[283]▪︎[ It Is Not Always A Bad Word … 4•18•2021 ]

[ A ][ 283 ][ IT IS NOT A BAD WORD … 4•18•2022 ]

[ To Some, The Word ]
[ Suicide ]
[ Is The Ugliest One That They Have Ever Heard ]

[ It Is Not The Easiest Way Out ]
[ It Is A Shout ]

[ For Help ]
[ Maybe It Is Because Of Their Health ]

[ I Watched My Dad Take His Own Life ]
[ Right When I Thought That I Was Starting Mine With Him ]
[ After He Came Back Over To Hawaii To Save Me From His Abusive
Wife ]

[ He Was Drunk & Arguing With His Girlfriend After Going To
Their Favorite Bar ]
[ It Was So Close ]
[ They Had No Reason To Use A Car ]

[ But From What The Police Found ]
[ There Were (2) Indentions On The Used Round ]

[ I Cannot Say That I Know What Was On My Dad’s Mind ]
[ @ The Time ]

[ His Actions Showed That He Had Been Thinking About
Murder/Suicide ]
[ Since The Round Did Not Fire The First Time, He Was The Only
Person That Died ]

[ Why Did He Want To Commit Murder? ]
[ Why Did He Want To Hurt Her? ]

[ He Never Left A Suicide Note ]
[ I Never Saw What He Wrote ]

[ If There Was Ever Anything To Read ]
[ A Note Explaining Himself To Leave ]

[ It Was A Downright Crime ]
[ That I Never Had Any Time ]

[ For Him To Be My Father ]
[ Maybe He Could Have Told Me About The Reasons For Being
Split From My Brother ]

[ I Wanted My Father To Teach Me For Many Years ]
[ I Am Sure I Shed Alot Of Tears ]

[ I Try To Remember Him (26) Years Later ]
[ It Would Be So Easy To Grow Up As A Hater ]

[ But I Haven’t, Why Should I? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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