ]
[ But She Did Not Believe ]
[ A Single Word ]
[ So She Said ( THEN I THINK I WILL LEAVE ) ]
[ @ Least That Is What You Heard ]
[ But After Flipping Her Lid ]
[ That Is Not What She Did ]
[ She Drew This Out For Days ]
[ Then Months ]
[ Trying To Find Different Ways ]
[ To Get The Answer She Wanted ]
[ ( I WILL LEAVE YOU ) Is What She Taunted ]
[ But You Held Your Ground ]
[ You Have Become Tired Of Being Pushed Around ]
[ Many Times You Paced Around The Floor ]
[ How Can You Take Anymore? ]
[ It Has Gotten So Bad That When The Thoughts Stay In
Your Head ]
[ So Much So ]
[ You No Longer Want To Sleep With Her In The Same Bed ]
[ Because From What You Know ]
[ The Romance Has Been Dead ]
[ When She First Made That Accusation ]
[ That You Stole Her Lucky Penny ]
[ That Changed The Whole Direction ]
[ Of Her Faith In You ]
[ But You Know That Stealing Is NOT What You Do ]
[ So She Was Not Giving You The Respect That You Were
Due ]
[ So During One Of Her Many Drunken Nights ]
[ You Put Two Doses Worth Of Xyrem In Her Drink ]
[ So She Would Pass Out Instead Of Starting Fights ]
[ Then It Gave You Time To Think ]
[ Then Your Alarm Clock Goes Off In The Morning ]
[ & You Laugh Because Your Dreams Are Definitely Not
Boring ]
[ But They Are True ]
[ & When She Went Missing They Centered On You ]
[ & Now, Three Years Later ]
[ They Don’t Have A Single Idea Or Clue ]
[ What Happened ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(333)▪︎[ So Much Pain … 4•22•2021 ]
[ There Is So Much Pain Busting @ The Seams In Your Heart ]
[ When Another Dart Is Thrown ]
[ It Continues To Tear You Apart ]
[ It May Be A Word ]
[ That You Heard ]
[ Or An Action That Was Done ]
[ But You Found Out A Long Time Ago ]
[ That Hurtful Words Are Things That You Cannot Out Run ]
[ They Find You By Seeking You Out ]
[ It Could Be A Whisper ]
[ Or It Could Be A Shout ]
[ The Whispered Hurtful Words Do Not Draw A Crowd ]
[ But, What Always Does ]
[ Are The Ones That Are Said Out Loud ]
[ Those Are The Ones That Always Draws Others Attention ]
[ & Because It Does ]
[ There Are Higher Levels Of Contention ]
[ Sometimes Hurtful Words Are Said Because Someone
Lied ]
[ When Hurtful Words Are Said ]
[ You Want To Run & Hide ]
[ Not In A Playful Way Of Another Game Of Hide -n- Seek ]
[ These Words Can Create Such Big Problems ]
[ It Could Cause Two People To Not Want To Speak ]
[ To Each Other ]
[ Like To Your Father ]
[ Like With Your Mother ]
[ That Has Happend So Many Times In Your Past ]
[ Their Grudges Were Created To Last ]
[ You Were Written Off By Both Your Dad & Mom ]
[ @ One Time You Were Dealing With Don ]
[ Then You Had To Deal With Barbara’s Bomb ]
[ Through The Whole Accusatory Conversation You Had
With Barbara You Remained Respectful ]
[ You Did Not Need To Be ]
[ You Did Not Have To Be ]
[ So You Were Careful ]
[ Because You Were Expected To Be ]
[ Because You Were Raised To Be ]
[ You Had So Many Occasions Where You Could Have Laughed
It Off ]
[ & You Had Just As Many Times Where You Could Have Said
( FUCK YOU BARBARA ) In A Fake Cough ]
[ One Problem Is That You Don’t Go Against How You Were
Raised ]
[ This Was The Under The Same Roof Where You Craved ]
[ To Be Praised ]
[ But It Never Came ]
[ That Is Why Mom & Dad Were Never Looked @ The Same ]
[ That Is Why ( MOM ) & ( DAD ) Were No Longer Their
Names ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(349)▪︎[ On An Island … 4•26•2021 ]
[ Being Alone On An Island Causes Depressing Thoughts ]
[ Looking Up To The Blue Sky ]
[ Makes You See Spots ]
[ But There Should Not Be Any There ]
[ Floating In The Air ]
[ But There They Are, Dancing On The Clouds ]
[ & Then The Silence Of It All ]
[ Can Get So Loud ]
[ So Loud, It Hurts Your Ears ]
[ You Have No Idea How Often This Happens ]
[ But This Has Happened Many Many Times Throughout The Years ]
[ It Is Just A Feeling That You Get ]
[ It Is Also A Feeling That You Would Love To Forget ]
[ It Is The Raw Kind ]
[ That Kicks You From Behind ]
[ Because You’ll Find ]
[ It Is Not A Feeling That Easily Leaves My Mind ]
[ You Just Want To Sleep It Away ]
[ But You Always Know ]
[ It Will Come & Visit Me On Another Day ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
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