Author: rdvoe165

I Am A 62yrs Young Man, That Just Enjoys Writing Short Poetic Stories From My Thoughts. I Hope That You Enjoy Them As Much As I Do Writing Them.

(479)▪︎[ What Do They Call … 6•9•2021 ]

[ How Does One Look Back & Write About Their Life? ]
[ Do They Sit Down & Look For That Light? ]

[ The Light That Flicks On That Helps You Make Sense
     Of It All ]
[ That Light That Comes That Illuminates That Upcoming
     Wall? ]

[ Oh Ya, That ]
[ As You Bend Over To Pick Up Your Hat ]

[ That Fell On The Floor Because Of The Wind ]
[ Has Just Now Blown In ]

[ But Back To Trying To See ]
[ What You Can Drag Out Of Your Memory ]

[ Why Do They Call It Your Memory Bank? ]
[ Sometimes The Memories Move As Fast As A Tank ]

[ But Sometimes Not As Obvious ]


~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo iā ‘oe  ]
[  A hui hou mākou  ]
[  Aloha  ] ‎ 
  ‎
[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe ]

(1091)▪︎[ Where Is Your Footprint? … 12•30•2021 ]

[ If You Die Young ]
[ & There Was A Celebration Of Life Going On ]
[ Would Anybody Come? ]
[ Or Would Every Loved One Be Gone? ]

[ Have You Been Going So Fast ]  
[ That You Didn’t Leave Your Footprint On Anything In
     Your Past? ]
[ Will There Be Any Remnants Of You, That Will Last? ]

[ Can You See Any Kind Of A Footprint? ]
[ Or Is That Just Pocket Lint? ]

[ Where Did The Time Go? ]
[ Do You Know? ]

[ It Seems That You Don’t ]
[ Will Your Neighbors Know Or Help? ]
[ You Bet They Won’t ]

[ How Come The Only Help ]
[ You Can Get ]
[ Is From The Lone Review On Yelp? ]

[ You Look & Look ]
[ But There Is Zero Chit Chat On Facebook ]

[ What About Your 100’s Of So Called Friends ]
[ Did Any Stick By You Through The End ]

[ You Are Finding Out That You Left Nothing Of Worth ]
[ On This Earth ]

[ Not In Your House ]
[ Or Words From Your Grieving Spouse ]

[ But You Quickly Find That She Is Not Grieving ]
[ She Is Packing Up & Leaving ]

[ Going Into The Unknown ]
[ Since All Of Your Life Insurance Has Been Blown ]

[ Why Should She Stay? ]
[ Another Week? ]
[ Or Another Day ]

[ Would You Want To Bet ]
[ That You Will Not Even Find Your Favorite Jacket?  ]

[ Would That Be Given To The Goodwill Store? ]
[ Since It Does Not Have A Purpose Anymore ]

[ Did You Cherish Money Over Time Spent With Others? ]
[ When You Did Find The Time ]
[ You Chose To Stay Under Your Covers ]

[ How Come There Is Not A Single Clue ]
[ That There Has Been Any Footprint Made By You? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo iā ‘oe  ]
[  A hui hou mākou  ]
[  Aloha  ] ‎ 
  ‎
[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe ]

(1088)▪︎[ Falling … 12•18•2021 ]

[ You Sit There ]
[ Hoping That This Would Help You To Repair ]

[ The Noises That Are Going On In Your Mind ]
[ Because This Is Far From ]
[ Going Dakine ]
[ That Is Something That Your Conscious Mind Has To Tell
     Your Subconscious Mind ]

[ So Sit Back & Relax ]
[ Make Sure That You Take Off Your Mask ]
[ So Your Breathing Is Not Taxed ]

[ Let’s Go ]
[ Into A Place That You Really Don’t Know ]

[ & That Is The Place Of Total Relaxation ]
[ The Opposite Form Of Maxation ]

[ Not Letting Your Mind Go Somewhere ]
[ Because It Cannot Go Anywhere ]

[ So You Sit Back & Wait ]
[ For The Gate ]

[ To Be Opened ]
[ Then ]

[ You Start To Fall ]
[ You Don’t Reach For Your Phone, To Make A Call ]

[ Because Then ]
[ You Find ]
[ That Everyone There, Is Irrelevant ]

[ Except One ]
[ The One Sane Person That Is Not Done ]
[ On This Run ]

[ You Are Still Falling ]
[ In Pitch Black Air ]
[ & You Are Not Balling ]

[ Your Eyes Out ]
[ Because This Little Hour Of Time ]
[ You Have No Doubt ]

[ That You Were Safe & Sound ]
[ From All Sides Around ]

[ The Falling Part You Could Not Comprehend ]
[ Was It Supposed To Lead To A Dead-End? ]

[ Or To A New Beginning ]
[ Where There Is Nothing But Winning ]

[ So What Happened To Nice Guys Always Finishes Last? ]
[ Well That Was With Another Cast ]

[ The One Person In Your Life That Is Always Relevant To You
     In Your Life ]
[ That Is Nicole, Your Wife ]

[ Forever & Ever … Amen ]
[ She Has Always Been ]
[ The (THEN) & The (WHEN) ]

[ Of Your Past ]
[ Present ]
[ & Future ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1089)▪︎[ I Can’t Wait … 12•29•2021 ]

[ Oh, Cavarona Cavarona ]
[ I Sure Am Going To Miss Ya ]

[ I Know That Several Weeks Can Go By ]
[ In Between The Days When You Can Stop By To Say (HI) ]

[ The Main Point There Is That You CAN Do That ]
[ But You Can’t When You Are In The State Where Men
     Primarily Wears A Cowboy Hat ]

[ Cavarona You Are Often A Ray Of Sunshine When All
     There Is Outside Is Rain ]
[ Sometimes Your Texts Or Phone Calls Are Able To Wash
     Away My Internal Pain ]

[ You Are Able To Look Inside Of Me ]
[ & You Are Not Afraid Of What You See ]

[ I Have Always Given Credit Where Credit Is Due ]
[ I Give The Credit For My Growth To You ]

[ You Challenged Me Around Every Corner ]
[ I Was Not Able To Hide No Longer ]
[ Like Little Jack Horner ]

[ You Are Able To Lift My Spirits ]
[ You Taught Me To No Longer To Take Any Shit ]

[ Because I’ve Taken Shit For Way Too Long ]
[ You Showed Me How That Was Wrong ]
[ With Your Encouraging Words ]
[ I’ve Been Able To Stand Up & Stay Strong ]

[ There Is Absolutely Nothing About You That I Don’t
     Like ]
[ Before You, I Was Only Able To Ride A Trike ]
[ Now I Have Graduated To Maneuvering ]
[ On An Expensive Mountain Bike ]

[ You Inspire Me With How You Are So Alive ]
[ & How You Always Strive ]
[ To Thrive ]

[ You Know Me Almost As Well As You Know Yourself ]
[ You Have Been The Best Best Friend ]
[ Alot Better Then Anyone Else ]

[ I Will Have To Find A Way ]
[ To Keep Myself From Wanting To See You ]
[ While You Are Away ]

[ I Hope The Best For Your Family, Especially Concerning
     The Health Of Your Mother ]
[ I Know That You Have Really Missed Seeing The Smiling
     Faces Of Your Sisters & Brother ]

[ Wrap Them In A Hug & Hold Them Tight ]
[ Then Step Back & Enjoy The Sight ]
[ Always Show Them Love ]
[ Before You Part For The Night ]

[ Always Know That I Can’t Wait For You To Return ]
[ Because Through Our Friendship I Have Come To Learn ]
[ When I Don’t See That Beautiful Face For A Long Time
     My Stomach Will Burn ]

[ When You Come Back I Will Greet You With Excitement
     @ My Door ]
[ & Tell You That I’ve Missed You More ]
[ Than Ever Before ]

[ & Then I Will Give You A Great Big Hug & Not Let Go ]
[ Because I Always Want You To Know ]
[ I Was Sad That You Went ]
[ But I Do Understand Why You Had To Go ]

[ Now I’ll Be Ecstatic When You Get Back Here ]
[ & Once Again You Will Be Near ]

[ & When You Come To My Place ]
[ You Will See A Big Smile On My Face ]

[ Because You Are Home ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1076)▪︎[ He Was My Brother … 12•26•2021 ]

[ Oh Brother Brent, I Miss You So Much ]
[ I Wish You Were Here ]
[ So I Could Stick You With Our Bill For Lunch ]

[ I Always Love To Tease You About Your Choice Of A Pro Football Team ]
[ Winning More Games Than They Lost ]
[ Was Always Their Seasonal Dream ]

[ I Bet You Yearn For Teams From Their Winning Years ]
[ Now All They Do Is Cause You To Shed Lots Of Tears ]

[ If You Want To Compare Teams & Things ]
[ It Always Bothered You ]
[ That My Steelers Have So Many More Rings ]

[ I Always Tried To Bring You Over For A Winning Ride ]
[ But I Could Never Tear You Away From The Dark Side ]

[ I Was Always The Older, Taller, Skinnier, Better Looking One ]
[ & You Always Have Been The One That I Make Fun ]

[ Of ]
[ But I Only Do It Out Of Love ]

[ It Always Bothered You That I Was The Tallest ]
[ & I’m Sorry To Tell You Brother ]
[ You’ve Always Been … The Smallest ]

[ I Miss Our Phone Calls That Always Lasted More Than Hour ]
[ Making Me Laugh & Smile ]
[ Was Your Super Power ]

[ Well I Hope You Will Always Be Up There Watching Over Me ]
[ I Know That’s The Only Thing You Would Do For Free ]

[ Because Here, Free Was Always Your Favorite Price ]
[ When You Could ]
[ You Always Went Back Twice ]

[ But You Decided To Leave Before I Got There ]
[ I Wanted To Give You A Big Hug ]
[ & To Tell You How Much I Care ]

[ Your Picture Will Always Be On My Phone ]
[ & The Sound Of Your Voice Will Forever Be On My Mind ]
[ To Me You’ve Always Shown ]
[ That You Are One Of A Kind ]

[ Talking On The Phone With Your Daughter ]
[ Will Always Remind Me Of You ]
[ Her Father ]

[ Well I Better End This Note ]
[ You Know I’ll Always Laugh About How You Used To Vote ]

[ Trump For 2020? ]
[ No Thanks ]
[ We’ve Already Have Had Plenty ]

[ I Miss You More Than I Can Write ]
[ I’m Glad The Thought Of You ]
[ Was The Last One That I Have Tonight ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo iā ‘oe  ]
[  A hui hou mākou  ]
[  Aloha  ] ‎ 
  ‎
[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe ]

(855)▪︎[ The Best Of The Best … 6•22•2019 ]

[ Life Is Like A Competition For The Best Of The Best ]
[ Every New Day Comes With A Harder Test ]

[ There Is No Pillow Talk ]
[ Life Is Not A Leiserly Walk ]

[ There Are Days When You Need To Be Awake & Alert
24/7 ]
[ When You Need Encouragement ]
[ Do You Look Upward, Towards The Heavens? ]

[ What Exactly Gives You The Courage To Move On
These Days? ]
[ Do You Find The Guts & The Ways? ]

[ & Reasons To Stay? ]
[ Does The Thought Of Ignorant People ]
[ Give You The Idea To Walk Away? ]

[ So What If You Walked Away Tomorrow? ]
[ Would There Be The Need ]
[ To Find Money To Borrow? ]

[ What Causes ]
[ You To Make So Many Pauses? ]

[ Sometimes To Figure That Out You Must Look Within ]
[ But When Or Where Do You Begin? ]

[ The Sin Of Your Past ]
[ Were Those So Serious That The Animosity & Pain ]
[ Continue To Last? ]

[ Are You Made Of Soft Material That Turns Completely
Hard ]
[ When Things Are Removed ]
[ Do They Leave Lifelong Scars? ]

[ What Do You Decide To Fix? ]
[ What Do You Nix? ]

[ Are You Set? ]
[ What Things Should You Forget? ]
[ What Decisions Do You Regret? ]

[ There Is Nothing Wrong ]
[ When You Have Situations ]
[ Where You Are Not Strong ]

[ Let Bygones Be Gone ]
[ & Keep Moving … Forward ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1100)▪︎[ Sometimes … 8•29•2019 ]

[ Sometimes When You Write, You Might Sound
Depressed ]
[ Suppressed Or Oppressed ]

[ Most Times You Are Neither ]
[ Because You Don’t Have To Pick, Either ]

[ You Want Others To See, That You Write What’s On
Your Mind ]
[ Sometimes, The Thoughts Are Not Too Kind ]
[ But Maybe, That Helps You Unwind ]
[ After You Rewind ]

[ You Don’t Mean To Cut Anybody Off ]
[ You Never Write Things Just To Look Soft ]
[ It’s Like Taking That First Step Out Of A Loft ]

[ Don’t Let The Ground Break Your Fall ]
[ Don’t Always Follow The Bouncing Ball ]
[ If You Must ]
[ Give Your Brother A Call ]

[ You Could Call Your Brother Anytime Of The Day Or
Night ]
[ & Even Though He Lives So Far Out Of Your Sight ]
[ You Two Always Laugh, You Don’t Fight ]

[ You Call Your Thoughts Clouds ]
[ Some Float By Quietly ]
[ While Others Stay & Are Really Loud ]
[ It Sucks When They Draw A Crowd ]

[ You Try To Be A Quiet, Boring, Private Person In Real
Life ]
[ The Only Time You Are Colorful Is When You Write ]
[ When It Comes To Your Son & Wife ]
[ You Desperately Want To Keep Them Out Of The
Light ]
[ Unless They Make The Choice ]
[ To Shine When THEY Think It’s Right ]

[ You Know That You Write About PTSD ]
[ But PTSD Doesn’t Define You ]
[ It Is Something That You Have Because Of Something
That You Experienced That Was Really Painful To
See ]

[ & Hear ]
[ Thankfully It Didn’t Make You Turn To Getting Drunk
Every Night Off Wine Or Beer ]
[ But You Still Hear It Over Here & There All Too Clear ]
[ & If You Have Debilitating Flashbacks That You Fear ]

[ If You By Chance Write Something That Comes Across
As Depressing ]
[ There Might By Chance Be Something That You’re Stressing ]

[ Politely Tell You To Put It In Park ]
[ By Giving A Nice Reply ]
[ Or A Helpful Remark ]

[ Nobody Is Up On Their (A) Game 24/7 ]
[ If You Always Shoot For A (10) Can You Sometimes Hit An (11?) ]

[ If You Are @ A Loss For Words & Don’t Know What To
Say ]
[ Just Figure That Life Doesn’t Always Work That Way ]
[ But You Do Enjoy The Replies & Remarks That Others Give,
Anyday ]

[ You Like The Positive, Constructive, Flattering
Comments That You Have Received ]
[ You Leave It All On The Table ]
[ & Hide Nothing Up Your Sleeve ]
[ You Never Write A Single Word To Try To Deceive ]
[ So Now, You See, You’re @ A Loss For Words ]
[ So You Think That You’ll Leave ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1070)▪︎[ Socks Needed … 12•25•2021 ]

[ Whenever You Reach Out, Is There Always Someone There? ]
[ Are They There For Kicks & Giggles? ]
[ Or Is It Because They Care? ]

[ It Is Tough, To Remain Empty Handed ]
[ Because Helping You, Has Never Been Demanded ]

[ Sometimes, You Go About Life All Alone ]
[ You Turn On Your Phone ]
[ & Get Nothing, But The Dial Tone ]

[ It Is Hard To Look @ Your Message Emoji ]
[ There Is Never, A Number To See ]

[ You Are On A Solitary Path ]
[ Just Like Doing Your Problems, In Math ]

[ You Think Things, Through In Your Head ]
[ You Always Retain, What You Just Read ]

[ You Do Your Walking, Mostly @ Night ]
[ The Moon & Stars, Make Quite The Sight ]

[ Where You Go, Is Not Planned ]
[ There Are No Timed, Demands ]

[ You Seek Shelter, When It Rains Or It Is Too Hot ]
[ To Walk ]

[ You Eat, When You Are Able ]
[ Sometimes, Kind Hearted People Invite You To Eat With Them ]
[ @ Their Table ]

[ Those Are The Ones ]
[ That You Steal Everything From ]

[ You Tie Everybody Up, After You All Eat ]
[ You Throw Their Shoes Out The Back Door ]
[ So They Would Be Left, With Bare Feet ]

[ When You Find A Bigger Backpack Than Yours ]
[ So Then You Will Leave Your Old One By The Garage Doors ]

[ When You Say Everything, Well This Might Come Across
     Quite Odd ]
[ The Only Things That You Steal, Are The Men’s Socks ]

[ Having Dry, Clean Socks Is A Must ]
[ You Feel Kind Of Bad, To All Of The Ones Who You Gave
     False-Trust ]

[ Not Too Many People Go To The Police To Report This Kind
     Of Theft ]
[ You Always Make Sure There Was (2) Or (3) Pairs Of Socks Left ]

[ If They Only Had (5), You Would Leave (2) ]
[ You Always Thought That Was The Polite Thing To Do ]

[ You Made Sure That The Family Has Been Comfortable Where
     They Were @ ]
[ Maybe A Pillow Where They Sat ]

[ One Thing You Loved To Do Was Stop In People’s Houses &
     Take Long Showers ]
[ You Always Made Sure The Dog Had Fresh Water & Food To
     Eat For The Next Couple Of Hours ]

[ You Made The Time To Do Your Dirty Laundry & Your Shoes ]
[ You Go Your List Of Don’ts & Do’s ]

[ On Your Way Out, You Apologize For The Bad Situation You
     Put The Family In ]
[ Then You Ask Them (1) Question ]
[ (WILL YOU EVER LET THIS HAPPEN, AGAIN?) ]

[ You Hope Not ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(562)▪︎[ A Horrible Memory … 4•18•2019 ]

[ PTSD Is A Horrible Thing To Go Through Life With ]
[ Some People Say (GET OVER IT) ]
[ (KEEP A STIFF UPPER LIP) ]
[ Well Those People Who Like To Shoot From The Hip ]
[ Think They Know How It Is ]
[ But They Don’t Know Shit ]

[ Take The Worst Thing That Ever Happened To You ]
[ Remember The Feelings, Fear Or Fright ]
[ Times That By Two ]
[ Then Relive That Day Or Night ]

[ You Are Completely Back In The Event, Sight, Smell &
Sound ]
[ Were You Standing Up ]
[ Or Were You On The Ground ]

[ Do You Remember What You Did? ]
[ Were You Out In The Open ]
[ Or Were You Hid ]
[ Were You An Adult? ]
[ Or Were You Just A Kid ]

[ Does It Tease ]
[ Your Mind ]
[ Or Does It Freeze ]
[ You @ The Same Time? ]

[ Are You Wide Awake When It Happens ]
[ Is It Your Spirit That It Dampens ]

[ One Never Knows When A Flashback Will Hit ]
[ It’s Like Playing A Game With A Long Snake ]
[ & Out Of Nowhere You Get Bit ]

[ The Length Of A Flashback Can Be Short Or Long ]
[ It All Depends On If You Are Strong ]

[ Or Weak ]
[ PTSD Can Crush The Meak ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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