(374)▪︎[ Alex Is Sick … 5•25•2022 ]

[ Hey Aex, I Feel Bad That You Are Feeling Ill ]
[ & You Won’t Get Better By Taking A Magical Pill ]

[ If There Was (1) @ My Pharmacy, I Think That It Would
Be Worth The Walk ]
[ Along The Way We Would Have A Good Talk ]

[ If I Decide To Invest My Time With You (WHICH WAS A VERY EASY
DECISION)
[ I Don’t Want A Confession ]

[ I Just Want To Know A Little Bit About You ]
[ Besides What Brie Has Said About You Two ]
[ I Do Not Have A Clue ]

[ This Is What I Know … ]

[ You Have Always Been A Stand-Up Guy ]
[ You Do Not Accept Or Tell A Lie ]

[ It Is Understood ]
[ That You Like Lots Of Food ]

[ You Are Tolerate ]
[ That Is Very Important ]

[ You Shower Brie With Love Everyday ]
[ In All Kinds Of Ways ]

[ You Are A Man’s Man ]
[ That Is Something That Makes You Give A Damn ]

[ You Are Very Understanding ]
[ & That Is Outstanding ]

[ You Have The Patience To Give A Stranger The Time Of Day
On The Phone ]
[ Even Though I Am Totally Unknown ]

[ You Always Put Brie First ]
[ Even Though You Are The (1) With The Dying Thirst ]

[ Right Now Brie Has To Go Into Caregiver Mode ]
[ & Carry The Load ]

[ I Am Just Sitting Here In The Living Room Waiting For
Emily To Change My Bed ]
[ & Yes I Would Rather Be There Leaning Against The Pillows
Instead ]

[ I Don’t Pray, But I Send You Good Thoughts ]
[ I Hope This Doesn’t Come Across As Just Seeing Spots! ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(855)▪︎[ Tough Thoughts … 10•9•2020 ]

[ It Is Really Tough To Realize That You Are Not Important
Enough For Someone To Always Be There ]
[ Some People Have Someone That Would Drop Anything
To Show That They Care ]

[ That Is Tough To Realize ]
[ & It Really Cuts You Down To Size ]

[ There Are People That You Would Drop Everything For Them In
Times Of Need ]
[ It Is Tough To Know That You Are Not Even Important Enough
To Feed ]

[ You Constantly Listen To Others To See How You Can Make
Their Lives Easier ]
[ You Do This @ Your Leisure ]

[ You Share & You Give ]
[ Your Goal In Life Is To Help Others Live ]

[ You Send People Uplifting Stories Just To Check-In ]
[ You Do This Again & Again ]

[ Everybody Is So Busy With Their Inner Circle, But You Are
Not In It ]
[ It Makes You Feel Like Shit ]
[ & Gives You Reasons To Just Quit ]

[ You Are Not Worthy Of A Text During The Day ]
[ You Are Not Important Enough For Anyone To Say ]
[ (HOW ARE YOU DOING TODAY?) ]

[ Is That Asking Too Much Of Others? ]
[ You Have No Mother ]
[ & God Selfishly Took Your Only Brother ]

[ Who Checks In With You? ]
[ Not One Person ]
[ So There Definitely Isn’t Two ]

[ You’ve Never Wanted To Be Loud ]
[ You Just Don’t Fit Into The Crowds ]

[ Do You Smell? ]
[ Bad? ]
[ Do You Not Explain Yourself Well? ]
[ When You Are Mad? ]

[ What Is It About You That Turns People Off? ]
[ Is It The Way That You Look? ]
[ Or Is It How You Talk? ]

[ Something About You Repels ]
[ Instead Of Attracts ]
[ Nobody Tells ]
[ You ]
[ Before The Attacks ]

[ People Can Attack Through Their Use Of Silence ]
[ That Is So Much Harder To Combat ]
[ & More Hurtful ]
[ Than Physical Violence ]

[ They Shut You Out In Front Of Your Face ]
[ You Become The Only One That Is Not Part Of The Discussion ]
[ In The Entire Place ]

[ It Makes You To Want To Become A Shut-In ]
[ Again ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(656)▪︎[ No Eye Contact … 7•29•2020 ]

[ Society Has Changed How We Deal With Each Other ]
[ Right Now We Don’t Even Acknowledge Another ]

[ The Person In My Line Of Sight ]
[ I Want Him To Veer To My Left ]
[ While I Turn Right ]

[ & It Has Been Awhile ]
[ Since I Tried To Make A Stranger Smile ]

[ It Seems Like The Feeling In The Air ]
[ Is That Nobody Cares ]

[ Not Even A Little Bit ]
[ Or Give’s A Shit ]
[ & If You Don’t Have The Right Facial Expression ]
[ You Take The Chance Of Getting Hit ]

[ That Is One Big Reason Why ]
[ I Don’t Make Contact With The Other Guys ]
[ Eyes ]

[ In No Way ]
[ On Any Day ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(650)▪︎[ I Am Not Just PTSD … 7•27•2020 ]

[ Okay, I Realize That I Have P.T.S.D. ]
[ But My P.T.S.D. Does Not Define Me ]

[ I Was Asked To Find The Meaning For Me ]
[ Because Having This Does Not Feel Happy ]

[ This Kind Of Blissful Thinking ]
[ Would Definitely Lead To Hard Drinking ]

[ Which Is Not Something That I Want To Do ]
[ Would Any One Of You? ]
[ Want That Too? ]

[ Because Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ]
[ Is Like Reliving A Horrible Event ]
[ By Pushing The Play Button On Your Minds Digital Recorder ]

[ You Should Always Feel Blessed ]
[ If You Never Have To Deal With This Mess ]
[ But If You Do ]
[ Never Think Of Yourself As Being Any Less ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(375)▪︎[ Ms. Allison … 5•26•2022 ]

[ There Was A Knock On The Door, Who Could It Be ]
[ It Was A Younger, Smiling Caregiver I See ]

[ Her Name Is Allison, Or Ali To Her Friends, She Was Stating ]
[ I Would Give Her An (A+) If I Was Going To Give Her A Rating ]

[ She Conquers Every Task ]
[ When Asked ]

[ She Gives Me A Smile, Instead Of A Bad Attitude ]
[ She Showed Me An Even Amount Of Gratitude ]

[ When Given Something Small In Size ]
[ She Gives Me A Smile That Makes Me Realize ]

[ How Nice It Is To Be Smiled @ ]
[ Instead Of Yelled @ ]
[ Or Glared @ ]

[ Some CG Just Come To Earn A Paycheck ]
[ Not Just To Keep An Eye Open ]
[ So They Can Peak In & Check ]

[ Allison Is Confident But Not Really Full Of Herself ]
[ She Also Doesn’t Compare Herself To Anyone Else ]

[ She Is A One Of A Kind ]
[ In Everyone’s Mind ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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[850][ My Mind Is So Loud … 10•7•2020 ]

[ When It Is Quiet Around Me My Mind Can Be So Loud ]
[ When I’m Alone @ Night ]
[ I Hear The Noise Of A Crowd ]

[ It Is Not Like I Hear Voices In My Head ]
[ I Hear Rumbling Instead ]

[ I Just Want To Shut It Out ]
[ I Really Don’t Know What The Noise Is All About ]
[ That Just Leaves Me With All Kinds Of Doubt ]

[ That The Answer Would Come To Me Soon ]
[ Or Anywhere Close To Tomorrow @ Noon ]

[ If The Answer Would Come Fast ]
[ I Could Put This All In The Past ]

[ I Will Continue To Be Numb ]
[ Until This Cathartic Event Will Come ]

[ Would The Messages Be Clear? ]
[ When I t Is Near? ]

[ I Hope That I Won’t Fall Asleep Waiting & Waiting ]
[ That Is Not A Demand ]
[ I Was Stating ]
[ How This Could Be So Frustrating ]

[ It Should Not Be Like This ]
[ It Was Certainly Not On My To Do List ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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[352]▪︎[ Loss … 5•13•2022 ]

[ How Does One Deal With Loss? ]
[ @ First It Feels Like Pain Is The Boss ]

[ Nothing Moves Without Permission ]
[ Relief Is Your Own Mission ]

[ It Is Hard To Think ]
[ That You Will Never Go Over To Their House For A Drink ]

[ No More Going For A Ride ]
[ Now You Want To Stay Home & Hide ]

[ Hide From The Pain & The Despair ]
[ Because You No Longer Want To Care ]

[ Care Is A Funny Word ]
[ Sometimes It Is The Worse ]
[ That You Have Ever Heard ]

[ You Want To Lock That Feeling Into A Silent Cage ]
[ Along With The Word Rage ]

[ You Won’t Be Able To Afford The Effort ]
[ Because In (30) Days You Will Find Yourself In Court ]

[ For You Were The Driver, When Your Best Friend Died ]
[ Ever Since, You Have Cried ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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[1002][ Where Are We … 12•1•2020 ]

[ How Have We Got To Where We Now Are? ]
[ It Was Not By Plane, Bus Or Car ]
[ Sometimes It Feels ]
[ That Our Distance Is Now So Far ]

[ Apart ]
[ & The Reality Is ]
[ It Hurts My Heart ]

[ I Think Of Right Off The Bat ]
[ When You Asked ]
[ You Say (OH I DIDN’t THINK OF THAT) ]

[ How Simple Can It Be ]
[ To Think Of Me? ]

[ You Say That You Feel Forgotten ]
[ How? Why? ]
[ I Tell You That I Think Of You Often ]

[ When I Go Places, The Only Thing That I Bring Back Is For You ]
[ Why? ]
[ Because That Is What I Do ]
[ Not Because I ]
[ Think That You’re Due ]

[ When You Ask Me To Do Something, I Do It Right Away ]
[ Because I Might Forget ]
[ & Put It Back In My Mind For Later That Day ]

[ You Are Right, We Do Things In Different Ways ]
[ But When You Put Things Off ]
[ Does The Memory Stay? ]

[ Alot Of Times It Still Seems Perfectly Clear ]
[ Your Thoughts ]
[ Are Thinking Of Somewhere Else, Not Here ]

[ It Is Really Sad ]
[ But We Need A Third Party Intervention ]
[ Really, Really Bad ]

[ Like Yesterday, Or Sooner ]
[ Because We Really Need ]
[ To Adjust Our Marriage Tuner ]

[ Because We Are On Way Different Radio Stations ]
[ We Can’t Always Fix Things ]
[ By Taking Las Vegas Vacations ]

[ I Don’t Feel Like I’m Your Number One Priority Any More ]
[ Do You Have A Foot In ]
[ & Have The Other @ The Door? ]

[ You Say You Love To Hear My Stories, Except These ]
[ Can We Really Work On This, Please? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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[999][ What Kind Of Person … 11•30•2020 ]

[ Be A Tomorrow Person & Don’t Settle On What
You Are Doing Now ]
[ Celebrate Your Accomplishments Later ]
[ & Then Say (WOW!) ]
[ But Don’t Be A Hater ]
[ & Need To Know How ]

[ Accomplishments Are Great When You Can Reminisce
About The Years That Have Gone By ]
[ Talk About Them ]
[ Brag About Them ]
[ Just Don’t LIe ]

[ It Is Good To Share ]
[ With The Few People Who Care ]
[ But Never With A Person Who Does Not Believe That
You Were There ]

[ You Know You Were So You Should Never Have To
Prove You Were ]
[ Your Intentions Are Pure ]
[ & That Showed That You Were Sure ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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[035]▪︎[ No, They Do Not Dream … 1•11•2022 ]

[ They Say That Children In Foster Care Do Not Dream ]
[ But Children In Foster Care Have Nightmares That Makes
Them Scream ]

[ How Can They Have A Good Dream When Their Lives Are
Always In Disarray ]
[ They Never Have Stability ]
[ Not Ever For A Day ]

[ They Are Always Waiting For That Next Knock On The Door ]
[ A Lady That They Don’t Know Telling You Wouldn’t Be
Living There Anymore ]

[ They Give You A Trash Bag & Tell You To Put Your Life
In It ]
[ You Only Put In What Will Fit ]

[ You Never Have The Option Of Getting Another Bag ]
[ So You Sure Would Not Have Room For A Sentimental
Hawaiian Flag ]

[ It Still Hurts ]
[ When You Have Memories Of The (2) Hawaiian Flower Shirts ]

[ That You Were Not Allowed To Take With You ]
[ (1) Was Red & (1) Was Blue ]

[ Foster Kids Don’t Know What To Dream Of ]
[ They Have Never Had The Experience Of Having A Family Full
Of Love ]

[ They Have Never Been To Summer Camp ]
[ They Have Never Been Down A Boat Ramp ]

[ They Are Always In Their Fight Or Flight Mode ]
[ They Never Have A Stable Home ]

[ Some Say That Home Is Where You Hang Your Hat ]
[ Foster Care Children Can’t Even Afford That ]

[ How Do Children Dream Of Things Or Places That They Have
Never Seen ]
[ But They Can Have Nightmares Because They Have Dealt With
People That Have Been Mean ]

[ Their Personal Belongings Get Taken From Each House They
Were Placed In ]
[ Just Reinforcing Their Feelings That They Will Never Win ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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