[ 1040 ][ Before The Day Is Done … 12•10•2020 ]

[ Every Day, You Have The Choice Of Whether To
Laugh Or Cry @ Night ]
[ The Choice Makes All Of The Difference ]
[ When It Comes To Facing The Morning Light ]

[ One May Make You Tired & One Could Put Your
Mind @ Rest ]
[ Depending On The Circumstances ]
[ Sometimes It Would Be Hard To Figure Out Which
Emotion Would Be The Best ]

[ Sometimes Circumstances In Your Life Are Completely
Out Of Your Control ]
[ & There Are Incidents That Occur That Can
Hurt You ]
[ Like It Puts A Hole ]
[ In Your Soul ]

[ Those Are The Ones That You Do Not Want To
Remember ]
[ But Sometimes An Incident That Happens In Early
January ]
[ Can Still Be Fresh In Your Mind Through The 31st
Of The Next December ]

[ @ Times Your Heart May Forgive But Your Mind
Will Not Let ]
[ Your Memory To Ever Forget ]
[ Those Are The Times ]
[ When You Wonder What That Saying That Combines
The Two Ever Meant ]

[ When Your Soul Hurts ]
[ Your Mind Will Search ]

[ For Something To Help You Heal ]
[ Anything That Even Remotely Seems Real ]
[ Then, Something Good To Make You Feel ]

[ Whole Again ]
[ But You Can Never Control When ]
[ That Will Ever Begin ]

[ When You Feel Knocked Down ]
[ Don’t Have A Meltdown ]
[ While On The Ground ]

[ Up Is The Only Direction To Go ]
[ Even If You Have To Take It Slow ]
[ Just Know ]

[ That You Must Always Get Back Up ]
[ Don’t Breakup ]
[ Burnup ]
[ Or Give Up ]
[ No, Stand Up ]

[ After You Fall ]
[ Then Give It Your All ]
[ Before You Make The Call ]

[ To Call It A Day ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 1034 ][ What Is The New Normal? … 12•8•2020 ]

[ Can We Ever Get Back To The Life That
We All Used To Remember? ]
[ The ‘VID Quarantined Us In March ]
[ Now Look, It Is The 2nd Week Into December ]

[ Something, Anything Close To Being Back To Normal ]
[ Nothing Too Fancy ]
[ But Something Less Formal ]

[ We Have Been Relegated To Get-Togethers Through
Pre-Determined Zoom Calls ]
[ While Getting Seriously Bored ]
[ Staring @ The Same 4 Walls ]

[ Seeing The Same People Day After Day ]
[ We Do & Still Love Each Other ]
[ & We Still Hear What Each Other Wants To Say ]
[ But Oh Brother ]
[ Have We’ve Been Getting In Each Other’s Way ]

[ There Are No New People To Meet ]
[ There Are No New Places To Eat ]

[ It Is Always The Same Kind Of Food ]
[ & We Can’t Leave When Someone Gets In A Mood ]
[ That Ends Up Changing ]
[ Their Behavior & Attitude ]

[ Even When We Do Go Out In Public, We Have To Plan
To Keep The Destinations Quick From ( A ) To ( B ) ]
[ No More Spontaneous Trips To ( D ) Or ( C ) ]
[ It Sucks To Have To Put A Cork In The Spontaneity ]

[ Bottle ]
[ & Ease Off The Throttle ]

[ Then Shift Out Of Drive ]
[ Into Neutral ]
[ So We All Can Stay Alive ]

[ By Not Going Out & Getting The ‘Vid ]
[ So Someone Won’t To Tell The Neighbors ]
[ ( HEY, DID YOU HEAR WHAT SID ) ]
[ ( DID? ) ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 1030 ][ It Is A Belly Button Itch … 12•6•2020 ]

So Just Now I Woke Up Dark. What Made Me Sneeze Was The Smell Of The Alarm Clock Barking. That Woke Nicole Up Because She Stopped Running, Looked @ Her Ankle Wondering Why It Sounded Like Half A Banana Peel. So I Laid Sideways, Rolled Uphill When The Clock On The Floor Meyowed. I Threw Water On The Couch, Then I Opened Up The Refrigerator. I Was Sweating Numb When I Smelled The Cola-BunnyBeer. Than I Saw One Pair Of Van’s, Two Pairs Of Socks, One Bright Steak Undershirt ( SIZE SMALL ) Just Standing There On The Bottom Button Singing X-Rays. I Thought ( OH THAT IS WHERE THEY LANDED AFTER TAKING AN ÜBER HOME FROM SINGING @ THE CLOTHING LAB ) Sew I Shook Salt On My Right Foot. Grabbed A Frying Pan From The 3rd Drawer Down In The Toy Box That Was Submerged On The Roof. Not The 2nd Closet That Was In The Bathtub Boiling Eggs. I Like My Eggs Boiled Until The Ice Falls Off Into The Bedroom Faucet. But The Eggs Must Be Milked Until The Number ‘J’ Says It Is … So One More Word About Hair. Good Boy. My Meds Must Be Shined ‘6’ Two Swimming Pools To The Up. Up Is Kind Of … Yes. If New Knew, It Wasn’t New, Would The Un-New Who Knew, Would That Be Old News, To The Sevens That Knew? Would Yellow Actually Be The Only One That No’s? If Somebody Raised Their Grapes Are They Trying To Grow Hair? Just A Couple Of Things That Make Your Belly Button Itch.

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 1023 ][ Set Adrift … 12•6•2021 ]

[ Lost, Floating On The Sea Of Loneliness ]
[ Could I Ever Feel Less ]
[ Of This Emptiness ]

[ How Did I Get Here? ]
[ My Path Back To Fullfillness Has Never Been
All That Clear ]

[ When I Came To A Fork In The Road I Thought
I Turned In The Right Direction ]
[ Using Hindsight ]
[ I Would Make A Correction ]

[ I Thought Going Left Was Good ]
[ Maybe My Brain Misunderstood ]

[ The Bright, Yellow Yield Signs ]
[ Plus, When I Looked @ The Left Side ]
[ There Were No Lines ]

[ Maybe It Was That Way For A Reason ]
[ When I Looked To The Right ]
[ I Did Not Think That I Could Squeeze In ]

[ But Now I Float ]
[ On The Sea ]
[ Without A Single Paddle In My Boat ]

[ I Am @ The Mercy Of The Wind & The Current ]
[ This Problem Seems To Be Recurrent ]

[ Same Problem, But From A Different Issue ]
[ My Inner Strength Is As Strong As A Soft Kleenex
Tissue ]

[ Flimsy & Easy To Rip To Shreads ]
[ Confusing, Like The Brain On Too Many Meds ]

[ Will I Be Forever Damned? ]
[ & Never Get Back To Dry Land? ]
[ Do I Lean Down ]
[ & Paddle With My Hand? ]

[ After Awhile ]
[ I Found That It Was Futile ]

[ Do I Hear The Sound Of A Storm Coming In? ]
[ When I Sense The Rain Begin ]
[ I Tell Myself ( I JUST CAN’t WIN! ) ]

[ Maybe This Will Be The Way My Life Will Go ]
[ Maybe Not ]
[ Probably So ]
[ Is All Of This Effort For Naught? ]
[ I Really Don’t Know ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 1021 ][ They Are All Wrong … 12•4•2020 ]

[ Are You Looking For Friends In All The Wrong
Places ]
[ While Looking For Love In All The Wrong Faces ]

[ Not Being Very Wise ]
[ & Over Looking The Blank Look In Their Eyes ]
[ Then Listening ]
[ & Believing Their Lies ]

[ Lies, Lies, Lies Is All They Tell ]
[ They Have Been Doing This For So Long ]
[ They Do It Really Well ]
[ Because It Is So Wrong ]
[ The Lies That You Hear Have Their Own Distinctive
Smell ]

[ Soon Seeing, That After You First Met ]
[ They Had Their Hand In Your Back Pocket ]
[ Dead Set ]
[ On Trying To Grab Your Wallet ]

[ Leaving You Looking High & Low ]
[ For Some Kind Of Show ]

[ Of Reciprocation On Their Part ]
[ Of Wanting To Share Their Heart ]

[ The Cold Look In Their Eyes Speaks Volumes
Without Making A Sound ]
[ Whenever You Attempt To Make Eye Contact ]
[ They Are Looking @ The Ground ]
[ & You Will Find It Is A Fact ]
[ When They Don’t Come Around ]

[ Being The Type Of Girl Or Guy ]
[ Trying To Get By ]
[ In Life ]
[ By Never Looking @ You Eye To Eye ]

[ So In The End ]
[ It Should not Take A Blow To Your Head ]
[ To Figure Out Or See ]
[ That Deep Down Inside Of Them, Their Soul Is Dead ]

[ It Is Like They Want To Say ]
[ That They Do Not Have Love For You In Their Heart ]
[ In The Most Basic Way ]

[ & That Is Their Way Of Saying ]
[ That They Do Not Want To Be Staying ]
[ Unless You Are Monetarily Paying ]
[ & You Will Quickly Realize ]
[ That Kind Of Game Is Not Worth Playing ]

[ Will You Ever Notice That They Constantly Come
To You Looking For A Handout? ]
[ & When You Leave Them Empty Handed ]
[ They Will Stand There & Pout? ]

[ If You Continue To Hear Them Lie ]
[ That Should Be Your Cue ]
[ To Say Your Goodbye ]
[ Because, They Will Continue To Try To Use You ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 176 ][ Devoid of Emotion … 2•26•2021 ]

[ I Will Take My Mask Off When I Get Home ]
[ Only If I Am There All Alone ]

[ I Feel Like A Spaceman On The Moon ]
[ But My Solitude Will Be Broken Soon ]

[ When The Kid Gets Home From School ]
[ & The Wife Gets Back From Swimming @ The Neighborhood
     Pool ]

[ But Then While I Was Waiting ]
[ I Realized That I Was Hallucinating ]

[ My Small Family Got Taken From Me Over 3 Years Ago ]
[ When Our House Got Broken Into By 2 Men
     That We Didn’t Know ]

[ They Ordered Us To Lay On The Floor ]
[ As They Went In & Out Our Front Door ]
[ After Everything Got Quiet ]
[ I Looked Around & Could Not See Them In The House
     Anymore ]

[ After Looking All Around ]
[ My Family Was No Where To Be Found ]

[ I Looked All Over The World ]
[ For My Wife & My Girl ]

[ The Police Found No Leads ]
[ Even Though They Seemed They Were Working @ A Fast Speed ]

[ I Never Imagined How Bad The Agony ]
[ Would Be ]

[ Everyday I Was Having Flashbacks Of That Day ]
[ Wishing Things Had Turned Out A Different Way ]

[ But It Didn’t, So Here I Stand ]
[ Only A Shell Of The Man ]

[ That Stood Here 3 Years Before ]

[ Just Waiting For The Phone To Ring ]
[ For Anybody ]
[ To Tell Me Anything ]

[ But That Phone Call Never Comes ]
[ So Here I Live ]
[ Feeling Totally Numb ]
[ With Nothing More To Give ]
[ Feeling Like An Emotional Bum ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 187 ][ Problems … 3•3•2021 ]

[ Sometimes When I Get Nervous, I Stutter ]
[ So When I Talk To Myself Alot ]
[ People Will Think That All I Do Is Mutter ]

[ That Puts Me In A World Where ]
[ There ]
[ Is Only One Chair ]

[ My Room That I Am Stuck In Is The Size Of A Closet ]
[ I Have To Go Outside ]
[ To Let My Mind Reset ]

[ & Shake The Cobwebs ]
[ Out Of My Head ]

[ One Thought, Then Two, Then A Whole Bunch ]
[ Alot ]
[ Of Those Thoughts ]
[ Have Been Ping Ponging Around In My Head Since Lunch ]

[ Granted, That It Was Kind Of Late ]
[ In The Day, When I Ate ]

[ I Have Worked On My Stutter For A Very, Very Long Time ]
[ That Is When It Helped Me To Recite Nursery Rhymes ]
[ Then I Started To Write Some Of My Own ]
[ Since I’ve Never Been Published, I Have Never Made A Dime ]

[ But That Is Okay ]
[ I’d Say ]
[ I Never, Ever Thought I Would Pay ]
[ My Bills This Way ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 188 ][ People Are Way Too Sensitive … 3•3•2021 ]

[ The Sensitivity Is Getting Way Out Of Hand ]
[ If One Person Gets So Over-Sensitive ]
[ Then They Make Their Demands ]

[ Burn The Books ]
[ & Cancel The Cartoon Shows ]
[ Did That Story Make Fun Of My Looks? ]
[ & Make Fun Of My Nose? ]

[ These Are All Cartoons, All Of You Sensitive Folks ]
[ These Cartoons Are Filled With Nothing But Jokes ]

[ They Are Not Excluding Anyone’s Race ]
[ They Are Not Poking Fun Of The Color Of Someone’s
     Face ]

[ Didn’t You Know ]
[ That These Books Were Written Many Decades Ago ]

[ If You Have A Beef Or A Problem ]
[ Don’t Spend Your Money ]
[ So Don’t Even Buy Them ]

[ The Minority Races Want To Be Included On Everything ]
[ But No Other Races Are Included In Their Things ]
[ Would You Want White People To Scream ( THAT STINGS! ) ]

[ Would It Make The Minorities Think? ]
[ If White People Say That The Double Standards Really Stink? ]

[ Why Must The Majority ]
[ Always Change Because Of A Very Very Small Noisey
     Minority ]

[ It Has Never Made Sense ]
[ That Minorities Feel That They Must Be Included In
     Whatever Goes On In My Side Of The Fence ]

[ I Don’t Want Them In My Business & I Don’t Want To
    Be In Theirs ]
[ Whatever They Want To Do With Their Time ]
[ Makes Me Not Care ]

[ Are People Getting So Primitive ]
[ When They Are Being So Sensitive? ]

[ So Stay Home ]
[ & Get Drunk Or Stoned ]
[ But Whatever You Do ]
[ Leave The Classical Children’s Books Alone ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 185 ][ Who Stays?… 3•2•2021 ]

[ A ][° 185 °][ WHO STAYS? … 3•2•2021 ]

[ You Should Always Be Who You Are & What You Feel ]
[ Then You Will Figure Out Who Is Real ]

[ A Real Friend Would Not ]
[ Put You On The Spot ]
[ & Would Not Only Stick Around Based On What You’ve
     Got ]

[ They Will Never Hang Around You ]
[ Because Of Your Financial Value ]

[ Fake People Will Always Have Money On Their Mind ]
[ & When Those Types Of People Are Left Alone ]
[ In Your Home ]
[ They Might Pocket Anything That They Find ]

[ It Is Best That You Always Keep What You Have Earned
    & Owned ]
[ Never Exchange Money Between Friends As A Loan ]

[ If You Feel That You Have Some Money To Burn ]
[ Remember The Past About The Lessons You Learned ]

[ If A Friend Is In Need & Needs A Financial Lift ]
[ Never Make It A Loan, Give It As A Gift ]

[ A Real Friend Would Never Take On The Task ]
[ To Ask ]

[ Especially Face To Face ]
[ They Should Know That Is Not Their Place ]

[ But It Is Extremely Hard To Be So Honest With
     Oneself ]
[ Especially If You Are Constantly Being Criticized By
     Everybody Else ]

[ Stand Tall ]
[ & Then See Where The Chips Fall ]

[ When You Stand Your Ground ]
[ See If You Really Have The Kinds Of Friends That Do Stick
     Around ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
     ‎    ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

[ 191 ][ Some Girls … 3•4•2021 ]

[ Sometimes There Are Some Girls That Grow Up With
A Hole In Their Heart ]
[ Their Life Is Behind The Eight Ball ]
[ Right From The Very Start ]

[ She Grows Up Being Sad ]
[ Because She Was Not Able To Know Her Mom Or Dad ]

[ But Most Of The Time You Hear ]
[ That This Strong Girl Does In Fact Persevere ]

[ She Does In Life, Play & In Work ]
[ They Spend Everyday ]
[ Trying Their Best To Stay Away From All Of The Jerks ]

[ Most Of The Time She Can Succeed ]
[ & Run Away From Them @ A High Speed ]

[ But Sometimes She Shows A Vulnerable Side ]
[ Where Her Heart Is Open Wide ]
[ But Then Does She Regret That Decision ]
[ Then Run & Hide? ]

[ She Rarely Regrets Anything That She Does ]
[ She Rarely Does Things Just Because ]

[ All Of Actions Are Well Thought Out ]
[ So She Doesn’t Worry About ]
[ Doubt ]

[ She Shoots Straight From The Hip ]
[ & Her Shoulders Don’t Have Chips ]

[ No One Ever Has To Remind ]
[ Her ]
[ That When She Speaks Her Mind ]
[ She Is Always Sure ]

[ No, She Stands Up & Dusts Herself Off ]
[ She Does Not Let The Faults ]
[ Of Others, To Make Her Lost ]

[ She Stands On Her Own Two Feet ]
[ Because She Marches To Her Own Beat ]

[ She Does Not Take Crap From No One ]
[ She Doesn’t Balk & Run ]

[ She Is Her Own Person ]
[ Who Has Learned Many Lessons ]

[ For Such A Young Age ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
‎ ‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]