(051)▪︎[ Well? … 1•14•2021 ]

[ Are Your Memories Full Of Mistakes That Were Made? ]
[ Or Lessons Learned? ]
[ Would You Always Trade ]
[ Back In ]
[ The Mistakes That Caused You Concern? ]

[ Are The Lessons Learned Always Because Of The
     Mistakes You Make? ]
[ Can You Magically Make A Pie? ]
[ After You Tried To Make A Cake? ]

[ The Knowledge That Mistakes Bring ]
[ Are Not Tied Together By Strings ]

[ You Try Your Hardest To Not Make The Same Mistakes
     Twice ]
[ Not Burning Your Hand On A Hot Stove Again ]
[ Would Be Really Nice ]

[ Sometimes My Mistakes Makes Their Way Into My Dreams ]
[ I Have No Control Of That It Seems ]

[ Everyday I Wind Around Lifes Potholes ]
[ Many Times In My Life ]
[ I Have Questioned My Roles ]

[ Of What I’m Supposed To Be ]
[ In Today’s Fractious Society ]

[ Do I Wear Many Hats, Or Just Concentrate On Just A Few? ]
[ I Don’t Have The Heart Or Energy ]
[ To Take On Anything New ]
[ I Never Want To Shift The Spotlight On Me ]
[ So Others Can Taunt ( OH BOO HOO ) ]

[ I Don’t Believe In Pity Parties So You Could Sit In The
     Corner & Pout ]
[ I Thoroughly Believe In Working Things Out ]
[ Then I Can Fall Asleep With No Nagging Doubts ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(052)▪︎[ Money Does Not Always Work … 1•15•2021 ]

[ Does Money Actually Buy Happiness? ]
[ Does It Matter To Others ]
[ If You Have More Or Less? ]

[ Then The People Next Door ]
[ Sometimes Prople Think That Less Is More ]

[ Less Migraines Shooting Through Your Head ]
[ So You Have More Happiness In Your Life
     Instead ]

[ Sometimes When You Have Less Money ]
[ You Have Much Better Friends ]
[ Maybe You Won’t Have Any ]
[ When The Deposits Ends ]

[ If Money Does Not Buy Happiness, Can It Make
     You Numb ]
[ If You Don’t Have Any ]
[ Can It Get You Some? ]

[ Some Of This & Some Of That ]
[ You Could Have A Friend Named Chris ]
[ & Lose A Friend Named Matt ]

[ Actually Sometimes You Are Much Happier When
     You Are Broke ]
[ & Have No Hope ]

[ & When You Are Living In Your Expensive Car ]
[ That Is You Find Out Who Your True Friends Are ]

[ & They Show Some Feeling ]
[ & Empathy ]
[ Then They Feed You A Good Meal ]
[ After They Post Bail Because You Were Arrested For
     Stealing ]

[ But Then They Drop A Big ( OUCH! ) ]
[ When They Kick You Back To Your Car ]
[ Because They Refuse To Let You Crash On Their Couch ]

[ Back To The Parking Lot You Go ]
[ So ]
[ There’s Another Person That You Will Refuse To
     Say You Know ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(054)▪︎[ Raging Storm … 1•15•2021 ]

[ Inside Every One Of Us Is A Storm Waiting To Rage ]
[ Are You The Rain, The Thunder, The Lightning ]
[ Or The Next Ice Age? ]

[ When There Are Storms @ The Beach ]
[ The Waves Crash So Hard & So Loud ]
[ You Cannot Hear Anyone Speak ]

[ Some People Have A Fascination With Storms ]
[ That Is Just Slightly Out Of Other Peoples Norms ]

[ Is It The Driving, Blinding Rain ]
[ That Floods The Outside Drains ]
[ That Drive Those People Insane? ]

[ Is The Flash Of The Lightning Or The Thunderous Boom ]
[ That Makes People Hide ]
[ Or Run Into The Inside Rooms? ]

[ The Weather Guy ]
[ Tells No Lies ]
[ When He Predicts That The Lightning @ Night ]
[ Will Light Up The Sky’s ]

[ Others Like The Calm & The Warmth That The Sun Brings ]
[ That Seems To Be When All Of The Birds Sing ]
[ It Also Has You Wonder ]
[ What Opportunities A New Day Will Bring ]

[ The Opportunities Would Be Endless ]
[ & If You Tried ]
[ It Would Knock You Senseless ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(1040)▪︎[ Before The Day Is Done … 12•10•2020 ]

[ Every Day, You Have The Choice Of Whether To
   Laugh Or Cry @ Night ]
[ The Choice Makes All Of The Difference ]
[ When It Comes To Facing The Morning Light ]

[ One May Make You Tired & One Could Put Your
   Mind @ Rest ]
[ Depending On The Circumstances ]
[ Sometimes It Would Be Hard To Figure Out Which
   Emotion Would Be The Best ]

[ Sometimes Circumstances In Your Life Are Completely
   Out Of Your Control ]
[ & There Are Incidents That Occur That Can
   Hurt You ]
[ Like It Puts A Hole ]
[ In Your Soul ]

[ Those Are The Ones That You Do Not Want To
   Remember ]
[ But Sometimes An Incident That Happens In Early
   January ]
[ Can Still Be Fresh In Your Mind Through The 31st
Of The Next December ]

[ @ Times Your Heart May Forgive But Your Mind
   Will Not Let ]
[ Your Memory To Ever Forget ]
[ Those Are The Times ]
[ When You Wonder What That Saying That Combines
   The Two Ever Meant ]

[ When Your Soul Hurts ]
[ Your Mind Will Search ]

[ For Something To Help You Heal ]
[ Anything That Even Remotely Seems Real ]
[ Then, Something Good To Make You Feel ]

[ Whole Again ]
[ But You Can Never Control When ]
[ That Will Ever Begin ]

[ When You Feel Knocked Down ]
[ Don’t Have A Meltdown ]
[ While On The Ground ]

[ Up Is The Only Direction To Go ]
[ Even If You Have To Take It Slow ]
[ Just Know ]

[ That You Must Always Get Back Up ]
[ Don’t Breakup ]
[ Burnup ]
[ Or Give Up ]
[ No, Stand Up ]

[ After You Fall ]
[ Then Give It Your All ]
[ Before You Make The Call ]

[ To Call It A Day ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(1023)▪︎[ Set Adrift … 12•6•2020 ]

[ Lost, Floating On The Sea Of Loneliness ]
[ Could I Ever Feel Less ]
[ Of This Emptiness ]

[ How Did I Get Here? ]
[ My Path Back To Fullfillness Has Never Been
   All That Clear ]

[ When I Came To A Fork In The Road I Thought
   I Turned In The Right Direction ]
[ Using Hindsight ]
[ I Would Make A Correction ]

[ I Thought Going Left Was Good ]
[ Maybe My Brain Misunderstood ]

[ The Bright, Yellow Yield Signs ]
[ Plus, When I Looked @ The Left Side ]
[ There Were No Lines ]

[ Maybe It Was That Way For A Reason ]
[ When I Looked To The Right ]
[ I Did Not Think That I Could Squeeze In ]

[ But Now I Float ]
[ On The Sea ]
[ Without A Single Paddle In My Boat ]

[ I Am @ The Mercy Of The Wind & The Current ]
[ This Problem Seems To Be Recurrent ]

[ Same Problem, But From A Different Issue ]
[ My Inner Strength Is As Strong As A Soft Kleenex
   Tissue ]

[ Flimsy & Easy To Rip To Shreads ]
[ Confusing, Like The Brain On Too Many Meds ]

[ Will I Be Forever Damned? ]
[ & Never Get Back To Dry Land? ]
[ Do I Lean Down ]
[ & Paddle With My Hand? ]

[ After Awhile ]
[ I Found That It Was Futile ]

[ Do I Hear The Sound Of A Storm Coming In? ]
[ When I Sense The Rain Begin ]
[ I Tell Myself ( I JUST CAN’t WIN! ) ]

[ Maybe This Will Be The Way My Life Will Go ]
[ Maybe Not ]
[ Probably So ]
[ Is All Of This Effort For Naught? ]
[ I Really Don’t Know ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(35)▪︎[ Look What Happened … 9•25•2020 ]

[ Have We As A Society Progressed? ]
[ Or Has This Virus Made Us Regress? ]

[ It Has Forced Us To Go Against Our Natural Strength ]
[ Which Is To Touch ]
[ Because We Must Stay Back From Each Other By
   @ Least An Arm’s Length ]

[ How Does This Affect The Relationship Between A
   Child & Their Elderly Grandmother? ]
[ When They Cannot Be In The Same Room With Each
   Other? ]

[ If We Come Upon A Stranger Within Our 6 Feet Space ]
[ Can You Tell If They Have A Smile Or Frown On Their Face? ]

[ We Try To Get Away As Fast As We Can ]
[ Because In Our Head We Want Our 6 Feet Of Space Back ]
[ No Matter If That Was A Woman Or Man ]

[ Have We Become A THAT Society? ]
[ Instead Of A Male Or Female Body? ]

[ How Did We Used To Make A Friend Out Of Stranger If
   We Were Out Walking? ]
[ Didn’t We Smile, Then Stop & Start Talking? ]

[ That Is Not How We Are Told To Now Do ]
[ We Are Told To Keep Walking ]
[ & Never Talk Or Meet Someone New ]

[ They Might Give Us The ‘VID ]
[ & When We Bring It Home To Our Family ]
[ We Would Stand There & Say ( OH, LOOK WHAT I DID! ) ]

[ We Bet We Won’t Do That Again Is What We’ll Think ]
[ We Could Have Ignored That Stranger With A Blink ]

[ Are We Going To Be Forced To Go Back To Quaratining If
   The Virus Numbers Keep Rising? ]
[ The Numbers Of New Cases Are Surprising ]

[ But Really, Should It Have Been A Surprise? ]
[ The Experts PREDICTED The Rise ]

[ Now The Two Biggest Family Holidays Are Almost Here ]
[ This Is That Time Of The Year ]
[ & The Precautions Are Totally Unclear ]
[ How Do People Tell Their Relatives That They Are
   People That They Can’t Be Near? ]

[ Without Having Feelings Hurt On Both Sides? ]
[ Or Without Making Up Lies? ]

[ Maybe A Little White Lie Would Be Best Overall ]
[ We Can Say We Can’t Come In An Email, Text Or
   The Old Fashioned Phone Call ]

[ The Virus Is Not The Bad Thing That We Want To Give
   Or Receive ]
[ Keeping People Healthy Is What We are Trying To Achieve ]

[ & Seek ]
[ To Keep ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(824)▪︎[ Greatness … 9•26•2020 ]

[ If You Are All Alone & Want To See Greatness, Then
Look In The Mirror ]
[ When There Is Nothing But Silence In The Room ]
[ What Do You Hear? ]

[ Is Your Only Choice? ]
[ Your Own Voice? ]

[ It Is The Only One That You Can Recognize ]
[ There Is No One Around To Demonize ]
[ Or Criticize ]

[ Why Are You Your Own Worse Enemy? ]
[ What Do Your Eyes See? ]
[ Have You Succeeded To Be All You Can Be? ]

[ What Was That, Can You Tell? ]
[ Did You Pick Yourself Up When You Fell? ]
[ If You Did ]
[ Then Why Do You Continue To Put Yourself Through Hell ]

[ Time After Time, Day In & Day Out ]
[ You Aced All Of Your Personal Tests ]
[ But You Still Feel That You Have No Clout ]
[ After Feeling That You Failed After Giving Your Best ]
[ You Hide In The Corner To Pout ]

[ What Happened ]
[ To Your Dream? ]
[ Was Your Fire Dampened ]
[ So You Were Just Left Surrounded By Steam ]

[ Look Deep Inside ]
[ Don’t Believe The One’s Who Lied ]
[ Honor Some Of The People Who Have Died ]

[ You Say Some ]
[ Because Some Of Your Family Member’s Words ]
[ Has Left You Feeling Numb ]

[ But That Was Then, This Is Now ]
[ Learn To Climb The Mountain ]
[ Instead Of Ending That Sentence With ( WHY OR HOW? ) ]

[ You May Ask ( WHEN? ) ]
[ Because You Never Saw It Then ]

[ You May Start ]
[ If You Have It In Your Heart ]
[ To Play The Main Part ]

[ In Your Own Life ]
[ Be Your Own Guiding Light ]
[ Learn To Fight ]
[ The Strife ]

[ & Never Stop ]
[ Until You Come Out Of The Whole Ordeal ]
[ On Top ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(04)▪︎[ The Support Was A Myth … 1•2•2021 ]

[ I Have Always Wondered What It Would Feel
     Like Having A Supportive Mom ]
[ That Would Be As Likely ]
[ As Me Changing My First Name To Tom ]
[ Or Having The Desire To Putting On A Short Skirt ]
[ So I Could Shake My Brand New Set Of Pom Poms ]

[ It Has Been So Long Since Things Were Like That
     It Is Now Just A Fuzzy Picture In My Mind ]
[ So I Don’t Have Many Memories Of The Positive Kind ]

[ I Never, Ever, Ever Had The Support From A Caring Dad ]
[ He Did Not Even Like Me ]
[ I Should Add ]

[ He Never Showed A Single Sense Of Acceptance ]
[ He Only Showed Indifference ]

[ All He Did Was Avoid ]
[ Everything That I Did ]
[ He Seemed Like He Was Annoyed ]

[ He Did Not Coach, Assist Or Teach ]
[ His Choices For Our Vacations ]
[ Was To Always Go To The Beach ]

[ I Sure Played Solitaire Card Games Alot ]
[ All Through My Childhood ]
[ Don Showed The Emotions Of A Malfunctioned Robot ]

[ When We Went On Vacations I Never Took A Friend With Us ]
[ Nobody Would Have Noticed ]
[ If I Went Back Home By Catching A Bus ]

[ But Barbara Was Not Much Better Than Don ]
[ She Or He Would Take Me To Sporting Events ]
[ One Minute They Were There & Then They Were Gone ]

[ After Awhile I Stopped Looking Around ]
[ Because After Looking For Them ]
[ They Were Nowhere To Be Found ]

[ So I Channel My Hurt & Pain From My Childhood ]
[ Into My Poetic Stories ]
[ Where My Words Are Understood ]

[ So The Support & Care ]
[ Was Never, Ever There ]

[ I Would Never Know What It Would Feel Like To Have That
     Support Cemented In My Head ]
[ But Now Things Are Perfect For Me ]
[ Because I Am So Happy That Both Barbara & Don Are Dead! ]
[ & As Far As I Can See ]
[ They Are Both Dead, Dead & Really Dead ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ]   ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(066)▪︎[ The Blade Drops … 1•18•2021 ]

[ Why Do I Put My Neck Out On The Ledge? ]
[ Why Does My Patience Go Out Past The Edge? ]

[ Nobody Else Puts Their Neck Out Past The Line ]
[ Whenever I Look Around ]
[ The Only Neck Out Their Is Mine ]

[ Ready For The Guillotine To Drop ]
[ Even Though I Am Laying There, Yelling For It To Stop ]

[ But Does That Do Any Good? ]
[ Are The Words ]
[ Heard ]
[ By The Man Standing Above Me Wearing That Black Hood? ]

[ It Does Not Seem ]
[ To ]
[ As I Scream ]
[ @ You ]

[ But You Are Not Giving Me Any Attention ]
[ You Are Not Trying To Make A Change In The Direction ]
[ You Think That All That I Was Doing ]
[ Was Trying To Lead An Insurrection ]

[ But You Know That Was Not True Deep Down In Your Heart ]
[ & Your Silence ]
[ Is Tearing My Insides Apart ]

[ But I Won’t Make A Peep ]
[ As I Fall Into A Deep ]
[ Sleep ]

[ It Does Not Seem ]
[ Like I Will Have The Ability To Dream ]

[ Though ]
[ That Is One Thing That Will Be Easy To Know ]
[ & The Signs Will Show ]

[ That I Am Right ]
[ & The Light ]
[ Will Show The Difference Between Black & White ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

(067)▪︎[ Okay, What’s Next? … 1•18•2021 ]

[ Right Now I Feel Like A Rudderless Ship ]
[ On The Turbulent Sea ]
[ Being Just A Blip ]
[ On The Radar That Nobody See’s ]

[ Nobody Makes Time For Me In Their Life ]
[ & That Leaves Scars ]
[ Because The Loneliness Cuts Me Like A Knife ]

[ Is The Sun Coming Up On The Horizon ]
[ Or Is It Going Down? ]
[ It Just Seems Like Another Day Is Done ]
[ Without Me Being Able To Set Foot On Solid Ground ]

[ I Just Don’t Know Which Way To Go ]
[ Do I Head East Or West? ]
[ I Don’t Know ]
[ Which Direction Would Be The Best ]

[ When There Is No Prospect Of Seeing Land ]
[ I Feel Like A Beaten Man ]

[ When There Is No Hope In The Future ]
[ That Pulls @ The Sutures ]

[ That Were Put There To Hold Together The Past Wounds ]
[ Wounds Inflicted By Those That I Was Fooled Into Believing In ]
[ Who Have Now Scattered Like Scared Raccoons ]

[ People Who Sailed With Me When Things Were Calm & Nice ]
[ When The Waters Started To Get Choppy ]
[ They Were Gone ]
[ Without Thinking Twice ]

[ Why? ]
[ Are Really Good Friends Hard To Come By? ]
[ When I Take Them @ Their Word ]
[ They Shake My Hand & Lie ]

[ This Is Not How I Mapped Out My Life To Be ]
[ Was There A Key ]
[ That I Didn’t See? ]

[ Was There Some Kind Of Clue ]
[ That Wasn’t Seen By Me ]
[ But Seen By Those Other Two? ]

[ Did I Keep Going Down The Road When I Should
Have Stopped? ]
[ Was I Dropped? ]

[ From The Priorities Of Those That Used To Text? ]
[ Okay, If That’s How It Is ]
[ Then I Wonder ( WHAT’S NEXT? ) ]

~ The End ~

[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Aloha ] ‎
‎
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]