(659)▪︎[ So Many Thoughts … 7•31•2020 ]

[ These Thoughts Have Been Gnawing @ My Brain For So Many
Years ]
[ It Caused Me So Many Tears ]
[ It Put A Big Spot Light On My Biggest Fears ]

[ You See, I See Many People Speaking About Mental Issues ]
[ When I Have Flashbacks About An Incident That Was 18 Years Ago ]
[ It Causes Me To Reach For The Tissues ]

[ PTSD Is The Issue That I’m Talking About ]
[ Yes, It Is Real ]
[ Is What I Shout ]

[ & It Does Not Just Happen To Military Personnel ]
[ It Could Happen To Anyone ]
[ Who Has Survived An Incident That Put Them Through Hell ]

[ I Was The Only Staff Locked In A Correctional Unit When
The Juvenile Inmates Decided To Riot ]
[ For Over 3 Hours I Prayed For Quiet ]

[ Hitting Another Person’s Head With A Fire Extinguisher Makes
A Horrible, Memorable Sound ]
[ He Kept Getting Hit Even When He Was On The Ground ]

[ I Never Knew That A Fire Extinguisher Could Break A Toilet
Or Sink ]
[ It Is Alot Easier Than You’d Think ]
[ Oh There Has Been So Many Times Since This Happened ]
[ Where I Wanted To Drink ]

[ But There Were Two People Who Stood By Me So I Wouldn’t Go
There ]
[ My Wife Nicole & My Friend Nick P. ]
[ Were The Only Ones That Showed That They Cared ]

[ Every Other (FRIEND) From My Work ]
[ Turned Their Back ]
[ & Became Worse Than A Jerk ]

[ Nobody Else Came Over Or Called ]
[ After I Got Fired Because Of A Bunch Of Lies ]
[ They All Acted Appalled ]

[ Nobody Else Wanted To Hear My Side ]
[ So After The Agency Lied ]
[ & Stole My Pride ]
[ My Respect For All Those People Died ]

[ Nicole & Nick Were The Only Ones That Did Not Stab Me In
My Back ]
[ Whenever I Was With Them ]
[ I Was Never Worried About An Attack ]

[ I Owe Each Of Them A Debt Of Gratitude ]
[ For Not Having A Caustic Attitude ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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